a depressing lunar new year eve

wad m i doing on this supposedly exciting day?
mugging n webcasting..
this sucks..
now i appreciate granny at home..
she'll cook.. n mum will not nag, will not make a big fuss n become autocratic n claim tt she;s right about everything..
n we'll be playing mahjong right now instead of self-entertaining myself right now..
how sad..
may be i shud fashion parade my new year clothes now n choose sth to wear..
BORING~!!!!!!

the loudness of serenity..

tml's cny.. finally!!
have a feeling tt this 1 week study break is gg to past realli realli fast again..
i;m behind time... got 5h of webcast to watch, 1 uncompleted hw.. which i got no idea how to and another one tt shouldnt take too long..
besides all tt, we'll be having 3 mid term tests after the break.. sheesh...
so much work to do...
time management is almost all about setting ur priorities right..
giving time to wad u feel most important to u.. n gg down the list...
i;ve got quite a lot to do this coming week..

An evEnTfUl 1 yEAR...

2 days ago, we celebrated our 2nd official valentine's day and also our 1st year anniversary..
it's a very important day for the both of us..
i was eager and excited...
much money and time was spent to prepare for this special day..
staying up till 4.30am to finish up the presents was definitely worth it...
it's the best gift i have ever made..
so proud of myself.. lol...
i made this photo album with a hand sewn furry blue cover..
it contained some of the best pictures we have taken for the past 1 year...
it's like some scrap book...
every page has its own theme, has its own look..
just like every other day in our lives...
but wad's important is tt this album captures our story for the past 1 year...
wad ever happens, the onli thing tt matters is tt we're together...
i feel tt it;s a very meaningful gift and i hope that we can fill up the remaining pages..
n complete many more albums together in the future...
it'll be great if we can go thru all of them in future when we're old..
hahaha....
i'll upload some of my fav pages later.. it's all with him..
o.. loren gave me a great idea...
anyone wan to make sth like tt for special ocassions in future?
just let me noe.. gimme the pics, i'll get the materials and help u compile everything together with a reward for the service of coz.. lol....
i enjoy making such stuff...

then, i tired to make truffles for him and lunatics...
once again, it;s proven tt we shud never follow the recipes...
onli my peanut truffles were successful..
they all taste great in my opinion..
but they all melted except for the peanut ones...
thank goodness tt everyone appreciated the effort and tried a few each..
think yimin ate quite a few, ya? lol...

the roses tt dear bought were the best looking ones ard i;ve seen in engine..
hehehehe...
he must have spent a lot this year...
he also bought me a pair of earings..
n how thoughtful he is to get me the driving theory tests books...
the best was saved to the last... he made these A4 cards with grafitti bkg of special messages he has sent me the past 1 year and pasted our pocket size pictures on top..
it;s realli sweet...
n the best part of it is the envelope... looks damn zai...
when i first got it, i though he bought it..
looks very professional with logos n all..
ahahaha...
shall post some pics up here soon...

the day itself was pretty simple and yet romantic..
dear's right.. we shudt rush....
it's a lot more comfortable i guess...
we went to marine parade n play some pool...
it seems like one of our fav common past time already...
then went to fish n co for seafood platter!!!!
wa very filling...
last but not least, we went to ecp - the place we first met and the place we first dated..
he tried to light up the candles he used to form "i luv u" and a heart at the bottom but the wind was just too strong...
so we went to somwhere near my place instead to try...
after many attempts, we finally succeed!!!
it's realli sweet of him....

i'm glad tt we are still together today...
n looking forward to the rest of our lives together..
i luv u dear...
thanks for everything...

5 days to Vday~!!!

ah! part tech test is finally over...
though it didnt go as well as i hoped it wud be, it's still a burden off my shoulder...
kinetics kinda drive me to nuts..
i kinda like it.. coz it's more of thinking questions..
but.. i think there are too many concepts n equations for me now..
still quite lost... gotta read up the text book again..
life as a uni student isnt very exciting actually..
i've got never ending webcasts to cast and pilling up tutorials to do..
i;ve just got so much to do everyday...
relali wonder how much different life wud be if i am studying overseas right now..
siang say tt it's a lot more slower in sydney..
ah i wish i wish i wish..
just wish tt i can slack one full day every week w/o feeling guilty the next day...
the books will never go away.. the tutorials will still be there whether u like or or not...
it's ironical to realise tt one of the most pleasant thing i cherish this sem so far are my so called "free days" when i get to sleep a few more hours.. even though i still have webcasts to watch, it's still a lot better compared to the normal sch days..

i msg him just 2 days ago to say thank you and bye...
feels great to be able to let go of everything.. even the hatred...
though i have left my feelings on the day i was melted by my dear, the same questions still linger ard my head n occasionally they will surface and i start wondering how it cud ended tt horribly...
it has past so long ago.. n i have finally been able to kick away the hatred too...
i feel lighter.. and may be i can see love in a much simpler way from now on again...
time will heal all wounds.. tt's right..
but some bonds can never be forged or fixed back again...
let bygones be bygones..

i am a much happier person right now...
cherished and loved by someone special...
i hope i will also be able to give my everything without any holding back like u one day..
thanks for being there my dear...
looking forward to 14th feb...

Welcome to my new blog skin

I met up with 7 other 03s44 classmates in ps swensons last saturday night for dinner... wasnt as bad as i tot... not the turn out.. but most of the 7 were my pool gang in vj.. so... not too bad.. caught up with one another.. n talked to dy a lil.. i'm just glad tt things arent as bad as i tot.. at least it seems so...

mum blew up last night..
i dunno how to make an autocratic person learn to relax and understand tt u dun always have to be in control of everything..
it's quite a sad to feel tt i dun like to be home.. especially in the day..
it;s like it;s supposed to be the safest place..
but peace was not for long ever since mum came back from the hospital..
i like to help..
but i have millions of things to do on my list.
i cant event finish my tuts in time..
it;s realli hard to just put everyhting aside n attend to the household chores before u complete them..

i am so troubled...
n there's no one tt i can talk to..
how sad...
no one to hold me up...
it;s just complicated...