hiaz... got back bloody maths paper 1 today... sux man... onli got a B a freaking low B! alamak.. i could have gotten more than 10 more marks. and they are not becoz of some freaking careless mistake. it's just that i did 2 bloody questions in a wrong way even though i know how to do the way the teachers wanted them. ARGH!!! WTF! could have gotten A* for it!!! Won't let this happen for A'levels. Man.. this shouldnt happen!!!

hm... looked thru dao's and cc's chem paper3 today.. seems like they realli gotta work a lot harder.. not getting some of the facts right yet... same for me...especially for Group 2 and 7... i sux at that 2 topics. goota do more maths and physics.. think i'm not realli that good in them after all! cant take any risks! I WAN MY 3 As!

O and this reminds me... had a talk on scholarships today... sux man... so unfair. how would i noe that my chances of getting a scholarship is this low when i have onli 3 A levels sub! ARGH.. not as if i havent been doing well in school.... cant be a vet... seems to tough to achieve this goal.... how bout being one of the Charlie's angels? ya u guessed it rite.. policewoman... cool seah! or a teacher... following my mum's footsteps will be cool too.... i like going to her "office". all the sophisicated chemical equipment... well, these are the few careers which i have in mind temporarily... dunno wad to do actually... i dunno wad courses to take in uni too... sigh... guess i should just mug hard now and see wad happens....

hey wad's up with blogger... this is weird.... i couldnt make any new posts at home with my brother's lap top.... after complaining so much to blogger, it seems t be working now.. but i'm in sch comp lab... issit sth wrong with blogger itself or issit just my brother's lap top? weird!
anyway, days without my blog realli sux... so much happened... so much tots.. and i couldnt write all of them down.... ARGH....

anyway, a lot happened... cleared up the mess with dao.. and i'm glad that we're talking in the canteen just now... he looks sad... wonder if i'm over sensitive... but i'm sure he's down.. his eyes... they look teary.... and chunchen... seems like she didnt do well... not tt i did very well, but i guess mine was still ok.... hm.. felt like i should try to do sth to help them... especially since they're my close frens... wonder how i can do tt... becoz in the first place, i'm not very good in chem yet... havent got an A before... i'm not confident enuf to like tutor them.. but i realli wanna help... so wad should i do?

hm.... and tt idiot... o sigh.... i duno... hopefully we'll meet soon.. and clear up all tt mess... he said, "there's no problem".. ya to me... but he dunno how upset i was....have this evil tot.. may be i should let him have a taste of his own medicine huh.... then he'll understand... so frustrating... i'm like how soft hearted! hearing his voice over the phone soften my heart.. wanted to scream into the fone and give him a gd scolding... but... sigh.... almost wanted to end everything... but i couldnt do it...

first day of sch wasnt so bad so far.... met familar faces.. patched up some stuff... and chem is quite ok till now... hopefully my other 2 papers will be better than wad i have gotten back... chua said maths was terrible... sigh... i hope i did ok... i dun wan to be in the "terrible" group... well, maths has always been my stronger subject... so... hm.... if can onli get one A for this prelims, maths should be the onli one....

dad and mom are thinking of going to seattle in late nov to visit aunty.... dad asked me if i wanna go.. think i should go? i wanna travel... but the idea of having them out of town and leaving me home alone seems cool! (evil laughters) ;p u noe wad i'm thinking dun u? if u have read my blog in june, u would understand wad i mean... those two days were proabably oen of the most fun days of my year so far. chiong like siao! muahaha... but if tt's gonna happen in nov, it'll eb after As. i'll be even more carefree by then... will probably try clubbing.. see if i like it... or just chilling out with frens late and nite.. looking forward to feel the nite breeze brushing past my face... if i can spend it with my special someone, tt'll be realli cool!

yippeee!!! main papers are finally over... wad a relief... hm... actually no... it was a nightmare... screwed up every single paper... my oh my.... there goes all my As... if i can get one... think tt's realli good already..... it's like WTH... why set such tough papers?! it's prelims! why? wanna show off to other schools that VJC have very high standard huh? Wad crap... and tt ms tay? cant trust her judgement? u call tt easy?! (roll eyes) easy for u i guess! i'm dead... tt's it...

i dun care... just gonna slack the whole of today and onli start my reviosn for my last 4 papers tml... it doesnt seem to make much a diff anyway! i'm so frustrated...so pissed! hm... so to destress and cheer myself up a little...went to post centre just now.. right after the stupid physics paper... wen to reshape my eye brows... muahah.. the lady called me hairy gal... haha... my eye brows too a bit..erm... i dunno.. too used to my bushy eye brows.. lolz... anyway... then i went 2 storeys doen to singapore's biggest This Fashion!!! woohoo! my eyes must have glowed when i saw those pretty skirts! feel like buying all of them back! ya.. spent at least 1h plus in there... tried at least 8 pieces of skirts and tops! wa all so nice! but i'm so broke! too bad. spent all i had in the end... just bought two skirts... one bubbly greenie and one white, the sweet kind... yeah.... getting more girly nowadays.. i actually like to at dresses too.... quite a few pretty ones... but...eh... i find myself a little mismatch with dresses... haha... not satisfied though.... where's my money?! need more money. need to strike lottery... muahaha.. when i dun even buy any... wan change my wardrobe! byebye old clothes!!!

hey blog.. taking a break from mugging for tml's chem paper3... hm.. freaking out... veryu worried about my chem paper... today's maths... well...ok ba... i would say not as tough as i tot it would be... couldnt do a few qn... but as long as i dun make too mnay careless mistakes, it should be alright.... anyway i still have paper 2 to score with! hehe... hopefully.. :P
hm.. i'm going crazy... he lost his fone and seems to be out of house the whole afternoon. i'm just worried,,, so called him like every few min the whole afternoon... and i dunno wad the hell happen.. my call was diverted? tt was wad was showing on my hp... wad the hell does that mean? anyway, i couldnt reach him the whole afternoon.. tot he say he would call back... i shouldnt take wad he said so seriously huh? i tot he would be very sad and feel lost since he lost his fone. wanted to console him and accompany him.. but.. hm... he seems to be having fun outside... god noes wad he's doing.. never even bother to call me... too overwhelmed by all the fun he's getting probably... wth! i'm freaking out here!!!

"Two rules for stress management: "Rule one: Don't sweat the small stuff. Rule two: It's all small stuff"~ Robert Elliot

"Do not anticipate trouble or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight." ~ Ben Franklin

"Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save." ~Will Rogers, Autobiography, 1949

"One of the symptoms of an approaching nervous breakdown is the belief that one's work is terribly important." ~Bertrand Russell

"Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency." ~Natalie Goldberg, Wild Mind


"Slow down and everything you are chasing will come around and catch you." ~John De Paola

"Tension is who you think you should be. Relaxation is who you are." ~Chinese Proverb

it seems like i havent blogged for ages... gosh... spend hous doing the maths paper today... sad sad.. onli got a B.. actually i just have too mnay careless mistakes... i'm surprised by the no of questions i cant do too... sigh.. this is not good... i must get a A for maths!!! coz it seems like my best sub so far.... hm... mug more later....

time flies... just a few more days to prelims... panicky!! oops... how do u spell it? muahaha... i'm kinda dead.... feels like i'm not confident enuff to go for prelims yet... dead... i hope i improve like an expotential curve for the next few days... hehe... realli hope so.. o sigh ... i think i'm realli stressed... i've noticed signs of it... emotionally unstable... i can cry whenever i think of sad stuff.. as in realli whenever i wan.. o no.. actually i cant realli control my tears now... and my face? my gosh... i'm so UGLY! all the pimples and scar! this is bad!! anyone have good advice or ideas on how to get rid of them and smoothen my skin? i dun wanna look like an orange! o ya..one more thing... i've been doing sit ups and crunches every nite or morning... start running once a week... but my tummy is still the same... onli the upper adominum seems pretty toned up... anyone? HELP?! went to watsons tt day... there's this slimming product tt cost a bomb.. like $150+... the salesgal says that i can slim off 2 inches in 2 weeks! sounds attractive but... wonder if it's true...and it cost a bit too much for me to try the product...

hm... havent seen him for quite some time... wonder when we'll meet again... i miss u...

hihi blog... sianz.. this is bad.. i'm always staying up this early..lolz... hm.. today's chem prac realli sux... sigh.. i lost a lot of marks... judt did wad i could... and ya forgot to write wad i could have written down too... sigh sigh... better mug hard for the main papers...

hm... a few days ago..some guy call dennis popped out from no where.... he just sms me and said he got my no from the net a few mths ago.. wad crap... so weird.. now den sms me... i've completely forgotten about it... but then again, he must have sth special or said sth tt was close to my heart...i wouldnt have given my no to a stranger for no reasons... o well, we'll see how things go....

hm... tml keith says he's free in the morning... may be meeting for break fast or sth.. after all, we stay so near.. haha can go jalan kayu to have delicious roti prata! hehe... we'll see how tml... who noes.. may be he'll give me some kinda bad news again.... always like tt.. getting used to it.. but still feel very irratted every time.. the feelings of kana pang seh is realli not nice...

anyway, i'm gonna meet cc in compasspoint tml for mugging.. hehe.... sounds cool..cant wait... never realli mugged with her outside before... i hope tml will be a productive day... gotta finihs 4 chem topics in order to catch up! JIA YOU!