yippee~!! 1st day of celebration.. went to watch harry potter... not bad.. went to marina.. i still think tt it's realli big.. o i like the central decor.. the crystal curtains.. so pretty..

had one of my best meals after so long today.. lunch was simply great... well expensive of coz.. nice sharkfin.. it had this sweetness of the crab meat.. slightly diff from the normal ones i've had... o the herbal duck~! it's simply delicious... i'm not realli gd at describing such stuff... so ya.. i highly recommend u to try it if u have the chance.. there's also spicy lime kai lan tt tasted a bit too much like a thai dish.. n pork rib... it's in dian xiao er.. nice decor... like having meal in a ker zhan.. shall bring my family there one of these days... hee..
thankyou powl.. haha..

sigh came home late today... think i shouldnt go out tml.. luna having outing at nite.. sigh... if onli it's in the day.. o well.. some other time.. planning a mahjong session n a shopping session.. anyone keen?

PrInCeSs xUe Is Back~!!!

YoYoyOyO~!!! havent blog for ages~! bcoz of tt supid exams.. n of coz my 1 week holiday stay in NUH~.. lol... i was bombarded my all my dear caring n loving frens when i came online.. lol.. felt like ages..onli had time to blog now..

hm... can u believe it? i think nus realli suck~! i was hospitalised.. fever reached 40.1 degrees celcius n kidney causing my back to hurt most of the time.. n they still insist tt i shud take my exams.. well i was fit enuff to take the exams.. but hello.. how much can i study when i am unwell for so long? n my brain was fried.. couldnt remeber wad i studied.. so there goes maths n mkt.. let's hope i pass n get sth better than a C... o man... worried.. but then again.. mummy understands.. n after taking the 2 papers, i am very sure tt i buang liao.. so not realli looking forward to recieving my results.. junyi said it'll be released on xams day.. how evil can nus be? on xams day?!! spoiler man...

o n nuh young doctors suck.. i have so mnay bruises on my arms.. n the worst one comes from tt guy.. need more experience.. or may be he needa learn from the nurse.. cant even draw blood well.. i think i was his guinea pig.. my mum, an expert in this area was staring at him n shaking her head.. ha..

then again, it wasnt tt bad.. thru this incident, i realised how fortunate i am.. i have great caring parents there for me.. n supportive frens too.. thanks to all tt came to visit me.. ha.. i dun think i'll ever recieve more flowers than tt 1 week.. 5 bouquets~! all my fav sunflowers n roses.. hee.. :P felt like a princess.. i lost 2kg when i was first hospitalised. now i gained another kg back.. sigh.. sob sob.. sianz... whole day eat n sleep in hospital.. i barely left my bed.. well i was on drip.. hmm.. i was awake onli during meal times.. haha.. hibernating the rest of the day.. may be tt's y i recovered so fast.. hee..

time to start celebrating~! oo the first thing i did after sicharging from the hospital was shopping~! lol.. i bought a super pretty pink dress.. hot pink.. with a feel of batik or tribe.. i simply love it.. someone convince me to wear it in engin.. lol... so sianz.. i'll wear it if i'm from biz..

ahh no time to make my oreo cheesecake.. anyone wanna try? o mahjong.. looking for makjong kah kees~! anyone? afternoon mahjong at my place one of these days.. got cruise.. got fwc n flv prep to do.. n slc camp.. hee.. so looking forward t the rest of my holidays~! cant wait cant wait~!!!

new blog add~!

haha for those of u who r reading my blog now.. well.. u would have found out tt i have changed my blog add? y? so as to prevent tt guy from reading my post n flooding me with sms again... i'm onli meanie shirley to him.. well to pple in my bad books.. n so far, he's the onli honoured one to be in it.. darh...

i lost a buddy becoz of tt idiot... so sad... miss my buddy xl a lot.. when will he forgive me? sigh... not tt i didnt wan to help u.. but i'm not an actor.. i cant act.. i've always been truthful to everyone.. to everything in my life.. n i cant tolerate another second pretending tt i dunno anything about wad tt idiot has done.. to me n to u... so sorry... not expecting u to forgive me actually.. hence i havent been tried to approach u.. hopefully time will fade all of these...

i'm a selfish bitch...

in his own dreams...

funny.. chris msg me again last nite.. totally spoilt my nite... but of coz i wont let him or tt affect me.. it doesnt realli matter... but i guess... i still gotta say sth.. sorta just expressed it out in some way... he hasnt realli gotten over everything as he claimed... he still thinks tt i might probably have a chance to like him, to fall for him again? o gosh.. please... after tt wacking incident.. OVER MY DEAD BODY~!!! u can do it once, u can do it twice n again n again... i dun wanna be abused~! tt shows how much respect u have for mi~! so F**K OFF~! oops.. wahaha.. i dun normally use vulgar.. but i guess u understand y i am using it now.. he never fails to piss me off.. i laughed at wad he smsed me..

ha o~! he thinks i am lonely n unhappy becoz he;s not ard with me.. or for me... ahahaha... o god... tt's him.. he thinks he;s so great... no one can take his place.. he thinks he loves me most perhaps.. he thinks i need him.. hahhaa.. i tot i already said i dun? he's prob the last person i wan him to appear in front of mi right now.. anyway... i can never feel better than wad i'm feeling now.. away from him... i'm felt lonely bcoz my frens and powl couldnt be there.. or rather bcoz my fone was dead..i couldnt contact them.. i have super lots of frens n getting along pretty well with them.. not a loner :P the loneliness onli meant sth when i sorta couldnt get used to it at tt moment.. bcoz.. i m normally found in a grp? o gosh.. i cant express myself well.. must be the mugging for fna... all messed up now... lol...

how can i be lonely in ur terms, when i have my family, my frens, powl and all the mugging? oops.. wahaha.. haiz.. i noe i sound pretty mean n evil here... but u cant be nice to someone u dun like.. almost to the extent of hate probably.. so to u, whoever reading this, dun get into shirley's bad books.. i can be a real meanie... well tt's if u're still worth my time.. BLEAH~!

n i do need some isolation now i guess.. to concentrate on mugging.. o so y am i here blogging now? to et away from the books~! haha.. can die mugging for hours.. erm.. not tt i mugged for tt long.. er.. like 2h including breakfast? haha.. oops.. time for lunch now... ciao~!

2nd post - WOW friendster knows me best~~!

The Bottom Line
Being able to swallow your pride is key if you want a trusting relationship.
In Detail
Dreams, nostalgia and thoughts of how great things used to be are on your mind now, and they're having a powerful effect on you. Before you get too swept up in all that nostalgia, be sure you're remembering everything correctly -- with your mind, not just your heart. If you're in doubt, talk to a friend who understands you and knows what's really going on in your life. Experience is a great teacher.

So I'm a drama queen? so, Friendster, can I tok to you? U seem to be the onli one who knows..

getting used to the loneliness...

it''s been a long long day for me... time never passed so slowly... it did bcoz i was alone... been pretty independent since like mid of last week.. isolated myself from the rest of the family at nites, trying to mug.. but of coz.. i failed, distracted by several stuff...
about 9 more days to my 1st paper.. sigh... havent done much so far.. onli half way thru more core mods.. just read one topic for mkt.. 10 more to go i guess... tried the sofas of muchie monkeys today.. hmm quite nice.. not a bad place to mug.. could have been more conducive if they have nicer slower songs instead of some rock ones... stayed there from 4 plus to 6.20pm... was so hungry i had wedges... an hour later, i reaslied the chances of wad i've been waiting for will not come.. was handicapped with a dead fone... couldnt call for any subs anyway.. decided to try to enjoy tt loneliness... focused on my work instead of letting tt emptiness overwhelmed me.. n it worked... i managed to finish up the chapter.. cheers~~! perhaps loneliness isnt so bad after all.. i''ve grown up n matured once again... no more as dependent on the pple ard me.. my frens.. my whoever...
perhaps it was obvious tt i was waiting... i found myself looking out the window every few min.. sad tt i am right.. it never came... i sacrificed n gave the space, n find myself drifting away somehow.. it drifted away.. n now it''s my turn... it takes 2 hands to clap.. wad can i say?
not the right time to worry about such stuff... shud i go to sch tml? may be not... no mood for anything right now... feeling weak somehow.. draining me... everything is draining me away... gravity made the precious rain fall from my pretty eyes... i dun realli noe y it happened... perhaps it''s one of my mood swings.. i dunno...
chris just smsed me.. sigh... y does he bother? cant u get it? nth will be the same.. i dumped.. but it doesnt make it much easier to forget everything... u did.. at least u claimed tt u did... well, i''m sorry to say i havent.. i cant forgive n forget after all tt has happened... dun blame me for ignoring u.. i''m not ready.. will i ever be? i dunno... but one thing, i''m sure.. the cruel truth to u, it may be... u dun hold a place in my heart anymore..
let me come to u, loneliness.... i need u....

Happy Birthday Guideng~!!!

just came back from guideng's hse at 12... lol... thankgod mumm's not very angry... hee... i called home anyway.. didnt expect us to take so long to reach the mrt station.. hmm.. next time go out late, must give more time allowance.. see la.. must let me go out more often den i noe mah.. lol.. anyway ya.. it's guideng's 21st birthday party.. hmm.. not bad.. food's great~! wad a pity tt seth n weijin cant come..i bet weijin will finish everything by himself.. haha.. n we met his buddy... where he get his "hey dude"from.. they behave exactly the same way.. super enthu one~!

o well... less than 2 weeks to exam.. went out so much this week.. next weekend cannot go out le.. gonna mug very hard from today onwards~!! haha.. if onli i can.. very san fen chong re du one.. cant settle down n mug for long.. got super lotsa things to do for today.. hopefully i can cover enuff... just enuff for today..

so looking forward to dec holidays... haha... hot news coming up~!

shirley the pirate~!

wahaha... dl ing songs is so easy... hmmm.. hopefully i'll be able to sing in kbox like my frens soon.. wahaha... dl so many nice songs... i love fish leong~! hee..

hm... damn sianz.. cant get down to work.. but i guess i'm not the onli one facing this problem.. so.. hm... trying real hard to mug... well, i started swimming frequently.. rather spent the time to burn some fats than nua and grow fatter.. wahaha.. one stone kill 2 birds...

caught up with jason lately.. sigh.. feels weird.. after all tt has happened between us.. hmm... he just told me tt he broke up with his gf.. y? y are all the couples ard me breaking up? anyway.. i dunno if i shud be happy or sad... he told me tt he still love me... after wad.. 5 years.. since sec3.. the time when we're together... he said he has been treating his last 2 ex as sub for me... he said he loved them as if he's loving me... sigh... he say he cant forget me.. n till this day, no one can take my place... he dunno if he shud wait for me.. but he knows tt things will never be the same again.. after how we ended our r/s.. wad he said to me then.. wad his mom said.. y r guys so 犯贱? i'm deeply touched when he told me y n how he decided to leave me then... well, tt''s if wad he said is true.. i''m touched.. but i'm still doubtful of wad he said... after all tt has happened, after the on n off cryings to sleep for about a year, how can i still trust him? y? y tell me all these now? if u noe nth''s gonna work.. y let me know?

so much to say.. so much to filter... waiting for the day to come... when i can blog about all i wan...

zZZZZzzzZZzz....

sianz~! this sucks... life sucks.. exam sucks.... y do i needa mug? y do we needa take exams?! damn it.. my whole family's relaxing n having fun this week.. n me.. poor me.. have to mug n try not to be distracted by them... sigh...

n mummy just rejected my proposal to stay in hall~! sigh.. boring... nth to look forward to now... this is wad i get.. wad i have to live with..

got into fest la vie comm... secetary...ah.. so confident in my england power? haha.. o well... i wonder if they gave me tt pos becoz they r confident in me since i'll be i/c if both pds are not ard.. or... they dun wanna give me any impt pos becoz they dunno me at all.. :( it's so unfair isnt it.. just becoz i never go for union camp.. sigh.. o well.. slack.. i will.. if tt's the way it has to be...

no motivation, no drive for anything.. sayonara...

x moody x upset x bored x nua x tired x pessimistic x i just wan to die

one full day of slacking~~!

o god... hahaha... less than 3 weeks to final exam.. n i did nth yestreday, went to z chen concert.. n den reached occ chalet at 9 plus, almost 10... slacked, watch tv... since my bros dun dare to play mahjong with me.. went for international breakfast.. n jumped into the pool for a 20 laps swim.. feel so fit.. haha... i miss the sun... got tan lines again~~! haha. i dun realli think they r nice.. but... it means i m getting darker~~! yippee~~!

n i just realise tt my breast stroke is wrong.. or rather in effective... saw how this previous sg swimmmer coach the kids... n tried it myself.. fwah.. much faster... n easier i guess... heee.. :P

hmmm... den headed to jalan kayu for prata lunch~~! muahaha.. i had one prata bom, banana prata n teh chino~~! goodness~~! feel so fat now.. but satisfying.. think it''s definitely better than fong seng's.. anyone wan me bring them there to eat?! eh the banana prata is huge~~! twice my face prob.. n i finished it all by myself~~! lol...

so i think now it's -20 laps again... muahaha...

hm... time to get some work done.. trying real hard.. cant seem to sit down n concentrate... swimming is one big distraction.. strating to luv swimming more... n... i get to tan~~! lol.. just realise.. hmm.. even though i grow fat le.. fats piling up on my obliques.. but heck~~! can still wear my bikini... not sexy.. but not tt bad as well.. lol... how to tan when u wear one piece seah?

okok.. chao~~! gotta d/l songs n do my fna project~~! last one to go~~! wee~~!