personality test from colourgenics

Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.

You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority, but you are experiencing problems. You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation.

In spite of the fact that you believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, it is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influenceand there is no-one to turn to or rely on. Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

There is that inherent fear that you may be prevented from attaining the better things in life - those things that you consider essential to your well-being. So you are prepared to try everything to prove to yourself that whatever you do or try will go wrong. This destructive attitude could come under the heading of 'a self fulfilling prophesy'. This belittling yourself is your method of disguising how hopeless and what a waste of time you feel that everything is. So now turn it about. As you 'think', so you are... So 'imagine' yourself successful. 'Pretend', 'act it out' and you may be pleasantly surprised at the outcome.

no where to go..

i decided not to continue my last post.. it's kinda dumb..
and i cant remember wad i wanted to write...

i've finally finished the 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle for my dad..
happy belated father's day..
haha.. we're supposed to have completed it on the very day until half of it fell out when we flip the puzzle to glue it on the back of the frame...
sigh.. a test of patience it is...
it's quite addictive actually..
i find myself being able to fix it for 5 straight hours...
now tt it's done, i can get back to my preparations for fwc...

havent been realli happy lately..
getting gross out by my chubby face and fats whenever i look at the mirror...
n things arent gg too well in my life..
i dun quite understand y pple like to quarrel when u already have so lil time to interact..
it's draining...
it's so tiring getting panaroid and picking on every lil things in life..
i wonder y pple like to indulge in so..
n when u choose to indulge, u start to let ur mind wonder...
wonder into the darkest side of man..
even white snow turns to charcoal....
den u get so unhappy with these lil things..
u bring the darkness to the pple ard u...

issit necessary?
was it wrong to be honest?
perhaps it's better to tell a lil white lie when necessary...
wad was the key topic of the conversation?
y choose to eye these insignificant words?

sliding down the rainbow..
i onli see the ground...

sick & tired...

bye bye ssb...
it's finally over... hopefully i'll do well...

i'm back at work.. using johhny's comp since he sneaked away to orientation camp..
just finished my 2nd batch..
n slackign away.. waiting for 6pm to come..
it's probably the time when i post this up.. wahaha...

been feeling very lethargic lately...
issit becoz tt i grew much fatter?
or issit becoz of my low carbo intake due to efforts to slim down?

kind of fell sick yesterday...
so tired tt my eye lids felt so heavy while i was typing...
i think i fell asleep twice... once for 1/2h..
wonder if my boss noes..
oops..

slept all the way home...

-to be continued-

dull & boring...

ha.. i didnt realise tt i havent blog for sooo long...
i m working in biopolis now.. while taking special sem..
busy gal i am..
but it's realli boring... as in work wise..
i've been working since 1st june and i havent got my personal computer.
how am i suppose to do data entry w/o one????
so.. i've been hopping ard.. using pple's comp when they r away..
n i have onli completed 1 batch so far...
sigh... well according to wad i learn from labour law, employers have no obligations to provide work for employees. Even though I am not sure if I am an employee since I havent recieved my appointment letter until now, i guess i shoudnt be companing when they arent giving me anything to do... haha..
they are tt ineffective...
n i dun think they realli give a damn on wad i am doing...
i basically slack, online, and enjoy life...
been doing saigang... so monotonous.. tt i actually fell asleep just now..
thank god boss wasnt ard...
i have been looking through950 survey forms to find photocopied forms..
and i've onli found 2 so far~!!!!
-.-"
another interesting thing about this workplace..
they dun mind their employees chatting on msn during working hours..
u noe y? coz the supervisors (bosses) themselves, are guilty of it too..
ha... wad nonsense...
is this wad u call working life?