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Your Birthdate: August 13

Being born on the 13th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer, but it may also give you a tendency to dominate people a bit. You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize. Sincere and honest, you are a serious, hard working individual. Your feeling are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times. You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details. Your intolerance and insistence on complete accuracy can be irritating to some.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

i fried my diy ice cream~!

yea... jus got back from marina square, sukiyaki n teppankyaki buffet.. hehehe.. believe it or not.. i had 11 favours of ice cream~! muahaha... it's basically similar to seoul garden... meat no seasoned as well as seoul garden's but they had sushis n my fac baby octopus, etc~! ate a lot of tt.. hehehe :P hmmm... unfortunately, no sashimi, if not... wahahaha... but of coz, it wouldnt be so cheap then... i think dinner week end onli about 21? well +++ la..

ooo n it's realli interesting tt u can "fry" ur own ice cream... hm.. they had this flavoured liquid in little cups.. hmm.. n they'll clean up ur table, turn the hot plate to cold one where u can make ur own diy ice cream.. when it';s cold enuff,m the liquid changes to semi solid form realli quickly... they have like 16 flavours.. i had 11... wahahaha~! eat more n grow fat~! how to diet like tt? lol.. hmmm.. orange sherbet n fresh orange r refreshing n nice... champagne's cool.. haha.. next time i shall try the other 5 tt i missed, yam, banana, walnut, grape n one more.. i cant remember.. hee.. :P

sigh.. another wk gone... didnt do much.. tried to mug.. but with so much happening, projects, meetings, lectures, tutorials.. how to seah? sigh... worried worried...

my new blogskin~!

hee changed blog skin again.. lol...
hmm.. isnt it nice?
pink.. the colour my mum used to force me to dress in..
haha.. pple change, dun they?
i'm starting to like purple too..
the hot funky bright purple.. n pink of coz..
hmm.. this skin kinda speaks of where i am right now in my life..
but still dun feel very contented with it..
bcoz sth seems to be missing..
not attitude enuff.. not shirley enuff.. yea..

hmmm... new stage of life..
some old r/s breaks, some new ones are formed..
funny how pple change..
how much pple can change..
n hence how r/s suffers or get affected becoz of so..
but it is inevitable i guess...

if u wan it to last,
make it happen..
do sth..
compromise..
dun let it be the excuse for the failure of ur r/s
if it aint worth it,
den f**k it..
dun waste each others' time..
move on...

it isnt tt difficult to be alone..
single n avaliable has it's pros too..
u can bieo any yandao whenever u wan..
tok about them with ur frens like no one's biz...
get closer to opp sex w/o worrying..
n lots more freedom of coz..

but love is sweet..
hong keat asked me..
n ya.. i prefer to be loved if u let me choose..
i would rather marry someone who loves me more than i love him..
i'm selfish..
cant help it..
gals are more xinfu when they r being loved..
i wanna be one of them.. lol.. :P

read yimin's blog tt day..
it's a fact tt exams are in less than 4 weeks..
but look on the bright side..
it's also a fact tt holidays r in less than 5 weeks.. wahaha..
so looking for dec holidays...
i gg for slc, pru chalet, cruise, fwc prep..
wad's more in for me?!

time to start mugging.. i hope..

yea... went to watch movie today... hehe... happy happy~! i realli hate mugging la... sianz... so unfulfiling.. sigh.. 4 more weeks to final papers... must start mugging.. today shall be my last day for slacking..

o n must start doing sit ups n exercise more.. i m realli growing fat~! o ya.. i ate super lots today... hm.. banana chocolate cake at secret recipe.. n got to taste baked cheese too.. wahah.. hey it's dman cheap~! 1 for 1~! shall go eat more.. wahaha... oops.. no i m supposed to be on diet~! hm... den or fillet burger meal.. with cheese fries... den jumbo fish ball... wahaha... it must be the company...

n like half an hour later, when i met my family, i ate another banito... wahaha... realli growing fat.. n i just had red bean soup.. o no... i am having food therapy..

o well... seems like i dun realli have much to say...

i'm just a happy happy ger today... :)

o man.. exams r like in a mth time.. n just dun have the mood to mug.. sigh... i realli wanna go out chiong.. have some fun... becoz i wont get any for like the next 4, 5 weeks... sianz... sigh... y must we have exams?

been rotting at home the whole day.. did nth constructive.. n man d.e. is tough seah~! i need more practice.. hmmm...

yea.. tml going to watch flightplan.. hehe... at least sth...

shall try to mug hard from mon onwards.. :P

i dunno y i'm here... watching tv... haha cant seem to write anything here... :P

i love you

Yesterday you asked me something
I thought you knew
So i told you with a smile
Its all about you
Then you whispered in my ear
And you told me too
Said you make my life worthwhile
Its all about you

And i would answer all your wishes
If you ask me to
But if you deny me one of your kisses
Don't know what I'd do
So hold me close
And say three words like you used to do
Dancing on the kitchen tiles
Its all about you, yeah!

The Bottom Line
Your opinions will be challenged when you meet someone who's different.

In Detail
Make your reservations -- and make them without any reservations, if you'll pardon the pun. You're totally overdue for some fun, you're beginning to think that this 'all work and no play' thing isn't doing wonders for your disposition, and you're also wondering if your relationship might not benefit from a bit of time away together -- alone, that is. Sounds like a plan. Now choose your destination -- and please don't forget to ask for the input of your traveling companion.

My opinions of what? friendster knows me well... this is scary...

i'm already looking forward to dec holidays.. planning activities for dec holiday.. fwc planning, pru slc, pru chalet, catching up with softballers, pri sch buddies, jc classmates may be.. n i m hoping tt i can find time to go back coach my tk juniors.. miss softball.. miss them.. miss coach...

been considering if i wanna stay in hall next sem.. unfortunately, i dun have the time to go earn money so tt i can pay everything myself.. cant do it in year 2.. will prob be too busy by then.. n besides, there r so mnay events for pru next sem.. think it makes sense staying in hall since i'll have to go home late pretty often..

talked to weijie, paulene, serene my cousin... shears or kent ridge? the less happening or the more happening? frens' company or cousin's company? which block to stay in?

the main reason y i wanna stay in hall is to experience hall life... an opportuinity to learn how to take care of myself... will be useful if i wanna go for sep...

ahh too much sensoring done.. i am blogging for the sake of blogging.. so no pt.. chao..

what is frenster horoscope saying?

From friendster:

The Bottom Line
You know what you want -- so put your energy into getting it. Be enthusiastic.

In Detail
When it comes to relationships, what you're offering is like gold. What you insist upon is someone who can provide you with nothing that even remotely resembling 'the usual' -- in any department. This doesn't necessarily mean that you'll try to entice someone, who's currently attached, away from their current situation, but if you did -- well, let's hope it would be only because you were sure that you and they would have a long-term relationship that would be better for both of you. Right?

I dun understand seah.. my england too poor.. just got back my critique.. sigh.. didnt do well again.. a lil better than summary.. but it still sucks... sigh... when can i do as well as chong hua and all the smarties? sob.. :( feel unhappy.. n havent tok to anyone about it.. perhaps i should approach ms pang soon.. ask for help to improve my ctw... cant afford to do badly.. it will affect my cap..

ah exams is in wad.. 6 weeks time.. it's freaking everyone out... i shud be studying already.. but i just cant find the time.. 3 projects on hand.. nth much has been done for ctw since chonghua and melissa r both so busy.. i cant accomplish much, for the fact tt my england sucks.. shall look for more info n let them do the writing... argh... how can they expect us to finish mugging eveything in a week's time? o man... this sucks...

i've decided not to run for any project vd.. y? becoz i am pretty certain tt i will be involved in fwc.. n i realli wanna do sth for my juniors.. n hm.. sem 2 will be very xiong for me... so i am not confident of being able to commit so much time for pru events.. sob.. wad a pity... shall take on small roles in all events if possible.. hee... :P after all, i joined pru to enrich my uni life.. not to earn any cca points.. n besides, i had my fair share of 6 years of leadership... not keen to climb up to some impt pos like pres of pru anyway.. :P

sigh... sometimes i wonder if i have made the right choice.. do i think too much? shud i just do wad i want.. risk it all.. n not consider so much about whether i have the time for all tt i wanna do.. cant help it... i've learnt to prioritise in some sense.. my studies is ultimately the most impt thing now.. so.. i will not let it suffer under any circumstances.. well most circumstances.. :P think tt is sth someone needs to understand right now..

i mean ya.. of coz u have ur dreams, ur goals, things u want to accomplish in life.. but.. there r always limitations to wad u can do... life isnt perfect... u cant control time.. so... choose wisely how u wanna spend ur 24h everyday...

if i could, if i had the time, i wanna learn cooking now.. i wanna attenda make up courses now, i wanna learn jap.. i wanna vice head any projects i can get my hands onto.. i wanna play major role in fwc.. i wanna do well for all my exams n be in the dean's list for all sems.. i wanna hang out with my frens every week.. go watch movie.. play pool wadsoever... i wanna spend quality time with my mr right, feel loved n pampered n all.. i wanna make more frens.. i wanna lighten my parents' load by helping out with all the house chores.. i wanna help coach my juniors... n so much more..

there r so many things i wanna do.. but do i have the time? so unfortunately, i realised tt i am not some octopus... cant handle all at a time.. decided to pick out a few.. n leave the rest for the future.. when i have more time to accomplish them.. y hurry? i am onli 19.. always believed in completing wad's most impt first... well dun apply to all cases.. but... realli... there's a limit to wad one can do..

wad makes a gd leader? self motivation i feel is very impt.. it realli aint easy leading a grp, especially when they r all passive slackers waiting to be arrowed.. some pple prob dun like the idea of arrowing pple, like chong hua.. but after all, isnt tt part of the duty of a chairperson or leader? oversee everything, distribute duties n settle all the admin stuff.. leaders work. but wad differentiates them from the "workers" are their ability to distribute the work load... a successsful grp consist of a gd leader and gd followers... one cannot accomplish as much as an effective grp can...

ahh i dunno wad i am blabbering about already.. haha.. tt's all for my crap... i am lost for words again... time to sleep.. nitey~! o.. think paulene knows already...

i miss sat~!!

sigh... havent had so much for a long long time.. all the mugging.. not tt i am a mugger.. but it's peer pressure.. everyone's mugging so hard.. u cant stop n slack for too long.. or rather, i just feel tt i have to keep up with the pace.. nah.. cant blame it on peer pressure becoz i do work at my own pace...

took fna mid term test on sat afternoon.. rushed to nus in a cab from harbourfront.. lol.. ya was late again.. gosh cost me 7 plus bucks! can u believe it?! o well.. i like open book test... haha.. i would say tt fna test wasnt exactly tt tough.. it's more of tricky... a test of my ENGLAND.. ya england.. i find myself unable to interpret some of the qn sometimes.. i mean they just seem ambiguous... dnno if i interpret it correctly.. n hence doubtful of my answers... hope i do ok...

hmm.. n after all tt mugging, i decided to reward myself with an evening of slacking n fun!! haha... went to ps.. watch Into The Blue... tt gal.. issit jessica alba? she;s super hot! the guys in front of us were making so much noise.. prob nose bleeding over the kissing scenes and her boobs.. lol..

ahhh.. i am so envious of the couple.. ahaha... just reminds me of me.. lol... i'm touchy too! haha.. onli with my special one of coz.. well tt depends on the extent we're both comfortable with.. anyway, everything went well on sat... better than i expected in every area i suppose...

o had dinner at ichiban.. lol.. i love my ichiban set.. yum yum... but jap food is ex.. haha... still dun feel the pinch yet.. coz i didnt pay... wahaha...

n ya.. didnt do anything until sun morning..

n yes.. fourier series is terrifying!!! so many intergrations to do! yucks! i hate by parts!! spent the whole day doing it.. reading notes, wtahcing webcast tt didnt help... n attempting my tutorial.. thankfully.. i couldnt do onli qn 3... sigh.. not so bad after all..

ahh lots to do in the coming weeks... HELP~!!!

2nd post - from http://rep.astrology.com/free/9050/9559/1.html

Chapter 1: love's astrological profileSun in LeoWhen love was born, the Sun was in the Sign Leo, the Lion. love displays a great capacity for warmth, magnanimousness, generosity and playfulness. The ideal partner is an affectionate, demonstrative soul who helps her enjoy life to the fullest, encourages her inventive spirit, and isn't threatened by her charisma. If a relationship fails to provide sufficient shared joy and healthy mirroring, love may eventually feel undervalued and deprived. However, if the relationship is the sole source of her "strokes," she is courting trouble, because that's too much to ask from any one person. love would do well to have a creative outlet, and/or another source of personal affirmation and satisfaction besides the relationship

some tots about r/s discussed with weijin today..

ha... didnt bring notes to phy lecture today.. ended up reading my fna txt bk n talked about r/s with weijin.. he's so serious when we're on tt topic..

hmm... i guessed i gave it a lil more tot when weijin commented tt it was pretty fast for me to be able to get over chris in a mth plus time.. well.. perhaps so.. it sounds fast.. but i personally feel tt the reason y u broke up is an important factor here..

say if u broke up peacefully becoz u both feel tt u r not as compatible as u tot u were n decided to be frens onli.. the first few weeks or mths after breaking up, u may feel tt u have gained a bit more freedom, but nth much has changed.. u will most likely not have any problem staying as frens.. if u had, u would be patching up again..

but if u broke up becoz u were upset n disappointed with the other becoz of certain reasons, then, things wouldnt be so simple.. u may not be able to reamin as frens.. if u hated the other then, may be not forever.. but for tt period, u will not wan to keep in contact at all.. n perhaps it;s gd.. to give each other time to cool off.. to get over all of these.. n may be after several years.. i dunno.. u may be able to become frens again..

the latter applies to me.. shall not go into the details.. y so n so.. since it has all passed.. but well, i initiated the break up.. i didnt like and agree with quite ano of things about him n wad he did.. several complications were involved which resulted the hate for him building up in me.. n ya.. hence i feel tt it was much easier for me to get over tt r/s... it's like sth off ur shoulder... i'm free again.. i can finally be who i am inside..

i felt tt it was wrong.. the r/s wasnt right becoz i couldnt be who i am.. i couldnt find the comfort in him when i was down.. even when he was physically there for me.. he just wasnt the one.. diff frequency perhaps.. some may argue tt well, at leats he's there for u.. y complain? y not cherish? i appreaciate a lot as i've told him before.. but.. he isnt a soul mate to me.. n tt's wad i need.. it's no more about the lovey dovey things u do for each other.. u may be sweet.. but so wad?

i've gone past the stage where u're all concerned about the sweet little nths u say to each other.. the lovey dovey sweet stuff u do for one another.. things u read in romance comics... it is important of coz.. but perhaps i'm looking for more of the connection.. spiritual love? hmmm.. dunno how to explain it.. just feel tt i have matured a lil more.. understood a lil more about life.. seen a lil bit more.. n expecting a lil more.. amy be not more.. just sth diff... sth tt has never came into my mind.. or wasnt tt significant..

i tried to search for tt missing thing in him.. but i couldnt.. n he disappointed me much more in some other areas.. i wouldnt say tt it's all his fault.. it's mine too.. becoz i changed.. i admit tt.. i moved forward.. perhaps a lil too fast.. hmm.. i wouldnt say tt coming into uni have influenced my decision.. perhaps it did.. but it wasnt significant.. becoz.. i didnt fall for anyone i met in sch so often then.. even if i did, it wouldnt made such a big diff.. becoz we already had problems way before i came to uni.. way before fwc... perhaps even before i got my posting results.. dun quite remember when it all started...

weijin's right.. i would agree tt a lot will change when a couple who dated since sch time, go into the work force.. be it one of them or both.. u're introduced to a new environment, new pple.. n pple tend to get a lil stressed up if they have a hard time adapting to this new environment.. it's so overwhelming.. but if a couple wants to stick on together thru thick n thin, some changes will have to be made.. or rather compromisation.. nth will remain the same forever... it's up to us, it's up to the couple, the individual to change him/herself n adapt to this new environment if he/she cannot change the situation..

i never believed in finding a partner in ur class.. haha.. so my dear classmates, i'm so sorry.. lol.. it's like u see each other everyday.. as weijin has mentioned, it wouldnt matter much becoz u got used to one another.. ur other becomes ur company.. but if u were ever to be separated from each other for a period of time.. or if u cant meet one another as often as before becoz of certain things, then.. problems will arise.. haha sorry cheryl... but u r one gd example.. oops :P

hmm... sch mates r ok.. but the least.. diff class.. every individual needs their own space.. n time for ur own family n frens.. etc.. i'm sticky.. yes i am.. but i dun believe in meeting up everday.. sticking together every min, every sec if possible.. u can meet everyday.. for may be an hour? walk each other home, meet up for meals.. to study... i dunno.. but sticking together all the time is just too much...

haha think evereything may be no link after all, i typed wad my mind's saying.. tt's the way my tots flow.. :P are u lost, my dear reader? hee...

how true would this be i wonder?

Frenster has it all..

The Bottom Line
You two make a good combination. Everyone sees it. Don't take chemistry for granted.

In Detail
It's definitely time to relax, because romance is still very much on your personal agenda. Of course, you'll need to finish up your chores, balance the checkbook and shop -- but once that's over, you'll be free to fully commit yourself to the concept of nothing but recreation. You being the romantic, it won't be difficult to entice that certain companion to join you -- the one who'll be more than happy to pretend not to rush over the moment you call.

Tired of being alone.. the post getting over period is coming.. i can feel it.. especially when everyone;s so stressed up with sch work, tests n projects.. sigh.. 3 projects!! n phy is getting so compliacated by lecture... i feel stupid.. couldnt do a single qn in tutorial 3.. where's my angel? i wanna run in to his wings n hide...

blogger's cock up

i am typing my post here.. with a weird layout.. dunno wad's up with blogger... the icons are taking up such a big space in this page..

have been wanting to blog for the past few days.. was kinda free.. but i dunno y i wasnt able to find time to blog.. hmm.. havent been able to do anything constructive since mon.. after maths test.. omg.. been slacking a lot.. n thu n fri were busy days.. had nussu agm on thu nite .. wasted my 3h there.. n pru meeting on fri evening.. well wasnt tt bad..

wanna sign up to be slc facilitator since i didnt get into the comm.. man.. shall make my dec packed with lots of fun activities.. wondering if i should start giving tuition.... in dec or sth.. dunno if i can cope.. sigh...

hm... time to do some tutorials.. ah die.. i went out the whole day again.. afternoon to bishan.. hee lunch n shopping~!! o there's this new biz idea.. this interesting stall was selling hermit crabs as pets! so cool! n they r realli cute! in their colourful shells.. hahaha... hmm but super ex.. if not i will consider to keep one myself.. like wad.. 45 bucks for one?! goodness.. *hint hint~!!

ooo.. n i realised sth again.. hairstly makes a person look realli diff.. ever since i first rebonded my hair, i've been getting more attention.. ahh not bragging here.. just tt it was so obvious tt i couldnt have not noticed.. was leading ma to surf paradise... den these 2 guys in green were walking towards my direction.. they walked past me at first.. n i found out tt they reversed.. n came into the same shop.. surf paradise... yups.. think i overheard them saying, "norh.. this one looking at tt swimming costume lo"... n ya i was looking at one.. just in front of them.. i onli took noticed of them becoz they were wearing the same shirt.. wonder y.. so brother ah? hahaha...

well, it didnt realli bothered me.. then, i went to the hermit crab stall to take a look.. n they suddenly poped out beside me n started talking to the boss, asking how long they'll be there n all.. n their questions sounded pretty duh.. n i caught them looking at me twice! ahahaha... flattered.. coz one of them's quite cute.. hehehe... :P

o later found out tt they were working in fox.. just a few shops away from the hermit crab stall.. lol.. i think i saw one of them smiling at me when i walked past their shop.. hahaha... wad a day..

my hea'd getting bigger.. anyone wanna help me burst it? lol...

my 2nd post for today..

friendster might be the source of motivation.. they always seem to noe wad's happening to me..

" Pack up your troubles in your old kit bag and smile, smile, smile. In other words, your luck is about to take a spectacular turn for the better, and you can happily put away any lingering problems that have been on your mind for far too long. Before you pack everything in mental bubble wrap and put it away forever, make sure you examine each of these past conundrums and remember the lessons they taught you -- you don't want to have to learn them again! "

my physics sux...

o man... sigh... just found out my phy mid term results.. 8/15.. just pass.. how bad is tt? there were many 7s though.. n quite a lot of 10+s... sigh sigh.. so wad m i? above avg? below avg? or just avg onli? i dun wanna be avg.. this sucks.. need help in physics~!!!

hm... havent been doing much these 2 days .. ever since maths test... shag seah.. just wanna rest.. slack.. wadever... but i just got my phy marks n it sucks! needa spend more time in phy le.. havent been doing much for phy.. n all the work r piling up.. i feel so free.. n yet worried becoz i noe sth is wrong.. sth bad is coming.. i will soon be working like a bee... AGAIN~!! argh..

one sem realli fly past real fast... sigh... so looking forward to holidays.. i must play as much as i can.. haha.. havent take exams.. already thinking about holidays.. bad bad...

need some motivation to keep me going.. burning out.. or rather burnt out already... n i onli got 8 for phy.. sigh...

the cons of being "single n available"... where is the love? actually it's there.. so wad else do i need actually? cant seem to get my momentum.. sports? needa exercise more...

did i mention tt i hate travelling to n fro? y is nus so freaking far.. tml will be a long day.. wont have energy to do anything by the time i get home.. sigh... I WANNA STAY IN HALL.. may be residence will be better... sigh...

long distance relationships seldom last... if i get into one, will i survive it, i wonder? i m independent n yet dependent.. i wanna be strong.. i m strong.. n yet i m weak... very weak at times... sigh...

mom once ask me when i was with chris.. will chris affect ur decision if u have a chance to go overseas to study one day? my answer was a firm no... but then again, now when i think of it, if i do have someone, i might be affected.. i wouldnt bear to leave him alone for mths or years.. i'll miss him a lot.. but o well.. i am wad.. 19? so young.. shud go for it if i can.. it applies for him too i guess... cant bear to.. but cant help it.. no choice.. becoz it's the right thing to do..

ha y m i toking about this? o well...

ahhh i m too tired...

o man... 2 down!! 3 more to go!

had my mkt presentation n phy mid term today.. mkt presentation was quite a success.. it was engaging i feel... so interesting tt out q n a session lasted for half an hour.. haha.. n i got my first A~!!!! A- actually.. hehe... :P happy ger..

ah... for the whole of mid term i have been sleeping at 2, 3am.. waking up realli early ranging from 6-8am.. n going to sch to do projects for my 2 sartors... sigh.. burn out.. too tired.. so tired my brain felt swollen... had sore eye.. n i guess i was too tired to think properly.. brain not functioning well, n hence screwed up my phy test.. o well.. i did 10 qn.. ti-cam the other 5.. of which 4 i could have done if my brian was working... n i was basically clueless about qn 14.. ahhh so bu4 gan1 xin1~!!! sigh.. 1st test.. it's always like tt.. o sigh.. n after looking at it for another 30min to an hour, i realise there's onli 1 qn tt i cant do... ahhh~!!!! brian not working! i am so brain dead now anyway..

sigh.. there's maths on mon n i ahvent mug
think i needa destress.. tml ps invited us for his ktv bdae session.. may be i'll go.. if mum let me stay out a bit later than usual ba.. NEED A BREAK~!!!!

n my decision to sleept for like 1.5 h was correct... it wouldnt have made a diff if i used tt 1.5 to mug.. sigh...

luna gathering - shang yue hui last night

yea.. gathering again.. hee.. actually we didnt do much.. just met up, eat mooncakes, pomelo, tok cok... yub.. hmm some of us met up at munchie monkeys earlier to have dinner together.. n.. haha.. we're late again.. must always remember the one hour rule.. o well, everything's in sch anyway... yub.. o n there was this band performing.. hm... quite cool.. n the lead singer was pretty impressive.. would love to go munchi monkey again to chill out with a few frens, watch the band perform n all.. hee :)

hm.. yub.. we went to the park near arts... it was realli dark.. benches may have been dirty.. but too dark to realli see.. so i just heck care n sat down.. haha.. hmm.. den guideng n shanbing lited some lanterns n hung them on the bushes.. n loren, kah sin set up candles on the table tops... was not so bad after all... hong bee n yimin were like the main target of the suaning session.. lol... so funny.. heng shanbing n me never kana anything.. ahahaha.. i'm not very gd at verbal battles.. hee.. wols la...

hmm... ya.. n it was getting pretty late.. n we had so many mooncakes to settle.. so we started playing our fav game.. zhong ji mi ma.. alamak.. i kana once.. ate this quarter of double egg yolk mooncake.. think it's my regent hotel mooncake.. it's nice la.. but think it's a bit too heaty for me.. now dun feel very good.. yea.. luckily got seth n weijie beside me.. if not i would have kana once more.. haha felt pretty sick after tt quarter of mooncake.. o poor chee siang kana instead.. lol... hm.. was my no tt diff to guess? 22 is like my all time fav no.. my jersey no.. u would have known if u noe me well enuff..

yub.. n nice val sent us home.. hee... great.. even though we got caught in the traffic jam... n hey.. val's driving not bad wad... wad's wrong? at least i didnt get car sick.. coz i do.. when i take long bus rides or when my mum drives.. oops.. wahaha... :P

hm.. mid term starting.. i wanna have fun.. n i wanna mug hard too... mid term test will be an indicator of where i am...

frenster seems to have an answer for me..

The Bottom Line
If you want to truly understand your power, give up control from time to time.

In Detail
It's hard to let go of an old relationship, whether it's a friend you've known since kindergarten or someone you see on a daily basis. However, if the situation is getting more and more uncomfortable, and you two are getting less and less enjoyment from each other's company, it's time to evaluate what's going on with a clear and cool head. It's nobody's fault -- in fact, it's quite normal. You're just growing in different directions.

shud i heed it? wad exactly do i wan? i m weak.. i run away when i dunno wad to do.. i m fickle at times.. at times when i dunno wad to do.. o gosh i just agreed with weijin tt i m not fickle unlike most gals... wad is this?

my msn nick: %@ xUeLi @% - InCoMpLeTe- something is missing in my life

ya.. my msn nick always speaks of how i m feeling inside.. i m kinda happy with my life right now.. i mean it's alright.. but it just aint good enough.. it can be better? n it should be? feel tt sth is lacking..

perhaps one, my uni life isnt well balanced.. been mugging and mugging onli.. not used to not being active in a cca... may be so.. met sharon n szwha yesterday.. made me miss softball and my team mates so much.. they look so happy with each other.. where's my cheryl? sob sob...

hm.. besides tt, i guess i m still in the process of getting used to being alone.. "single n available".. haha.. i'm such an attention seeker i realise... it just feels weird tt there isnt anyone there throwing all his attention to me.. feel like i dun belong to anyone.. y do i need to feel so, seth one asked me.. n he's right.. i m insecure.. i m confident.. but no so after all? i need to be constantly reassured... tt's wad's missing.. ahh i m driving myself crazy.. but tt's how i feel.. tt's who i am...

decided to be more independent.. no more sticking shirley.. drew the line.. just not convinced.. no enuff to give my all.. just aint fair to me.. u gotta work harder if u realli wan it..

sth interesting from frenster again..

The Bottom Line
Let pride save you from a getting involved in a power struggle with a weak person.

In Detail
Straight answers may be hard to come by right now, especially if the questions themselves are as complicated and twisty as any maze. Clearly, the astrological lesson here is that you need to learn how to make up your own mind. Get a little clarity and focus on what you want the outcome of the situation to be, then make your decisions and stand behind them. Once your colleagues and friends see what a success you can be, they'll be coming to you for advice.

wasnt looking for answers when i read this.. after reading, i guess i can apply it to certain situations in my life right now.. went for slc comm interview just now.. it was very smooth.. just opened up n tok cock with the 2 heads.. hm.. not sure if i can get my ranked no 1 pos - public relations officer.. hope to do it with someone i noe.. may be felix.. will be fun.. will be able to achieve my aim of knowing more pple in nus.. make more frens.. hee... think the heads will be interested to tok to a chio bu n a yandao ya? lol.. anyway, yup... i was told tt we will have meetings n all starting from may be next week.. in the evenings.. hm.. well, tt's the way it is if i m gonna get myself involved.. yup.. no answers to wad i m getting myself into.. but it's wad i think i wanna do.. so.. we'll see how things come about..

oops m i making sense here? ahaha..

hm... when some things cant be said.. it gets more complicated.. sigh... things happen at the wrong time.. the insecure me is driving me nuts again.. i actually teared over such a small thing.. wad happen to u shirley? u're supposed to be stronger than before~!