Which gorgeous goddess are you?

The Goddess of Roses and Love. You are a hopeless
romantic. Always optimistic and loving, you
have many friends and you are exceptionally
trustworthy. You are a innocent beauty.

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which ainime r u?

Ok you are a romantic anime girl and you love and
care for a lot of people.There is no evil in
you soul or your heart.Though sometimes people
don't feelt he same way as you do you keep on
trying to change their mind.You love to help
people out and you are always happy.Keep on
trying to make the whole world smile because
you know smiles are contagious ^_^.Oh and if it
seems like there is nobody who could love you
as much as you could love them it doesn't
matter the thing is that the only thing that
matters is that he cares and loves you and it
doesn't matter how much well maybe it does but
don't set you standerds(sp?) to high cuz then
you'll find nobody

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wad alcoholic drink r u?

Beer

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quiz - wad obsolete r u?

You are 'programming in QBASIC'. This programming
language (of which the acronym stands for
'Quick Beginners' All-purpose Symbolic
Instruction Code'), which is so primitive that
it cannot easily be used for any purpose
involving the Internet nor even sound, was
current more than a decade ago.
You are independent, in a good way. When something
which you need cannot be found, you make it
yourself. In writing and in talking with
people, you value clarity and precision; your
friends may not realize how important that is.
When necessary, you are prepared to be a
mediator in conflicts between your friends.
You are very rational, and you think of things
in terms of logic and common sense.
Unfortunately, your emotionally unstable
friends may be put off by your devotion to
logic; they may even accuse you of pedantry and
insensitivity. Your problem is that
programming in QBASIC has been obsolete for a
long time.

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i dun wanna work~!

O it sux.. sold a piece today... pathetic piece... i feel bad tt sales is so bad n i wan to quit... boss sounded disappointed... o well, it's gd in a way.. she can find someone who can do sales better than me.. i dun wanna stick my bum around, not reaching sales target n get paid.. feel bad... n it's way too boring.. my brain will be dead soon.. coz it's not used for so long...

gosh i just realised how tanned i have becomed after a day or 2 in SRC! i love my legs now.. they're no more fair!! yipee!! but my face... dear's gonna kill me... haha coz now i look like malay seah... haha anyway, he's gonna be charcoal black so i guess he cant realli argue.. hehe..

started reading Wild Blue today... man... the intro of the characters is freaking boring! succeeded in making me sleep... i almost scared off a customer when i sprung up upon hearing the noise created when she moved the hangers.. lol...

o tok to roger on the fone just now.. how sad.. someone stole the money he was suppose to safe keep.. lock wasn't broken n yet the money is stolen.. sad sad.. in army somemore! y r pple like tt? u wan money, go work ur ass n earn it! poor thing.. he has to fork out the money from his own savings...

o ya chris said he's worrying again.. tt i'll be stolen away.. haha.. made me feel important.. *shhh... wonder wad i can do to make him feel more secure... i sms him quite a lot today.. fone bills gonna go up this mth..

o lately feel tt i somehow need companionship quite a lot... been working in the shop alone for too long! ha actually onli a mth... but.. it sux.. i cant stand being alone.. tokign to roger these few days somehow cheered me up.. thanx brudder~!

yipee! I played softball today!!! hip hip hurray~!

Man.. i'm tired... slept at 2am this morning.. and yes as expected i woke up late and reached SRC at about 8am.. it's cool.. i love the feeling when i'm in SRC... so many softballers around...so many laughters and screamings... it makes my heart beat almost as fast as if I was playing. I was still pretty sleepy early in the morning..

Helped TKGS to warm up. My tossing is getting from bad to worse. guess they werent very happy with the batting too.. hm... their semis was not bad... they made gd hits, played relatively a gd game... i'm quite inspired to play again... they won happily with a score of 13-0. well, unfortunately, vj lost 4-3 to hcjc... ya our shi dui tou... anyway, it;s a ok match i guess.. meilin caucght a fly at cf. threw to can n can threw home.. wad a nice catch! wad a nice throw! nice OUT!!! hee... so exciting...

At 3.30pm, TK played finals against RGS. Surprisingly RGS has improved a lot. Tt's gd actually coz sg softball standard seems to be dropping lately... it was quite a hard fought match.. 2-1 and we WON~! hee.. but very scary seah... After that game, I made a very important decision. I'm going to quit my job and concentrate in helping coach with the gals.. The government has changed it to a 5 day working days system. It's very hard on coach jo coz she has to squeeze b div, c div n sec1s trainings all in 5 days. I wan TK to win. I just feel that it's my duty to help TK, to help caoch. After all, she has put in so much effort in imparting her softball skills to us. Apart from that, it's a chance for me to get in touch with softball tt i miss a lot and escape the boring working life in tt small boutique. Working there alone drives me nuts! Hee...

O! i threw with daphne today. wasnt quite confident in the beginning.. but WALA! I threw well. it looked fast to me. and daph said it's hard so YEAH~!!!! so encouraging... i wan to train hard eagerly and show myself wad i can realli do...

O yea... watched the last match.. A div boys finals.. ya as usual it's hcjc vs rjc. standard of the pitchers have dropped dramatically. not tt i can actually critisize but REALLY~! i was quite disappointed becoz it almost felt like a one sided game. RJ had wad? 5-6 pitcherS!! leaving HC to erm... 1 or 2? and i was told tt they arent very gd.... compared to kenneth.. sigh... well n may be becoz of tt, there were more hits so in a way it was pretty exciting to watch. For the first time, i hoped HC could win. Becoz RJ is just way too arrogant. When we won champs, we're not even close. Even some of the national team guys agreed... O I watched with Roger.. he's quite a nice guy.. so gentle and yet so tall.. standing at 1.8m.. i feel so short beside him.. o and his hands are so big! mine's like some baby's hands compared to his. the game got boring when HC actually let RJ score 7 runs in one inning. Disappointing. Luckily there's roger.. who kept chatting with me... If not, i might have fallen asleep there. i admit tt i was pretty tired by then...

getting headache now... gotta sleep early tonite.. chao~!

I've got so much to say.. but i dunno how to really describe my feelings and spilll all i wan to say out... hm.. o well...

yeah.. i fianlly change my blgoskin! got sick of the pink even tought it realli shows ME~! and this skin.. realli close to my herat... hope when chris comes back, i can show him.. i was searching for some new skins for the last few days... came about quite many nice ones.. saved some in my mail box so i can use them in future... i chose this becoz it's simple... n ya close to my heart... the kinda feeling when u miss someone is just undescribable... hee... chris called me this evening.. ya.. wad a surprise again.. becoz ealier on he told me tt his hp batt flat, wont be able to call me for a few days.. but thank god tt his mum gave him a $20 fone card when he went in.. so wa la~! he used public in the camp to call me.. yeah~!!! so nice of him... we talked for about 3 min 25 sec according to the fone in my shop... yup.. short but sweet.. enuff to make my day a happy one..

o ya... finally discussed with my mum about uni applications... gonna choose chem engin... but for nus, med gonna be 1st choice...she managed to convince me to give it a try.. den comes chem engin, chem, arts & social sci n lastly, BA~! haha weird 5th choice though... NTU i think onli can put 2... so it'll be chem engin den acc... has anyone completed their uni application? hm.. any comments before i apply?

next, thinking of job hopping again.. coz it's so damn boring~! anyone got lobang? i wan a 5 day job or man 5 1/2 days? pay 950 n above? let me noe if u do ya?

Looking at my blog skin again, i suddenly feel that the blog realli suits me. i like the feeling of being able to control my life. i like the feeling of knowing wad i wan in life, have goals, have goals to work towards, work realli hard n achieve them. now i believe i can. after my As especially. time flies. i remembered that i have to go thru quite a lot of trouble to get my butt into vjc. tan seemed to give me the impression tt he looks down on me becoz of my prelim grades. in my first few mths in vjc, i also felt the same way towards ms rajan. i was reported to be not interested n not attentive in class. i remebered getting very angry with her for tt becoz i knew i was innocent. well, my testimonial now shows who i realli am now. i'm happy and surprised wad a good testimonial she has written for me. thanks ya? then, i felt tt pple looked down on me. fortunately, instead of losing my confidence, i swore to myself that i will get my 3As by the end of the 2 years. even since then, i worked hard all the way. it's wasnt a smooth path. had trainings almost 5 to 6 days per week during game season. cant believe tt i could still handle my studies then when i look back. o yeah i did it. great. now i believe tt i can achieve nayhting as long as i work for it. hee..

o dear called me today.. hee.. so happy... he can call me every nite befoer he sleep now.. yeah~! i feel closer to him now den yesterday... it isnt so bad after all... a short 1 min of his voice would make my tears fall like the fountains.. simple words like "i miss ur voice so much" makes me tera, so touched. wad he said was true. if we can get over these 2 years, we'll probably end up as a married couple in future. i already get the hint tt it's not going to be easy. we'll see... i do hope tt tt will happen... *muackz

ok my blog is like in a mess.. i just type wadever i'm saying to myself... it's so disconnected.. haha... chao~! tml got to work!

%@ i love u chris @%

man... reached home at about 1.30am this morning. den chiong back in a taxi to chris house early in the morning. the last few hours before we sent him off to tekong were so precious.. now i realise how much i love him.. he means so much to me.. i cant stop thinkign about him... promised him not to cry when i send him off. so i kept it. but as soon as the bus left. i just burst into tears. have been crying on n off since morning... my eyes n nose are so swollen n red..wad's worse? i'm all alone in my big house. bro went out. parents in bintan. dunno who to call. crap.. can it get any worse?

Hip Hip Hurray~!

Wow havent blog for soooo long ever since i started working.. much has happened... firstly, i was transferred to the "NEW LINE" branch in Amara Hotel in Tanjong Pagar. I was pretty scared in the beginning. After all, I've only worked with them for like one month plus. Fortunately and unfortunately, there's little crowd... i can actually keep count of the no of customers coming in... hence, sales is bad and it's very difficult to reach the sales target which is already $10,000 less than OUB branch... i get a lot of freedom there... I can listen to wadever radio station i like or play any CD.. i can do wadever i like when there are no customers... hehe... it's kinda boring sometimes.. so gotta keep myself busy... i even started matching clothes and dispaly them on the maniqueen (however u spell it)..

O ya the highlight of this post! All my hardwork has paid off! I GOT MY 3As! My GP grade was a bonus! Not superb but a B4 is much better than a pass that I was hoping for. The period before getting my results was not so nerve-racking for me.. becoz the first thing i did when i reached school was to check for my name on the "3As list".. hehe... :P

My frens did pretty well too.. and I'm happy for them.. hope that they are satisfied with their results.. :) hm... that's about all... hope to see u guys soon~!

o ya.. i still cant decide wad to study.. any ideas? no business related courses please...

Happy birthday to mummy~!

Happy birthday to u.....
Happy birthday to u.....
Happy birthday to mummy.....
Happy birthday to mummy.....

ya from my topic, you would have known... it's mummy's bdae today.. went to east coast toh luck group seafood restaurant... wo.. food's gd.. fresh and of coz expensive food! lolz... 300+ bucks for 6 dishes!!! but it's realli gd food.. beijing duck, suckling pig, steam fish, scallop brocolli, crispy noodles, cereal prawn... wahaha.. have i made u drool? mum was too full to have a normal size cake... so i went to coffee bean to get her two slices of cake... one coffee.. the other's oreo chesse... yummy.. honestly, i think i enjoyed it more than she did.. oops keke :P sinful~!

chrissy poo is still out of town.. sianz... fone's so quiet these few days... sigh... sad sad... not tt i can go out though... dao asked me to go for movies.. sorry but i have to work... sigh... u noe wad? it's pretty ridiculous in the beginning... i had to work today.. third day of cny... on my floor, second floor... we're the onli kiasu boutique tt's open... the other 2 are vnc which sells shoes and blush.. the pretty bra shop... it's like haunted in the morning
but guess wad.. business was shockingly gd! granny expected 200+ onli.. but we make like 800+ sales today! woohoo... weird weird... y would pple be buying clothes now.. and best of all.. there's no sales going on at all~!

ok tt's for all now... chao!

Year of rooster

In general, the yin wood Rooster is symbol of more moderate changes and flexibiltiy . The metal cutting the root of the flower still represents hidden danger and disturbance to the foundation. But the flower is by nature moderate and easy to submit. So it will be a year of resolving conflicts and disharmony in international relationship by compromise. And this may lead to longer term peace as from 2006.

The animal sign, which are not so favorable, is the Rabbit, which is into a year of clash against the Rooster. Such clash usually bring about movements. So people born in the year of the Rabbit will anticipate more changes and moves this year, such as travelling, moving house, changing job... etc. It is necessary to carry a pendant of Dragon as protection to attract the Rooster away. For the Rabbit people, the clash against the rooster could also mean surgery, accidents involving breaking of neck or back. It is also recommended to avoid dangerous exercise and pay attention to sitting posture or position. It is not good to travel so much directly to the west especially in the month of September and March , as west is the position of the Grand Duke of the Rooster year.

The other animal sign under negative influences is the Rooster , which is offending the year and is in self penalty with the year. Penalty is related to hidden danger, hidden sickness and self penalty may relate to disharmony with colleagues, bad competition, or trouble bought about by oneself due to carelessness. So people born in year or day of Rabbit or Rooster should also be careful of their health this year. If clash occurs at the day pillar, it may also affect harmony in the family, it is recommended to minimise chance of such disharmony but taking more trips, or taking the chance to move house if necessary.

The better animals signs in the year of the Rooster are the Dragon, and the Snake and Ox, as they are in combine relationship with the Rooster, so will be into a more harmonious year. There is some good news for people born in the year of the Monkey, Rat and Dragon , they will be into a year favorable for romance. However, such animal astrology is not totally reliable as the system is not recognized as formal kind of fortune-telling. It requires more information than just the birth year to determine a person's luck.

blogskin is down.. tt's like how sad... boring.. wanted to change my blog skin... got sick of tt pink.. too much for me... ya... sianz tml gotta work... i hate my face... so many pimples!! Y?! Y?! Y?! feel like burning or peeling it all off!!! it has stripped off so much of my confidence.. now i have to run away when i see yandao.. gals with gd skin makes me jealous... guys worse.. spoil my day.... sianz... i'm not looking forward to cny... becoz all the aunties and uncles will be toking about my face AGAIN!

Breakdown - Instruction

steal me, take me i am more than this
cause i'm feeling terrified it's obvious
so i look into your eyes and all you see is
breakdown coming on to me
as i wonder just how you want me to be
heal me, take me i am more then this
'cause i feel so scarred in my self confidence
as i look into your eyes you know i'm too far gone to recognize the weakness
breakdown coming on to me as i wonder just how you want me to be
bring it on again i don't know how you want me to be

O wow... i haven't blog for ages... well much have happened in these few weeks. I've job hopped again... now working in a boutique, Estique in Raffles Place, OUB centre... if u're working in an office and badly need to buy office wear, come to me... I can give u 30% discount.. well, onli if u realli do noe me... not any strangers ya...

hm... I've met the boys.. or rather the botaks.. ya tt's wad i like to call them now... lolz... we met at glass house on 21st Jan.. it was quite a short meeting... pple were late... i mean VERY LATE!!! we were supposed to meet at dohby ghaut mrt statio.. only till the time when i reach there did i recalled tt there are actually 2 control stations and numerous exits. didnt now wad to do actually. i knew tt glass house is just around the corner but didnt noe the exact spot. walked around for awhile, trying to find the right exit.. and finally spot dao... i couldnt recognise him at first.. i guessed tt it was him from pretty far away from his unique way of walking... muahaha... thanx to the camp for not changing tt... if not i would be left at the mrt station, not knowing wad to do. i think he saw me... but as usual, the shy him waited for me to take the first move. it was pretty awkward in the beginning... i tried not to bring up our "special incident".. but i guess it was quite alright after all... and well, we had to wait for our tables and the late comers at the same time... we sat around and chat outside glass house for like an hour before we entered...

Glass house was realli noisy.. i still cant understand y they wanna play tt music tt loud.. it's a place for pple to get together over meals.. and yet the music was blasting so loud tt we had difficulties listening to each other. wth! i was quite irritated.. becoz it's a CLASS GATHERING man! We're supposed to ctahc up with each other!!! ok.. well, the hottest topics for the gals were our new jobs and for the guys.. wad else... their first 2 weeks of "happy army days". they just talked non stop about it... from the time they met, till the time i left the group. the highlight for tt gathering for me would be the chance to see them bald! yippee... muahaha... let's recall.. hm... i think anu look best compared to the last time i saw him with hair. lolz... wad a way to say it.. yup... eugene was soooo DARK! his neck is like chao ta!!! all burnt! he used to be the fair boy in class.. yufee look pretty normal... not too dark.. i guess we're all used to it since he was our tennis vice-cap. and dao dao...o did i mention i got a shock when i saw him? he was wearing his army specs.. wo... and tt cap.. made his face look extra black... made me feel a bit intimidated.. felt like there was this invisible wall between us... wad a pity... couldnt feel tt link between us when we were back in sch..

The food was awesome as usual.. i tried fish n chip for the first time.. it was so BIG!! i had to stuff the other half piece of fish into my stomach and try not to vomit.. :P it's nice and cheap... will bring more frens to the place in future.. not tt i never went to fish and co before, just never tried their fish n chip.. haha coz i always went with my mum.. and i always like to try sth diff.. dishes with special names and all... hm.. anyway, i had to leave early since i have SAT and work on th next morning... sad sad...

Yesterday was a great day.. mum and dad went for dinner. so i brought my 2 younger bros out for dinner at Cartel with Chris. Well, it's a short but nice meeting.. my bro hit well with Chris.. it's just the beginning.... :)

tt's all for now... long blog... Chao

i'll miss pple... sob sob...

hm... just had a realli short little chat with efei on msn... hm... dear efei will be going to NS again... haha blad again for the next 2 years or lesser... lolz... :P but yeah.. he'll still look as charming as before... ya i remember... the word to describe him as he've used in his blog to describe himself... "subtle".. havent seen him for sooo long... and ya i miss him... in a undescribable way becoz of the sweet memories he has left me.. it's special...

hm... time realli flies... it feels like yesterday when i just entered vjc.. in a blink of an eye, i've graduated... taken my As... and now it's jan... most of the guys r going to ns... hm... wonder how our class gatehring will turn out to be like.. haha if we do have one... it'll feel like a gal sch class gathering.. lolz... hm.. i'll miss dao too... probably the closest i guy got to noe from 03s44... wonder how he'll look like when he's bald... hehe *evil grin our relationship... i gotta say pretty complicated... i like him... as a fren... but still a little afraid to get too close... after wad has happened... not on purpose... just unconciously...

tml is my last day in yuen yang

yahoo....!!! hm... ... tml is my last day in yuen yang...actually i kinda will miss it... coz there r tqo not bad looking didis working now... lolz... ya didi coz they are 16, 2 years younger than me... but they're kinds cute and funny... cute as in they remind me of the time when i just started working... very hardworking and chiong chiong chiong... never stop working for a min from the time he step into the restaurant... o the hardworking one is hongyi aka john. the other is kim guan.. i still dun realli noe how to speel his name though... anyway, today the work was kinda cool... bully them.. haha... make use of them since they r so hardworking.. :P

Merry christmas!

Merry Christmas!

hm.. feels weird... today didnt realli feel like christmas... i guess as we grow older, we have so much more to do and worry about, we tend to forget or neglect certain things in life... time have been flying past so fast.. i never felt christmas.. and ya.. it has christmas day has just ended like 8 min ago..

so accurately, i should say yesterday was not bad... tot i wouldnt have a christmas party again this year since chrissy had to work.. went to uncle's place.. played badminton with my little cousins.. they are so short that sometimes hitting high is equals to hitting "body shots" to me.. after tt, had a 2hr pool session with my cousins... i played against the pros.. phew... luckily didnt lose too badly since they "fang shui"... lolz... alvin's like how pro.. and serene... o ya.. she slimmed down so much.. mut be stress from NUS... muahaha.. dinner was great.. had beehoon, sambal sotong, chciken wings and sushi!!! yummy yummy!!! o.. and i made chcolate strawberries... think they were nice... i didnt even get a chance to try it myself.. by the time, i was looking for them, they were all gone... :P

granny and 2nd aunt came to play mahong with dad and nainai... i was hoping to play some mahjong.. sad sad... their bets were too high for me.. was bored... so brought the 3 chocolates i made to chrissy... he bought cherries for me!! so sweet! ya both him and the cherries.. hehe *^_^* wont forget counting down to xmas day on 24th with him after work... was so romantic.. played with candles and all... :P

alright.. tata!!!

sob sob...

fuck.. it's a fucking bad day... sorry for swearing so much.. but it sure sucks... just felt that my efforts arent appreciated... and kana bullied just becoz i'm new... sigh... i guess tt's how ur first job experience is like... pple blaming you for wad they themselves or others did wrong... pple blaming you for wad u've done wrong ( which i accept since it's my fault).. having to work 3 pple's work load when you're onli paid a humble $5 per hour... employed to be a waitress but have to cover the cashier's job.... trying to attend to your customers as fast as possible..but u're boss ask u to take ur time and "let the customers wait"... i mean come on.... if u wan to succeed in the food industry, not only ur food must be good.. service is also very important... i mena i can put myself in the customers shoes... if i'm a customer and i gotta wait for like so long just to take my order, i might as well get out of tt fucking place and go to the other restaurants along the street rite? why would i bother to wait... and the food isnt tt nice somemore... stuipd yuen yang onli open for like a month.. i believe for most of the customers, it's thier first visit.. i just feel tt first impression is very impt.. how can you not care about ur customers and make them wait... there's so much mroe to say!! it's a bloody job

come to yuen yang steam boat cum seafood restaurant!

hm.. i'm surprised that pple r interested in the restaurant i'm working in after reading my blog.. lolz... wa... busy man... especially on weekends! almost went crazy yesterday... business was so good that i guess we neglected some of our customers a little.. sorry but we're short handed... too busy!! :P

anyway, thanx "hello"... well, let me give you the details... it's along teck chye road. near upper serangoon shopping centre and kovan centre. hm.. nearest MRT is serangoon MRT station.. just 5 to 10 min walk to Yuen Yang. Or you can take bus no. 153, 80,81,82, 136 to the stop beside paya lebar post office. If you're coming from the other direction, all buses mentioned above except 136 will stop after upper serangoon shopping centre. for 136, you should alight the stop after the shopping centre and the cross roads. ( you will see a stretch of shophouses along teck chye road, before you alight) We have steamboat buffet, adult at $15.80, children at $8.00... we do not charge for children below 6 years old. There are a lot of varieties for you to choose from... crabs, fish, prawns etc... rice is included in the buffet... if you dun like steamboat, we also have alacart (how ever u spell it :P)... not to worry, it is definitely affordable... the dish at lowest price would be our soup of the day at only $2, highest is sashimi at $12... There's no GST or service charge. hehe... ok enough of advertising... so.. hope to see you soon... my frens, drop me a sms when u're coming, i'll book a table for you...

erm.. "hello"... perhaps, you may want to ask for me, xueli or shirley when you come down... :) so... hope to see you soon...

first day at work

wo tired seah...
yesterday was my first day waitressing in yuen yang... in the beginning, i was like so blur.. didnt noe wad to do, didnt noe where to get all the stuff... business wasnt tt good from 6pm tp 7pm... after tt, business picked up... it was pretty fun and satisfying when i managed to persuade some customers in to try our dishes... i treated it like i'm doing charity fun fair in VJC... and well, not a bad day of coz.. just tt i had to stand for straight 5 hours... feet started to hurt after a while.. the two boss lady were very nice pple... carey- boss's daugther too... they knew tt it was my first time waitressing so they tried to teach me and encouraged me to take my time to learn.. o ya.. i have to wear this ugly grey t shirt... yuck yuck... grey shirt with red printings... *puke

gonna go for training in esplanade provision shop later... better try to find out the name of it.. haha i dun even noe wad it is called..

softball chalet with my dear juniors

hey... had lots of fun on mon... softball chalet was cool.. for like the first time, i didnt have to prepare anything or cook in a chalet bbq... wo.. tt's realli relaxing man... even though i couldnt realli bite since i just got my braces, i did enjoy eating... o.. the chicken fillet was surprsingly soft and tender!! it's like rendang chicken burger's fillet... i love tt man.. and crab stick.. haha... coz it's so soft... jan's blood vessel in her mouth burst... so she had problems eating too... think we both felt as bad... but it was nice... with all our juniors except ber and jiuyu... hm... the chalet was pretty ulu coz it's in sentosa... there's practically no one at nite... the walk to 7 eleven was kinda far... having to walk past those deserted old houses made it seem further.. haha.. cheryl was screaming and scaring herself and the rest... hm... i think i would wanna go back to sentosa for some fun one of these days again... beach volley ball and captain ball was fun and tiring... even though we were picking ball most of the time when we played volleyball, it was pretty cool.. i would wanan realli learn how to play it one of these days... overall, the softball chalet was a success... not like the one i TRIED organising for the seniors last year... it was a total failure with single digits seniors coming... terrible seah...

tue went to celebrate chrissy's bdae... lolz.. brought him to Senses.. crap... he cant appreciate the food.. but ambience was nice... classy place... but of coz the price of the food was "classy" too... den went strolling by singapore river... went to see ther merlion.. was cool... took some photos..

ok... i'm still stuck with the job - waitressing at yuen yang steamboat and seafood restaurant... $5 per hour onli... and not working everyday... wad a sucky job... so unstable... but wad can i say... i still cant find anything better... sigh... anyone wanna come try the food? pretty cheap... let me noe.. i'll book u a table or sth... lolz...

o.. dao and me thinking of going to Orchid Country Club to swim.. anyone wanna join us? there's pool , steambath, sauna and a bowling alley too...

Sentosa.. here i come!!!!

yippee... time seems to fly nowadays even though A levels is over... hm... still cant find a gd job... many are not confirmed.... onli tt yuen yang steam boat restaurant thingy... but i gotta serve in chinese... alamak.. speaking is ok.. but reading and writing... i dun think i can do it well.. especially when the menu is in "fan ti zi"...

o and stupid me played with the fone... messing with the acces codes and stuff... now my sim card is rejected by my phone... got a new one already... but i can onli use it on mon... crap... so pple, if u wanna get me... better call my house... can onli contact me thru my hp from mon onwards... o btw, i'm looking forward to my softball chalet.... cant wait to see my dear juniors and seniors again.. heard tt daph and sz wha will be coming down.. mahjong anyone? get ready to lose money to me.. muahaha....

o i'm worried about sth... i cant bite with my braces on.. just got them yesterday.. it hurts like shit!!! Ouch! touching it feels like getting them bang on some rock or kana punch at my teeth... hurts like hell! er... do sentosa sell porridge? tt's wad i've been eating since yesterday... except for tonite's dinner... had rice softened with soup... tried to eat spring chicken... gotta shred them all to little pieces before i can swallow them... terrible... sometimes i regret getting braces... but i guess it may be good... teher's a high possibility tt i may slim down in a month's time... lolz...

hey yo...

hm... today's 8th dec.. my dad's bdae! hm... i was so busy the entire morning... woke my brother up at around 8am.. took breakfast... den we head straight for the wet market in serangoon central.. hehe... first stop was the vegetable stall.. man... i just realised i've been eating so much and i got no idea wad u call those veg... haha... had to ask the uncle to help us get those stuff according to my shopping list... den we went to buy chicken.. drumstick and wings... stupid aunty cheat my money... sold me the chicken parts at such a high price... anyway, it's pretty fun.. good experience.. i mena i've been to the market.. but with my mum buying the food... not me calling the shots..lolz..

hm.. started cooking at 10am.. haha guess how long i took.. 3 bloody hours!! cooked rendang chicken, xiao bai chai with shitake mushrooms and made these yellow unique dumplings.. hehe... fun fun.. but a lot of hard work.. the preparing part of the rendang chicken and dumpling was pretty tedious... hehe dad liked it.. so i'm happy too... :)

o o! i almost forgot.. i got a job near my place!! yeah!! working as a waitress in a steamboat cum seafood restaurant... interview was pretty easy... hm... but it's more of a part time work.. so anyone got better jobs for me?

I did the most silly thing of my year today... went to the library with my card which i ahve already borrowed 4 books with... spent like an hour there searching for SAT books and cook books.. and guess wad... I COULDNT BORROW THEM!!! argh... wad the hell.. over loan quota?!!! damn u!!! stupid!! stupid!! now i have to go like may be tml to get it again!! hopefully, i'll remember to bring someone else's card...

o ya frens frens... i havent connected to the rite part of the world ever since i left for korea and cruise... i read some of my pals' blog just now... wondering wad u pple have been doing? i dun realli noe wad to do... onli planned to go for NUS's faculty talks and start mugging for SAT...

o ya... i'm still looking for jobs.. lobang lobang, anyone got lobang?! haiz... keith got a job in a pet farm.. just herad tt he quit! MY GOD... why would anyone do tt!? being able to work around the dogs and get paid?!! he must be crazy! sigh... havent seen him for a long long time... onli sms like once in a blue moon... mostly for my "job queries"... chrissy got a job too! wth! i dun mind doing data entry for a month now... since i'll be wearing braces from the 10th onwrads... need time to get used to it first.... just read chong's blog too... not fair!! she got a job too!! i also wan!

o crap... still cant get into msn... wad's the deal man? hm... i just came back from cruise actually... finally, have time to blog... hm... let's start reflecting back about my trip to korea...

well, spent the first nite on the plane... tt was 28th dec... i wonder... should i call the travel agency a cheat or wad? the nite one the plane is counted as one of the 5 days of my trip.. crap... now it makes the holiday a bit too expensive... hm... i had a hard time trying to sleep on the plane... we travelled for like 6 hours? sit till my butt ache... it wasnt SIA.. tt's y... SIA is the best seah... e korean airplane i took has nth! no video games to play, no choice of movies to watch.. yuck yuck! but the air stewardess were surprisingly pretty... 2nd to SIA's... i wouldnt want to mention the rest tt i've been onto...

let's see... made little notes about my trip... hm... alright... We reached Ichoen Airport at around 7 plus if i didnt recall wrongly.. After clearing customs, I ran out of the airport to have a feel of how cold it is with only a thin long sleeves top on... It didnt feel as cold as I thought it would. We were welcomed by a local tour guide and a part-time photographer. I have to say the tour guide was good... He's the boss himself... business was so good that he had to stand in himself... Later in the trip, I actually learnt that the young photographer was a baseballer.. too bad we weren't able to communicate well since he couldnt speak English and i couldn't speak the Korean language.

Alright.. our first trip was to Everland. It's a gigantic park owned by LG. didnt't realise that LG is that rich. It has theme parks, a safari zoo, boat rides, big beauitful gardens, etc. Our first stop was the safari zoo. in there, animals were allowed to move around in the park specially made to look like their natural habitats... it was ironical because the animals were taught to do little tricks like shaking hands and all.. it's not all that "natural" after all..

den, we took the sky scraper... it's kinda scary if there weren't nets just right below us. it's like this metal seats long enough for 4 pple to sit on, which are hooked on these thick cables... there weren't any other forms of protection except this movable metal bar in front of u, preventing u from falling forward. the sky scraper took us to another part of the park... it's where we took this so called boat ride. our "boat" was circular, made up of 5 parts of a pie, joined up in the middle. i knew we were going to get wet when we saw pple coming back with their heads and clothes all wet. lucky me.. i onli got my legs wet... O, i took the Suspended roller coaster with my brother, stanley... tot it's the most trilling ride in the park. but we were wrong... it onli turned like 90 degrees, mostly left and right... i give it 2 out of 5 stars.. i've taken better ones...

Hm.. den comes lunch... yummy yum yum... We were served with the best pork I've ever eaten in my life... so delicious... barbecued pork... not oily... and kinda healthy considering that we were taught to wrap the piece of pork in a piece of lettuce and applying this special red sauce before sending them into our mouth...

After lunch, we went to Carribean Bay. The outdoor park was closed since it was early winter. The indoor one was fun. Singapore should have sth like this.. there were lsides and blackholes like those we used to have in Sentosa's Fantasy Island... There was this jetty jump thingy.. way too cool... o and wave pool... o ya.. and i tried swimming out in the cold. think the temperature out there was around ice point.. haha i have to admit tt it was pretty cold.. but as long as you dun come out from the pool, it's ok.. after all tt tiring running and fooling around, we head to the spa and sauna section. I was amused by the no. of spas they have. I tried the Apple, Lemon and Jade one... nice... water was realli hot... the hottest one was the Jade one... at 40 plus degrees celsius. i was red like bbq pork when i came out.. lol.. it was probably too relaxing coz by the time, i was out, my legs were pretty wobbly.. eye lids felt heavy... felt sleepy.. haha...

Then the highlight of my entire trip sort of alerted me.. it happened in the toilet.. i was walking into the bathing section when i saw a woman and her daughter standing in front of two long mirrors naked! the woman was drying and combing her daughter's hair as if no one was looking. i was so astonished.. probabaly have blushed when i walked past them, trying to keep my eyes straight in front.. later, i found out that it's a norm in korea. but of coz, i didnt follow... i was too shy to expose myself... had a hard time changing in my own cubicle... since all the koreans do that, the cubicles onli have metal shelves big enought for u to put ur shampoo bottles.

The next day, we went for snow skiing.. it's great! think it;s pretty easy to learn the basics... skiing downhill was easy... the higher i went, the faster i came down... u could feel the cold air pushing u back when u're skiing down the slope.. the sucky thing is that u have to climb all the way up. tt's the tiring part... after skiing for a few hours, i was too tired and reluctant to move myself up tt slope again...

the later part of the trip was more of sightseeing and shopping... if u wanna go for a shopping spree, i suggest u go to other countires like HK and Thailand.. korea is not the place. things there are so much more expensive... o ya... the tour guide told us that onli the rich could afford having beef during winter. pork cost 4000 won. beef cost 100 times mroe if i'm not wrong. hence, we had nth els but pork for the rest of our trip. so now.. ya.. i'm sick of pork.. miss all the fish and chicken... the onli time i had chicken was our feast in the gingseng chicken soup restaurant. wo.. tt was nice... had this gingseng chicken stew... one whole chicken just for me.. yummy..

I came back on 2nd dec. it was pretty late.. 11pm or later... had to sleep early since i hd debtak appointment on the next morning.. so ya... extracted my other 2 teeth.. so now i have 4 holes! trying not to show my teeth like usual when i smile... realli tough for me... but i think i look ok.. not as bad as i tot... haha so means i can still go out... lol.. cruise wasnt as bad as i tot too... went to the casino for the first time... won $350 the first time i placed my bet... yippee... so cool..

now tt i'm back in sinagpore, it's time to study for SAT and look for job... anyone got lobang? i realli realli wanna work ina pet shop!!!! keith gotten a job there! i'm so jealous!!!

frens? any party? come jio me?

aloha! hehe... As is finally over.. i'm so happy... hm... actually it was over on fri... yup... hm... let's recall...

fri... went to watch shutter with chrissy... den went to chomp chomp and had a yummy yum yum dinner! muahaha... yeah.. it was a lovely day... nth else could be better... felt like all that stress is lifted from my sore shoulders... yuppy! onli reached home like at ten? haha and mummy want angry at all.. tt's good.. guess she understood... yup... o i miss chrissy...

hm... and yesterday... i extracted 2 teeth in NDC... Ouch! It was god damn painful! i had four injections. 2 up 2 down. canu believe it?! the dentist used some plier-look-alike equipment to pull out my teeth.. alamak... i could have fainted if he didnt do them fast enuff... the pressure exerted on my teeth was so damn strong... so scary tt i almost made myself believe tt it was painful when i was already had 4 injections... my eyes grew so big when i saw my poor teeth kana plucked out! think the whole thing onli lasted for like 5 min. thank god!

hm... and for today.. spent most of my time cleaning up my study table and cupboards... threw lots of notes and tutorials away... packed up the past year papers and tys which my dear juniors might wan... now my table looks so clean and neat... i feel nth else but a sense of satisfaction! cant believe i did so much today! ha! o ya my dear juniors... let me noe if u wan them... have past year papers... redspot tys for maths and phy... o ya can wans the maths stuff.. so hehe..


o ya.. i'll be off to korea tml nite... lol... looking forward to snow skiing and roller coaster rides! yeah!!! o ya the sad things is tt i have difficulties eating rite now since i'm bo-gey... cant enjoy the food there as much as i probably could have. hm... wont be back till 2nd dec! will be updating u in 5 days time... hehe...

yo ho! i changed my blog skin!!! nice nice? oo la la.. so cool...!!! lol...

yipee! last impt paper done! yeah yeah... tml last paper.. hurray!!! hopefully my pimples will all be gone after my holiday in korea... lol... wad a relief... but to be honest, i tot physics of fluid was tough... the rest was kinda ok... at least wad i studied came out.. so.. hehe... o ya.. thanx yanying..for tt sms... if it's not tt sms, i wouldnt know that phy paper 3 is today! alamak... sotong me... i tot it's on thu and fri! haha... ya... wasnt very prepared for tha paper.. but it was alright i guess....
o ya.. good news.. little bro, stessen got his PSLE results... hm... considering tt he doesnt study at all, he has done pretty well... but weird eh? 3 As and a C but onli 202? haha.. but it's gd enuff... my parents are quite happy... they just went out to celebrate... well as for me, i hope i can also get my 3As and a pass in GP for my A levels.. despite all the shopping, pool and k box sessions i've had this week.. lol...
o ya... i've been practising smiling without showing my teeth! it's freaking tough!!! argh... gotta prepare for the bo-gey times... 2 bloody weeks!! argh... hella... fri have to extract 2 of them already... sob sob... 2 weeks of ugly me! o man.. how am i gonna find a job like tt? thank god i'll be in korea for 5 days and cruise for another 3 days... haha disappear from the streets of singapore for a while... u cant see me with my bo gey smile!!! :x
or may be i should just be proud of them... take lots of pic if my bo-gey smile.. lol... i realli dunno... comments anyone?

bore bored... *yawnz... o man.... studying sux... i'm so sick of physics... feel like slacking.. atcually have been slacking a lot... very guilty about it now actually.. haha... but o well... i'm so out of my exam mode... cant wait to go snow skiing in korea! yippee!!!
hm... after As, i'll change my blog skin... this is beautiful..but it seems a bit too small to read huh? :P

dead dead.... phy paper 2 was freaking dead.... ahh... couldnt do the entire data analysis qn!! sigh... i'm no more confident about getting my 3 As.. hopefully my batch dun do so well... haha... den may be i can get my A.. hehe.. evil tot... well... no choice...
hm... just had chem1... not very gd either... it was like half the time, i'm unsure of my answers... sigh... well, so far so gd.. at least i onli found out tt i got one wrong.. hehe... but.. seriously... i hope i do ok... I WAN MY A! hm... let's work our butts for phy3... realli gotta do well for tt if i wan my A...
hm... was walking around in parkway for awhile today... so tempted to get tt new product Tummi Trim.. i wonder if it works... need to get rid of the fats at the sides of my waist if i ever wan to wear a bikini to the beach... o sigh.. but my thighs... yuck yuck... all thanks to softball.. now they're so muscular... and u noe.. muscles are harder to get rid of than fats! ARGH....
i dunno wad else to say... feel very insecure about my As... not as ez as i tot... sigh sigh..

bloggie bloggie... havent blogged for some time? er... or may be not... i'm so sick of studying.. but at the same time, i'm so worried about my physics... it's neither here nor there... tys qn arent tt easy... i'm so worried... argh... let's do more tys... do as much as possible...
i cant get into msn messenger for soem reason... sux... havent tok to my frens onlien for some time... so boring.. my life is so routine now... nth else but study.... i get so jealous when i read my junior's blog.. all having fun... playing softball and going to chalets... ahhhh!!!!!!!!!

Broken hearts
Broken dreams
There just somethings that love brings
When you learn that its all been a lie
You cry
You find that

Nothing
Nothing
Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you'll never learn
Till you get burned
Till your burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love

So you gave all you had
How the story turned so sad
Nothing left but the tears in you eyes
You die inside cus

Nothing
Nothing
Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you will never learn
Till you get burned
Till your burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love


So dry your eyes
Its just your turn to learn
The time to find that nothing
Nothing

(Instrumental)

Nothing
Nothing
Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you will never learn
Till you get burned
Till your burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love

o crap... got dc just now.. typed so much rubbish and it's all gone now... argh.. may be it's telling me tt i shouldnt be posting all tt up... ya.. cursed too much... any way.. pals... yes... my blog is very personal... i'm more like talking to myself when i write my blog... so pls dun be offended by wad i post k... they are probably tots that just cross my mind.. sometimes when i'm so overwhelmed.. i'll just write wadever tt comes to my mind.. i may not mean wad i have said... anyway.. wanna thank all my frens who goe to noe all that have happened, be it from this blog or thru pple... thanks for consoling me.. i'm glad that i have gd frens like u.... :)

ya.. so how bad can my life be huh? when i have frens like tt.... ya well, as expected... i'm still not back to myself yet... still get sad and all. but i'm trying hard to keep myself busy... revise my work... go out with frens... just never idle alone.. becoz i'll start to think of him.. tears will start to roll.... i'll soon flood the place.... sigh...

guess wad.. i went to watch Sky Captain after yesterday's chem paper... it's one of the worst movies i have ever watched... it's realli stupid... typical superhero movie... gosh... better not catch it pals! anyway, the surprising event was that i got 4 missed calls from him... wo.. realli... i never expected it... so i returned his call and guess wad... he started asking me about my whereabouts... who i was with and bla bla... i'm like WTF... we're not related anymore! why didnt u show more concern and love when we were together? now tt u have lost me, u're regreting? it's too late my pal... i'm so god damn pissed and hurt when ur words cut into my heart tt nite... " there's no point in commiting.." bla bla... shouldnt u let me noe about this earlier so that i wont have to go thru tt shit?! argh.. or r u too free? nth better to do so u call me for fun la? rite? as usual, when u're bored u'll ask for my company... when u're busy, u'll just throw me to a corner rite?! wad a bastard... i'm not gonna give u another chance to treat me like dirt... no no no way....

argh.. enuff of complaining.. sorry i cursed too much.... i just think tt i'm treated so unfairly... wad is this man...

fuck... i broke up again! had enuff of those crap from tt bastard... i dunno if i should be complaining in this blog... but it;s late and... there isnt realli anyone i can complain to.. well, except my dear didi la.. irvin.. proud to have a didi like him man... hm... and wei xian... :)

hm.. tell me.... if u cant commit urself into the relationship, y do u wanna keep me by ur side? isnt it fucking selfish?! fuck man.... i did so much for tt bastard.. and get nth out of it.. ya true.. tt's wad love is about... ah.... wadever la.... i dun care.... gonna mug.., put all my energy into revision.... funny.. i dun feel like complaing anymore... just repeating all those sad words from him.... all those words that tore my heart apart... i so need a shoulder to cry on now...

hi ya! i feel sooo guilty after two days of slacking! oh my... havent mug for two days! which means i'll be completing two lesser papers.... tml gotta start bucking up again....

ok.... well, let's start reflecting about yesterday... yesterday, 15th oct... it was our farewell day... had lots of funny and entertaining performances for the first one hour plus in school... it was great.. sort of healed my wound for a while... i was so upset becoz of the way keith's been neglecting me... den.. we went for our special CT session... guess wad... Ms Rajan actually wrote us each a card and bought the gals each a pendant from Perlinin Silver! it must have cost her a bomb! den we started tecaking lots of pictures.. o ya... i've uploaded them... just in case, some of u wants a copy of them or wanna see them, i've added the link in my blog.. check out the "Pics" section... o ya.. candice... our pic in open house is on the last 4 slides of the VJC softball album...
Hm... O! and i never expected the juniors to be so nice... must be the gals' idea.. muahaha... tehy bought lots of snacks and goodies for us to munch on.. o man.. thinking of it.. makes me feel so guilty.. should be on a diet... i ended up drink packets of soft drinks and ate a chocolate cone icecream! muahaha! yum yum... :P~

k.. den this morning... went to our school's open house... i was surprised to see the big crowd... much more crowded than last year.. and ya.. bong reminded me that VJ have started our integrated programme.. no wonder there were kiddies with their parents... time realli flew when i was stoning with my juniors..... haha... played a little softball today.. yeah...so happy.. i miss softball so much... threw a bit with bong.. my oh my.. i lost touch... when i start using a bit mroe strength, the ball went everywhere... sorry bong... made u catch lots of once bounce perhaps... and made ms lady bird jump a lot too.. hehe :P u noe wad.. i realli think i've gained much self- confidence over the years... talk to this guy in the softball booth today.. i like just talk to him like tt.... like out of no where.. haha... dun think i'll be able to do if it was a few years back... o and smiling realli helps... when i was just about to leave, accidentally stepped on this yandao's foot.. muahaha... so paiseh... didnt even dare to turn back.. just apologised... but i bet his younger than me.. so who cares.. muahaha... no his fren is more of my type... :P

den met up with xinglong in Taka.. and yes... i ate a lot again.. Seoul Garden! wad do u think?! and it's freaking expensive! for some reason, i'm realli very comfortable around my this buddy... and he smiled a lot today.... i caught him smiling quite a lot of times today... weird... tot he onli know how to niao me all the time.. gotta admit that he has a cute smile.... haha... it's constagious... hm.. it's probably his super highly skilled "niaoing" skills which made us bond so well... and also y i never feel bored with him around.... it's interesting.. becoz i always have to think of some ways to fight back.. but i always lose out in our verbal battle of coz... ya tt's wad keeps us going...

and yes, lastly, Keith... this jack ass... i realli dunno wad to say... just love and hate him so much... i realli felt like giving up hope on this relationship... it's like i have someone by name.. but he's never there for me... he always tells me that he'll call me back.. but he never fulfills his promises... NEVER.... he's so bo chup... how can u not call someone u love and therfore will miss for 5 bloody days?! he says he's tired... he's always tired.. every sat he'll get "sick" dne at noon or nite, he'll be healthy enough to go out with his frens for some reasons... ahh.. i dunno wad to say... perhaps he's realli tired when i'm looking for him... tt's wad i've been telling myself... to make myself feel better.... i'm a leo u see.... when i lose trust, i withdraw my feelings from the relationship.... i dun jump into something i'm not sure of.... it's sad... when u have to retreat like this... hopefully, after this week, when he's not as busy as last week, he'll start to realise tt he have neglected me a lot... and willing to take intiative to spend some quality time with me... i told myself not to give in so much anymore... told myself to be less dependent on him.. told myself that it's alright to be alone.... and if he doesnt look for u, den fine... dun have to look for him... if he doesnt care, he doesnt miss u... why should u?

my oh my... havent blog for so long... sigh... 2 more weeks to alevels... getting pretty scared... and ya.. stress... pimples INFESTING on my poor cheeks... ARGH... i'm freaking ugly now.... if onli i can change my skin like a snake or sth.... just wanna get rid of those read scars... yuck yuck!
just had GP remedial with ms rajan.. hm.. i hope it's good.. better improve my gp a bit more... dun wanna fail in As.... i gotta do two intros.. it better help... well, at least she's willing to spend that few minutes with us...
sigh i'm so bored.... wanna ctahc a movie with keith... but he's so busy... didnt call me for the past 2 days again... but it seems like he's been reaching home very late for the past 2 days... so i guess he has his excuses.. i'm just worried.. wondering y he has to stay out so late.... why are they so mean to my poor Keith...? and me... all becoz of the stupid camp.. whoever who's in charge... i havent been able to see him often.... it sux missing and waiting for someone like tt... but i guess i'm getting used to it.. so it's not that bad.. and i have revision for As to occupy me... in fact, it's chocking me!
i'm realli bored and down these days.. mugging all the time.... but of coz, i always find time to slack whenever i can.... let me see....

ways of destressing which i have tried:
1. one free hair styling for my dog by none other than me!
2. my own hair cut in Fingerworks
3. swimming.. too bad that i was alone.. :(
4. locking myself up and dancing along with the hot music 98.7fm is playing in my bed room
5. doing sit ups oli when i feel like it
6. going online, checking mails and frenster

any better ideas? i dunno wad to do...

hm... i'm slacking again.. feel guilty.. but haiz.. not in the mood... and... hm.. i bought 15 bucks worth of prelims papers just now! crap.. so freaking broke! it better help me get my 3As...

it's hard not to be able to meet him often... but i guess it aint tt bad.. considering tt he still makes an effort to call me evey nite.. even thoguh somtimes it's just for a few minutes... haiz... o well, i've got my As too... so it wont be tt bad... i'm so overwhlemed by all those work already...

alamak.. we dun have a nice photo together... well, we id take some on my birthday.. just realised that i look so ugly in all of them... for him... well, he's cute no matter wad... :P after as, i wanna tke lots of pics with him... flood my imagestation albums with them.. muhaha...

o guess wad... i dun think i'll ba having much fun even after As... i'll be finishing it on 25th nov... but i'll have to go extract 2 teeth on the next morning.. crap! bo guey for one week! no... actualy it's two.. coz i'll have to extract another 2 on the consecutive week... den the following well will be bonding... not sure wad it is yet... but i heard it's like getting my braces on or sth... yucks! it's just pain and mroe pain... wont be having much fun this way... and hopefully i'll feel alright by 13th dec... got softball chalet in sentosa!! yippee!!! tt reminds me... i better have had slimmed down by then.. i'm stagnant!! how?! not losing weight... seems like i'm gaining weight... and my waist.. and thighs are still as fat!! argh!! gross!!! am i fated to look this way forever? well, i feel ok with my present look.. bu i guess everyone is vain huh... i'm sure i'll feel more confident and stuff if i succeed... anyone got good tips? and pls... money saving ones too... hehe :P

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alright... time to blog.... got back all my papers... well, it's pretty sad... didnt reach my target... onli got BBC... and guess wad.... my weakest subject, chem is my best this time. WTH! think i just screwed up the other two.... i noe i could have done a whole lot better... anyway... i think tan was rite... dun think i can handle 4 subjects well... it's like scarificing a bit more time for chem = deproving for maths and physics. i was proud of myself for getting gd results for chem. believe me, i tot i screwed that up too... well, i did here and there.. but it's still a lot better than wad i have expected... better chiong maths and physics too.. especially maths man... how the hell can it be my worst subject?! i screwed up the entire paper.. REALLI... if u're me, u'll understand y.. when u see my paper, u'll faint like how how i felt when i saw those silly careless mistakes i've made... hopefully, A's will be like wad everyone have been saying.. easy enough for u to have time to check thru them... in this way, hopefully i'll onli lose marks becoz i dunno the answers, not becoz of some stupid careless mistakes! it realli sux... especially when u already knew that u have reached a particular standard.. may be not the highest, may be not ur best... but this time round, i've definitely done a lot worse than i could have... TIME TO MUG!!! but screw it... still not in the mood man... i still wanna have fun.. slacked thru today.. it's bad... i need to do something...

hm... next.... settled things between the two of us finally... haiz... just minutes before he called to meet, i tot it was all over.... now i understand.... found out sth new about him... never ever tok to him about anything serious when he's half alseep... he realli ahve no idea wad he said just now... hehe... and he's probabaly very touched to recieve tt book.. muahaha... he said he was speechless... hehe.... i'm glad everything is alright now... just hopes that he can open himself up more... communicate more.... so i can understand him better.... so that things will go smoother from now on....

hm... went out just now... i think i'm beginning to become some kind of a "uncle killer" haha.. realli... those uncles.... they keep looking at me... i dun understand why.... i tot my hair was in a mess.. or may be there's sth wrong with my clothes.. but NO.... everything seems normal when i look into the mirror... weird.... but i dun like the feeling... after all, they are UNCLES... probabaly giving me dirty looks.... yucks!!! walked past a coffee shop just now... u got no idea how much unwanted attention i got! they were looking at me from the time i walk past them till i reached the park opp. even keith noticed it.... den when we went to the coffee shop later for some drinks, those uncles were staring at me again.... WTH! not as if i was wearing anything revealing... not even a spag.. just a hang ten tee and a denim skirt? and it's not short ok! like knee length onli.. if they were my age, i probably wont feel that uncomfortable... better still, if they were good looking.. bleah :P

taht reminds me... i'm happy to be growing up... seems like pple are giving more good comments about me... especially on looks... i used to feel like some ugly duckling... if u noe me since pri sch u would no... those "exploded" curly frizzy hair... dull eyes circled with nerdy spectacles.... totally uncool, quiet and shy type.... almost felt like an outcast.... ya... cant imagine huh? i've changed so much... now to a party animal.... someone who will voice my opinions on almost everything... so straightforward that i'm trying to hold back a little so that i wont be disliked for saying nasty stuff... i've never been son confident about myself... i'm not some pretty gal with an angels's face and a guy-to-die-for body... but i'm certain that i've found somthing unique in me.. my own identity... something that people can see, can feel and like me for... and that makes me unique...

cant wait to club... cant wait to get rid of those fats so i can get a hot bikini and show off in sentosa... muahaha! cant wait to go for my softball chalet in sentosa! cant wait to meet my pri sch frens again... cant wait to get a job... experience and learn new stuff.... cant wait to go overseas.... have fun and have a change of environment... and most of all, cant wait to escape from exams... i like school... except for the examinations...

hiaz... got back bloody maths paper 1 today... sux man... onli got a B a freaking low B! alamak.. i could have gotten more than 10 more marks. and they are not becoz of some freaking careless mistake. it's just that i did 2 bloody questions in a wrong way even though i know how to do the way the teachers wanted them. ARGH!!! WTF! could have gotten A* for it!!! Won't let this happen for A'levels. Man.. this shouldnt happen!!!

hm... looked thru dao's and cc's chem paper3 today.. seems like they realli gotta work a lot harder.. not getting some of the facts right yet... same for me...especially for Group 2 and 7... i sux at that 2 topics. goota do more maths and physics.. think i'm not realli that good in them after all! cant take any risks! I WAN MY 3 As!

O and this reminds me... had a talk on scholarships today... sux man... so unfair. how would i noe that my chances of getting a scholarship is this low when i have onli 3 A levels sub! ARGH.. not as if i havent been doing well in school.... cant be a vet... seems to tough to achieve this goal.... how bout being one of the Charlie's angels? ya u guessed it rite.. policewoman... cool seah! or a teacher... following my mum's footsteps will be cool too.... i like going to her "office". all the sophisicated chemical equipment... well, these are the few careers which i have in mind temporarily... dunno wad to do actually... i dunno wad courses to take in uni too... sigh... guess i should just mug hard now and see wad happens....

hey wad's up with blogger... this is weird.... i couldnt make any new posts at home with my brother's lap top.... after complaining so much to blogger, it seems t be working now.. but i'm in sch comp lab... issit sth wrong with blogger itself or issit just my brother's lap top? weird!
anyway, days without my blog realli sux... so much happened... so much tots.. and i couldnt write all of them down.... ARGH....

anyway, a lot happened... cleared up the mess with dao.. and i'm glad that we're talking in the canteen just now... he looks sad... wonder if i'm over sensitive... but i'm sure he's down.. his eyes... they look teary.... and chunchen... seems like she didnt do well... not tt i did very well, but i guess mine was still ok.... hm.. felt like i should try to do sth to help them... especially since they're my close frens... wonder how i can do tt... becoz in the first place, i'm not very good in chem yet... havent got an A before... i'm not confident enuf to like tutor them.. but i realli wanna help... so wad should i do?

hm.... and tt idiot... o sigh.... i duno... hopefully we'll meet soon.. and clear up all tt mess... he said, "there's no problem".. ya to me... but he dunno how upset i was....have this evil tot.. may be i should let him have a taste of his own medicine huh.... then he'll understand... so frustrating... i'm like how soft hearted! hearing his voice over the phone soften my heart.. wanted to scream into the fone and give him a gd scolding... but... sigh.... almost wanted to end everything... but i couldnt do it...

first day of sch wasnt so bad so far.... met familar faces.. patched up some stuff... and chem is quite ok till now... hopefully my other 2 papers will be better than wad i have gotten back... chua said maths was terrible... sigh... i hope i did ok... i dun wan to be in the "terrible" group... well, maths has always been my stronger subject... so... hm.... if can onli get one A for this prelims, maths should be the onli one....

dad and mom are thinking of going to seattle in late nov to visit aunty.... dad asked me if i wanna go.. think i should go? i wanna travel... but the idea of having them out of town and leaving me home alone seems cool! (evil laughters) ;p u noe wad i'm thinking dun u? if u have read my blog in june, u would understand wad i mean... those two days were proabably oen of the most fun days of my year so far. chiong like siao! muahaha... but if tt's gonna happen in nov, it'll eb after As. i'll be even more carefree by then... will probably try clubbing.. see if i like it... or just chilling out with frens late and nite.. looking forward to feel the nite breeze brushing past my face... if i can spend it with my special someone, tt'll be realli cool!

yippeee!!! main papers are finally over... wad a relief... hm... actually no... it was a nightmare... screwed up every single paper... my oh my.... there goes all my As... if i can get one... think tt's realli good already..... it's like WTH... why set such tough papers?! it's prelims! why? wanna show off to other schools that VJC have very high standard huh? Wad crap... and tt ms tay? cant trust her judgement? u call tt easy?! (roll eyes) easy for u i guess! i'm dead... tt's it...

i dun care... just gonna slack the whole of today and onli start my reviosn for my last 4 papers tml... it doesnt seem to make much a diff anyway! i'm so frustrated...so pissed! hm... so to destress and cheer myself up a little...went to post centre just now.. right after the stupid physics paper... wen to reshape my eye brows... muahah.. the lady called me hairy gal... haha... my eye brows too a bit..erm... i dunno.. too used to my bushy eye brows.. lolz... anyway... then i went 2 storeys doen to singapore's biggest This Fashion!!! woohoo! my eyes must have glowed when i saw those pretty skirts! feel like buying all of them back! ya.. spent at least 1h plus in there... tried at least 8 pieces of skirts and tops! wa all so nice! but i'm so broke! too bad. spent all i had in the end... just bought two skirts... one bubbly greenie and one white, the sweet kind... yeah.... getting more girly nowadays.. i actually like to at dresses too.... quite a few pretty ones... but...eh... i find myself a little mismatch with dresses... haha... not satisfied though.... where's my money?! need more money. need to strike lottery... muahaha.. when i dun even buy any... wan change my wardrobe! byebye old clothes!!!

hey blog.. taking a break from mugging for tml's chem paper3... hm.. freaking out... veryu worried about my chem paper... today's maths... well...ok ba... i would say not as tough as i tot it would be... couldnt do a few qn... but as long as i dun make too mnay careless mistakes, it should be alright.... anyway i still have paper 2 to score with! hehe... hopefully.. :P
hm.. i'm going crazy... he lost his fone and seems to be out of house the whole afternoon. i'm just worried,,, so called him like every few min the whole afternoon... and i dunno wad the hell happen.. my call was diverted? tt was wad was showing on my hp... wad the hell does that mean? anyway, i couldnt reach him the whole afternoon.. tot he say he would call back... i shouldnt take wad he said so seriously huh? i tot he would be very sad and feel lost since he lost his fone. wanted to console him and accompany him.. but.. hm... he seems to be having fun outside... god noes wad he's doing.. never even bother to call me... too overwhelmed by all the fun he's getting probably... wth! i'm freaking out here!!!

"Two rules for stress management: "Rule one: Don't sweat the small stuff. Rule two: It's all small stuff"~ Robert Elliot

"Do not anticipate trouble or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight." ~ Ben Franklin

"Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save." ~Will Rogers, Autobiography, 1949

"One of the symptoms of an approaching nervous breakdown is the belief that one's work is terribly important." ~Bertrand Russell

"Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency." ~Natalie Goldberg, Wild Mind


"Slow down and everything you are chasing will come around and catch you." ~John De Paola

"Tension is who you think you should be. Relaxation is who you are." ~Chinese Proverb

it seems like i havent blogged for ages... gosh... spend hous doing the maths paper today... sad sad.. onli got a B.. actually i just have too mnay careless mistakes... i'm surprised by the no of questions i cant do too... sigh.. this is not good... i must get a A for maths!!! coz it seems like my best sub so far.... hm... mug more later....

time flies... just a few more days to prelims... panicky!! oops... how do u spell it? muahaha... i'm kinda dead.... feels like i'm not confident enuff to go for prelims yet... dead... i hope i improve like an expotential curve for the next few days... hehe... realli hope so.. o sigh ... i think i'm realli stressed... i've noticed signs of it... emotionally unstable... i can cry whenever i think of sad stuff.. as in realli whenever i wan.. o no.. actually i cant realli control my tears now... and my face? my gosh... i'm so UGLY! all the pimples and scar! this is bad!! anyone have good advice or ideas on how to get rid of them and smoothen my skin? i dun wanna look like an orange! o ya..one more thing... i've been doing sit ups and crunches every nite or morning... start running once a week... but my tummy is still the same... onli the upper adominum seems pretty toned up... anyone? HELP?! went to watsons tt day... there's this slimming product tt cost a bomb.. like $150+... the salesgal says that i can slim off 2 inches in 2 weeks! sounds attractive but... wonder if it's true...and it cost a bit too much for me to try the product...

hm... havent seen him for quite some time... wonder when we'll meet again... i miss u...

hihi blog... sianz.. this is bad.. i'm always staying up this early..lolz... hm.. today's chem prac realli sux... sigh.. i lost a lot of marks... judt did wad i could... and ya forgot to write wad i could have written down too... sigh sigh... better mug hard for the main papers...

hm... a few days ago..some guy call dennis popped out from no where.... he just sms me and said he got my no from the net a few mths ago.. wad crap... so weird.. now den sms me... i've completely forgotten about it... but then again, he must have sth special or said sth tt was close to my heart...i wouldnt have given my no to a stranger for no reasons... o well, we'll see how things go....

hm... tml keith says he's free in the morning... may be meeting for break fast or sth.. after all, we stay so near.. haha can go jalan kayu to have delicious roti prata! hehe... we'll see how tml... who noes.. may be he'll give me some kinda bad news again.... always like tt.. getting used to it.. but still feel very irratted every time.. the feelings of kana pang seh is realli not nice...

anyway, i'm gonna meet cc in compasspoint tml for mugging.. hehe.... sounds cool..cant wait... never realli mugged with her outside before... i hope tml will be a productive day... gotta finihs 4 chem topics in order to catch up! JIA YOU!

hihi bloggie...computer is crazy again.. now gotta use my bro's lap top again... o well..it sux... hm.. spents hours toking to jasper on the fone... searching for help... didnt mug much today again.. just two siple topics..thermo and AC... feel quite guilty....
but actually it was kidna a nice day... sweet in a way... met keith in the morning... ever since then...he seems to be very attached to me... i feel needed...and tt's realli cool...... muahaha... tt's me la..cant help it... he whines like a gal... complains about y i never reply his sms like wad i always do.... haha.... and he's so excited when he sees me... like a whiny little puppy.... :P not sure how things will turn out between us in future.. but rite now..it's cool... :)
back to my studies... realli gotta do a lot of mugging tml...if not i'm realli dead.... haha.... supposed to be a "chao mugger" now..

hi blog.. i'm sad... damn it... why r guys like tt? they give u so much hope for a min.. and the nest min, they drop it all down like from a tall building.. all shattered by the time it reaches the floor... this sux man... i'm "reaching the floor".. have enuff stress.. cant handle this.. i need to run away... all sickening guys BUG OFF! why make things so complex? why play hard to get? ARGHHhhh... saty away if u wanna play such silly games.. i can take up the challenge but i dun have enuff strength and time to do tt now... so BUG OFF! ysys.. the same song is playing in my head....

I've been waiting all day here for you babe
so won't you come sit and talk to me
and tell me how we're gonna be together always
i hope you know that when it's late at night
I hold on to my pillow tight
and think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone) could make me feel this way
(now that you're here boy all I want) is just a chance to say
get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me
it's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
cause I know, about her (move)
and I wonder (why)
how I bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

A human being is only interesting if he's in contact with himself. I learned you have to trust yourself, be what you are, and do what you ought to do the way you should do it. You have got to discover you, what you do, and trust it.
Barbra Streisand (1942 - )

Repetition does not transform a lie into a truth.
Franklin D. Roosevelt (1882 - 1945), radio address, October 26, 1939

A mind troubled by doubt cannot focus on the course to victory.
Arthur Golden, Memoirs of a Geisha

Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.
Alan Watts

All love that has not friendship for its base, is like a mansion built upon sand.
Ella Wheeler Wilcox, O Magazine, February 2004

Sometimes when you look back on a situation, you realize it wasn't all you thought it was. A beautiful girl walked into your life. You fell in love. Or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation, or maybe just a brief moment of vanity.
Henry Bromel, Northern Exposure, The Big Kiss, 1991

havent come online at such a "early time" for pretty long time... man... i hate mugging... but well, i'm kinda on the rite track now... at least i am improving..can sit and mug for 2 hours now...
sianz.. i'm kinda sick of my blog skin already... but it's still SOOO CUTE!!! hehe :P wen to blogskin.com to look at new skins... but nah... there were a few pretty nice ones.. but not impressive enuff..not "me" enuff... perhpas i shall learn how to make my own after Alevels..

read efei's blog again just now... somehow i still think of him sometimes... it's like.. he still holds a place in my heart.. afterall, he's the first guy whom i have mutual feelings for at the same time... i dun like to run away from my problems... dun like to let time "dissolve" them.. it;s still there isnt it? u noe it... when efei told me tt he prefers to stay as frens and isnt sure of his feelings for me anymore, i forgot to ask him why tt happened so suddenly... WHY? it's kinda unfair isnt it? the qn still bothers me now and then.. whenever i think of him... i guess tt's probably the main reason why i still think of him when i already knew it's close to impossible for us to be together....

got a message from jimmy in frenster too... are we still frens? i dunno... actually i'm afriad of seeing him again... i wan to keep a distance... and i realli mean a distance... he's like realli changed... and i onli noe of the bad part...so ya... look at his frens list.. it's like soft porn... my oh my... but i guess he's becoming more concerned of his studies now... asked me how i deal with my studies and stress from it... ya..i gave him some tips..hope it'll help him.. anyway diff study methods work for diff pple..so i'm not sure if it works for him anyway...

hm.. and keith... didnt hear from him tonite... surprisingly realli sad... i could scream and shout into his ears... punch him like a punching bag if he's here now... but well.. he's sad... tt's wad he claims... i wonder y he's sad? screwed up driving test again? try again den... life is full of failures.. we just have to learn from them, learn from our mistakes and come back stronger to fite back even harder... wad's wrong with failing? and sometimes i wonder, if he knows about my blog, do he read it? i hope my previous blog didnt make him sad... well, tt's if he read it... but it's realli wad i feel sometimes... all tt stress... cant handle it soemtimes... i am strong willed, stubborn by nature... softball made me a more determined gal... but ya... soemtimes i still feel weak... feel like i need someone or sth to pull me up and share some of my problems... ya tt's proabably when i feel like i need love... the need to be protected and pampered... o well, keith... if u do read my blog... i meant wad i've been telling u... and there's more to why i havent said yes.... so many doubts... i'm scared...

Oh my.. i just looked at my own blog... jus realised how long i havent blogged! haha.. taking a break from mugging chem now... i'm trying to get up my "mugging mountain"... moutain..coz it's gonna be a high peak , higher than Mt Everest when i take my Alevels... haha... hope so...

hm... cleared my GP Prelims yesterday... i wa so scared.. coz i havent been doing well ever since i step into VJC.. i'm not a language person u see... such stuff doesnt come naturally to me... i spent my whole sunday trying to read about sci & tech... well, i guess it's worth it... i may not score well for laguage.. but i'm pretty sure i have lots of examples to support my arguments.. well, provided the arguments are rite of coz... :P It was a tough paper1 like wad ms rajan said..but i guessed it was "difficult" in a good way.. coz i have onli 1 question that i'm very sure i could write on.. haha...didnt spend much time trying to figure out which to write on... coz i dunno how to write for the other 11... not a single bit on them... muahaha... and the compre? oh my... i'm so dead... i didnt even realli understand some of the questions.. cham cham!!

o... just read yufee's blog too.. my god... he's in his 3rd phase for revision?!!! i just started!! *faint
stress man... i just wish to clear prelims with at least a B for 2 of them and a A for probably maths or physics... must mug hard for physics and chem after prelims... they're still not as stable as maths... especially my chem... alamak... like quadratic curve... up and down.. have max and min.... hm.. probably becoz i just started studying, i still feel like i'm lost... not sure if i can finish everything before prelims itself starts...

ya.. den comes stuff tt shouldnt be bothering me now... tt's love... cant help it.. i'm a drama queen, an attention seeker.... cant live without all the attention i need.. and ya.. love... sigh... things get more complex when u grow older... now i understand why my mum wanted me to go to a gal sch and hopefully be free from all the love prob i may get... and may be tt's y... i cant handle this prob now... i've never experienced such a thing before... all my ex or pple who had feelings for me, are not from my sch... they're my outside sch frens.... it's like u dun get to see the person day in day out... some things are simpler that way... and now... i feel like i've lost a good fren... we cant talk like before... he's so cold to me when we chat in msn... or at least i tried... it feels weird when we go out like for lunch in a group... we tok to everyone else in the group except each other... WHY? this sux man... it sux to lose a fren... i hate tt... i should have kept a distance in the first place... to avoid such stuff from happening if i knew it would turn out this way... i would rather keep a life long fren den to lose one this way...

CC told me yesterday about their little chat... Have he ever popped the question? NOT tt i noe of... How do a guy jio a gal? i'm sorry to say this.. but it's a very normal thing for me to go for a movie with a guy fren alone... it can be "no strings attached"... cant' it? Is it realli fair to blame me for not giving u a chance? Is it fair to blame Keith for swaying my heart towards him? How much do u noe about me? about keith? about wad and how much keith has done for me and to win my heart? It's probably becoz it's ur first time... probably becoz u havent gone out with a ger fren alone.... probably becoz u dun understand enough wad a gal needs from her guy and hence how to win her heart... i dun bame u.. but dun blame me for wadever stuff u r disapointed or angry with.. neither should u be blaming Keith... he noes bout u too.. but all he's doing or more like trying to do is to have faith in himself, to do his stuff, do his best to win my heart.. and ya.. i admire tt... and u? sigh... becoz of the way this is going, i'm glad that sch has ended... study break has started... at least we wont see each other so often.. can avoid those weird embarassing moments...

and keith... ya.. he's doing his thing.. getting sweeter day by day... besides all his sweet talking, he's trying to prove himself with actions too... making little scarifices... bla bla... hm.. i like tt... but then again... not onli towards him... ever since i broke up with jimmy... ever since efei wanted to be frens onli after giving me so much hope... i've lost trust in love... plus the upcoming prelims and Alevels, i'm afraid of giving up my heart again, with the risk tt it may be crushed some day... if tt happens, i'll be a goner... i'll lose faith in love again.. lose my self esteem tt took lots of effort and years to build up... lose my confidence... lose my trust for guys out there.. and to worst is to do badly for my A levels... nono.. i wont let tt happen.... sigh... may be i'm better off alone... but... argh...

I've been waiting all day here for you babe
so won't you come sit and talk to me
and tell me how we're gonna be together always
i hope you know that when it's late at night
I hold on to my pillow tight
and think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone) could make me feel this way
(now that you're here boy all I want) is just a chance to say

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me
it's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
cause I know, about her (move)
and I wonder (why)
how I bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

tell me why you're looking so confused
when I'm the one who didn't know the truth
how could you ever be so cold?
to go behind my back and call my friend
boy you must've gone and bumped your head
because you left her number on your phone
(so now after all is said and done)
maybe I'm the one to blame but
(to think that you could be the one)
well it didn't work out that way

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me
it's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone (you to be gone)
cause I know, about her (move)
and I wonder (why)
how I bought all the lies (all the lies)
you said that you would treat me right (you said that you)
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time) I

wanted you right here with me
but I have no choice, you've gotta leave
because my heart is breaking with every word I'm saying,
boy I gave up everything I had
on something that just wouldn't last
but I refuse to cry no tears will fall from these eyes (ohh, ohh)
get out!

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me (you and me)
it's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone (you to be gone)
cause I know, about her (move)
and I wonder (why)
how I bought all the lies (how did buy all your lies?)
you said that you would treat me right (you said that you)
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me (hey yeah)
it's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone (you to be gone)
cause I know, about her (move)
and I wonder (why)
how I bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right (treat me right)
but you was just a waste of time (ooh)

get out (leave)
(you and me) it's too late (now)(too late) (you)
about her (move)(why)
you said that you would treat me right
but you was just a waste of time(waste of time) (ohh)
Leave!

yeah.. my comp has finally recovered.. all thanx to my mummy... so smart! hm... i think i better not d/l any more stuff from the net.. if not my comp will kana virus again... hm... it's week 8! 4 more weeks to the main papers of prelim..and i havent realli started studying yet... i'm so dead! i hope everything turn out well...
hm... so.. havent blogged for soem time again... o well.... let's reflect back..
o ya..on my bdae... hm.. it wasn't exactly a good day... firstly, i had a bloody physics test early in the mroning which i couldnt finish! i guessed even if i could, it wouldnt make much a difference, considering tt i didnt know how to do so much stuff...
hm... hm met Keith... and ya.. as usual late again! but it wasnt so bad since i was in shopping mood... but too bad didnt get to buy anything... hm... o and he treated me to Kenny Rogers... i was kinda blur coz it was my first time eating at Kenny Rogers.. too paiseh... didnt wanted to admit or show my "sua-kuness" so i asked him to help me make my orders.. and Xinglong called just in time to wish me happy bdae.. haha... he saved my day.... hm... i was so shocked when i saw tt tiny small piece of black pepper chicken on my plate! the side orders like coleslaw and mashed potatoes filled more than half of the 3/5 of the plate! 0_o i tot it was kinda pathetic.. but well, i still cant finish all tt food... i was like half filled when i finsihed half the coleslaw..
hm.. den we watched collateral.... hm...not bad..bout not a "wow"... o ya.. we managed to sneak up tto the couch seats which cost twice of tt of a normal seat... hehe.. was realli comfy....
after tt, we went to sky garden.. took some photos there... haha... funny photos and of the beautiful scenery there... O! den we to the singapore Pools branch near my house to buy 4-D! hehe... wa so sad..i almost strike 4-D ... the winning no is mine jumbled up! anyway, it was a good start... hehe.. means i'm kinda lucky heh? shall buy more :P
hm... den at nite.. went to chomp chomp to have my fav prawn mee!!!! :p~ haha.. o ya... and as usual the sugar cane drink uncle gave us free drinks... :P
and on sat..well, couldnt meet xinglogn as planned coz my mum wanted to bring us to queensway to buy shoes... ya.. i'm wearing them now... a lto cheapr than other places.. good buy... haha..sorry xinglong..... but at least i know tt u remembered.. it's the tot tt counts... :)
o and i met his frens in queensway instead.. ian and josh.. so surprised... yup yup...
eh...ok.. time to do maths tutorial..byeeeee!!!

yea yea.... it's wednesday... actually it's gonna be quite a stressful week... have two bloody lecture assesment this week! AH! i'm gonna faint! i still have four topics... 2 to complete on each of the next two days... alamak.... HOW? HOW? i'm still struggling.. but i guess i shant be too bothered if i can finish them..after all, prelims and alevels are all tt realli matters.... i'm studying for them not just tt two bloody test!
hm... just had quite a long chat with Ms Rajan about my testimonial... it was pretty cool... havent tok to a teacher for tt long before.... hm... i belive wad i wrote should be pretty useful to her.. despite all my crappings which made it three pages long! haha.... i like to tell pple about myself! :P
o ya.. yesterday xinglong sms me... haha wad a surprise.. and he wants to bring me out for dinner! hehe... realli looking forward to fri coz it's my birthday! i'm glad that my frens remember... fri celebrate with keith in the afternoon, nite with family... and sat with xinglong! haha...sounds like a great weekend... anymore presents that i should be expecting from anyone?! :P bleah.. i'm excited huh? :P i'm happy! not becoz i'm gonna get treated.. it's becoz i know that i have true frens... good frens who still remember me after not contacting frequently for so long...
ciao blog! miss u... and will visit u more often when my STUPID comp has recovered!

O fuck! i'm stuck at home.. wanted to go play pool this afternoon... damn it.. my mum didnt allow me and my bro to go out... and she was god damn angry!? angry for wad seah! i cant believe it..
i cant stya at home and mug all the time! ok.. ya... perhaps i didnt exactly study a lot...but i did! and it's a holiday!!!! argh..... and she probabaly think that i didnt study for god noes how many days becoz she didnt see me study! argh!!!!! so irritating!!!!
and becoz she was so angry... i dun dare to ask her if i can go to the pasar malam.... there's this skirt i wanted to buy last nite... but i gave myself a day to consider again... so tt i wont regret buying it after tt.... and guess wad! i'm stuck at home!!!! argh!!! sux to the power of sux.. and ya.. my parents and grannies are having so much fun! playing mahjong! crap! den why keep me at home when i've got nth to do! i'm so going nuts... i need a punching bag!!!!
fuck fuck fuck! i hate staying at home! i hope she's not going to take leave on tue... it's realli going to be the worst 4 days this year! it's a torture! it's hell!

dao says my blog is very sad and moody... issit realli tt bad? i guess it's sth that gives me space to reflect on my day... complain about stuff...and bla bla... and most of the time, wad i write here are wad i felt at that moment... it may not be so at other times... i dun realli bother whther pple read my blog.. i'm sure there are a few regulars.... but well, y should i hide anyhthing?
hm... anyway, i went swimming yesterday.. for the first tiem in my life alone in the pool! it wasnt tt bad... it was so damn bloody crowded... i had to walk along the sides of the pool so that i could find some space away from the crowd... and ya.. now i understand why soem guys like to go swimming... not onli for exercise... the bonus is that u get to see babes in bikinis... well, there were onli 2... with not so wow figures... but hehe... i bet the guys were nose bleeding.. :P and ya.. there were so many guys sun tanning.... the healthy tanned sporty type tt i like.. my kind... :)~ ok..just kidding... perhaps i shall go sun tanning like those guys one of these days... and i think my face is a little more tanned after tt swim... 10 laps!! never realli swam so much before... becoz ost of the time, i hit the pool with either my frens or fmaily.. never alone.... and ya.. we ende up chatting and playing around... hm.. i hope it helps... i still think tt i'm growing a little fatter... :P my face is rounder... and my waist? ah..tt's the worst part.... i hate it... like a big bucket!
the last time i went to watsons, this salesgal introduce me to some kind of slimming gel... she showed me some newspaper reports of how effective the product is... i wonder if it's reliable... it's 90 bucks! so ex.. wonder if i should get it...

hohoho... i havent blogged for like so long... too bad comp crashed...so shitty.... ya so i'm using the school's one now.... anyway, went to hcjc fun fair on saturday.... it was ok... except that the food was...erm... not very edible... ahnd the nacho cheese..alamak... the cheese was like water.... almost tasteless! luckily i had meisiang with me.... ya.. realli appreciated her company... and i sae jieli and his crush... hehe.... :P actually they make quite a gd pair... but too bad.. i herad his date was pretty short.... o ya... but of coz... i saw quite a few of our rival team.... especiallt the guys... so act seh... must wear jersey somemore.... but haha... ya la.. like me la.. proud of their achievements, their school and themselves... even though they didnt win the title.. :P .... o ya.. i was hoping to find out and see who's they guy who wanted my no.. but too bad huh.. i didnt even noe wad's his name... well, i have no intentions to apprach him or wadever... just wan to noe how the 2nd guys who ever asked for my contacts in my life, looks like.. :P
o crap... i havent even catch brotherhood... and it's already august... shitty.... gotta start to mug!