wad is forever?

"i will love you forever" tt's the phrase tt melts not only women, but many other men..
what does this phrase mean to u?
these simple 5 words convey sth so complicated and many a times undescribable, ur feelings to ur special one..
it means even more becoz of the last word, "forever"...
it is more than just a word...
it means commitment..
it makes it a promise...
a promise of a life time...

to me, it is all just empty words... until the day i die in peace with no regrets of meeting my man...
why do pple like to make such empty promises?
it is definitely not wrong... if u realli meant it when u say it..
does it mean tt i lied, if i said tt "i will be there for u forever" today, n i met someone better 10 years down the road n decide no end our relationship?
but i realli did loved u then...
did i lie?
or is it just tt sth unpredicted happened..
i didnt mean for such things to happen
i realli did love u... i loved u when i said it...
now... its just different...
i broke ur heart n i am guilty of tt..
but am i wrong to choose wad's best for me?
selfish i may be..

btw, tt's not wad's happening in my life....
just tot of this senario..
typically, pple will say tt they;re just not meant to be..
or may be she's not worth it.. he can find someone better..
but is anyone realli in position to blame her for breaking his heart or breaking her lifetime promise?

most of the time, couples decide to get married because they believe tt the other was their special one.. they look forward to a happy marriage on the day they walk down the aile.. but sometimes misfortune come knocking at their dooe and they just happen to find themselves struggling to keep the marriage alive. in the end, some divorced n ended their relationship bitterly.. was it anyone;s fault? did the 2 intended to break their promise on the day they said "i do"?

how sweet it wud be... how simple things can be..
if nth happens.. if couples cud just stay faithful to one another..
if couples cud just outlast n overcome every obstacle tt comes into their life..
isnt it all nice? isnt it a lil idealistic? am i pessimistic or practical enuff to leave 0.0001% for uncertainties in life... in life.. not relationship..

life's just so unpredictable.. instead of worrying wad will happen in future, y not treasure the present moment.. do wad u can to keep it as long as possible... stop worrying... stop asking... i will love u forever means i will love u forever NOW... i will love u FOR AS LONG AS I CAN, FOR AS LONG AS LIFE PERMITS ME TO.. FOR AS LONG AS FATE ALLOWS ME TO...

as convenient as it sounds... tt's how things are...
fate may be in ur hands.. i believe so too..
but some things happen for a reason..
a reason tt no one has found an answer to..
sometimes, no matter how hard u try, life just doesnt go ur way..
nth is constant in this present world.. the onli constant is change..
there's no forever in the real world..
we can onli treasure our present...

3 weeks into sem 4

wo.. didnt realised tt i havent been blogging for so long...
not tt sch;s realli tt busy...
perhaps lab havent started.. so we arent feeling it yet...
but wad worries me is that i cant realli remember what we have learnt so far...
after 3 weeks of sch...
it has been a real busy week...
been to 3 birthday celebration.. n gg for another tml..
it's meisiang's 21st.. haha.. miss tt gal..
n mum;s in hospital.. coming back this afternoon..
she;s realli strong..
on the 3rd day after her operation, she started walking already!
celebrated dear's bdae on wed.. i cooked!!!!
wahahaha.... he agreed to be my guinea pig.. until i master the culinary skills before we get married.. lol...
chicken escalopes was as usual..
think recipes sucks... never accurate..
oh onli my dessert worked... some banana.. cro..sth...
cant remember... it's nice.. shall make some for luna when we have gathering next time..
more guinea pigs!!! :P

i've got so much to do.. it's never ending...
tutorials arent taking much of my time.. i dunno y i am so busy...
n it's been raining all day...
every time i wanna go jog, it will rain.. sian..
i just read yufee's blog... his life seems so enriching and exciting..
so envious of him...
wad am i doing in uni?
slogging.. mugging... chasing other pple in the never ending rat race..
may be i shud pick up some courses in the next long holiday too..
ah driving comes first of coz.. shud go n reg at the driving sch soon to take the theory tests first so tt i can start having my lessons once exams end..

yufee organised a jc gathering on next sat...
feels kinda weird.. i have a test on 8th..
n... havent seen them for so long..
dunno wad to say when i meet them..
it's quite sad tt i havent been realli keeping in contact with anyone of them...
onli chat on msn with yufee sometimes...
a lil with eugene in year 1...
i see huishan ard the sch sometimes since she;s also in engine..
well tt's about all... quite sad isnt it?
chunchen they all.. ya lost contact...
wad wud we say to one another when we meet up?
there isnt much tt realli attracts me to the gathering..
the picture i paint in my head.. just aint tt nice...
wad wud i say when i see dy..
a foolish decision i made when i was childish n young, ruined our frenship...
it was never the same again after the incident..
perhaps tt's the greatest barrier tt i wud have to overcome before i can meet s44 again..
it's just not a very happy thing to meet up again..
it's not like meeting old frens... u noe... tt u miss each other n the good old dyas u had together.. n u finally can meet each other again?
tt's how i feel for my pri sch buddies.. not s44... it's weird..
it;s like my sec sch days.. when i am so busy with softball.. the only memories i took away were my softball days... loved it..
i drifted away from my pool kahkis after jc since they;re all guys who have to go for ns..
wad's there to look forward to if i decide to go for the gathering?

My Japan Trip 5

here's my last post on Japan.. then i can dump tt note book i brought along already... gosh... sooo long~!!!

Day 7 - Osaka - Last night in Japan

Wwe visited Osaka City University early in the morning with Keiko Aunty. She brought us to her working lab where Mom took a few pictures of Aunty Keiko's working environment. Here's one:


We also visited the library for medical students and also the hospital beside it.


After that, we went to Osaka Castle. It was surrounded with tall walls made of huge stones. The place was evry quiet unlike the castles that we've visted in China. It was great to have a chance to climb all the way up to the top of the main tower where we could have a good view of the surrondings. It is indeed a beautiful and peaceful place. We also got to learn more about the history of the king who built this castle in the museum at the 2 lower levels of the tower.


Then we also visited this long shopping street like the Ochard Road of Singapore. This place is called Harajuku. Harajuku is lined with shops selling the most trendy clothes in Japan. There, we could easily see the difference between the Japanese and Singaporean fashion sense. Their dressing were much more exaggerating and daring.


O ya.. I noticed that men are still more superior than women in Japan. There was this couple that caught my eye in the train. The guy was sitting down instead of his girlfriend. And the gal was realli sweet to offer to hold all the shopping bags while standing up so that her bf could take a nap comfortably. I guess I prefer to stay in Singapore. I dun like MCPs!!!

We came back to Tennoji for dinner at Keiko Aunty's house. Mom bought a lot of ingredients to cook from the supermart nearby. Yes!!! It was Singaporean style! Laksa, black pepper chicken, Curry and vegetables... Mum was complaining about the chicken she bought the entire night. Lol.. it cost us S$30.. about 6 times the price of one in Singapore... Keiko Aunty told us that it is probably a local breed from the moutains.. no wonder the meat was so tender...

After dinner, Keiko Aunty took us to an island where there were special xmas decor.. The entire event was called Osaka Hikari-Renaissance 2006. The trees were lighted with xmas lights that danced with the xams songs blasting from the big speakers around the place.. Though it wasn't as spectacular as what we have in Singapore, I must admit that it was still beautiful and romantic. I could have melted if I was with the right person.. Well and of coz.. I realized how much I missed my dear.. It was kinda tough for me to hold back those tears when there were so many couples cuddling together around me.. Realli hope that I'll be able to visit Orchard Road on xmas eve when I am back in Singapore with dear.. It'll be all that I need this holiday..

Then we headed to the bazaar across the highway where there were more xmas light displays and artistic structures put up my the local art students. Some of the structures were made of recycled materials like pastic bottles. It reminded me of rag in NUS. lol.. The place was charming but somehow it wasn;t all tt pleasant.. I felt very lonely walking past the busy lights. Wasn't in the mood to take any pictures.. this is my onli 1:


It was a great holiday.. just that something is missing...

My Japan Trip 4

Day 5 - Mt Fuji

We woke up at 6.30am this morning and headed for Mt Fuji after breakfast by JR line. Our journey there was a little rough since some of us havent had a good slenight sleep and were hence moody. It got a little frustrating when Mom was insisting her way and not listening to the rest. It's been ongoing since day 1..

Upon reaching Hawagouchiko station, we had lunch in one of the nearby restaurants. I had Tempura Udon. It costs about 750 yen which is about S$10.50. Quite expensive for some udon, a prawn and a green pepper. But it is the chepaest meal I had so far in Japan.



Then, we took a retro bus to our hotel. It's quite a neat place and I was realli surprised to find that we would be spending the night in a Japanese style hotel room. This is how it looks like.

tt's my dad.. his fav pic.. wahaha..

It is furnished with tatami and wooden floor, Japanese beds and a little tea table. It was the biggest room we've stayed in Japan so far. O ya, the furniture and all inspired my fmaily to make a short clip of "the ring" in the hotel room in the evening when we didnt have anything to do. Haha.. unfortuntely, I cant put it up here..

It was about 2.30pm by the time we settled down. Since the sky turns dark much ealier in winter and the bus service stops at about 6pm, we decided to go to Doggy Park, one of the top attractions in our list. Unfortunately, Doggy Park is out of the bus route. So we had to take a taxi up to the place. It took us only about 15min but the taxi fare was veyr expensive. The ride costs us 1730 yen which is more than 20 bucks sing. Our day became even more disappointing when we found out that it would be closing in an hour's time. Thank god the kind uncle at the ticket booth only charged us for half the entrance fee. Still, I feel that it wasnt worth our money. There wasnt much to see. It's probably an ideal place for the locals to bring their pet to since there were many play grounds for the dogs. The dog show has ended and the staff were starting to clear up some of the places. Well, we could only tried to make the best of what we have. I was quite happy that we got to the "communication square" before closing to play around with some very friendly dogs. Even mom had a great time.

The model-wannabe in Doggy Park

The dog's enjoying Stessen's great back scratching skills

The most whiny dog around with me


see how guai they are?


may be Mom wont mind me getting another dog :P

my new found 2nd best to Maltese - Schnauzer

I saw many Huskys, St Bernard, Boxton Terrier and other rare breeds that I am not sure of their names. I bet I'll be able to play with many other dogs if we came at the right time. I must visit the place again if I go to Japan again next time.

We settled our dinner in our hotel room. Cooked maggie mee and canned food.. coz it is very expensive to eat around that area and the hotel restaurant was closed.. Poor us..

O ya I forgot to comment about Mt Fuji.. I think it;s a magnificent product of nature. It is certainly magnificent. It almost looked unreal.. Like a printed wall paper placed behind the trees and houses.. And sometimes you'll get to see clouds around the moutain. It seemed like Mt Fuji was floating in the sky. I should take more picture of it tomorrow if I have a chance.



Day 6 - Mt Fuji to Osaka

We took the first bus of the day to another river in the west . The view of Mt Fuji is much better there. I managed to take a couple of close up pics of the mountain. Our schedule was tight since we have to check out of our hotel room by 11pm.

We visited a few attractions along our way. First was a garden and some sort building called the lifestyle building or something like tt. Unfortuntately, it was winter and the garden wasnt at it's best appearance. I'm sure the place will be a lot more beautiful in spring.


Next, it;s my fav spot of the day - The Lava Cave. Yes volcano lava! We were told that the temperature in the cave was 0 degree celsius and there is a natural fridge and storage place deep in the cave. Icicles lined along the walls of the cave as we explore deeper. It was realli dark and my brother almost knocked on the stone ceilings of the cave many times because he was too tall. Ha...


We then explored into a forest where the pathways and surroundings were covered with dried lava.


Lastly, we visted the perfume and herb centres where they grew many strong smelling plants in a glass house and dried plants upside down on the ceiling to retain their natural shape.

Overall, it was a pleasant experience to visit Mt Fuji where we got in touch with many sides of nature. I guess I prefer the beautiful scenery of nature in Japan to the bustling city in Tokyo.

The later half of the day was mpostly spent on trains and railway stations. It was a longjourney back to Osaka. We took Sinkansen, the fmaous bullet train where we had to change twice to local trains before we meet Keiko Aunty again. On the train, there was this Japanese school girl with blond rebonded dolly hair. I thought it was rather inviting for the men around. She was ignorant of her surroundings and was sitting with her legs wide apart. Dun blame me for comparing her to the Japanese pron stars. Coz the way she was sitting with her hand between those open legs of hers, she realli look like a Japanese porn star in action. I am not exactly comfortable with this "culture" in Japan. Young school girls with heavy make up in their uniform. Ridiculously short skirts in the cold winter. What are their parents busy with?

By the time we reached Osaka, it was 9pm. We were very sorry that Keiko Aunty and her husband had to wait an hour for us. Wwe had dinner in one of the subway sushi restaurant but was disappointed with the variety and quality. Well I guess they were closing.. wad can we expect.. Noticing that Dad havent had much, the generous couple took us to a bbq resturant 10min away from their place where he got to try cow's tongue and stomach for the very first time. Ew.... :P

Here's some pic that I have taken in Osaka:

xmas decor in Osaka



in the bbq restauarnt

neighourhood of Aunty Keiko's hosue in Osaka in the morning

My Japan Trip 3

This is becomign a drag.. I didnt realise that I have written so much... well for memories...

Day 4 - Asakusa

Asakusa is an old town of Tokyo which is very popular among the tourists since it is said to be the best place for them to buy souvenirs.

On our way to Chitsan Hotel, we passed by the famous Japanese toy company Bandai building. Statues of the popular cartoon characters lined beside the building. How can we not take photos with the cute statues...



After unloading our luggages, we headed to the famous Sensoji temple. Along our way, we passed by a few shopping streets where anmany souvenirs and local delicacies were sold. Dad was intending to settle his lunch there. Lol... The busy streets were beautifully decorated with man made cherry blossoms. It kinda reminded my of Chinatown in singapore during our Chinese New Year. We were greeted by a huge paper latern in front of the gate of Senjosi temple. The temple was crowded with devotees praying for well being.

at the gate before Senjosi Temple

the beautiful shopping street


Freshly made Japanese rice biscuits~!!!


the biggest lantern I have ever seen

in the park around Senjosi temple

After that, we went to search for the museum that displayed traditional Japanese craftwork like lanterns, wooden decor and shelves. It was quite an interesting place even though we couldnt learn much since everything was in Japanese. Haha.. it was also a great place for us to rest our poor feets after walking so much.

We headed for the famous Asahi beer brewing building after that. It is one of the most unique buildings in Asakusa though the locals here don;t quite like it.I have to agree because the yellow structure on the top of building kinda resemble feaces.. wahaha.. Well it is suppose to resemble a beer mug. Not very nice I guess..


By chance, we came across a Tokyo Cruise Centre where we took a ship ride around the coastal areas and had a chance to see another side of Tokyo. The ride was unbearably slow and boring as it progresses. But dad loved it. He was busy taking pictures of the 13 bridges we went past. Every one of them have a distinct structure and colour. Well my dad's an engineering inspector.. wad can I say.. Here's one of the bridges:

the unique ship that we passed by. It's so much flatter than the ship we're taking

We alighted 3 railway stations away and it was time to explore Tokyo again. The blind leading the blind. With absolutely no clues of where we were, we searched for the closet JR station with the help of local maps on the streets. That's what I call adventure. Ha..

We stopped by 3 stations - Uneno, Akabashi and Okayamishi (I am not sure if I spelled them correctly.. pardon my memory)

Uneno was my favourite place in Tokyo. It was crowded with shopping streets which resembled Bugis street of Singapore. There were also shops selling fish and frozen seafood. I was very much satisified by the Oishi famous local street delicacy that I found there. It's like a pancake with vegetable, egg yolk that oozes out when you bite on it that complements the Japanese sauce and Mayo added on top. Ahhh it was just simply heavely! Well it was kinda late when dad wanted to take a picture of me eating.. wahaha.. it was all gone!

Dad outside a restuarant that sells bbq food

It was a fulfilling and exciting day~! Now it's time for me to rest my feets in the hot bath tub...

My Japan Trip 2

haha.. this holiday has been a very eventful one..
I've been so busy that I dun even have time to blog..
guess i just want to do all the things tt i would not have time to do when sch starts..
alright back to Japan..

Day 2 - Sasayama ~ in Keiko Aunty's house
After breakfast, we went to the farm near Keiko Aunty's house to cut vegetables that she grew for dinner. There were brocolis, carrots and other vegetables. Japanese are very health conscious so most of the time they don't use any pesticides at all.


After that, we headed to somewhere in Kyoto where Crab Feast is a local goumet attraction. The restaurants lined along the beach where the locals cuaght fresh fishes and crabs. It was a very long journey. We slept throughout the road trip and my dad even snored. Hahahaha...

Along the way, we stopped by a famous temples on the top of one of the mountains. It is more of a local attraction since it isnt very accessible for tour buses due to the steep and narrow road up the mountain. Then, Keiko Aunty drove us all the way up the moutain to get a better view of one of the must-see sights of Japan. There is this long streatch of greenery that stretches between 2 area which separates 2 of the lakes beside it. We were told that the scenery will look better if we can try to view it between our legs. Haha... It was quite an awkward position but it realli looked better. Here's a spectacular pic i took:


Later, we headed for lunch! Unfortunately, when we reached one of the restaurants, they didnt sell the crabs that Keiko Aunty wanted to introduce us to. I guess we were too hungry. No one mind having lunch there. It was a pleasant surprise that they serve superb sashimi. It's so much fresher than what we have in Singapore, even better than Sushi Tei's. You could taste the sweetness of the sea.



Mom commented that I could come here with Mark for honeymoon in future.. wahahaha.. The restaurant is part of a resort here on the top of the mountain. I guess the place is quite suitable. There are other amentities like natural hot spa..

Keiko Aunty is one of the few Japaneses around who's exceptionally generous. She was so eager to treat us to the Crab Feast that she drove to a near by seafood market to buy fresh crabs for dinner. Gosh! She bought 2 huge crabs for 200+ Sing dollars each! OMG.. our dinner cost about 500 bucks!!! And we still have to cook! The weather was so cold that the ice packed with the crabs didnt realli melt. We even had time to make 2 stops along our way home.


First, we stopped at a shrine where we took a boat ride and got to see the coastal area of the entire place better. The place was named tian qiao li. Keiko Aunty said that it was named so because of the unique shape of natural ground linking the 2 island. Tian qiao means bridge in chinese and probably written the same way in Japanese.

Next, we stopped by at a western desert shop for some coffee and cake. Keiko Aunty sure lead an expensive lifestyle. We were served banana sponge cakes and either home made egg pudding or vanilla ice creams. The place was great. I managed to take a real nice shot of the local country side scenery.
Then we headed home at about 6pm for our very own crab feast!! It was sweet and fresh! Nothing like the crabs we have in Singapore. Though it was cold, it was certainly delicious.. I would definitely recommend it to my friends if any of them were to go to Japan in future.


Day 3- Tokyo ~ Shinjuku
It was a long long day! After breakfast, we left Sasayama and headed for Shinjuku by train. It took us about 3h by train. It was really a boring and stuffy ride.



I guess the fun part about free and east tour is that you have the luxury of planning where you want to go and when to about it. It was rather challenging initially for us to move around in Japan since eveyrhting was in Japanese. I guess mom was also tired by day 3. We started to "holland". Lol.. I took over part of the nagivator role and also found that it wasn't easy. On the whole, it was quite a good expereince. Shinjuku is probably like Raffles place in Singapore. There are many office buildings and shopping centres.

u can imagine how short the door of our hotel room is

After unloading our luggages in the hotel, we went for dinner and shopped around the area. Mom was obviously very hungry. We were attracted by one of the advertisements of a restaurant that offer a great variety of food like Shabu Shabu that suited Mom and I, Yakitori for Stessen and beef stew for Dad. It was quite a reasonably priced dinner. I thought my dinner was great. My Shabu Shabu pot was kimchi flavoured. It was exactly what I need. I guess it;s quite tough to manage a restaurant in Tokyo. There are so many around. The one that we went was he xiang feng ju jiu wu and it was located at 8th floor of one of teh buildings in the area. It's quite ulu. I think most people wouldnt know that there's a restuarnt there unless they tried or got to know about it by chance like us.


As the sky got darker, more youngsters appeared on the streets. they have a unique fashion sense and many had bizarre hair dos. It seems normal for all youth to be dressed like that. Most womena had make up unlike in Singapore. It's a form of showing courtesy. Even the japanese men trim their eye brows.

We didnt shop in the shopping malls because things are just too expensive in Japan. Instead we roamed around the streets and subway shops where we got to try some local delicacies.

~to be continued~