Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Which horror movie maniac are you?

HASH(0x8adb77c)

You are Jason
Voorhees.


You are an
unstoppable killing machine. You are an expert
on killing unprepared and on the fly. Calm by
Nature you never feel the need to chase down a
victim. They need to be punished and sooner or
later the long arm of your law will reach them.
Your mother knows you are a good little boy.
'Blessed' by your mother, you will never die,
so your blood rein sees no end in sight.


Which Horror Movie Maniac are you?
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What Is Your Soul's Trait?

HASH(0x8aa3420)
Your soul is OPEN-MINDED. Although you do have
strong opinions and make decisions, you never
make them without thinking first of not only
everything that is, but those that may not be
as well. People trust that you'll willingly
hear them out and understand when they tell you
something, and you are well-liked for it. You
are often the mediator in disputes and your
desire to do what is right overcomes all else.
You are an understanding and admirable soul.


What Is Your Soul's Trait?
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What Sign of Affection Are You

True true true!!!

cuddle and a kiss
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed


What Sign of Affection Are You?
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What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

You're Sensitive and you'd like to stay that way..

-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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hehe... :P

Your Heart is Red


What Color is Your Heart?
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THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need?

wow! this is almost totally true... pro!!!

7


LOVING ONE. You need safety in your relationship.
You want to be sure in his/her arms, knowing
that he will protect you and you can be totally
devoted to your other. At this point you are
very vulnerable. You open yourself and dont
even think that he/she could cheat you. You
totally trust your partner in every single way.
SO if you find out that she/he lied to you or
played a game this trust is broken. You may try
to forgive your other but this will be very
difficult.He/She has to be friendly and
trustworthy.


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is this reali true? o tt reminds me tt i'm wearing braces in 2 weeks time!!!

is this reali true? o tt reminds me tt i'm wearing braces in 2 weeks time!!!

entrancing
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


What kind of kiss are you?
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hehe..another one.. but this is stupid

o well, i'm simply bored... this is real stupid...

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Power Rangers Movie!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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what candy am i?

cara
You're a Caramel!! You are known for your
sweetness. You are comfortable with yourself,
and help others feel the same way about
themselves. You are generally friendly to
everyone, and believe in second chances.


Which kind of candy are you?
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yo blog.. havent seen ya for quite a few days... hehe... well, i've finally finished my block test.. anyway, it sux... i couldnt do this 10 marks essay question and this 6 marks nmr.. fed up... but who cares.. it's over and i cant do anyhting about it... :P well.. didnt study hard enough.. cant think fast enough.... i'll have to start mugging from next week again.. make sure i noe all my topics well... get ready for prelims! yeah... well, for now, i just hope to pass all three of them.. and hopefully not to badly too... ya... hm.. efei sms me yesterday...finally... hm.. we're more like before now... more like normal frens... k..i guess i was too sensitive.. perhaps he's realli stressed and feeling down... i've been too selfish.. always demanding him to sms me.. but wad to do.. hehe... it's kinda difficult to get over someone u like u noe? well, for now... i shall concentrate on my studies and go out more often with my classmates? i just realised that i've never realli hung out with with them even thoguh we've been classmates for like 1 and a half year... i can onli remember watching Honey with Yanying and Shili, all the pool days with the guys...and eating twice in Pasta Mania with Daoyong and gang (including today).. quite pathetic huh?

Sunday, June 27, 2004

found this when i was looking for new skins

Forget his name
Forget his face
Forget his love
His warm embrace

Forget the love that you once knew
Remember that he has someone knew
Forget him when they play your song
Remember when you cried all nite long
Forget how close you two once were
Remeber he has chosen her

Forget you have memorised his walks
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the things he used to say
Remember he has gone away

Forget his laughter
Forget his grin
Forget the dimples on his cheek
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember he's with her tonite

Forget the time that went so fast
Forget the love that moved it's past
Forget that he'd leave you never
Remeber that he's gone forever
sth i found from the net...

perfect by nature
icons of self indulgance
just what we all need
lies about a world that
never was and never will be
have you no shame don't you see me
you know you have got everybody fooled
mummy's coming home this afternoon...

hm... waiting for my tuition teacher to come... o yea...i'm so going to screw up my common test... i did sort of covered everything but it's like i feel that i noe nuts about anything... haha.. just hope that i can pass all three.... not having high hopes.. how can i? as in.. i've been enjoying this holiday... sorta.... it could be better without the stupid common tests... well, think i went out a lot... especially the last two days..haha... it's like just the last three days to common test...when pple are mugging real hard..n me? like wad xinglong said "no government".... muahaha... i realli do enjoy these two days..all that freedom... but time realli flew!!! i wan more of these! anyway, i realised that i didn't write about yesterday...
let's reflect back:

i didnt have lunch yesterday u noe... no appetite... and when i ate dinner, i felt like puking.... even supper... wonder if i'm sick or wad... well, anyway, i met xinglong at 5...supposedly.. -.-" i tot i would be late..but i wasnt.. and guess wad..tt xinglong was 25 min late!!! o gosh..and we met at lavender..there's like nuts to shop... -.-" anyway, i was realli happy and honoured that he asked me out rite after he booked out..hehe... showed that he do treasure me as a gd fren... i like the attention... tt's me :P hm.. den we went to beach road.. he had to sette quite a lot of stuff that's related to his ns...police thingy... made new copies of keys.... bought lots of singlets! and shortened his pants to a suitable length... i think i should be more vocal when i'm outside... it pays off... like xinglong... he's kinda good in bargaining... did it an a jokin way... he talked to all the uncles and aunties selling stuff there... yup..den.. went to bugis..had mos burger for dinner..ya felt like puking after half a packet of fries... he had to help me finish it.. and we were discussing about youngsters smoking.. coz we were sitting beside the window... there were so many guys in pink! haha... in trend now huh? ya..anyway, there are like a lot of little gals and boys smoking..and i realli mean LITTLE... they're like super underaged... around 13 onli? i cant stand smokers... as in... it's so smelly... so unhealthy... u get lung cancer and all other respiratory health problems from smoking... and some of the toxins actually make ur blood veseels clot more easily rite? one day, they sould cut open their body and look at their own lungs! black like wad seah! i saw one in a science exhibition.. i wouldnt wan my lungs to become so black and ugly.. and disgusting!
hm.. o ya.. and xinglong saw this "pretty" gal.. i'm not sure if he tot she was pretty.. coz he said if she was his gf, he wouldnt have to worry that she would be stolen away by other guys... (is that an insult or a praise huh?) and i think he blushed.. he couldnt stop smiling.. haha... and it was constagious... i think it's the first time i saw him like that.. it's just kinda cute... cute becoz i dunno how else to descibe him..
o well, then we met josphua and the chio bu, zhen zhen... ho... she was from jjc track..da mei nu.... if i'm a butch, i'll jio her... haha.... we went to cine k box.. my 3rd time in ktv... haha... not used to it.. so didnt sing much.. hehe... the onli song i remembered singing properly was jolin's shuo ai ni... ya... sang it with zhen zhen.. and ever since den she keep asking me to sing... she actually like my voice.. haha... flattering... i feel that i'm more of a bathroom singer.. hehe... it's nice. i think i shall go ktv more often after this common test or perhaps after Alevels..sux man.... hate the thought of mugging for it...
hm.. o ya.. i forgot to talk about xinglong's new hairstlye.. haha... actually i think that he's not bad looking with his "ma da kia" head..haha... very nice to touch..and he's always brushing and rubbing his head... he claims that it will help his hair grow faster..... muahaha... wonder if it's true... he looks very stressed up when he does that...
k tuition time for the brain dead zombie...

Saturday, June 26, 2004

home alone 2

home alone 2

muahaha... man... i slept at 5am this morning!!!!! watched euro this morning..my god! euro is super kay-long... how can france lose to greece? how can enlgand lose to portugal? i mean seriously.. i watched portugal's first match with greece... it's like the defence was so damn slack... the portugal defender dodged away from the bloody ball!! i wont blame beckham.. he's supposed to be gd... but a champion team dun win every game. so i guess a proster also have his bad day huh? (but that is not his first time mising a penalty shot).. anyway, when i first woke up, i was like some zombie.. but i couldnt force myself to sleep anymore... haha.. so the disciplined side of me ordered myself to finish up the last topic, Transition metals..i realise that it isnt that difficult... but i still dun feel very secure coz i'm not sure if i can remember so many things that i've studied..i dun think i noe them at my finger tips yet... but nvm... i'll start to revise again after common test 3... start to prepare for WAR! hehe... ;P o and guess wad... when i was realli sad, my buddy, xinglong came to my mind... realli wished that someone could be there to listen to my complaints and allow me to cry in his arms... well, of course that didnt happen... but haha.. my fairy god mother heard me... he's booking out today... yeah yeah... i'm sure he'll be able to cheer me up... hehe... actually it's kinda weird huh... it's like we clique... he's the closest (guy) fren i have... i tell him all my secrets.. all my problems... but we both know it's impossible for us to get together... why huh? sometimes i wonder... but then... i like it this way... it may be very different if things changed... hey dun get the wrong idea....i'm not jumping from a guy to another... not tt easy k.... just sth i've been wondering... and i can prove my mum wrong.. haha.. a guy and a gal can be frens.. very gd frens onli... coz i have one... :P
home alone!!!!

haha.. i had lots of fun tonite... or more of today? haha... look at the time... it'slike wad? 2 plus am? it feels great... i enjoyed going out with my younger brother today... went to chomp chomp to eat.. had hokkien mee... wa.. delicious man!!!! never had such nice hokkien mee for a long long time!!! :-)~ o ya... and i wonder y... the guy selling sugar cane drink said hi to me... den when i ordered one big and one small cup of sugar cane drink, he served us one medium, one big one....athe the price of a small and a big one u noe... hehe.... and he winked at me.. omg... he's like kinda old..middle aged or sth... get someone ur own age.. -.-" but it was pretty flattering.. u should have seen the pple seating beside us... so jealous of my order... haha.... their small cup of sugar cane is like half of my medium one... keke...
ya den we went to bishan for movies.. man i so wantd to go to orchard... he must be too lazy to check if there's any nice movies showin there... anyway, we watched Around the world in eighty days.... haha nice movie.. realli funny... and it's gd.. as in.. it definitely cheered me up.. i was so sad when i realised that the first guy whom i had mutual feelings for at the same time no longer likes me... well, not tt i'm not sad... but it's not so bad now... i've been reminding myself to stay strong.... anyway, guess wad... we've never been allowed to go out this late..and we were so blur and silly that we waited at the bus interchange for the stupid bus for quite some time... den realise tt the last bus went off an hour ago or sth... think we waited for quite long time coz i actually had time to learn a part of the dance that my brother learnt and performed in his poly orientation...muahaha... sound stupid rite? i've never enjoyed so much freedom before.... blasting my comp speaker with hip hop music now.. haha.. and guess wad.. drinking tiger beer!!! haha.. gd life eh?
tt's me... a wild gal... but also disciplined ok.... thanx to my mum.. realli.. as i grow older, i start to understand more of y she always nag and scold us.... especially the times when she realli punish us when we do worng stuff when we were young... i start to agree with her... i realise how wild i can get... i mean i dun realli consider wad i did today as wild.... i can be worse than this.. i wanna club... haha.. but i guess if it's not for my mum, i wouldnt be who i am now... she's been very strict with me since young... like i've said.. i'm turnin 18 in august but today was the first time i stayed out until 12plus am without them... not including chalets of course.... well, i guess if she hasnt been so strict with me, i would be some ah lian now.. in some gang... clubbing all day and all nite... may be even smoking.. who knows... i dunno.... well, tt's y.. i have a wild side of e who wans to play all day and rock all nite..and a pretty disciplined side of me who knows when to seriously get down to work and mug real hard... yeah... tt's me.... thanx a lot mummy.. love u lots...

A poem from my younger brother...

A poem from my younger brother...

Jealousy

A chill blade in icewind dale,
a jest of lemon cruel grill.
It is foul in human nature,
uncomprehensive to the normal mind.
Yet it should be welcomed,
as it clones a picture.
It indicates a sweet scented rose,
of uncommon nature.

knows what he's trying to say?

Friday, June 25, 2004

i shall be the mighty, invincible Shirley again...

i shall be the mighty, invincible Shirley again...

ok.. problem resolved... i shall be the mighty, invincible Shirley again... as i've expected.. his feelings has faded... tt's fast eh? but well, i guess i ahve to accept it... it's true..such things do happen... i'm pobabaly not who he wanted.. may be i just reminded him of tt person... anyway, he told me tt he is used to being completely independent... well, i'm marking his words.. it's gd... it's no bad... but i guess i should be accepting him for who he is... and if he is realli that independent, den... unfortunately, he's not the one i'm looking for... well, i'm sad... i cried... but i'm glad that this is taken off my shoulder now... i'll be alright.. i'm Shirley rite? Shirley can overcome all obstacles.... hehe... :)

love me for who i am... i love u for who u r...

Thursday, June 24, 2004

well, true enuff... he hasnt msg me since yesterday afternoon.... i get the hint... i'll back off... just dun come and say anythign sweet to me anymore... dun do anythign sweet to me.. dun make me think that u realli like me.. i dun wanan fall into tt trap anymore... think i'm crazy? may be i am... SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!!

Wednesday, June 23, 2004

a possible solution...

haiz.. i give up.. i've decided not to take any more intiatives.. he's just going to be a normal fren.. i had enough... even somone i just noe, sms me more than him... i dunno wad he's busy with... i dun wanna noe... had enough... i am convinced that wad he meant by "liking me" was just a causal remark... the contradicting thing was the sweetest thing he did to me... probably one of the sweetest thing a guy has ever done for me... but ai ya.. may be he's tt sweet to everyone else.. who noes? i give up... i realli dunno wad to think... dunno wad i am to him... he probably just wanna be frens onli... nth mroe than tt.. fine then... i'll take tt...

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

things seem to be getting better this way....

hi blog.. havent write for a few days... hm... i'm pretty stressed by all the mugging lately... holiday is gonna end soon.. it's the last week... actually, we shouldnt call it holiday.. it's not... it's more like a study break... but hm.. i think i did enjoyed my holiday so far... coz i did go out quite often... but at the same time, that's y i feel guilty too... i didnt study hard... didnt study enough.. tt's y i'm rushing now... and i'm not sure if i still can remember the topics that i studied in the beginning of the holiday..muahaha... i don't expect to do very well for this common test.. but hopefully, not too bad?
hm... i've survived thru more than two days without hearing or recieveing any sms from him... haha.... wad an achievement.. i'm quite surprised that these two days weren't as bad as i thought.... may be becoz i'm too caught up with my work.. didnt have much time to think so much about us... hm... i've told a few frens about my problem.. they all ask me to talk to him.. tell him how i feel.. but then again, if he never wanted or expected this to develop into something deep and serious, wouldnt it be weird for me to tell him all that? to tell him about my doubts, how crazy and sad i got? or may be a better solution would be to play softball or mug when i start to think about him, or the problem.... concentrating into my studies or playing softball seems to work... i wont be thinking about anything else except wad i'm supposed to be doing then.... hm... haiz... i dunno.. we'll see... he should be coming back today... or probabaly tonite... we'll see if he continues to be like tt... (hopefully not....)