SiCk & tIrEd OF UnI lIfE...

it's been 11 days since i last posted..
been so busy trying to catch up with work after the last 2 mid term papers..
n final exams are in less than a mth's time..
everyone's busy mugging...
no time for fun..
no time for bonding..
no time for nth...
if onli we have 48 h a day..
2 brains, 4 hands and teleport technology..
so we have more time to complete our daily tasks..
so that we can think faster, work faster..
n i wouldnt have to travel an hour to sch n take another hour to return..
a typical engineer's sch day is dreadfully long..
it's such a pain to travel so far..
i still wish to stay in hall sometimes..
at least i could save an hour for extra sleep n hence extra time for work..
ya but then again, hall commitments come along...
selfish i am.. i dun give a damn..
one year is the max i would stay if i were gg to...
my maths is lagging like crazy..
prog pract is coming soon...
so many tutorials to complete every week..
cant seem to find time to mug for final paper..
freakin stressed up...
my caps was washed into the drain becoz of some unfortunate events and complications..
they dun look like they're gonna climb any higher this sem..
considering the condition i;m in right now...
sigh... a high price i have to pay for all the wrong paths i've taken last sem..
to lose a first class degree..
i failed to reach my goal right from the beginning..
how encouraging..

Celebrating a Decade of TK softball..

wow time flies.. coach have been coaching for about 12 years in TK..
back from the time when the seniors have no field to train in..
they had to train in the basketball court..
even till sz wha's batch, they had to roll newspapers to make "bullets" to practice their batting because they dun have enought balls..
n my batch.. the first youngest gals to go to China for training..
it was the turning point of TK softball history..
according to Candice, we were 2nd last in SBSA, the annual softball carnival..
after we came back from Beijing, we improved so much..
n who would expect such a team to become the champions..
i personally never did realised we came so far..
until half way thru the finals..
along with Candice's batch, we became the first batch of TK gals who won the championship title for C gals..
in sec4, we were also the first batch to win B gals champs..
those were days... the speical moments i treasure most..
gg thru the worst shit n seeing ur hardwork pay off...
i love my toughest times more than the glorious moments when we win games..
becoz those were the times, we stick thru tog as a team...
i miss teamwork, miss the bonding, miss the times when we were burning with fire when we playing against some of our toughest opponents..
the juniors did not let us down ever since then..
we were always one of the top schools...
i am so proud of TKGS softball..
i truly believe, like wad Candice said last night..
Softball is the best CCA in TKGS..
but we owe all of our achievements to one person..
Coach Jo..
i havent met anyone who has so much passion and love for the sport..
her life is devoted to softball..
i was so touched and so inspired when i saw how she fought against cancer..
she continued to coach us when she was sick..
when she has to go thru chemoteraphy..
she held on and always put on an indifferent image in front of us, despite all the pain she has endured thru the treatment..
she's the strongest woman i have met.. both physically and mentally..
despite all her naggings, some of her ridiculous punishments like "eating grass", she is actually a very motherly and caring coach in my heart..
i thank her for all the values and skills she has imparted to me..
i hope i can help to introduce this sport to more people in future, if i get the chance to..

we celebrated last evening in TK.. check out the link on the side bar of the online album i have created.. here are some of the pics we took:

~Our cake

~Our coaches

~ The gals i helped to coach...

taking it no more..

when was my last post?
alright.. new beginning for me..
may we all live happily ever after...
"discard it, shirley"
new blog add?
it's quite a hassel eh?
shall give it a pass..

down the drain it goes...

"the end..."
tt's the phrase to describe our frenship...
sigh.. wad a pity..
i did believe we would go on 4ever.. but it didnt..
i tried to believe tt we could still be gd frens.. but we couldnt..

was i wrong?
think it's quite debatable..
wrong to express my personal opinions in my blog?
no right to interpret, no right to think?

ya the fact is tt i was wrong about him..
he wasnt looking at us.
he never looked away.
he couldnt be bothered to look at us.

it;s my own wishful thinking..
i am full of myself? may be i am?
were we never guilty of tt?

*shakes head
sigh.. i dunno y this is happening..
it;s sad.. it;s just realli realli sad..

someone who used to be so close to me,
is like a stranger now...
or may be he even sees me as a foe..

so many things i wished tt i have never done...
if onli i could change back time..
everything and everyone will be better off...

fear?

i wonder if fate is fooling with us...
wad is it supposed to mean?
time for us to come back to reality and face our fears?
i was there.. kinda freaked out when i see tt familiar back..
wasnt prepared... never tot tt would happen..
ya.. i was hoping tt we could look at each other face to face, eye to eye...
it would have ended everything nicely..

but we didnt have the chance to..
or rather i didnt have the chance to..

so went to the lib with dear..
and there he was..
sitting just opp..
anything more coincident?
they have a common fren..
ha...
i was wondering y those big eyes were staring at me when we came in..
now i noe..
i tried not to run away..
aint a coward...

my heart did race when i first saw tt face opp...
i was like "what the..."
perhaps it's all fated..
so ya..
i tried to look him in the eye..
but he didnt dare to look back..
dear said they were exhanging stares..
even jason was involved..

ha.. so weird..
thankfully dear was understanding enuff...
thanks sweetie for being there for me..

i noe y there's a diff in our responses...
i havent done wrong..
he did..
guilt stole away his courage to look at the gal he hurt so badly..
did it?
or has he always been trying to escape from all his problems?
somehow it was expected...

may be i did do wrong..
dear tot me...
he said this.. which hit me right at the head...
"a couple shud grow together and solve all problems together. if the r/s is worthy and u try hard enuff and work together, nth is impossible to solve. if u do treasure the r/s so much, you wouldnt let go of it so easily."
sth like tt...
ya... i made an impulsive decision then..
not tt it's wrong..
it's probably the right one considering wad's happening now...
but if i did loved him so much then, how could i have initiated a break up so easily?
the onli excuses i can find for myself is tt i was shaken, utterly dissapointed becoz it meant so much to me.. impulsive....
bad excuse huh?

this is for me.. wad about him?
may be it was just an excuse to get himself out of the r/s..
aries likes adventure and try new things..
may be i was just too boring..
was i?
too sweet? too understanding? too forgiving for you?

sigh... no pt brooding over wad has happened..
but ya.. lesson learnt..
ha.. n it came from dear..
who supposedly... ahahaha.. shall not disclose...

o well.. at least i tried.. n i wasnt afraid..
thank god dear was there...
muackz~!!!
love u...

stressed and yet happy?

sigh.. been having a hard time catching up..
dun even have time to blog..
i'm almost there.. almost...
still hanging there..

went to watch final destination 3 with dear on saturday..
it's not for the weak heart..
totally gross..
ha.. we were like covering our mouth most of the time..
dear was even covering my face when the 2 naked babes were burning in the tanning machines..
lol...

ooo.. then the best destressing way of the year..
indulge in jap buffet in sukisushi.. hehehe :P
not very satisfied coz i didnt get to eat the lil red octopus.. :P
but it's still damn shiok...
our next spot shall be kushinbo after my mid terms or after final papers..

haiz.. so much happened..
cried again..
cant wait for exams to be over..
i need my holidays..
unwind..
and leave everything bad behind..

breathless under the books

tiredz.. having headaches man..
just finished one pathetic maths webcast..
one down.. three more to go~!
o no.. victor tan finished chapter 3 already..
i just started webcasting onli.. sianz..
so demoralising...

dun feel like doing any work.. realli..
just wanna slack n have fun..
hm... may be i can work in events company..
i think i enjoy organising events more than wad i am studying..
ha..

anyone wanna come for shiseido beauty talk?
i need 50 pple to come.. again... lol...

physically and mentally tired...

flv has finally ended.. had my 5h of sleep finally yesterday...
feels so good.. miss sleeping so much..
but it was interrupted.. every 30min..
wa.. was getting damn irritated coz i was realli very tired..
realli need the rest n...
but then again, i guess i didnt realli mind..
coz dear needed me..
pardon me for my complaints.. hehehe..

sometimes i still think about him...
wonder how's he getting on..
sigh.. pple ard me reminds me of him..
val.. paulene.. zai hao (if i didnt get his name wrong).. and ziyi..
sometimes i wish tt he would just appear in front of me..
sometimes i wish tt we can still talk like before..
at least i would be able to face reality,
find out and learn how to face my ex...
at least i would noe if we can still be frens...

well then again, he doesnt seem to be willing..
so.. it;s just too bad..
it takes two hands to clap, doesnt it?
to mend those wounds...

sigh.. problems never stop coming...
life sucks... feeling so stressed and tired about everything..
i failed cs... pathetic marks..
then again, how much do i deserve for studying for just one day?
partially was flv's fault... learnt a new lesson..
not gg to take tt next year... too close to my mid terms..
n well, i have 7 careless mistakes.. need more practice.. need to be more careful..
ponned so many lectures and tutorials..
got so much to catch up this mid term break..
cannot pon anymore.. or else i'll become like him..
cant let my studies suffer anymore.. i need a 4.2 this sem...

then, i've family problems..
mom is emotionally unstable recently..
she blew up just on fri..
slammed the door, screamed at everyone, including dad..
did all sorts of childish and unrespectful things..
who am i to judge her..
but it was wrong.. isnt it?
over stress? no anger management?
a correct example for ur kids?
thankfully we've all grown up..
at least we noe tt;s wrong n will not repeat tt..
was damn stressed up.. coz my parents were quarreling, mom was crying like shit..
worried for them.. couldnt study at all..
may be i can blame them for flunking cs...
i cried.. freakin stressed up man..

n dear lost...
so sad about it..
had high hopes n fell hard i suppose..
havent been home the whole of last week..
i feel obliged to be home..
to show tt i am not treating my home as a hotel..
missed daph's bdae party.. will be missing wha's too..
i'm sorry.. just cant come out to accompany u n console u..
dun wan to upset my mum or start another fire...

feeling guilty over so many things..
studies is already in a hay-wire state...
no time for myself..
not driven..
not motivated to study at all after getting 3.13 cap last sem becoz of the infection..
who to blame? me? for making the wrong decisions right from the start?
may be i shud just quit sch..
fucked up...

Friendster knows me best:

The Bottom Line
You have an intuitive sense of potential problems, but don't act until you have to.

In Detail
You're fiery, passionate and always game for a new experience -- and that means that keeping secrets can be a bit of a challenge for you. Not the secrets of others, mind you (those are safe forever). It's your own that give you problems, possibly due to the fact that you do so love drama -- okay, and even melodrama. So when you say something that isn't in the Miss Manners book of etiquette, ignore their eyebrows. Or, better yet, wink and move on.

after almost 3 months...

here i am again..

Happy valentine's day to all...

it's been a great day for both giving and recieving...
made flowers for my luna pals and a few other frens...
even though some of the flowers were falling out, i hope you still like them..
did until 3am lor~!!! after coming home from flv meeting.. sigh..

and for my dear... so smart right? i got him wad he need just in time...
quicksilver belt... his pants were dropping.. lol...

o yesh.. even though we both didnt have time to realli make today a very romantic one,
think it was sweet enuff.. at least for me..
i dunno if i was touched.. moved to tears..
but ya.. i cried.. haha.. in the middle of suntec city...
finally gave him the answer he wanted after 1 mth?
ha.. if it's not for wad he said, if it;s not for the way he looked at me when he said those things..
i wouldn't have.. i would have waited a lil longer...

it was so comical and things werent going as well as planned..
firstly, the next casanoma movie slot was at 7pm when we were there at 3 plus, 4.
so we ended up watching fun with dick and jane instead..
2ndly, roses were sold at $120++. after all the flowers and gifts and treats tt he has been getting for me the past 2 weeks, he's officially dried like dried sotong.. and they werent even tt pretty..
by the end of the day, i got 2 from him - one white, one blue... thanks thanks.. muackz..
3rdly, suki sushi was freaking packed~!!!
went to kovan to eat thai express instead..

thanks for all ur prezzies dear.. especially the ee-hor tt looks like u..
hahaha.. n i wasnt angry then la.. not so petty.. :P

n thanks to the rest who gave me prezzies too..
ks.. keep up the good work.. nice chocolate strawberries u made..

will post up some pictures with my angel soon...
finally i found my angell..
i noe u'll be there whenever i need u..
i noe u'll be there to protect me...
n sorry to make u wait every nite for me to finish with my meeting..
thanks for sending me home so late..
if it's not for u, i wont have as much rest as i could for the past few days...
mauckz~!

finding some time for myself...

posting up some not-so old pics...

- 6G YZPS (pri sch) gathering -

- 4 out of the 5 musketeers -

- candid -

been so freaking busy.. no time to blog.. sigh... falling sick already.. had 3 meetings this week.. sigh.. no time to mug.. mid terms are in a week's time and i havent started.. next week, i'll be staying out late, mostly in sch almost every day.. except thu..

mon - flv meeting

tue - simple v day celebration since i am so busy

wed - flv prep, back goodie bags

thu - fest la vie, maths mid term

fri - clear up forum after flv..

gosh.. i wont be home for dinner everyday.. feel so guilty... may be i got no choice but to miss daph n wha's birthday celebration.. cant choose to go for either onli.. it's either both or neither.. i should spend time with them..so sorry...

so much to do, so lil time... 2 maths webcasts to watch.. tonnes of tutorial to do... sucks...

we will miss ya siang...

met my pri sch buddies yesterday night for siang's bdae gathering.. unfortunately tt blur siang forgot to tell suwen.. so she didnt come.. sigh.. hmm.. we met up at hougang.. lol.. wad a weird place to meet for gathering.. went to suki to have jap buffet~!!! yum yum~! not bad.. we're still as crappy as before.. laughed so much.. i think we were laffing at siang most of the time.. still so aunty.. haha..

we did so many things in tt short 5 h.. after dinner, we went to play pool.. just opp the restaurant.. not bad.. even though i havent played for ages.. my lousy skill is still there.. hee.. :p hmm.. played onli for an hour plus.. later, siang suggested to go over to the community centre to ktv.. wa so many aunty uncles there.. but it was surprisingly not bad.. they do have new songs... $22 for 2h for a room.. 4 of us shared.. so quite cheap ah.. haha.. i'm picking up slowly.. listening to more chi songs.. so now i can still sing a few in ktv.. getting addicted.. ahhhh...

hm.. siang mentioned tt she has gotten over the excitment phase.. now she's getting worried n afraid to leave singapore.. could realli feel it when she said, "i know that many things are going to change after i left." her voice was shaking... sigh.. i cant imagine myself alone in an alien country too... u gotta be so independent.. but then again, it's realli a gd experience.. let's just hope tt she dun come back with an angmo boyfren.. ahahaha...

we'll miss u siang...

so true, so very true..

new song my fren intro to me..
haha.. wad r u trying to hint seah?
i noe wad i shud do..
thanks anyway..
here's it.. dunno if it can be shown on my blog though..

多爱我一秒钟

不必再说些故事和眼泪的废话
反正你就是不再爱我了
好聚好散应该是我的回答
可是我就是不能那么潇洒
你尽管放心,我会原谅
你虽然我开始越来越恨你
过去点滴难道都不值得珍惜
该怎么爱你你才会满意
既然爱情已经到了尽头
天啊我该做些什么
才能让你多爱我一秒钟
其实我一直都在等一直在等
等你爱我爱得多一些
既然爱情已经到了尽头
天啊我该做些什么
才能让你多爱我一秒钟
其实根本就不必等等吧不必等
如果你轻易就会离开我
又何必忙得一场空
你尽管放心,我会原谅你
虽然我开始越来越恨你
过去点滴难道都不值得珍惜
该怎么爱你 你才会满意
既然爱情已经到了尽头
天啊我该做些什么
才能让你多爱我一秒钟
其实我一直都在等一直在等
等你爱我爱得多一些
既然爱情已经到了尽头
天啊我该做些什么
才能让你多爱我一秒钟
其实根本就不必等等吧不必等
如果你轻易就会离开我
又何必忙得一场空

the end...

was there..
wanted to see how i would feel..
the fence blocked too much..
i onli saw the familiar jersey no...

the gals were gonna play first...
couldnt wait longer..
no pt..
perhaps a lil suprisingly, missing it didnt feel bad at all...
becoz i just wanted to prove myself...
not to see him..

may be it's like sth to wrap up everything..
when i got to noe tt he won champs,
my onli response was a sigh, followed by a smile..
thankful tt his hardwork paid off..
thankful tt all he sacrificed for was worth it..

now tt it's all over...
think it's sth off my shoulder...

headed for dinner with my angel later...
thanks angel.. for being so understanding..
u were always there for me..
it was a hot night...
so much said...
i'm blessed...
n i shud be happy and contented with wad i have..
i shud cherish wad i have..

the day will come...
it will...

it's been 43 days...

been talking to a few pple lately...
val woke me up..
been decieving myself..
been trying so hard to get over him..
been telling myself tt he's not worth it and i have to get over him by hook or by crook..
been telling myself so often tt i realli tot i havent gotten over it..
sadness i feel no more..
but when val asked me if i am confident tt i will definitely not patch up with him if he ever ask me to go back to him, i couldnt answer..
i wasnt sure...
i knew it is the right thing to do..
he isnt ready.. he will never be in the months to come..
y am i waiting?
y shud i be waiting?
he was so heartless.. he left u alone..
may be i was just a fling..
may be it wasnt as deep to him, as it was for me..
i commited, i closed all doors..
may be he didnt..
o no.. i am digressing again..
but ya.. i havent gotten over him..
i still like u just a lil bit..
nth wrong with admiting i hope..
wanna face it..
run away no more..
it's not going anywhere..
sth has to be done..
someone's waiting for me..
someone sweet n nice...
someone who has always been there for me..
when i'm so down..
when i fell so hard becoz u let go of me just like tt...
it's not for this special someone onli..
it's for me, just me...

he's not worth it shirley... move on~!!!

n to u.. my special someone..
so sorry tt i have to make u wait..
not gonna get into another r/s when i havent gotten over the past..
tt terrible heart ache...
wanna start everything right..
i hope u understand

from colorgenics.com.. it realli changes..

You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

Most people are conditioned by their environment and you are no exception. You are an extremely emotional person - so much so that 'the wrong word' can lead you to tears. You feel other people's pain. You feel the need of sympathetic relationships and a pleasant work environment in order to develop and grow. You are an impulsive, loving individual with a great deal of inherent feeling.You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence but you realise that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

The fear that you may not be able to fulfil or realise all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervour.

ahh crap.. i have to chnage blog skin.. keep getting this error message with the last one... realli liked the last one.. it's like some kinda journal.. haha.. n lately, i have a thing for hot pink n purple... lol...

ha.. did a lot today... like some kinda maid.. washed the toilet, wash dishes for both meals, mopped the floor.. gosh.. any lucky guy wan me? hahaha...

it'sbeen 39 days.. how long more do i need? come on, shirley... was it realli tt deep? so difficult to let go and recover from?

waiting waiting.. i noe tt sucks... i noe how it feels.. so sorry... but it is the right thing to do.. the right way to start everything..

ah.. haven't been doing any serious work except for replying to the flv outside vendors... i love to slack.. hahaha.. feel guilty.. but so wad? hehehe...

moody moody... waititng for everyone to get ready to start mahjong.. sianz.. i am itching.. anyone wanna play?

joke of the day:
lobster poot poot...

haha it's a family joke.. i almost made my lil bro merlion.. everyone laughed.. haha i think i was kinda high.... said a lot of silly and lame stuff.. joked and played with my food.. hehe.. o ya.. my reunion dinner was realli... wad's the word.. i had sharkfin with lots of crab meat.. i had abalone.. i had lobster.. i had scallops.. but i dun realli noe hoe to appreciate all these expensive food... is there realli a need for such stuff? but i am still thankful and contented with wad i have..

looking forward for v day... hehehe... ;p

Finally had time to post these pics up...

the incomplete W xams present...

On seth's birthday...

My new creation - chocolate cheesecake~!

ah.... tiredz tiredz... this week i'm so busy with meetings.. meetings meetings and more meetings~~!! mon flv, tue engine o week, thru flv.. now may be fri there'll be fwc... ahhh.. y all this week? thank goodness i was disciplined enought to finish my tutorials for this week on sunday.. if not, i would have died..

kinda pissed with everything.. not with pple.. just the way things are now... ahhh have to complain.. perhaps becoz somethings are beyond my control.. cant realli manage time the way i wan... all tut due next week, ctw ass 1 due next week... must ctahc up with cep and maths webcast.. yup.. this is crazy... i better do sth this weekend.. o~!!! it;s cny~!!! shall i mug on tue? wahaha...

looking forward to sat... reunion dinner n mahjong~!! wahaha.. my MJ0000 module... must ace it to be a tai tai.. hehehe...

yea gg out on wed to celebrate bdae.. free day to relax myself.. no books~~!!! yuck yuck~!!!

ha.. so many complaints.. but i am still kinda happy with my life right now... enjoying the freedom, getting to noe more pple, learning new things everyday...
so much for complaints.. i realli learnt a lot from slc, flv so n so forth...

hm... miss softball... I WANNA PLAY SOFTBALL~!!!!

V Bash - my first bash after 19+ years

did i mention tt all 1000 tickets were sold out for the bash?!
fwah.. it;s a great success...
on the fri night, there were still pple asking me for tickets..
i counted.. i could have easily hit 80 or even 90 ticket sales if the comm still had tickets for my frens..
haha.. all so last min.. sorry peeps..

so how was my first bash?
hm.. it's as expected.. nth more than jus drinking n dancing..
think i was kinda high already by the time mark came..
one vodka.. omg.. i m so lousy..
shall train up.. wahaha...
luna was shy.. just standing ard in the beginning..
then guideng n me physcoed the rest to go to the central dance floor..
hehehe... not bad.. all newbies.. dunno how to realli dance..
MOS is realli big.. but.. think the music isnt realli tt gd..
even r n b.. music was slow man..
i think retro was the better one.. not the kind tt i like..
but it was easier to dance with i guess..

we went to every room to dance..
haha.. gd exercise.. burnt quite a lot of carbo i think..
no wonder pple who clubs often are so slim..
thanks kahsin for treating us to tt "lime juice"..
wahaha.. couldnt taste the alcohol at all..

went over to check out the PRU pple..
lionel was drunk.. hahaha...
his eyes were like sooo small~!
couldnt even stand up straight..
n he was complaining tt his head was spinning..
i tot he's a chiongster seah..

think i drank a lil too fast, too much at a time..
by the time i was leaving,
think i was kinda floating already...
i could still walk straight thankfully..
thankfully there was my ahmad..
lol... safely driven home..

in conclusion, i will not waste money on clubbing..
i will not go clubbing on my own if i have to spend money..
alcohol is so expensive there..
ooo but the view was gd..
so many yandaos~!
n yes mark.. there were pretty gals ok...

i actually like programming.. i think...
paid attention throughout the lecture.. haha..
,ay be becoz we all have no experience.. all worried n kanchiong..
tt's how kiasu chem engineers are.. lol...
anyway it;s quite fun... especially when the prog works.. lol..
sense of achievement.. lol...

o yea.. my sales for bash tickets is pretty good..
havent reached my personal goal..
but good enuff..
yes yes.. dun count the main comm pple in...
shirley needs to change her hp..
or any sugar daddy wanna buy me one?

haha.. one probably down the drain already..
no chance of revival perhaps.. wad a pity...
i did believed in it.. realli.. think i still do.. but o well...
one dropped out... so sad.. y cant we be as close as before? i mean as frens..
so wad.. no bgr = no frens too?
n one... aggressive i would say...
love is in the air...

tt's all i can disclose now..
not sure if i am ready yet...
dun think so..
coz i still do think about him now n then..
disappointed yet relieved not to see him in canteen today..
it's just a passing stage i noe..
hm.. we'll wait for all tt to go away first..

next thu.. will be the test..
i hope i will be tested...

cant wait for bash~!
i need someone to take me in for the night.. any takers? wahahaha
ahmad is down.. so sad...