Which horror movie maniac are you?

You are Jason
Voorhees.

You are an
unstoppable killing machine. You are an expert
on killing unprepared and on the fly. Calm by
Nature you never feel the need to chase down a
victim. They need to be punished and sooner or
later the long arm of your law will reach them.
Your mother knows you are a good little boy.
'Blessed' by your mother, you will never die,
so your blood rein sees no end in sight.


Which Horror Movie Maniac are you?
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What Is Your Soul's Trait?


Your soul is OPEN-MINDED. Although you do have
strong opinions and make decisions, you never
make them without thinking first of not only
everything that is, but those that may not be
as well. People trust that you'll willingly
hear them out and understand when they tell you
something, and you are well-liked for it. You
are often the mediator in disputes and your
desire to do what is right overcomes all else.
You are an understanding and admirable soul.


What Is Your Soul's Trait?
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What Sign of Affection Are You

True true true!!!


cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed


What Sign of Affection Are You?
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What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

-Sensitive- You're Sensitive, and you'd like to
stay that way. Sorry,listened to a bit too much
Jewel there. You're sweet and very emotionally
charged. You definitely love the person you're
with, and always want to know how they're
feeling so you can make sure they're happy.


What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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hehe... :P

Your Heart is Red


What Color is Your Heart?
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THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need?

wow! this is almost totally true... pro!!!

LOVING ONE. You need safety in your relationship.
You want to be sure in his/her arms, knowing
that he will protect you and you can be totally
devoted to your other. At this point you are
very vulnerable. You open yourself and dont
even think that he/she could cheat you. You
totally trust your partner in every single way.
SO if you find out that she/he lied to you or
played a game this trust is broken. You may try
to forgive your other but this will be very
difficult.He/She has to be friendly and
trustworthy.


~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
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is this reali true? o tt reminds me tt i'm wearing braces in 2 weeks time!!!

is this reali true? o tt reminds me tt i'm wearing braces in 2 weeks time!!!


You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.


What kind of kiss are you?
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hehe..another one.. but this is stupid

o well, i'm simply bored... this is real stupid...


Power Rangers Movie!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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what candy am i?

You're a Caramel!! You are known for your
sweetness. You are comfortable with yourself,
and help others feel the same way about
themselves. You are generally friendly to
everyone, and believe in second chances.


Which kind of candy are you?
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yo blog.. havent seen ya for quite a few days... hehe... well, i've finally finished my block test.. anyway, it sux... i couldnt do this 10 marks essay question and this 6 marks nmr.. fed up... but who cares.. it's over and i cant do anyhting about it... :P well.. didnt study hard enough.. cant think fast enough.... i'll have to start mugging from next week again.. make sure i noe all my topics well... get ready for prelims! yeah... well, for now, i just hope to pass all three of them.. and hopefully not to badly too... ya... hm.. efei sms me yesterday...finally... hm.. we're more like before now... more like normal frens... k..i guess i was too sensitive.. perhaps he's realli stressed and feeling down... i've been too selfish.. always demanding him to sms me.. but wad to do.. hehe... it's kinda difficult to get over someone u like u noe? well, for now... i shall concentrate on my studies and go out more often with my classmates? i just realised that i've never realli hung out with with them even thoguh we've been classmates for like 1 and a half year... i can onli remember watching Honey with Yanying and Shili, all the pool days with the guys...and eating twice in Pasta Mania with Daoyong and gang (including today).. quite pathetic huh?

found this when i was looking for new skins

Forget his name
Forget his face
Forget his love
His warm embrace

Forget the love that you once knew
Remember that he has someone knew
Forget him when they play your song
Remember when you cried all nite long
Forget how close you two once were
Remeber he has chosen her

Forget you have memorised his walks
Forget the way he used to talk
Forget the things he used to say
Remember he has gone away

Forget his laughter
Forget his grin
Forget the dimples on his cheek
Forget the way he held you tight
Remember he's with her tonite

Forget the time that went so fast
Forget the love that moved it's past
Forget that he'd leave you never
Remeber that he's gone forever

sth i found from the net...

perfect by nature
icons of self indulgance
just what we all need
lies about a world that
never was and never will be
have you no shame don't you see me
you know you have got everybody fooled

mummy's coming home this afternoon...

hm... waiting for my tuition teacher to come... o yea...i'm so going to screw up my common test... i did sort of covered everything but it's like i feel that i noe nuts about anything... haha.. just hope that i can pass all three.... not having high hopes.. how can i? as in.. i've been enjoying this holiday... sorta.... it could be better without the stupid common tests... well, think i went out a lot... especially the last two days..haha... it's like just the last three days to common test...when pple are mugging real hard..n me? like wad xinglong said "no government".... muahaha... i realli do enjoy these two days..all that freedom... but time realli flew!!! i wan more of these! anyway, i realised that i didn't write about yesterday...
let's reflect back:

i didnt have lunch yesterday u noe... no appetite... and when i ate dinner, i felt like puking.... even supper... wonder if i'm sick or wad... well, anyway, i met xinglong at 5...supposedly.. -.-" i tot i would be late..but i wasnt.. and guess wad..tt xinglong was 25 min late!!! o gosh..and we met at lavender..there's like nuts to shop... -.-" anyway, i was realli happy and honoured that he asked me out rite after he booked out..hehe... showed that he do treasure me as a gd fren... i like the attention... tt's me :P hm.. den we went to beach road.. he had to sette quite a lot of stuff that's related to his ns...police thingy... made new copies of keys.... bought lots of singlets! and shortened his pants to a suitable length... i think i should be more vocal when i'm outside... it pays off... like xinglong... he's kinda good in bargaining... did it an a jokin way... he talked to all the uncles and aunties selling stuff there... yup..den.. went to bugis..had mos burger for dinner..ya felt like puking after half a packet of fries... he had to help me finish it.. and we were discussing about youngsters smoking.. coz we were sitting beside the window... there were so many guys in pink! haha... in trend now huh? ya..anyway, there are like a lot of little gals and boys smoking..and i realli mean LITTLE... they're like super underaged... around 13 onli? i cant stand smokers... as in... it's so smelly... so unhealthy... u get lung cancer and all other respiratory health problems from smoking... and some of the toxins actually make ur blood veseels clot more easily rite? one day, they sould cut open their body and look at their own lungs! black like wad seah! i saw one in a science exhibition.. i wouldnt wan my lungs to become so black and ugly.. and disgusting!
hm.. o ya.. and xinglong saw this "pretty" gal.. i'm not sure if he tot she was pretty.. coz he said if she was his gf, he wouldnt have to worry that she would be stolen away by other guys... (is that an insult or a praise huh?) and i think he blushed.. he couldnt stop smiling.. haha... and it was constagious... i think it's the first time i saw him like that.. it's just kinda cute... cute becoz i dunno how else to descibe him..
o well, then we met josphua and the chio bu, zhen zhen... ho... she was from jjc track..da mei nu.... if i'm a butch, i'll jio her... haha.... we went to cine k box.. my 3rd time in ktv... haha... not used to it.. so didnt sing much.. hehe... the onli song i remembered singing properly was jolin's shuo ai ni... ya... sang it with zhen zhen.. and ever since den she keep asking me to sing... she actually like my voice.. haha... flattering... i feel that i'm more of a bathroom singer.. hehe... it's nice. i think i shall go ktv more often after this common test or perhaps after Alevels..sux man.... hate the thought of mugging for it...
hm.. o ya.. i forgot to talk about xinglong's new hairstlye.. haha... actually i think that he's not bad looking with his "ma da kia" head..haha... very nice to touch..and he's always brushing and rubbing his head... he claims that it will help his hair grow faster..... muahaha... wonder if it's true... he looks very stressed up when he does that...
k tuition time for the brain dead zombie...

home alone 2

home alone 2

muahaha... man... i slept at 5am this morning!!!!! watched euro this morning..my god! euro is super kay-long... how can france lose to greece? how can enlgand lose to portugal? i mean seriously.. i watched portugal's first match with greece... it's like the defence was so damn slack... the portugal defender dodged away from the bloody ball!! i wont blame beckham.. he's supposed to be gd... but a champion team dun win every game. so i guess a proster also have his bad day huh? (but that is not his first time mising a penalty shot).. anyway, when i first woke up, i was like some zombie.. but i couldnt force myself to sleep anymore... haha.. so the disciplined side of me ordered myself to finish up the last topic, Transition metals..i realise that it isnt that difficult... but i still dun feel very secure coz i'm not sure if i can remember so many things that i've studied..i dun think i noe them at my finger tips yet... but nvm... i'll start to revise again after common test 3... start to prepare for WAR! hehe... ;P o and guess wad... when i was realli sad, my buddy, xinglong came to my mind... realli wished that someone could be there to listen to my complaints and allow me to cry in his arms... well, of course that didnt happen... but haha.. my fairy god mother heard me... he's booking out today... yeah yeah... i'm sure he'll be able to cheer me up... hehe... actually it's kinda weird huh... it's like we clique... he's the closest (guy) fren i have... i tell him all my secrets.. all my problems... but we both know it's impossible for us to get together... why huh? sometimes i wonder... but then... i like it this way... it may be very different if things changed... hey dun get the wrong idea....i'm not jumping from a guy to another... not tt easy k.... just sth i've been wondering... and i can prove my mum wrong.. haha.. a guy and a gal can be frens.. very gd frens onli... coz i have one... :P

home alone!!!!

haha.. i had lots of fun tonite... or more of today? haha... look at the time... it'slike wad? 2 plus am? it feels great... i enjoyed going out with my younger brother today... went to chomp chomp to eat.. had hokkien mee... wa.. delicious man!!!! never had such nice hokkien mee for a long long time!!! :-)~ o ya... and i wonder y... the guy selling sugar cane drink said hi to me... den when i ordered one big and one small cup of sugar cane drink, he served us one medium, one big one....athe the price of a small and a big one u noe... hehe.... and he winked at me.. omg... he's like kinda old..middle aged or sth... get someone ur own age.. -.-" but it was pretty flattering.. u should have seen the pple seating beside us... so jealous of my order... haha.... their small cup of sugar cane is like half of my medium one... keke...
ya den we went to bishan for movies.. man i so wantd to go to orchard... he must be too lazy to check if there's any nice movies showin there... anyway, we watched Around the world in eighty days.... haha nice movie.. realli funny... and it's gd.. as in.. it definitely cheered me up.. i was so sad when i realised that the first guy whom i had mutual feelings for at the same time no longer likes me... well, not tt i'm not sad... but it's not so bad now... i've been reminding myself to stay strong.... anyway, guess wad... we've never been allowed to go out this late..and we were so blur and silly that we waited at the bus interchange for the stupid bus for quite some time... den realise tt the last bus went off an hour ago or sth... think we waited for quite long time coz i actually had time to learn a part of the dance that my brother learnt and performed in his poly orientation...muahaha... sound stupid rite? i've never enjoyed so much freedom before.... blasting my comp speaker with hip hop music now.. haha.. and guess wad.. drinking tiger beer!!! haha.. gd life eh?
tt's me... a wild gal... but also disciplined ok.... thanx to my mum.. realli.. as i grow older, i start to understand more of y she always nag and scold us.... especially the times when she realli punish us when we do worng stuff when we were young... i start to agree with her... i realise how wild i can get... i mean i dun realli consider wad i did today as wild.... i can be worse than this.. i wanna club... haha.. but i guess if it's not for my mum, i wouldnt be who i am now... she's been very strict with me since young... like i've said.. i'm turnin 18 in august but today was the first time i stayed out until 12plus am without them... not including chalets of course.... well, i guess if she hasnt been so strict with me, i would be some ah lian now.. in some gang... clubbing all day and all nite... may be even smoking.. who knows... i dunno.... well, tt's y.. i have a wild side of e who wans to play all day and rock all nite..and a pretty disciplined side of me who knows when to seriously get down to work and mug real hard... yeah... tt's me.... thanx a lot mummy.. love u lots...

A poem from my younger brother...

A poem from my younger brother...

Jealousy

A chill blade in icewind dale,
a jest of lemon cruel grill.
It is foul in human nature,
uncomprehensive to the normal mind.
Yet it should be welcomed,
as it clones a picture.
It indicates a sweet scented rose,
of uncommon nature.

knows what he's trying to say?

i shall be the mighty, invincible Shirley again...

i shall be the mighty, invincible Shirley again...

ok.. problem resolved... i shall be the mighty, invincible Shirley again... as i've expected.. his feelings has faded... tt's fast eh? but well, i guess i ahve to accept it... it's true..such things do happen... i'm pobabaly not who he wanted.. may be i just reminded him of tt person... anyway, he told me tt he is used to being completely independent... well, i'm marking his words.. it's gd... it's no bad... but i guess i should be accepting him for who he is... and if he is realli that independent, den... unfortunately, he's not the one i'm looking for... well, i'm sad... i cried... but i'm glad that this is taken off my shoulder now... i'll be alright.. i'm Shirley rite? Shirley can overcome all obstacles.... hehe... :)

love me for who i am... i love u for who u r...

well, true enuff... he hasnt msg me since yesterday afternoon.... i get the hint... i'll back off... just dun come and say anythign sweet to me anymore... dun do anythign sweet to me.. dun make me think that u realli like me.. i dun wanan fall into tt trap anymore... think i'm crazy? may be i am... SOMEONE SAVE ME!!!!

a possible solution...

haiz.. i give up.. i've decided not to take any more intiatives.. he's just going to be a normal fren.. i had enough... even somone i just noe, sms me more than him... i dunno wad he's busy with... i dun wanna noe... had enough... i am convinced that wad he meant by "liking me" was just a causal remark... the contradicting thing was the sweetest thing he did to me... probably one of the sweetest thing a guy has ever done for me... but ai ya.. may be he's tt sweet to everyone else.. who noes? i give up... i realli dunno wad to think... dunno wad i am to him... he probably just wanna be frens onli... nth mroe than tt.. fine then... i'll take tt...

things seem to be getting better this way....

hi blog.. havent write for a few days... hm... i'm pretty stressed by all the mugging lately... holiday is gonna end soon.. it's the last week... actually, we shouldnt call it holiday.. it's not... it's more like a study break... but hm.. i think i did enjoyed my holiday so far... coz i did go out quite often... but at the same time, that's y i feel guilty too... i didnt study hard... didnt study enough.. tt's y i'm rushing now... and i'm not sure if i still can remember the topics that i studied in the beginning of the holiday..muahaha... i don't expect to do very well for this common test.. but hopefully, not too bad?
hm... i've survived thru more than two days without hearing or recieveing any sms from him... haha.... wad an achievement.. i'm quite surprised that these two days weren't as bad as i thought.... may be becoz i'm too caught up with my work.. didnt have much time to think so much about us... hm... i've told a few frens about my problem.. they all ask me to talk to him.. tell him how i feel.. but then again, if he never wanted or expected this to develop into something deep and serious, wouldnt it be weird for me to tell him all that? to tell him about my doubts, how crazy and sad i got? or may be a better solution would be to play softball or mug when i start to think about him, or the problem.... concentrating into my studies or playing softball seems to work... i wont be thinking about anything else except wad i'm supposed to be doing then.... hm... haiz... i dunno.. we'll see... he should be coming back today... or probabaly tonite... we'll see if he continues to be like tt... (hopefully not....)

i'm so gonna miss him...

i've decided not to expect so much from him anymore... i realise that i'm a bit silly to do so... he seems to be perfect... everything else is perfect except that we do not value love the same way in life... well, at least that's the kind of impression i get from him so far... the higher hopes u have, the harder u fall when u dun achieve them... may be he's not the one? I have my A's... And i seriously need to concentrate on my studies... since we're not going anywhere rite now, den i wont push it further... becoz if i were to do so, i would need to divert a lot of strength, especially mentally and effort... it seems so to me now... i'll let nature takes its course... i dun wannaa think so much about it anymore.. it makes me sad... when i find that i'm not needed... when i find that i'm not as impt as i think i am in his heart... when i realise that no one can take her place... not unless he lets me to... he's still holding onto it... he just doesnt want to admit it... hoping that it will go away by itself... sorry, but i'm jealous... i've tried.. tried to pull myself up everytime i'm down... u didnt realli do anything.. ironically, tt's the problem... may be it is so... may be i'm looking for trouble myself....
well, he's going to Genting tml if i'm not wrong... for a few days? a few days without his sms... a few days knowing that he's not in singapore... knowing that i cant contact him in any way... it's good for him.. coz he said that he needs to relax and go for a holiday... but i will realli miss him.. a lot.. A LOT N A LOT N A LOT!!!!

common tests sux....

hm... time flies... the last week of june holidays is going to begin in a few hours time... and i have like so much more to cover for my common tests... sux man... i think i'm not takign my common test 3 very seriously.. wonder if it's good or bad... well, i wanna study for my A'levels not just for my common test..i wanna improve my Chemistry.... the other two sub is not too bad since i've hit my As before... Chem Chem... i just realise it's the onli subject which i havent bought a Redspot Tys for... may be tt's the prob.. haha... not enuff practise.... it somehow works... there's explanations at the sides of the tys which tells you why the answer is so. u can check on ur concepts from there... hm... i should get one rite after my common test... it's not too late to get one rite? hehe... i've studied quite a lot... so much that i wonder if i can still remember now... i cant realli recall anything... just hope that when i do the papers, everything will just come out like easily.. smoothly....
o ya... i coached my juniors today.. was in charged of the sec1s.. haha.. just a few of them.. they're quite small.. compared to my size..haha... reminds of me when i was sec1... so cute... muahaha... o ya.. one of them call Carrey... wow.. when i saw her batting, i'm liek realli impressed... she's good... it's like her stroke was correct and she finish off real nicely... just tt she's not very sure of the contact point n stuff.. but when she contact the ball, most of the time, it flies nicely... i dun think i was that good when i was sec1... hm.. got potential to be like NH, the best batter in my team when we were sec4 in TKGS... i remebered that she had a 100% batting average for our finals against NYGH when we were Sec4... every hit she made was at least a two base hit.. it's like the pitcher couldnt do anything to her... may be they should have walked her... haha... i always admired her softball skills and resepected her as a pro player... proud to be able to play with her in a champion team.. not becoz we were champion.. we were a united champion team which fought hard together... from 2nd last when we were sec1, to champion when we were sec2.... 2nd when we were sec3, and champ again when we were sec4... haha.. seems like i'm drifting away from my main topic.. but who cares...hehe.. i love softball!

Josphua's concert

hm... just came back from Josh's concert... was pretty good... i like their "Yes sir, that's my baby", "Reflections" and the two runic songs the best... it's the first choir concert i've attended in my life.. haha.. and a all guy choir somemore... pretty cool... hm... they did a simple and cute dance for "Yes sir, that's my baby".. haha.. the audience were all entertained and laughing... hm... brought e-fei along.. yes... very happy to see him again... he look so tired.. pretty pale.. so sad... so poor thing... watch soccer la.. watch so much... ai ya.... so sad... i WANNA WATCH TOO!!!!! didnt spend much time alone with him... but well, at least i got to see him.. hehe... :p

o ya... got to know this gal call Zhen Zhen today... she met us for the concert... she's josphua's fren... so chio! if i'm a guy.. i would probabaly ask for her no.. haha... anyway, i did even though i'm a gal... hehe.. she's a nice person.... she was so lonely at first... coz the others in the group were couples.. except, e-fei, zhen zhen and me... she was like outcasted... hehe... cant help seeing her like tt.. so started chattign with her and making frens with her... hehe... :)

i hope the malaysian channels are showing england's amtch tonite! i so wanna watch!!!!

i hate fats!

dun mind the title.. i dunno y i name it tt way... but well, i do mean it... n i'm having a hard time trying to get rid of all my extra fats... especially those around my waist.. haha... i feel good now... met up my pri sch buddy, Meisiang... haha.. and we ran to Serangoon Garden.. thoguh it's far.. but nah.. den we end up jogging here and there.. roaming the place... o n i finally found out where Serangoon Garden CC is... haha... We wanted to jog for like at least 20min.. so that after burhing all our carbohydrates... we can start burning our FATS!! hehe... well... guess wad... when i checked my handphone, I realised we have been jogging continuously for at least 35min! wo! I don't think i've ever run that long... The furthest i ran is proabaly 3.3km for cross country and physical training... i hate running.. it's boring... i guess running on scenic routes help a lot... i didnt even pant... haha... think is should go for more of such jogs...
hm... i'm so bored... have been studying quite a lot today... well, compared to wad i've covered for the past few days... hehe... o.. i'm listening to 98.7fm... it's kinda cool.. haven't listened to the radio for a long long time... wonder why.. ever since i watched the movie, "Honey", I just fell in love with hip hop music... they are all so good.. make me wanna dance along when they're playing it... haha...
I've emailed e-fei before... think he still dun realise wad i need..wad i wan.. i'm a leo dude... I need attention. I need care and concern. Lots and lots more than wad u r giving me.... It's makes me go nuts sometimes... well, i noe i like him.. but becoz i;m not getting all tt attention, i dun dare to give it all out... dun dare to step into it... i'm there.. hanging... swaying left and rite... dunno when i'll fall... or may be i'll be blown away soon....

"my hot date"

hihi... hm... havent been able to stop smiling since i met e-fei today... it was a short meeting... like erm... 3 hours? kinda sad u noe... we haven't met for like 2 weeks n 2 days.... and we're both not feeling too well when we met today... i'm still having my irritating flu which blocks both my nose n my head... i didnt talked much today... was too busy sniffing and i cant think fast... hope he doesnt get a bad impression from that... n e-fei... well, he is tired after watching soccer till like 2am.. haha... I also wanna watch!!!! i'm not a soccer fan... but i like to watch soccer somehow... like the excitement when the fowards bring the ball close to the goal posts (do u call them goal posts?) and SCORE!!!! Oleh..Oleh..Oleh..Oleh... haha... well, even if they dun.. it's still a gd try and quite exciting to watch... O ya.. and then u can see how good the goal keepers are... i like Oliver Khan.. he's cool and pretty good... o oops.. why am i toking about soccer... haha... back to the main topic... hm... we watched The punisher.. and i keep calling it the publisher... muahaha... dunno y... anyway, it's quite a nice show.. but it's kinda violent and gross... it was so cold in the theatre.. the min i step into the theatre, i realli hoped e-fei brought a jacket or sth.. or hug me? keke.... nah.. but he's so decent... bet he wont dare to do tt.. haha... :P O i must be sniffing realli badly... he asked me if i was cold.. haha.. so sensitive, so sweet eh? hehe... But then, u noe.. we're still like frens onli... we have our own lives... and i dun seem to get enough of him most of the time... and tt gives me the feeling that he's more of a single guy who's not prepared to like realli have a long term relationship.. quite sad huh? coz tt's wad i'm looking for.. tired of puppy loves... o well, wadever... i'm still young.. n we'll see how things go... i cant help missing him... after leaving him for like onli 3 hours plus?

mummy's gone....

Hi bloggie.... i just sent my mom and my brother, Stanley off at changi airport... They're goign to Sweden.. kinda envious actually... If I weren't taking O'levels this year, I would tag along... kinda cool.. I heard they have lots of arts performances there.. somehow, after doing my project work on the local theatre scene, I have been pretty interested in theatre performances... Hm, I'm not very attached to my mother but some how I felt a little sad when she walked into the departure hall... Like at that moment, I then relaised that she's not goint to be with us for the next nine days. Well, I should be sort of happy in the sense that i would have more freedom since my dad isn't that strict... but then again, she has been the pillar in all ways in the family... taking of minor and major stuff in the family... I wonder how it would be like if she's realli gone one day.. our family will be like totally "up-side down". Actually, i agree with her tt none of us in the family can realli take care of ourselves, including my dad! haha...
hm... o ya..nect week is third week.. n e-fei has holiday... just talked to him on the fone... n he was asking me, " so tt means u can go out everyday?" i wonder if he's realli going to ask me out everyday.. it's like he's always busy with so many other things..

I love softball!!!!!!!

hi bloggie.... i was too busy to come n visit u yesterday... haha... haven't played softball for sooo long... it feels gd man... hm... i'm glad to see coach shouting and screaming at my juniors again... haha.. why? becoz it shows that she has recovered pretty well... hm... n i had a little chat with coach Jo... I certainly agree with her that softball is a very difficult game to master. I've played softball for like 6 years and my throwing and batting stroke is still not perfect.. And it will be a waste is i give up softball like that... The game has influenced most of my life as a teenager... ever since i went to TKGS. I used to be this shy, soft spoken, low self-esteem girl. Even suspected that i used to have some kind of depression... Softball made me more vocal, more outgoing, definitely louder and gave me opportunities to pick about leadership qualities and skills... As a catcher, I've had lots of chances leading my team mates, giving signals and commands on the field... haha like wad my coach once said, "the general on the field"...
And coach Jo... hm.. she's like a second mother to me... She's definitely much more than a coach... her dedication and love for softball and us has inspired me so much... even though she's very sick and going thru all tt hell... she fought back hard and continued to coach us. I'm realli very honoured and proud of her.... Hm.. if i can, i think i'll continue softball after my A'levels... may be play in SIA which i still feel inferior in the team sometimes... coz there are so many pro players... pple who will be in the national team soon... but.. hm... not intimidated.... i believe i will improve much faster, if i play with them....
i think i have studied too much.. must learnt to relax... i was so stressed a few days ago that i couldnt get anything into my brain.. playing softball makes me feel gd... i'm always so confident and enthusiastic on the field... even if i were to play with China players or the national team... i'll feel nervous but there's always this joy inside, this satisfaction inside when i make a gd play or a gd hit... tt's wad keeps me going... o ya.. tt reminds me of my throw to 2 yesterday.. wow.. i couldnt believe my eyes.... haha.. i hardly make such nice throws.... muahaha... dun mind me... i'm not trying to brag... just too happy.... it was like rite at 2nd base and it reached much faster before the runner reached the base... may be i shouldnt warm up next time... haha.. just kidding....
yeah.. going to coach my juniors later...so happy.... hehe... o ya.... n e-fei called me dear!!!!!! -.-" well.. he said "poor dear" la.. but still a "dear" rite??!!!!! hehehe.... i was jumping here n there with joy when i saw tt sms... muahaha.... muackz!
O but i'm going to wear braces soon..... so sad.... probabaly cant kiss anyone for like 3 years?! not tt i would kiss anyone... but still.. o.. so sad...keke...

lost... again.. n again....

yesh.. i happen to read stuff about e-fei again... i dunno y..i'm just so curious about him.. always read his journal.. may be i should stop doing tt.. it's like interferring his privacy or sth... o man.... e-fei.... i feel so bad.. so guilty.... never meant to say all the silly things to u.. i'm a stupid gal.... a silly gal... it just feels like first love... this is like some story in some comic book..some fairy tale.. u noe.. i never believed in love at first sight... not even falling for soemone i've met for like the 2nd time... but it just happened to me! i got no ideal how to deal with this.. all the mixed feelings.. overwhelming me.... i'm going crazy.... i love n hate missing u.... i'm just lost.. so lost without u.... this is carzy.. why am i saying such things.... i shouldnt be... shouldnt be in love....

love sick...

Many things in life will catch your eye, but only a few will catch your heart.

Absence is to love what wind is to fire; It extinguishes the small, yet enkindles the great.

Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, But somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. ~ Kay Knudsen

"Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all." ~ St. Augustine


"If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were..." ~ Kahlil Gibran

"Do you love me because I am beautiful, or am I beautiful because you love me?" ~ Cinderella

Within you I lose myself, Without you I find myself, Wanting to be lost again.

A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous. ~ Ingrid Bergman

lost....

wa.... this is it... my whole family is out for dinner. I'm home alone again... left at home trying to "replenish" my beauty sleep... it's weird.. i dun feel any better after sleeping for like 3 hous plus.... hardly slept in the chalet.... :( .. haha.. all thanks to xinglong... bullying me ever since he came yesterday... suan me, beat me, "slam" me..bla bla... as usual... haha.. O did i mention his massage is great?! haha he agve me a few tips about it.. yeah... now i'm quite pro at it too.. haha...ya.. we're still like close frens.. even though we hardly meet... i guess it's realli difficult to find such a gd fren.. i do n i must realli treasure this frenship.. hehe.. o but kidna sad..he's going for ns soon..jus one day before his bdae! whose luck can be worse than tt? o n he intro 2 of his frens yesterday.. Ian and Josphua if i never spelled them wrongly... interesting guys indeed... o learnt tt as u grow older, u actually have other diff stuff to worry about.. ain't tt easy huh... N I was so shocked when Josphua said he's from choir! dun look like one at all.. haha.. but he has the same problem.. like my bro.. cant stop singing.. but at least he's quite gd at it la.. he sang this Moulin Rouge song to me... pretty nice..kinda sweet eh... haha....dun be mistaken... just admire his voice.... n he surely brighten me up.. i was dead like a zombie.. n i'm still one now....

I'm bored....

o man... wth... How can a supermarket not sell chicken thighs? there are like chicken wings onli..o my.. get a life... pple dun onli eat chicken wings in parties n bbq! now i cant make my kebabs for my dear juniors to eat!!! ARGH!!!! i'm been doing almost nth the whole morning.... so bored.... went online to create so many new posts, went to friendster to check out losta cool butches!!! n chio bus... yandaos..nah..very few... (shakes head)I realised sth..all the bucthes are cutting the same hairstyle... haha.. dunno y.. but most of them look gd in it.. well, at least better than some guys... o my.. getting hungry... hm..(sniffs).. can smell my granny's cooking... :-)~ o ya.. i hat a short 17min chat with e-fei last nite..hehe... even though we cant meet..for may be like 2 weeks or more... it was great.. he's so sweet... hehe... well, i guess he's a busy guy, an independent guy, with his own ideas, his own lifestlye, bla bla... must stop myself from wondering if he's starting to take me for granted.. haha..i guessed i jus missed him too much..oh my.. i sound a bit..er... haha..nvm... :P

CHALET!!!!

haha... i must be pretty excited about today's chalet... woke up at 7plus!!! haha... tt's very early for a pig like me.. Oink! Oink! O and i just volunteered to make my famous kebabs.. haha... but i'm worried that i will make too many... Yeah..looking forward to playing pool, bowling, playing mahjong bla bla.. with my juniors!!! If only he could come... O well, wad can i say.. we're both busy pple....

harry potter...

o.. i'm pretty disappointed today.. was all excited to meet e-fei, until he told me he had to go to sch last min... den xinlong asked me out... dunno y.. he said he couldnt make it when i agreed later... in the end, just went out with my 2 brothers..haha n just before the show starts, that xinlong wanted to join in too.. hai yo.. but it was obviously too late... dunno wad these guys are thinking of.. so wishy-washy... anyway, it was pretty cool to watch it with my brothers, especially, my little brother, my partner in crime.. haha ...watched harry potter.... it's not bad.. but not as gd as i tot it would be.... hm... o well, i shall look forward to tml's chalet then.. hope it'll be fun.. wonder if i should volunteer to amke my famous chicken kebabs! haha...

my first time...

Hi yo... this is my fist time creating my own blog... hm.. quite confused..dunno wad to add in.. but i guess it's gd.. gives me a space to reflect on my daily experiences n express my feelings.... dunno who will read this.. but it's kinda cool eh.. picked this up from e-fei of coz... not tt this is the fist time i've heard of this...