Engine day... random shoutouts..

it was the last day of 1st half of sem 3 yesterday..
n also ps birthday.. we've been planning to celebrate this special day 2 weeks ago if i am not wrong..
was quite a disappointment honestly..
we were quite indecisive about where to head for the celebration...
decided to go to sakura opp lt7a becoz chess has meeting till 1pm which our star of the day is involved in.. n shanbing has to go back for lecture at 4pm..
was a compromise actually...
well we entertained ourselves in student lounge with air hockey, pool n soccer table while waiting for yimin..
then headed to buy cake for ps..
reached sakura at almost 1pm but they were not done with their meeting yet..
unfortunately, we had our buffet w/o our star's presence...
went back to look for them again to cut the cake.. n guess wad.. they just ended..
well perhaps we shud be understanding.. tt these pple just joined the club and they r at high spirits, have commitments n responsibilities and their supporters to answer to..
though everyone said tt they didnt mind.. i am sure we are all disappointed..
disappointed with the elected leaders.. the way they handled this matter..
are leaders who r more concerned about their personal interest pple we can depend on?
surely sth will be done.. may be chess will be more well known..
but popular or notorious? wud they be able to touch our fellow mates' hearts?
i am doubtful of it.. perhaps it's too early to judge..
i wonder...
if work is more impt than frens on this special day who came to sch, stayed back n plan all these, wud ur fellow mates more impt to u or how great the club is under ur management when u make future decisions for the club?
is this about getting work done, making improvements or is ur key focus on ur fellow course mates?
who's to blame? who's the decision maker? wad is impt? it's so subjective..
i personally felt tt i wasted a day away yesterday...
we see n learn more about one in times like these...
the more i see, the more i learn, the more consoled i am to be out of all these matters..
it is not a comm i want to work in..
n i will be making a lot of noise n creating chaos in the comm if i am one of them now..
haha bless me n the rest... world peace...
my family is more impt..
my frens are more impt..
my studies is more impt..
n i have time for all of them now... i am more convinced tt i'll be happier this way..
cast away the "i cud have done a better job" idea...
becoz i havent done it.. i am not doing it.. i will not be doing it..
it;s easier said than done.. i am sure about tt..
so it isnt fair for me to judge or criticise..
pple involved knows best..

woof~!

took my 2 dogs out for a walk yesterday evening..
think i shud do it more often..
even if i burn like onli 20 calories with the stroll..
hee.. well.. it kinda stops my brain from wondering n thinking about all the work i have on hand..
n the stuff tt my 2 cuties do is realli entertaining..
i just realised how obedient boyboy can be..
when u pull the chain backwards, he will understand tt he's going too fast..
n he'll sit right at the spot, turn his head back n look at u with those innocent eyes..
lol.. so cute.. n he'll wait for u to catch up, before he continues running and repeating the same routine again.. haha..
n manling.. she has always been my fav dog..
smelly her breath may be.. i still like to hug her...
she's 13 years old this year.. tt's 91 doggie years~!!
still bubbly n active as ever...
she understand us human pretty well...
n she can communicate with me..
wahaha.. she gave me the "i wanna pee more but i got no place to do it" look yesterday when i was closing the door... changed the newspaper n she pee-d like how many drops onli...
oops gettign too detailed.. but u noe.. it's so... when she looks at u after she finishes with her business... like she's so satisified.. hahaha..
think things will never be the same again if she leaves us one day...
i think i will cry..
i know tt she;s realli old already.. n i am giving the 2 of them lil treats every now n then..
it's probably the least i could do..
i am sure they enjoy it a lot..
well then again... i think i wont be able to do without a dog if i were to start a family of my own in future... they make me a better person.. :)

empty & tired..

i've probably given too much to the cm test..
now i am kinda burnt out..
dun feel like doing work..
somehow i was attarcted to the challenge..
n i managed to finish webcasting 4h of 2122 lecture.. the one tt we all couldnt understand even if u went for the live one..
i wonder who came out with all those theories..
smart n abstract...
definitely not the norm.. if not we wudnt find it so difficult to understand..
i tried webcasting 2121.. stopped twice coz i am either too tired or too sian..
it's like cn1111 plus phy chem.. n i hate cn1111..
it makes no sense to me..
i watched it at 1.8 speed.. n finally stopped after enduring 1h plus of the webcast..
it's carnot again... wad a turn off..
we've gone thru tt for 2 modules.. physics n phy chem..
now 2121 too? o well it's thermodynamics isnt it?
how can we run away from it?
i think i need sth to motivate myself again.. sth other than books..
boring hence draining..

oh.. yesterday we went to shop...
we walked for the entire day..
but didnt buy anything..
combed bugis village, icon n the edge..
lol.. can u imagine all the walking we did?
poor ks has to carry his heavy bag around with us..
the meals were rather sinful yesterday..
had jap for lunch.. but crystal jade's wanton mee for dinner..
it's my fav~!! so q, so delicious~!
but it's yellow noodle... wonder if i put on another kg back after tt?
guilty~!!
but i havent been at my highest spirits...
food n retail therapy is my way of destressing..
since i got nth to buy... i;ve been allowing myself to eat junks...
m&m, yellow noodles, smoothies..
there goes my slimming programme..
may be tt's y i grow fat when the sem starts...

sigh.. wad shud i do to get my drive back?

drained...

freak... i am so damn tired..
stupid cm test killed me..
i;ve been spending hours n days to study for it..
lost with lectures, havent webcasted for 2122 n 2121..
tutorials to be done n all..
it sucks...
it sucks especially when u make silly careless mistakes..
after all tt studying.. ahhh..
it;s just 1 or 2 marks to ur final result, shirley..
it doesnt matter~!!! get over it~!!

i;ve been so stressed up..
n very impatient with pple ard me..
i;m grateful to have my dearie... hehehe...
i wud have to spend 1h for a bus ride home or 12 bucks for cab ride home after the 5h study in sch yesterday if it wasnt for him..
n my snapping.. ah... i'm sorry...

feels weird when u hear news about sth tt u care..
n... u're not a part of it..
asked n rejected the offer...
guess i have to get used to it..
i dun wan it n i dun care..
all the best...

i saw the cockadoo today again...
too busy to blog about it...
it makes me wonder y i tot so in the past...
weird.. where in the world did the smoke came from?
did i started the fire myself?
simply weird...

hai.. so tired from mugging...
so much to catch up with now..
screwed up..
it makes me think twice sometimes if my effort is justified..
mug so much for a 10% test where u get to sit beside one another, where u can copy n discuss even if u dun realli know ur work..
issit dumb?
i've been trying to console myself..
tellgn myself tt i have studied so much now..
so i wont have to go back for final exams..
think i noe enuff? think it;s close to enuff...
need more practice though..
it better be so...
coz i have worked shit for it..
study smart? any dean;s lister wanna help?