yup yup.. mon to wed luna chalet... n i just came back from family chalet to celebrate granny's birthday... hee :P i still enjoy company of my new uni frens more.. i guess it;s becoz of our age.. more crazy fun and sleep checks? lol... family chalet wasnt too bad but u noe.. all the adults.. parents = restrictions.. sigh.. i played mahjong most of the time.. hm... and time seem to pass realli fast...for both chalets...
we quarreled again this afternoon.. was playing mahjong.. he called. and i lost focus, lost 10 bucks on one hand.. damn.. i wasnt angry at him at all.. jokingly, i complained.. n he took it seriously.. in the very beginning, his tone was so hostile already... he pissed me off again.. n everyone was looking at me.. since i cant multi task especially when he's complaining for no gd reasons, i hanged up.
felt tt there's no pt arguing with him.. i'm just gonna irritate myself again.. so.. once again.. breaking up comes to my mind again.. it's been appearing in my head far too often.. not healthy for out relatipnship.. but i cant help it.. i've been balming him all the while.. but perhaps it might just be me... i jumped into the relationship too fast, too early.. i have the responsibility if it fails too.. may be i am too straight forward for him.. i dunno la... feels like we cant realli tok, not compatible as he once said...
den at nite, he called.. i tried my very best to calm down n discuss about us peacefully.. yes we did.. he's trying his best to compomise.. i can see tt.. i told him my stand.. it's very firm.. weijie is right.. i noe very well wad i wan.. if he cant give it to me, den let's not waste time.. i tried.. but it's affecting me way too much.. school's gonna start soon.. i'm not gonna let those long hours arguments over the fone happen.. i dun have time for tt nonsense.. it;s just ridiculous.. u see.. i;m so tired of it.. so stressed up.. i am strong at the outside yet soft in the inside... cant take all these alone like tt... i just felt like breaking down sometimes.. let go it all.. and feel no more pain... we worked it out somehow... may be meeting tml.. funny... i;m not realli looking forwrda to it.. perhaps we've quarrled so much.. i'm losing it..
anyway, we just celebrated granny's birthday.. the exact date is on mon 1st aug... she has aged so much... yet i can still see her beauty.. she was constantly smiling... must have felt blessed with so many love ones, children n grandchildren by her side... when she wished before she blew the candle, i noticed tears in her eyes... i felt for her. i wondered y.. i felt sadness.. like wad mum said in the car back home.. think granny knows her health.. it;s deteoriating.. i am worried for her... or perhaps she's touched tt we're all there to cleberate tt special day for her.. hm... the feeling i got when i saw tt look on her face was undescribable.. sigh... i hope she stays healthy..
so much going on... so much to do.. gd news.. i got both sartors tt i bid for. acc n mkt.. n yea.. paulene takign with me.. even though she;s in biz, at least we have soemone we know... great man.. i hope we can go for same tutorial too.. den mkt project wont be a prob.. sch is starting soon.. shall make use of the time to have more craxy fun or nua at home.. yea...
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Sunday, July 24, 2005
i'm stuck in a shit hole
ok damn.. wtf... i just quarreled with him.. he always spoil our conversation... he's always picking on me.. he was telling me about xiaxue n her blog... so ya.. i was listening.. i didnt comment.. since he has so much to say.. n he claims tt i am not interested and tt our conversation is always one sided... hello.. how many of u have experienced tt when u tok to me? my mum even say tt i am not a gd listener becoz i like to comment, criticise and differ... sigh.. it;s so hard to tok to him nowadays.. wad's wrong man? until now, he still dun understand me well.. i was just trying to be considerate here.. i wan to be a good listening ear.. sigh... was i wrong to not interupt him?
n he's forever praising other gals and telling me tt i should be like them.. wth.. i am shirley. i am unique becoz i am me.. love me for who i am. if u dun, if u cant accept me for who i am, den shut up and fuck off~! stop telling me to cut tt stupid dolly hair style.. i dun look cute. i am not the innocent type.. n if u wan me to dress like some ah lian, dye my hair red or blond like those cmi drop outs, forget it man... it's as gd as teaching pigs how to fly... not tt i look down on the sch leavers.. just tt i agree with my mum tt u dun look very decent and u cant find a gd job with striking dyed hair.. i'm ME~! I'm just ME~!
y? i took all ur complaints about how i look. bad pts of things i do for u or buy or make for u.. cant u take my critics? felt bad, felt disappointed when i say tt u look the same whether u gel ur hair or not? wad bout u complaining tt i dun look gd with my centre parting rebonded hair? n u were the one who pestered me to rebond my hair~! u noe.. u dun appreciate me for who i am.. u just keep picking on me... if i am not who u wish for, fo look for someone else n stop asking me to change..
betting is a sin for goodness sake. how mnay times must i repeat it.. y do i keep telling u tt i will break up with u, leave u for gd if u ever bet again? am i tt heartless? does the relationship mean anything to me at all? y can i give it up just like tt? it's simple... isnt it? ask urself... perhaps u cant see the light yet... becoz all u r dreaming of is winning a million dollars bet right? i swear i noe i will cry blood instead of tears if i ever leave u.. i swear my heart will shatter and it will take a long time to heal.. but it's all for ur sake.. ur own good.. y am i so persistent? sigh.. i dunno wad to say...
sometimes u make me doubt myself and the relationship... i lose faith becoz of u.. see.. u;re affecting me again.. this cant go on... especially not when uni start.. i will not let my studies suffer.. so we better get this right once n for all.. i must have been blinded to step into this shit hole.. wad have i gotten myself into?
n he's forever praising other gals and telling me tt i should be like them.. wth.. i am shirley. i am unique becoz i am me.. love me for who i am. if u dun, if u cant accept me for who i am, den shut up and fuck off~! stop telling me to cut tt stupid dolly hair style.. i dun look cute. i am not the innocent type.. n if u wan me to dress like some ah lian, dye my hair red or blond like those cmi drop outs, forget it man... it's as gd as teaching pigs how to fly... not tt i look down on the sch leavers.. just tt i agree with my mum tt u dun look very decent and u cant find a gd job with striking dyed hair.. i'm ME~! I'm just ME~!
y? i took all ur complaints about how i look. bad pts of things i do for u or buy or make for u.. cant u take my critics? felt bad, felt disappointed when i say tt u look the same whether u gel ur hair or not? wad bout u complaining tt i dun look gd with my centre parting rebonded hair? n u were the one who pestered me to rebond my hair~! u noe.. u dun appreciate me for who i am.. u just keep picking on me... if i am not who u wish for, fo look for someone else n stop asking me to change..
betting is a sin for goodness sake. how mnay times must i repeat it.. y do i keep telling u tt i will break up with u, leave u for gd if u ever bet again? am i tt heartless? does the relationship mean anything to me at all? y can i give it up just like tt? it's simple... isnt it? ask urself... perhaps u cant see the light yet... becoz all u r dreaming of is winning a million dollars bet right? i swear i noe i will cry blood instead of tears if i ever leave u.. i swear my heart will shatter and it will take a long time to heal.. but it's all for ur sake.. ur own good.. y am i so persistent? sigh.. i dunno wad to say...
sometimes u make me doubt myself and the relationship... i lose faith becoz of u.. see.. u;re affecting me again.. this cant go on... especially not when uni start.. i will not let my studies suffer.. so we better get this right once n for all.. i must have been blinded to step into this shit hole.. wad have i gotten myself into?
looking forward to tml's bbq~!
hee.. it rained just now.. i hope tt's a gd sign.. coz it means tml there wont be any rain... hehe... keep my fingers crossed... yea.. i'm so excited.. love chalets.. can bbq n chit chat.. eat lots of sinful food... play mahjong n bridge n daidee throughout the night.. lol... i'm still considering if i should bring my ugly specs.. lol.. no they r not ugly.. just tt i look extra nerdy n hence ugly with the specs on... haha..
n ya... i bought a lot of stuff yesterday.. went orchard with dear.. hee.. shop till i drop.. pocket's a little tight now.. i spent hm... 70 bucks yesterday.. bought 2 bikinis at sheer romance.. hehe.. my first bikini.. sexy white.. but it's a halter.. so it has a rather sporty look on me.. and the other is erm.. generally pink.. a diff look i guess.. hee.. i likt the texture though.. a little glossy kind.. yup yup.. shall motivate myself to lose tt few inches off my waist.. hm.. i guess i am not tt fat after all.. but my broad shoulders n rib cage makes me look big.. so hm..i dunno... must lose tt extra inches man... not sure if i dare wear it out to swim though.. feel so bare~! muahaha... o and i bought this blue metallic belt.. looks cool... hm.. y blue? coz dear say it's nice.. so hee..
o n dear gave me a bag yesterday.. yea.. a big big one.. so i can put all my studd inside.. it;s realli deep.. n yesh it';s blue.. same colour as my wallet... baby blue.. it's a real sweet colour.. but it's realli plain.. especially when it;s so wide n big.. i mean it looks like one big piece of i dunno wad on me.. i am gonna add stuff to it.. make it mine.. shirley's style... anyone any gd suggestions? shall walk ard a bit more.. hunt for ideas... yup yup... ok i shall go online n look for ideas now... chao~!
n ya... i bought a lot of stuff yesterday.. went orchard with dear.. hee.. shop till i drop.. pocket's a little tight now.. i spent hm... 70 bucks yesterday.. bought 2 bikinis at sheer romance.. hehe.. my first bikini.. sexy white.. but it's a halter.. so it has a rather sporty look on me.. and the other is erm.. generally pink.. a diff look i guess.. hee.. i likt the texture though.. a little glossy kind.. yup yup.. shall motivate myself to lose tt few inches off my waist.. hm.. i guess i am not tt fat after all.. but my broad shoulders n rib cage makes me look big.. so hm..i dunno... must lose tt extra inches man... not sure if i dare wear it out to swim though.. feel so bare~! muahaha... o and i bought this blue metallic belt.. looks cool... hm.. y blue? coz dear say it's nice.. so hee..
o n dear gave me a bag yesterday.. yea.. a big big one.. so i can put all my studd inside.. it;s realli deep.. n yesh it';s blue.. same colour as my wallet... baby blue.. it's a real sweet colour.. but it's realli plain.. especially when it;s so wide n big.. i mean it looks like one big piece of i dunno wad on me.. i am gonna add stuff to it.. make it mine.. shirley's style... anyone any gd suggestions? shall walk ard a bit more.. hunt for ideas... yup yup... ok i shall go online n look for ideas now... chao~!
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
2nd LUNA outing yesterday- ecp
yup.. i'm alone at home with my bro.. havent had breakfast nor lunch.. since i hev so much time for myself today, i shall first continue my story about fwc, before i tok about our 2nd outing..
where was i? hm.. the dance... yup... our skit was not bad... applause for chang-er aka kah sin pls... he's realli very confident about himself.. i dunno if he;s crazy or he just doesn't bother about how others look at him.. he's so funny up on the stage.. so onz.. if it's me, i'll be stunned up there... admire seah... and commando act gu niang... wa... *clap clap.. 3 cheers for the LUNA guys
we were pretty disappointment with the results of the competitions.. not tt i am bragging.. i'm not arrogant.. but i felt tt LUNA had a great chance in winning the dance one.. at least we remembered our steps.. i tot tt alone was gd enuff... all our grps forgot theirs.. why? why like tt? anyway, the outcome isnt tt important becoz i'm sure seth and i had much fun during the dance... sp nite ended with the same mass dance.. this time, twice.. first with felix. 2nd with yimin's SP.. i think he was the pageant king.. could see tt felix was as enthu as usual... i didnt noe my steps as well without seth... but it went well becoz everyone was dancing ard us.. haha can peep~! then, we took grp photos and went back to our rooms to change..
i stayed up all nite.. all the way till next morning... after sp nite, we went to 7 eleven.. bought tibits n drinks... chatted outside 7 eleven since we dunno where else to go.. perhaps i drank with an empty stomach.. threw out all tt drank.. omg.. so maluating... tt has never happened to me.. it was just a breezer~! have some phobia already... lol.. next time take carlsberg.. hehe.. but ya.. once again, i felt like a princess.. haha... when i came back from cleaning up in the toilet, everyone started asking me if i was ok... lol.. thanks to all seniors, especially weng hong, weijie, val n sheena.. so much concern.. hee.. =p
then, somehow we stopped by the road, sat in a circle n started chatting away... this time, i got to know weijie a lot better.. basically, i was chatting with him onli.. haha... i guess we're both sportsman.. so i guess we have pretty much the same opinion of many things in life.. cool.. i enjoyed chatting with him.. haha.. the conversation was almost never ending... feel tt he's a sensitive, caring person.. like an elder bro... great...
i guess many pple were getting tired so we headed back to our rooms.. some of us went to the guy's room to continue playing cards.. it was then, loren made his name.. lol... dun quite understand y he like to make things so complicated.. a game of bridge with him was almost like bluff.. he certainly gave us a gs work out for our stomach... all the laughings went on for hours.. all the while till 9 or 10am? which was then, i went back to my room, washed up and packed our things, ready to leave sentosa...
all the fun didnt end for LUNA just like tt... we wentto harbour front for dim sum buffet... the guys ordered so much, we had a hard time finishing up the food.. cant believe steven could eat SOOOO much~! omg.. i felt like puking then.. haha...
ever since then, my holiday has been realli busy.. we chatted on msn... hm.. record was 13 participants.. for me, "earliest" was till 3am.. ha... n yup... tt brings me to our 2nd outing... i guess not many pple play mahjong so the turn out for out first outing - mahjong session at val's place wasnt tt good.. so seth n zhiquan was suggesting to have an outdoor outing.. so we did...
we were supposed to meet up at erm.. 1pm? but ya.. as the seniors have expected... the 1h rule was passed on... becoz of the rain, we met up realli late.. i was early.. so i met up with weijie for lunch.. hm.. he introduced me to the DIY ramen.. it wasnt so much of DIY after all coz the waitress helped us mixed the ingredients.. it;s not bad..but the sesame paste made the ramen so sticky tt i did have quite a hard time biting them.. o how can i forget about the xiao long tang bao~! it's very nice~! i think better than ting tai feng's~! wa shiok seah~!okie relax shirley... omg... thinking about it alone makes me salivate.. hahaha..
anyway by the time, we all gathered at ecp mac it was 3.30pm? while we waited val to finidh her lunch, we played card games again.. illegal gambling den.. lol.. 4 decks for 4 grps.. haha... it was getting pretty late then... i think it was about 4pm when we decided to cycle... most of them were pretty slow... i prefer to cycle fast.. so tt u can feel all the wind brushing past ur face, running thru every strand of ur hair.. so refreshing~! o ya... did i mention tt poor weijin was stuck at home? heard sth like his mom took his keys so he cant get out of the house.. haha.. poor guy... but it sounded pretty silly... keke..
hm.. shan bin n hong bee couldnt cycle... so we got 2 doubles.. macho guideng n weijie volunteered to take the 2 mei nu... ai ya.. see la.. weijin... y u never come? no free rides for me.. kekeke... we returned the bikes 2 h later and played volleyball while steven n weijie taught the 2 gals how to cycle... it was quite fun.. haha.. even though my arms got realli red after it...
we went to macs again for dinner.. i had to leave becoz of my mum again... sigh.. was so pai seh becoz we were waiting for da sao to come.. ya seth's gf... haha.. i didnt speak up until around 8.30pm... mum;s gonna kill me.. haha.. i asked yimin to walk me out becoz i am a road direction idiot... haha... and as usual, the gentlemen LUNA guy, weijie actually, volunteered to walk us out to the bus stop..
i felt stupid when i reached home becoz my parents left for the wake.. i was so envious tt eveyone was still having fun in ecp... so i called weijie.. free incoming call... haha... talked to almost everyone.. i think i was disturbing them.. haha...
o well... i'm looking forward to our next gathering... but i think it;ll be the chalet on next mon... yup... cant wait to win back my 50 cents.... lol.. just kidding...
where was i? hm.. the dance... yup... our skit was not bad... applause for chang-er aka kah sin pls... he's realli very confident about himself.. i dunno if he;s crazy or he just doesn't bother about how others look at him.. he's so funny up on the stage.. so onz.. if it's me, i'll be stunned up there... admire seah... and commando act gu niang... wa... *clap clap.. 3 cheers for the LUNA guys
we were pretty disappointment with the results of the competitions.. not tt i am bragging.. i'm not arrogant.. but i felt tt LUNA had a great chance in winning the dance one.. at least we remembered our steps.. i tot tt alone was gd enuff... all our grps forgot theirs.. why? why like tt? anyway, the outcome isnt tt important becoz i'm sure seth and i had much fun during the dance... sp nite ended with the same mass dance.. this time, twice.. first with felix. 2nd with yimin's SP.. i think he was the pageant king.. could see tt felix was as enthu as usual... i didnt noe my steps as well without seth... but it went well becoz everyone was dancing ard us.. haha can peep~! then, we took grp photos and went back to our rooms to change..
i stayed up all nite.. all the way till next morning... after sp nite, we went to 7 eleven.. bought tibits n drinks... chatted outside 7 eleven since we dunno where else to go.. perhaps i drank with an empty stomach.. threw out all tt drank.. omg.. so maluating... tt has never happened to me.. it was just a breezer~! have some phobia already... lol.. next time take carlsberg.. hehe.. but ya.. once again, i felt like a princess.. haha... when i came back from cleaning up in the toilet, everyone started asking me if i was ok... lol.. thanks to all seniors, especially weng hong, weijie, val n sheena.. so much concern.. hee.. =p
then, somehow we stopped by the road, sat in a circle n started chatting away... this time, i got to know weijie a lot better.. basically, i was chatting with him onli.. haha... i guess we're both sportsman.. so i guess we have pretty much the same opinion of many things in life.. cool.. i enjoyed chatting with him.. haha.. the conversation was almost never ending... feel tt he's a sensitive, caring person.. like an elder bro... great...
i guess many pple were getting tired so we headed back to our rooms.. some of us went to the guy's room to continue playing cards.. it was then, loren made his name.. lol... dun quite understand y he like to make things so complicated.. a game of bridge with him was almost like bluff.. he certainly gave us a gs work out for our stomach... all the laughings went on for hours.. all the while till 9 or 10am? which was then, i went back to my room, washed up and packed our things, ready to leave sentosa...
all the fun didnt end for LUNA just like tt... we wentto harbour front for dim sum buffet... the guys ordered so much, we had a hard time finishing up the food.. cant believe steven could eat SOOOO much~! omg.. i felt like puking then.. haha...
ever since then, my holiday has been realli busy.. we chatted on msn... hm.. record was 13 participants.. for me, "earliest" was till 3am.. ha... n yup... tt brings me to our 2nd outing... i guess not many pple play mahjong so the turn out for out first outing - mahjong session at val's place wasnt tt good.. so seth n zhiquan was suggesting to have an outdoor outing.. so we did...
we were supposed to meet up at erm.. 1pm? but ya.. as the seniors have expected... the 1h rule was passed on... becoz of the rain, we met up realli late.. i was early.. so i met up with weijie for lunch.. hm.. he introduced me to the DIY ramen.. it wasnt so much of DIY after all coz the waitress helped us mixed the ingredients.. it;s not bad..but the sesame paste made the ramen so sticky tt i did have quite a hard time biting them.. o how can i forget about the xiao long tang bao~! it's very nice~! i think better than ting tai feng's~! wa shiok seah~!okie relax shirley... omg... thinking about it alone makes me salivate.. hahaha..
anyway by the time, we all gathered at ecp mac it was 3.30pm? while we waited val to finidh her lunch, we played card games again.. illegal gambling den.. lol.. 4 decks for 4 grps.. haha... it was getting pretty late then... i think it was about 4pm when we decided to cycle... most of them were pretty slow... i prefer to cycle fast.. so tt u can feel all the wind brushing past ur face, running thru every strand of ur hair.. so refreshing~! o ya... did i mention tt poor weijin was stuck at home? heard sth like his mom took his keys so he cant get out of the house.. haha.. poor guy... but it sounded pretty silly... keke..
hm.. shan bin n hong bee couldnt cycle... so we got 2 doubles.. macho guideng n weijie volunteered to take the 2 mei nu... ai ya.. see la.. weijin... y u never come? no free rides for me.. kekeke... we returned the bikes 2 h later and played volleyball while steven n weijie taught the 2 gals how to cycle... it was quite fun.. haha.. even though my arms got realli red after it...
we went to macs again for dinner.. i had to leave becoz of my mum again... sigh.. was so pai seh becoz we were waiting for da sao to come.. ya seth's gf... haha.. i didnt speak up until around 8.30pm... mum;s gonna kill me.. haha.. i asked yimin to walk me out becoz i am a road direction idiot... haha... and as usual, the gentlemen LUNA guy, weijie actually, volunteered to walk us out to the bus stop..
i felt stupid when i reached home becoz my parents left for the wake.. i was so envious tt eveyone was still having fun in ecp... so i called weijie.. free incoming call... haha... talked to almost everyone.. i think i was disturbing them.. haha...
o well... i'm looking forward to our next gathering... but i think it;ll be the chalet on next mon... yup... cant wait to win back my 50 cents.... lol.. just kidding...
Friday, July 15, 2005
i LoVe FwC~!
yup yup... i was back from my 4 days camp yesterday afternoon actually.. wa so shag tt i went to sleep right after reaching home... have been pretty busy since yesterday.. now tt almost everyone's offline, i finally found the time to blog about my fantastic 4 days.. it realli spiced up things coz my holiday has been pretty routine like.. and i like making new frens... my og mates r realli nice pple..
okie.. 1st day:
we were all blur and new to the cold dull building of engin fac.. met hong bee at one of the lifts... so coincident.. as we walked to LT6 where we were supposed to meet up, we chatted and found out that we were both from LUNA.. yes LUNA... tt's my og name.. the moon... the power of moon~! it's a pleasant surprise... had this feeling tt camp will be realli fun and exciting.. we were probably quite early.. all the seniors were like staring at us when we reach LT6.. haha.. and surprisingly, some of them whom i've met in engin open house remembered me.. haha.. was it becoz i look like a malay? we got our goodie bags and went in to meet our dear OGLs...
Steven made an impression.. he was realli frenly... introducing everyone to us.. and i didnt realise kelvin and alvin were OGLs until the seniors told us becoz they looked young and quite small for the age.. oopz sorry... i was sitting beside weijin... it;s not quite my habit to start a chat with a guy.. so we were realli quiet while the rest mingled..
to my surprise, there were onli 4 gals in the og..3 before shan bin joined us.. i tot chem engin was called a female engin course becoz there were mroe gals than guys... but i guess we took it positively.. the gals were bonded from that very first time we met... yimin's from vj too.. cool... my tong xiang.. wahaha... o... and the first guy i took notice of was gui deng.. he;s like this big muscular guy with a baby face.. lol.. gd combi though... didnt realli get to know him until the later part of the day... n seth was in red... he realli look familiar.. now i noe y.. coz he;s from vj... he;s 2 years my senior.. feli's batch.. so i wouldnt know him from vj.. but he has this vj look.. most of us were pretty shy pple in the beginning.. we couldnt catch the cheer fast.. i was getting worried that my og's gonna be boring..
pple started opening up when we played the ice breakers.. seth was constantly sabotaged when we played wacko becoz his name was the easiest to call... lol.. melvyn and weijie our senior was forfieted to do pole dance.. lol.. gay pole dance... so funny... they r realli enthu pple... i'll be blushing like some ang bao if i had to do tt... valerie was the leader... she's the one introducing the games and all to us.. another very onz senior...
lunch was not bad... catered buffet.. i love the campus games... the human twist thingy was the best.. it was then we started bonding... trusting each other and listening to each other... the 2 body parts games were fun too.. one of which i had to put my knee on weijin's right ear was hilarious.. it was then i got to interact with him a bit more... the guys r realli very onz... peng siang and zhi quan tried to make use of the railings so tt their legs will not be touching the grounds.. i was shocked.. haha... so enthu~!
we went to sentosa at about 4 or 5pm... the gals had to share a room with another 3 gals from pheugo.. the guys all into another room, councillor had to squeeze into another.. i was excited to meet new pple again.. the three gals are anqi, weili and pretty angela.. nice pple.. but a bit too dainty for me.. haha... cant help it... but we had a hard time squeezing all 6 of us in the room.. costa sands is realli small.. worse than the one in downtown east..
after dinner, it was time for sp interaction... i guess it's more exciting than the letter writting one tt we did in vj.. both blind folded. both got no idea about everything.. haha... i am lucky to have an enthu sp.. he took initiative to chat.. quite paiseh about tt... but i didnt noe how to get it started.. hehe.. it was quite fun... i had to feed him chocolates.. n he;s quite smart to use his hands to direct them to his mouth huh.. if not the chocolates would be everywhere.. lol... i didnt like the climbing stairs part though.. so scary.. doing all tt blind folded...
next was fright nite... cool activity... it's like haunted house.. yea i always like such stuff.. but this was diff from the usual ones that i;ve been to. becoz it;s out it the open.. in a spooky house among the trees... i was grouped with zhi quan, the commando... didnt know him tt well then.. haha when hong bee and weijin entered, we heard a lot of screams.. tt kinda make my heart beat faster.. was excited and wonderinf if it would be better than th vj one.. i got to see the brave macho side of our dear commando during fright nite.. as usual, the ghosts were not scary.. we didnt scream at all.. there were onli 2 times when some of them jumped out suddenly where we got a shock.. lol.. i'm blessed that zhi quan was with me.. he made me feel realli safe and secure.. he's like checking for all the blind spots and all... the house was realli dark... there was this corner where we tot it was a dead end... so dark tt we onli found a door to a room when we realli walk to the corner of the house.. i was realli nervous.. held onto him throughout the experience.. haha.. quite maluating.. shhhh...
the day ended at about 3am... all tired.. but i couldnt sleep... poor me.. had headaches the next day.. twice~!
day 2: beach games
yup.. i was in a daze most of the time becoz of the lack of sleep.. brain was not functioning well already... it was quite a demoralising day for LUNA becoz we lost 6 games in a row... n the natural comedian weijin reminded us that we won the animal game... haha.. the first game of the day.. cool... but i guess we got more bonded becoz of tt.. at least we tried to fite together and give our all to win the game.. it felt great... i guess it;s like playing any other softball game.. when ur team is down and no matter how hard u try, things just doesnt go ur way.. it;s realli tiring and frustrating.. i have to agree with weijie.. the frisbie game is realli pissing.. especially for me... i cant stand MCPs... the guys r like passing to each other.. and the gals r left out when no one else is guarding us.. some guy was guarding me in the beggining.. may be becoz i had the sporty look.. or did i look aggressive? haha... when the opposing team spot our weakness, we were realli like extras.. standing ard... unable to help the grp.. argh... sucks..
time passes realli fast with all of tt going on.. soon, we had dinner, bathed.. and it was sp interaction again... this time, we were asked to eat this candy mix sweet ... the long and realli sour one... we were asked to bite it at the ends.. and my sp, felix.. haha he had to chew it until i could feel his breathe... how scary... haha.. thank god the seniors stop us before anything happens.. haha..
after tt, i had to go to the seniors room for dance practice.. i was chosen for the dance competition with seth... yup.. he;s a fun guy.. vj ogl.. so pro at the dances... n blur me had a hard time trying to catch the dance steps.. but he was quite supportive.. i depended on him a lot.. he was always prompting me.. hm.. nice guy.. n he's quite sensitive.. constantly aksing me if i wan a rest becoz i was having a bad headache.. the practice ended at 3am when we got all the wacky moves in it.. not onli seth.. all the guys in LUNA are realli nice.. when i was having a headache, gui deng offered me panadol and oilment. weijin n gui deng passed me water.. seth would constantly ask if i was ok... so did the seniors... sorta felt like a queen... haha... dunno y i was so weak.. perhaps it's becoz of u noe wad.. gals... but ya... i felt so xin fu.. haha... some of the guys i know in vj arent as gentleman as LUNA guys... so yup... realli think our og pple r very nice...
day 3: beach games & SP nite
scavenger hunt was fun.. pple like me with brains not functioning well are blessed with smarties ard us.. haha.. i didnt realli help much with all the brain cracking word puzzles... better at finding clues i guess... yup.. i realise my physical fitness is still alright.. becoz we ran alot along the beach... i was running with the guys... just realised so when seth told me about it.. haha.. but running felt gd.. wasnt tt tiring... i guess it;s mentally draining when u run in the stadium... may be tt's y it's diff.. we reached there first... so cool~! haha...
LUNA is the best~! Hong dou~! Da hong dou~! i dun see the link.. realli... but it's the fastest cheer tt we caught.. hee..
highlight of the camp and the day for me was SP nite.. so cool and romantic... along the pool, we stood and waited for the guys to guess who their SPs are.. poor beckham aka david... he was dressed in this pink shirt.. haha.. poor him guessed wrongly twice and was forfieted to go on his knees and shout, "wo dui bu qi wo de sp" haha.. the rest got them right at their first guess.. so cool.. my SP was nice.. like chatting with him.. haha... he claimed tt he was pressurised becoz i knew my dance well... haha... dinner was at the beach bar... outdoor, under the stars... how romantic.. i realli love the place... it makes my heart melt, makes my legs wobble... my sp, felix was such a gentleman.. haha... he brought me food.. and as usual, he started the conversation.. haha i feel bad... but i am learning how to crap like everyone else do.. i couldnt concentrate becoz i was so nervous about the dance competition..flashes of the dance routine keep flashing thru my mind.. argh.... i could have torn my dress.. haha.. seth wasnt sitting far from me.. we exchanged looks for a few times.. i think he was nervous too.. he made this heart thumping action.. haha... didnt noe a zai dancer like him would be tt nervous too.. we rehearsed once before we went up for the competitition... i'm glad that we weren't the first 2 grps.. gave us a chance to look at the others and some time for me to physce myself up... somehow, i convinced myself.. and i let it go... kept the seniors words in mind... right seth, just have fun.. so i did.. i probabaly look kinda crazy up on the stage.. the lights were so bright. i couldnt see audience downstairs.. so tt was to my advanatage.. it was like just seth n me.. guess we were not bad la.. haha... it was like sth off my chest when all was done..
~to be continued~
okie.. 1st day:
we were all blur and new to the cold dull building of engin fac.. met hong bee at one of the lifts... so coincident.. as we walked to LT6 where we were supposed to meet up, we chatted and found out that we were both from LUNA.. yes LUNA... tt's my og name.. the moon... the power of moon~! it's a pleasant surprise... had this feeling tt camp will be realli fun and exciting.. we were probably quite early.. all the seniors were like staring at us when we reach LT6.. haha.. and surprisingly, some of them whom i've met in engin open house remembered me.. haha.. was it becoz i look like a malay? we got our goodie bags and went in to meet our dear OGLs...
Steven made an impression.. he was realli frenly... introducing everyone to us.. and i didnt realise kelvin and alvin were OGLs until the seniors told us becoz they looked young and quite small for the age.. oopz sorry... i was sitting beside weijin... it;s not quite my habit to start a chat with a guy.. so we were realli quiet while the rest mingled..
to my surprise, there were onli 4 gals in the og..3 before shan bin joined us.. i tot chem engin was called a female engin course becoz there were mroe gals than guys... but i guess we took it positively.. the gals were bonded from that very first time we met... yimin's from vj too.. cool... my tong xiang.. wahaha... o... and the first guy i took notice of was gui deng.. he;s like this big muscular guy with a baby face.. lol.. gd combi though... didnt realli get to know him until the later part of the day... n seth was in red... he realli look familiar.. now i noe y.. coz he;s from vj... he;s 2 years my senior.. feli's batch.. so i wouldnt know him from vj.. but he has this vj look.. most of us were pretty shy pple in the beginning.. we couldnt catch the cheer fast.. i was getting worried that my og's gonna be boring..
pple started opening up when we played the ice breakers.. seth was constantly sabotaged when we played wacko becoz his name was the easiest to call... lol.. melvyn and weijie our senior was forfieted to do pole dance.. lol.. gay pole dance... so funny... they r realli enthu pple... i'll be blushing like some ang bao if i had to do tt... valerie was the leader... she's the one introducing the games and all to us.. another very onz senior...
lunch was not bad... catered buffet.. i love the campus games... the human twist thingy was the best.. it was then we started bonding... trusting each other and listening to each other... the 2 body parts games were fun too.. one of which i had to put my knee on weijin's right ear was hilarious.. it was then i got to interact with him a bit more... the guys r realli very onz... peng siang and zhi quan tried to make use of the railings so tt their legs will not be touching the grounds.. i was shocked.. haha... so enthu~!
we went to sentosa at about 4 or 5pm... the gals had to share a room with another 3 gals from pheugo.. the guys all into another room, councillor had to squeeze into another.. i was excited to meet new pple again.. the three gals are anqi, weili and pretty angela.. nice pple.. but a bit too dainty for me.. haha... cant help it... but we had a hard time squeezing all 6 of us in the room.. costa sands is realli small.. worse than the one in downtown east..
after dinner, it was time for sp interaction... i guess it's more exciting than the letter writting one tt we did in vj.. both blind folded. both got no idea about everything.. haha... i am lucky to have an enthu sp.. he took initiative to chat.. quite paiseh about tt... but i didnt noe how to get it started.. hehe.. it was quite fun... i had to feed him chocolates.. n he;s quite smart to use his hands to direct them to his mouth huh.. if not the chocolates would be everywhere.. lol... i didnt like the climbing stairs part though.. so scary.. doing all tt blind folded...
next was fright nite... cool activity... it's like haunted house.. yea i always like such stuff.. but this was diff from the usual ones that i;ve been to. becoz it;s out it the open.. in a spooky house among the trees... i was grouped with zhi quan, the commando... didnt know him tt well then.. haha when hong bee and weijin entered, we heard a lot of screams.. tt kinda make my heart beat faster.. was excited and wonderinf if it would be better than th vj one.. i got to see the brave macho side of our dear commando during fright nite.. as usual, the ghosts were not scary.. we didnt scream at all.. there were onli 2 times when some of them jumped out suddenly where we got a shock.. lol.. i'm blessed that zhi quan was with me.. he made me feel realli safe and secure.. he's like checking for all the blind spots and all... the house was realli dark... there was this corner where we tot it was a dead end... so dark tt we onli found a door to a room when we realli walk to the corner of the house.. i was realli nervous.. held onto him throughout the experience.. haha.. quite maluating.. shhhh...
the day ended at about 3am... all tired.. but i couldnt sleep... poor me.. had headaches the next day.. twice~!
day 2: beach games
yup.. i was in a daze most of the time becoz of the lack of sleep.. brain was not functioning well already... it was quite a demoralising day for LUNA becoz we lost 6 games in a row... n the natural comedian weijin reminded us that we won the animal game... haha.. the first game of the day.. cool... but i guess we got more bonded becoz of tt.. at least we tried to fite together and give our all to win the game.. it felt great... i guess it;s like playing any other softball game.. when ur team is down and no matter how hard u try, things just doesnt go ur way.. it;s realli tiring and frustrating.. i have to agree with weijie.. the frisbie game is realli pissing.. especially for me... i cant stand MCPs... the guys r like passing to each other.. and the gals r left out when no one else is guarding us.. some guy was guarding me in the beggining.. may be becoz i had the sporty look.. or did i look aggressive? haha... when the opposing team spot our weakness, we were realli like extras.. standing ard... unable to help the grp.. argh... sucks..
time passes realli fast with all of tt going on.. soon, we had dinner, bathed.. and it was sp interaction again... this time, we were asked to eat this candy mix sweet ... the long and realli sour one... we were asked to bite it at the ends.. and my sp, felix.. haha he had to chew it until i could feel his breathe... how scary... haha.. thank god the seniors stop us before anything happens.. haha..
after tt, i had to go to the seniors room for dance practice.. i was chosen for the dance competition with seth... yup.. he;s a fun guy.. vj ogl.. so pro at the dances... n blur me had a hard time trying to catch the dance steps.. but he was quite supportive.. i depended on him a lot.. he was always prompting me.. hm.. nice guy.. n he's quite sensitive.. constantly aksing me if i wan a rest becoz i was having a bad headache.. the practice ended at 3am when we got all the wacky moves in it.. not onli seth.. all the guys in LUNA are realli nice.. when i was having a headache, gui deng offered me panadol and oilment. weijin n gui deng passed me water.. seth would constantly ask if i was ok... so did the seniors... sorta felt like a queen... haha... dunno y i was so weak.. perhaps it's becoz of u noe wad.. gals... but ya... i felt so xin fu.. haha... some of the guys i know in vj arent as gentleman as LUNA guys... so yup... realli think our og pple r very nice...
day 3: beach games & SP nite
scavenger hunt was fun.. pple like me with brains not functioning well are blessed with smarties ard us.. haha.. i didnt realli help much with all the brain cracking word puzzles... better at finding clues i guess... yup.. i realise my physical fitness is still alright.. becoz we ran alot along the beach... i was running with the guys... just realised so when seth told me about it.. haha.. but running felt gd.. wasnt tt tiring... i guess it;s mentally draining when u run in the stadium... may be tt's y it's diff.. we reached there first... so cool~! haha...
LUNA is the best~! Hong dou~! Da hong dou~! i dun see the link.. realli... but it's the fastest cheer tt we caught.. hee..
highlight of the camp and the day for me was SP nite.. so cool and romantic... along the pool, we stood and waited for the guys to guess who their SPs are.. poor beckham aka david... he was dressed in this pink shirt.. haha.. poor him guessed wrongly twice and was forfieted to go on his knees and shout, "wo dui bu qi wo de sp" haha.. the rest got them right at their first guess.. so cool.. my SP was nice.. like chatting with him.. haha... he claimed tt he was pressurised becoz i knew my dance well... haha... dinner was at the beach bar... outdoor, under the stars... how romantic.. i realli love the place... it makes my heart melt, makes my legs wobble... my sp, felix was such a gentleman.. haha... he brought me food.. and as usual, he started the conversation.. haha i feel bad... but i am learning how to crap like everyone else do.. i couldnt concentrate becoz i was so nervous about the dance competition..flashes of the dance routine keep flashing thru my mind.. argh.... i could have torn my dress.. haha.. seth wasnt sitting far from me.. we exchanged looks for a few times.. i think he was nervous too.. he made this heart thumping action.. haha... didnt noe a zai dancer like him would be tt nervous too.. we rehearsed once before we went up for the competitition... i'm glad that we weren't the first 2 grps.. gave us a chance to look at the others and some time for me to physce myself up... somehow, i convinced myself.. and i let it go... kept the seniors words in mind... right seth, just have fun.. so i did.. i probabaly look kinda crazy up on the stage.. the lights were so bright. i couldnt see audience downstairs.. so tt was to my advanatage.. it was like just seth n me.. guess we were not bad la.. haha... it was like sth off my chest when all was done..
~to be continued~
Friday, July 08, 2005
o gosh... i am free today... just realised it aint tt gd after all.. i'm TOO free~! I;ve got nth to do.. been stoning ard since the time i woke up.. tt was erm... 10 or 11? played yahoo mahjong with some losers with lagging comp or lagging brains.. take freaking long to click on the buttons.. the games took forever to finish... o darn... bored to death... sigh... coach doesnt need us for today... so i've got nth to do for the rest of today.... need sth to keep me busy... some excitement in life? sth to look forward to? ya... lacking of it...
think i am getting rather pmsy again... time of the mth coming soon.. i hope it doesnt happen during my chem engin camp... it'll totally spoil everything.. coz i'll feel tired and get realli hot in the head... yup yup.. havent been able to tok to dear much.. everytime we chat on the fone, it's all about betting... i am getting a little irritated by it.. but wad to do... we dun have much to tok about.. or should i say i have nth to tell him since my life is so boring.. my weekends are normally the best.. hanging ard with dear and all... but i still think i owe my current bad mood to the lost of my dear 1 week old hp... havent been feeling too good lately... everything seems lousy right now...
hm... but i guess there's sth i could look forward to... chem engin camp starts on mon... mon to thu, i wont be home.. tt's gd becoz mum;s getting psmy too.. haha... can avoild all the war fare at home... hee... i kinda feel weird about the camp actually.. we werent told much about it.. no schedule.. no nth... i dun like to be in the position when i have no control of wad's gonna happen to me.. all we recieved was a list of things to bring for camp, time and venue to meet up... i realised i've got lots to ask. like wad's the dress code? u noe.. since we'll be meeting in NUS instead of sentosa? and erm.. instead of t shirts, can i bring sleeveless? i dun mind getting tanned since i'm super dark already... t shirts are hot. i dun like round necks too... and shorts... ahhh.. i tot of brining my sec sch pe t shirt so i can wear, dirty it and just throw.. yeah.. dun need to bring it back to wash.. but it's white... cant get wet in it.. or i'll be free show to the guys.. so... help~!
ya emailed them.. hope they reply me soon.. hm... brainstorming for things to do later.. pack my bag... play more mahjong.. and we'll explore for more yahoo games... yup bye~!
think i am getting rather pmsy again... time of the mth coming soon.. i hope it doesnt happen during my chem engin camp... it'll totally spoil everything.. coz i'll feel tired and get realli hot in the head... yup yup.. havent been able to tok to dear much.. everytime we chat on the fone, it's all about betting... i am getting a little irritated by it.. but wad to do... we dun have much to tok about.. or should i say i have nth to tell him since my life is so boring.. my weekends are normally the best.. hanging ard with dear and all... but i still think i owe my current bad mood to the lost of my dear 1 week old hp... havent been feeling too good lately... everything seems lousy right now...
hm... but i guess there's sth i could look forward to... chem engin camp starts on mon... mon to thu, i wont be home.. tt's gd becoz mum;s getting psmy too.. haha... can avoild all the war fare at home... hee... i kinda feel weird about the camp actually.. we werent told much about it.. no schedule.. no nth... i dun like to be in the position when i have no control of wad's gonna happen to me.. all we recieved was a list of things to bring for camp, time and venue to meet up... i realised i've got lots to ask. like wad's the dress code? u noe.. since we'll be meeting in NUS instead of sentosa? and erm.. instead of t shirts, can i bring sleeveless? i dun mind getting tanned since i'm super dark already... t shirts are hot. i dun like round necks too... and shorts... ahhh.. i tot of brining my sec sch pe t shirt so i can wear, dirty it and just throw.. yeah.. dun need to bring it back to wash.. but it's white... cant get wet in it.. or i'll be free show to the guys.. so... help~!
ya emailed them.. hope they reply me soon.. hm... brainstorming for things to do later.. pack my bag... play more mahjong.. and we'll explore for more yahoo games... yup bye~!
Monday, July 04, 2005
My medical checkup in UHWC
hm.. i actually read christine's blog on her medical checkup hm... a few days ago? was it sat or sun? i had mine today... went to NUS early in the morning with my mum.. reached there like 0730.. was too early since it onli opens at 0830.. yup... spent tt 1 hr in mum's office... anyway, later mum showed me how to take the shuttle bus to the place.. it's in yusoft ishak house... the canteen looks best among those that i've seen there...
anyway, i was new there.. so i was kinda blur.. daph told me i didnt have to bring anything.. so i didnt.. checket the freshmen guide too.. it wasnt written in there tt i have to bring some medical sheet thingy, like wad the nurse said... anyway, they had a photocopied one.. so i used it... first station was the wt n ht n eye sight inspection stop... i gained weight.. damn.. 53.6kg... not sure wad my measured ht was though.. didnt have the chance to see... anyway, thanks god i have my contacts on, i could see everything tested quite clearly..
2nd station was the urine test one.. alamak.. i was so nervous, having christine's experience in mind... but yeah... i had it well planned.. ok this sounds a bit disgusting... but i pee a little first.. den put the little cup there to collect it... it wasnt tt difficult after all... hee.. yeah all negative.. perfect...
3rd station.. i had to wait for my turn... wait for my no to be called... the 4 red no blinked on the digital screen and i was supposed to go to room 4.. it was my first time after all.. didnt know where it was.. i was looking ard. n this helpful guy was smiling at me, pointing to the door and saying, "here it is".. ya... was it the way he look? i sensed sneering... or was i too sensitive? yuck i didnt realli like it... had to see this doc... she look more like some chi sinseh... haha... she had grey permed hair and this typical chinese look.. had my blood pressure tested... den she made me loosed my bra and lie on this bed.. aiyo... very embarassing when she was checking my heart beat, stomach and searching for swellings on my boobs... it was ticklish... i was trying very hard not to laugh... i must have looked weird... ah nvm...
last station was the x ray thing.. ya just as wad everyone have experienced.. take a deep breath and copied.. done.. think i made a right decision to come early... so the whole thing took a while onli... didnt have to realli wait at all.. but the journey home was realli long... needa get my disc man and all prepared for uni life... need to find more frens who will be traveling like me... wouldnt be so lonely then...
anyway, i was new there.. so i was kinda blur.. daph told me i didnt have to bring anything.. so i didnt.. checket the freshmen guide too.. it wasnt written in there tt i have to bring some medical sheet thingy, like wad the nurse said... anyway, they had a photocopied one.. so i used it... first station was the wt n ht n eye sight inspection stop... i gained weight.. damn.. 53.6kg... not sure wad my measured ht was though.. didnt have the chance to see... anyway, thanks god i have my contacts on, i could see everything tested quite clearly..
2nd station was the urine test one.. alamak.. i was so nervous, having christine's experience in mind... but yeah... i had it well planned.. ok this sounds a bit disgusting... but i pee a little first.. den put the little cup there to collect it... it wasnt tt difficult after all... hee.. yeah all negative.. perfect...
3rd station.. i had to wait for my turn... wait for my no to be called... the 4 red no blinked on the digital screen and i was supposed to go to room 4.. it was my first time after all.. didnt know where it was.. i was looking ard. n this helpful guy was smiling at me, pointing to the door and saying, "here it is".. ya... was it the way he look? i sensed sneering... or was i too sensitive? yuck i didnt realli like it... had to see this doc... she look more like some chi sinseh... haha... she had grey permed hair and this typical chinese look.. had my blood pressure tested... den she made me loosed my bra and lie on this bed.. aiyo... very embarassing when she was checking my heart beat, stomach and searching for swellings on my boobs... it was ticklish... i was trying very hard not to laugh... i must have looked weird... ah nvm...
last station was the x ray thing.. ya just as wad everyone have experienced.. take a deep breath and copied.. done.. think i made a right decision to come early... so the whole thing took a while onli... didnt have to realli wait at all.. but the journey home was realli long... needa get my disc man and all prepared for uni life... need to find more frens who will be traveling like me... wouldnt be so lonely then...
I'm so unlucky. my 1 week old fone is gone~!
fuck... i lost my fone... it's onli been a week. i havent even realli played with it. nokia 7260... come on, if u picked it up, return it to me~! i know it's super new. it's tempting.. but please put urself in my shoes~!
i lost it yesterday.. my dear dear fone... went to suntec to watch intial d with chris. i was so looking forward to it. all dressed up.. not so after all, but i looked sporty and sexy? i even had heels on... chris always wanted me to wear them.. so i did... i wanted it to be a happy enjoyable date before he book in again.. sigh... i remembered clearly that my fone was still in my bag when i paid for the tickets. i had this bad feeling tt i would lose my fone if i took it out when i search for my wallet in my bag.. chris was right. i didnt want to admit then. my bag is too small. i shouldnt have brought the digi cam. but i wanted to take photos of us... i finally remembered after so many weeks and i had to lose my hp becoz of tt... wtf~!
in 30 min time, the movie would be showing so we decided to stay around the place. there was a vcd shop just right outside eng wah.. so we stayed there to watch some preview of kungfu mahjong.. i might have lost it then. i held my bag close to my legs. it's too small to hang it on my shoulders. it was open becoz it was too full. but my fone was bulging out. it sat well on top of all my other precious. hence, i doubt i dropped it. someone might have stolen it then. i was engrossed at the preview or some time.
we then went to buy pop corns. i cant quite remember if my hp was still in my bag then. it's just not in my memory for some reason. but i have this feeling tt i took out my wallet with much ease. so i might have lost it before then. i onli discovered that it's gone when i wanted to turn it to silent mode in the theatre itself. i ran out frantically to look for it. i panic. i was worried sick. i felt lost, disappointed at myself... chris is right again. i could blame it to my carelessness. even though i out my hp in my bag, i shouldnt have left it right at the top. i shouted at chris when he kept telling me tt we wouldnt be able to find it. we tried calling my no but the fone is off or the person who found it might have thrown my sim card away.. i so wanted to find it back tt i didnt want to admit tt he was right. sigh.... it was a terrible day. we didnt watch the movie in the end.. wasted 20 bucks.. didnt do anything... no mood for any of tt...
no doubt, chris was more calm than me. i should thank him for being there for me. cant imagine how i would react if i was alone. i might have broken down, burst into tears in the middle of the cinema... i was so scared. he held me in his arms as i cried. so sweet of him. thank you my dear... muackz muackz...
i blocked my line temporarily. i tot of covering it up. get a new fone and pretend tt it's the same one. at least mum wont know. she wont get angry nor sad. of coz i am afraid of facing the music. but i didnt want her to lose trust in me. i didnt want her to think that i cant take care of myself and my own things.
mum just brought me around nus since we were too early for the medical check up. sigh... she's so nice... how can i lie to her? she has the right to know.. but i dunno how to bring it up to her. thinking of the incident, the fact tt i lost it, especially when it was in my bag, just makes tears well up in my eyes... so i wrote a letter, left it on her office table. hopes she sees it and wont get angry. i should think of more precautions. perhaps i should hang my fone in front of my chest? would it be safer? wad's the point of bringing a bag then when i could lose it like tt? if i held it in my hands or kept it in my pocket, i wouldnt have complaints losing it. but it was in my bag~! did it have legs to climb out itself? it's still a mystery.. i'm still praying that my hp will come back to me.. please do.. please do...
i lost it yesterday.. my dear dear fone... went to suntec to watch intial d with chris. i was so looking forward to it. all dressed up.. not so after all, but i looked sporty and sexy? i even had heels on... chris always wanted me to wear them.. so i did... i wanted it to be a happy enjoyable date before he book in again.. sigh... i remembered clearly that my fone was still in my bag when i paid for the tickets. i had this bad feeling tt i would lose my fone if i took it out when i search for my wallet in my bag.. chris was right. i didnt want to admit then. my bag is too small. i shouldnt have brought the digi cam. but i wanted to take photos of us... i finally remembered after so many weeks and i had to lose my hp becoz of tt... wtf~!
in 30 min time, the movie would be showing so we decided to stay around the place. there was a vcd shop just right outside eng wah.. so we stayed there to watch some preview of kungfu mahjong.. i might have lost it then. i held my bag close to my legs. it's too small to hang it on my shoulders. it was open becoz it was too full. but my fone was bulging out. it sat well on top of all my other precious. hence, i doubt i dropped it. someone might have stolen it then. i was engrossed at the preview or some time.
we then went to buy pop corns. i cant quite remember if my hp was still in my bag then. it's just not in my memory for some reason. but i have this feeling tt i took out my wallet with much ease. so i might have lost it before then. i onli discovered that it's gone when i wanted to turn it to silent mode in the theatre itself. i ran out frantically to look for it. i panic. i was worried sick. i felt lost, disappointed at myself... chris is right again. i could blame it to my carelessness. even though i out my hp in my bag, i shouldnt have left it right at the top. i shouted at chris when he kept telling me tt we wouldnt be able to find it. we tried calling my no but the fone is off or the person who found it might have thrown my sim card away.. i so wanted to find it back tt i didnt want to admit tt he was right. sigh.... it was a terrible day. we didnt watch the movie in the end.. wasted 20 bucks.. didnt do anything... no mood for any of tt...
no doubt, chris was more calm than me. i should thank him for being there for me. cant imagine how i would react if i was alone. i might have broken down, burst into tears in the middle of the cinema... i was so scared. he held me in his arms as i cried. so sweet of him. thank you my dear... muackz muackz...
i blocked my line temporarily. i tot of covering it up. get a new fone and pretend tt it's the same one. at least mum wont know. she wont get angry nor sad. of coz i am afraid of facing the music. but i didnt want her to lose trust in me. i didnt want her to think that i cant take care of myself and my own things.
mum just brought me around nus since we were too early for the medical check up. sigh... she's so nice... how can i lie to her? she has the right to know.. but i dunno how to bring it up to her. thinking of the incident, the fact tt i lost it, especially when it was in my bag, just makes tears well up in my eyes... so i wrote a letter, left it on her office table. hopes she sees it and wont get angry. i should think of more precautions. perhaps i should hang my fone in front of my chest? would it be safer? wad's the point of bringing a bag then when i could lose it like tt? if i held it in my hands or kept it in my pocket, i wouldnt have complaints losing it. but it was in my bag~! did it have legs to climb out itself? it's still a mystery.. i'm still praying that my hp will come back to me.. please do.. please do...
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