from colorgenics.com.. it realli changes..

You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

Most people are conditioned by their environment and you are no exception. You are an extremely emotional person - so much so that 'the wrong word' can lead you to tears. You feel other people's pain. You feel the need of sympathetic relationships and a pleasant work environment in order to develop and grow. You are an impulsive, loving individual with a great deal of inherent feeling.You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence but you realise that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

The fear that you may not be able to fulfil or realise all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervour.

ahh crap.. i have to chnage blog skin.. keep getting this error message with the last one... realli liked the last one.. it's like some kinda journal.. haha.. n lately, i have a thing for hot pink n purple... lol...

ha.. did a lot today... like some kinda maid.. washed the toilet, wash dishes for both meals, mopped the floor.. gosh.. any lucky guy wan me? hahaha...

it'sbeen 39 days.. how long more do i need? come on, shirley... was it realli tt deep? so difficult to let go and recover from?

waiting waiting.. i noe tt sucks... i noe how it feels.. so sorry... but it is the right thing to do.. the right way to start everything..

ah.. haven't been doing any serious work except for replying to the flv outside vendors... i love to slack.. hahaha.. feel guilty.. but so wad? hehehe...

moody moody... waititng for everyone to get ready to start mahjong.. sianz.. i am itching.. anyone wanna play?

joke of the day:
lobster poot poot...

haha it's a family joke.. i almost made my lil bro merlion.. everyone laughed.. haha i think i was kinda high.... said a lot of silly and lame stuff.. joked and played with my food.. hehe.. o ya.. my reunion dinner was realli... wad's the word.. i had sharkfin with lots of crab meat.. i had abalone.. i had lobster.. i had scallops.. but i dun realli noe hoe to appreciate all these expensive food... is there realli a need for such stuff? but i am still thankful and contented with wad i have..

looking forward for v day... hehehe... ;p

Finally had time to post these pics up...

the incomplete W xams present...

On seth's birthday...

My new creation - chocolate cheesecake~!

ah.... tiredz tiredz... this week i'm so busy with meetings.. meetings meetings and more meetings~~!! mon flv, tue engine o week, thru flv.. now may be fri there'll be fwc... ahhh.. y all this week? thank goodness i was disciplined enought to finish my tutorials for this week on sunday.. if not, i would have died..

kinda pissed with everything.. not with pple.. just the way things are now... ahhh have to complain.. perhaps becoz somethings are beyond my control.. cant realli manage time the way i wan... all tut due next week, ctw ass 1 due next week... must ctahc up with cep and maths webcast.. yup.. this is crazy... i better do sth this weekend.. o~!!! it;s cny~!!! shall i mug on tue? wahaha...

looking forward to sat... reunion dinner n mahjong~!! wahaha.. my MJ0000 module... must ace it to be a tai tai.. hehehe...

yea gg out on wed to celebrate bdae.. free day to relax myself.. no books~~!!! yuck yuck~!!!

ha.. so many complaints.. but i am still kinda happy with my life right now... enjoying the freedom, getting to noe more pple, learning new things everyday...
so much for complaints.. i realli learnt a lot from slc, flv so n so forth...

hm... miss softball... I WANNA PLAY SOFTBALL~!!!!

V Bash - my first bash after 19+ years

did i mention tt all 1000 tickets were sold out for the bash?!
fwah.. it;s a great success...
on the fri night, there were still pple asking me for tickets..
i counted.. i could have easily hit 80 or even 90 ticket sales if the comm still had tickets for my frens..
haha.. all so last min.. sorry peeps..

so how was my first bash?
hm.. it's as expected.. nth more than jus drinking n dancing..
think i was kinda high already by the time mark came..
one vodka.. omg.. i m so lousy..
shall train up.. wahaha...
luna was shy.. just standing ard in the beginning..
then guideng n me physcoed the rest to go to the central dance floor..
hehehe... not bad.. all newbies.. dunno how to realli dance..
MOS is realli big.. but.. think the music isnt realli tt gd..
even r n b.. music was slow man..
i think retro was the better one.. not the kind tt i like..
but it was easier to dance with i guess..

we went to every room to dance..
haha.. gd exercise.. burnt quite a lot of carbo i think..
no wonder pple who clubs often are so slim..
thanks kahsin for treating us to tt "lime juice"..
wahaha.. couldnt taste the alcohol at all..

went over to check out the PRU pple..
lionel was drunk.. hahaha...
his eyes were like sooo small~!
couldnt even stand up straight..
n he was complaining tt his head was spinning..
i tot he's a chiongster seah..

think i drank a lil too fast, too much at a time..
by the time i was leaving,
think i was kinda floating already...
i could still walk straight thankfully..
thankfully there was my ahmad..
lol... safely driven home..

in conclusion, i will not waste money on clubbing..
i will not go clubbing on my own if i have to spend money..
alcohol is so expensive there..
ooo but the view was gd..
so many yandaos~!
n yes mark.. there were pretty gals ok...

i actually like programming.. i think...
paid attention throughout the lecture.. haha..
,ay be becoz we all have no experience.. all worried n kanchiong..
tt's how kiasu chem engineers are.. lol...
anyway it;s quite fun... especially when the prog works.. lol..
sense of achievement.. lol...

o yea.. my sales for bash tickets is pretty good..
havent reached my personal goal..
but good enuff..
yes yes.. dun count the main comm pple in...
shirley needs to change her hp..
or any sugar daddy wanna buy me one?

haha.. one probably down the drain already..
no chance of revival perhaps.. wad a pity...
i did believed in it.. realli.. think i still do.. but o well...
one dropped out... so sad.. y cant we be as close as before? i mean as frens..
so wad.. no bgr = no frens too?
n one... aggressive i would say...
love is in the air...

tt's all i can disclose now..
not sure if i am ready yet...
dun think so..
coz i still do think about him now n then..
disappointed yet relieved not to see him in canteen today..
it's just a passing stage i noe..
hm.. we'll wait for all tt to go away first..

next thu.. will be the test..
i hope i will be tested...

cant wait for bash~!
i need someone to take me in for the night.. any takers? wahahaha
ahmad is down.. so sad...

sigh.. freaking tired.. reached home onli at 10.30pm.. met jennwei at serangoon to sell him one more ticket.. haha he is my biggest buyer.. 17 tickets plus 1 complemetary ticket... had flv meeting till 9 plus...fwah... tiring man... it was raining when the meeting ended.. couldnt get my ahmad to drive me home.. his phone was off i guess.. so sad... oops m i taking it for granted? lol.. o well.. luckily it stopped raining when i stepped out.. just drizzling a little.. stupid lappie is so heavy... i was gonna die off or sth when i walked all the way from yih to EA with my heavy bag.. i have an ahmad now.. i need another bellboy.. wahaha..

freak.. my headache is realli bad... think i shud exercise more.. realli unfit.. onli realised so when i went to jog this morning.. 2.4km.. almost died.. was panting onli after 800m... tt's pathetic...

need someone to shou1 liu2 me on sat.. coz i m going for V Bash~! hehehe... my first bash.. first clubbing experience... hehehe... shud be fun.. especially when most luantics r coming too~!! yuppie~!!!

opened up my blog n listening to my fav song now.. fav.. at least till now..
i came across this song when i went for campus concert with him..
we did nth... but i melted then..
n wished the moment could last forever..
ahhh... sweet memories..
but they shall onli stay as memories...

anyway... been realli busy recently...
no tutorials n yet i'm like working till late night everyday...
dun think we have guranteed any sponsors for flv yet... shucks..
siyong's getting panic-y... even the lil secretary me is also getting worried.. ha..
but i found 4 outside vendors so far.. very few.. but better than nth..
so i'm pretty happy when the call me up or email me.. hee..

haiz.. havent had time for myself..
then again, may be it's good..
who's fault is it tt i am so busy now?
MINE... may be his..
i took up so many pos willingly, partly becoz i wanted to keep myself busy..
so tt i will not think too much about the terrible experience..
n was hoping tt time will fade off everything..
well, seems like it's working..
but i just cant stop complaining...

i kinda broke down for a while on mon night..
lil bro wont listen to my parents..
all screaming n stuff..
then even my bro n me got drawn into the war...
ah damn fucked up...
they r concerned i noe..
but i have just found some time to cheong my tutorials..
please be a bit more understanding...
let me finish my work..
take a look at wad i am busy with before u scold me..

after the short crying.. i guess i felt a lot better...
had to let it all out..
my bro was swearing like never before..
haha.. n he's supposed to be a christian..

o well.. shirley's strong..
nth can bring u down, girl~!!!

wHeEe~! HaPpeNinG wEeKenD~!

ha... had fun this weekend..
hm.. my parents n lil bro went to jb on sat morning.. can back onli at midnight..
how can i not go out have fun~!!!! hee ;p met my pri sch classmates.. hee.. but onli like less than 10 pple turn up.. out of 40~!!! quite pathetic... but still, most of my clique turned up... so not bad la.. most pple left early.. too bad.. they didnt get to experience the highlight of the day. MAHJONG at my place~!! ahahaha... damn fun.. played so much.. i forgot about dinner.. went to eat supper at 10pm with them.. hee luckily mum n dad came back late... but quite paiseh la.. coz i asked them over.. n won everything.. guess i was lucky..

today was not bad too.. went for engine o week dry run... got to noe more engine pple.. ha.. hm... the games are pretty gd... like the maze one best... may be we can chnage tt a lil n add it to fwc's games.. i have an idea too~!! hmm... but i think our beach games more zai.. hee :P

ahh tiring day... ha..

ed is out of the game.. one down, one more left standing... too bad.. i'm still not ready...

hmm... so.. he hasnt taken any initiatives to tok to me.. hai.. dun think i can look at him in the eye either.. ahh it doesnt matter... may be we realli cant be frens anymore... not encouraged at all.. but i realli missed those times when we chat.. n of coz.. the sweet memories.. sigh...

my greatest fear....

i met my greatest fear.. finally.. 3rd day of sch.. yesh.. i tot it;s almost over.. but.. everything crumbled.. when i saw tt pair of eyes.. tt was all i could see from my place.. but it was enuff.. those familiar eyes i used to look into so deeply.. the eyes i fell for.. sth tt was my everything... WAS.. yes WAS... i tot it's over.. but i felt weird when i saw those eyes.. tt stare i caught.. the feelings is just undescribable.. i wasnt the usual me.. i wasnt brave enuff to look back.. to look straight at those eyes... they were telling me sth.. i noe so.. but i dun dare to assume... i didnt dare to face them.. i was a coward...

it's a tiring day.. 6h lectures of nonsense.. so draining.. may be i am falling sick.. have i lost my tan or am i getting sick? i looked so pale in the mirror.. feeling uncomfortbale these days... may be i have overworked myself.. all the late nights killin me slowly.. perhaps.. am i in love? y am i not pretty then? i look atrocious.. sth must be done... getting headaches, moody, crazy etc etc...

it's been raining for the past few days.. today is exceptionally cold.. flv ended surprisingly early.. everyone was busy.. i walked alone to the bus stop.. saw someone i didnt expect to see, dunno how to face her too.. thank god i had a cap on, may be she cant recognise me.. board bus c.. went to EA to take 188 to harbour front.. as usual, it took ages to come.. it was pouring.. the cold merciless wind was blowing at me.. chills went thru my body.. i felt so weak then.. i couldnt control my tots n emotions.. it's like some mtv.. the lead actress thinking about tt sad memory.. the sweet old times... in the rain.. dramatic it is... those pair of eyes kept flashing back n forth in my mind.. i was trying to analyse everything.. wad exactly was tt feeling? dun think it's pure sadness.. no urge to cry.. dun think it;s love.. even though my heart beat so fast.. i was probably just afraid..

my ahmad came to mind.. but it didnt help.. wish he was here.. may be he could help me.. felt so weak.. i pretended tt everything was alright.. i tried to smile as usual n be high n crazy like before... may be it;s just me.. i dun like to show this faggot side of me to pple.. tot thru so much at the bus stop.. so afraid tt i am leading ahmad to the wrong way.. blessed to have u ard me now.. i realli appreciate it.. just afraid tt i;ll hurt u.. u;re realli nice.. n u dun deserve it.. hm.. does tt show tt i care? m i ready? or m i just another heartbreaker? iss tt my retribution?

the walk home from mrt was exceptionally long.. the wind was so strong.. so cold.. it was worse the genting.. i wished i could teleport straight home.. ah... was hoping tt a cup of hot ginger tea will pop out of nowhere... ha.. yes seth.. i noe... i'm usualyy bored.. not lonely.. but for tt moment, it was different.. think i am sad.. it;s a shame.. it's a pity... coz i realli believe tt we were sth.. tt it will last a long long time... i felt the loneliness.. the helplessness... i wished the wind could just blow me away...

so many questions in my head... i noe i cant find answers straight away.. may be time will tell... i wanna get over everything.. let me believe in love again... let me be able to trust guys again... let me move on... i noe there's already someone waiting for me... so sorry.. i have to make u wait..

confused....

dUn bE A MOdEl~!!!!

it was disastrous... hair like x-men storm, hot pink and purple eye shadows.. i looked ridiculous... i agree with janus.. pple prob wont dare to come for the bash after seeing me.. anyone fright night? lol... i'll make a gd ghost if i can prevent myself from smiling... thankgod i did it yesterday... onli went to arts and sci.. i wouldnt wan to go it in engine n see familiar faces in tt terrible make over... the supposedly professional hair stylist sprayed so much hair spray on my hair tt i was practically pulling out my hair when i was showering.. phew.. luckily i havent gone for my hair treatment.. my hair growing realli fast.. wonder if they will break if i go rebond now.. it'll be 5 mths onli since the last time i rebonded...

heee :P pink dress-up day today... AA or wadever.. i enjoy dressing up.. may be if i achieve my ambition of being a tai tai in future, i can go into the fashion industry... or study interior designing... so cool~!

HOT NEWS~!!! yimin's in pink skirt today~!! so surprising... yea.. every thu shall be dress up day.. i shud jio more pple to join the club... :P ok.. back to lecture~!!

rainy rainy days...
ahhh.. so shiok... i love rainy days.. well.. when i am at home of coz.. hahaha...
just nua at home... feel the cool sheets of my bed on my face n the chills thru my body... shhhiiiioook~! where's my special one? if onli there's someone.. i wanna walk down the road with u in the rain barefooted.. hahaha.. so cool.. so romantic... lol.. then get back home, both of us sneezing, take a hot bath, boil some ginger tea.. n we can cuddle tog in the cold.. n laff at each other's red running nose...wahahaha... ok i am dreaming.. but isnt it sweet?

hm.. anyway... i am kinda scared n excited about tml... lionel asked me to help to modeling for V Bash... alamak.. ask me to come in cheong clothes... hello.. missy here never club before lei~!!!! got no idea wad to wear.. so on the first day of sch, i;ve been asking ard... wad to wear n stuff... had nth much to do this morning.. so i combed my cupboard n took out all my possible "cheong clothes" -tubes, spag, skirts, jeans.. alamak.. i got no idea seah... i hope wad i am wearing is considered cheong clothes.. lol.. kahsin said pple normally dress in dark colours.. i tried.. i realli tried.. but.. ever since jc, i revamped my cupboard.. so mnay bright colours now.. wahaha... still think i look gd in red.. so i am coming in red~!!! heck heck~!! n thanks to mengyi.. yes i shall wear a skirt :P dun nose bleed all of u.. wahaha.. like real...

hmm... no boots.. may be if i have boots, it'll be cool... anyway.. i'll look ridciulous la.. coz i have to go for dental appt early in the morning before i come to sch for my make over.. ha.. go see dentist in cheong clothes.. tt is so weird.. after the bash pub, have to go essential brews to meet LUNA.. alamak.. i hope they dun do anything too bizarre to my hair.. if not.. i faint.. hehehe... :P

let's pray hard they dun do any form of spiking.. :P

LoVe Is A gAmBLe..

discussed about this again..
i sound so pro when i explained my rationale..
we man, cannot predict the future...
but yes.. wadever choices u make now, will affect ur future eventually...
y do some pple hold back so much when they r deciding whether or not to commit, whether or not to give their all?
becoz they care..
n it's not wrong..
but it's not entirely right either..
at least in my opinion...
it's gd tt u r thinking about the consequences..
wad if it fails?
can we still be frens?
will he/she hate me?
will i hurt him/her?
will i get myself hurt? bla bla bla...

u have matured if u consider the other party's feelings..
it's perfectly right to do so..
but wad u think it's best for the 2 of u, might not be the case in his/her opinion...
wad gives u the right to decided sth tt will affect not just u, but the both of u?

ok i am digressing.. so y my title?
becoz.. when u come to a cross road..
when u have to make decisions.. to do it or not, pple tend to hesitate..
whether to step into a r/s or not..
it's just like gambling.. f
or instance, in the game of roulette....
the smallest bet is 10 bucks..
if u choose not to place any bet, u dun take any risk..
yes u wont lose anything..
but u wont gain anything..

if u place ur bet, if u tried, there's a possiblity tt u will lose tt 10 bucks..
but there's also a possibility of gaining..
strictly speaking.. min 10, max 350 bucks of winnings..
so.. would u place ur bet?

i would in most cases..
how would i place my bets?
tt will depend on how much i have with me..
if u never try, u will never find ur answers..
one of my fav quotations, wad lived with me thru my 6 years of softball:

"I can accept failure, but I cannot accept not trying" ~ Micheal Jordan

bored...

so bored... nth to do now..

hai.. dunno how i am gonna slim down seah.. i get hungry at ard this time every night.. indulding in my orange cheesecake again.. wahaha.. it's just super nice can... solution is to sleep early? hoho. it's impossible for a chem engineer.. especially when sch starts.. may be... all thanks to him.. ya..

anyway... i sms him yesterday.. just forwarded a msg.. sth tt yimin sent me.. i wonder y.. but tt's not the pt... hm.. dunno.. may be i am over sensitive.. somehow i sense tt he is either stressed up, tired or just unhappy.. how do i noe? from his nicks perhaps.. ah it was hardly anything positive anyway.. yesh.. tt topman t shirt tt says "i'm grumpy"certainly suits him.. may be if we can be frens by his bdae.. i can get him one, provided topman is still selling it.. or.. may be i'll just design sth similar n print one for him.. wahaha.. hm.. not realli bothered about us.. just worried about him.. siyong said tt it's normal to wonder how the other party is doing.. so.. i guess it's alright.. atually i think so too..

hmm.. looks like i m taking it well.. y? all thanks to my distraction(s).. haha... m i prettier now? becoz.. pple say woman in love r.. think the ants r gonna bite me.. coz i'm just simply blessed... so sweet... my last week of this holiday is just great.. i hope this doesnt stop just there... not when u noe u r doing it well.. if u get wad i mean...

still a softee.. i still melt easily.. but.. no... i shall be stronger.. colder..

nuaing day...

been out the entire day... showhand 500 general points for general bio.. n guess wad~! i onli got it for 1 pt~!!! yea yea.. must study hard for it.. even thouhg it may be easy... never ever underestimate the mods.. tt's wad i learnt from last sem.. 6 mods to do.. gonna be damn xiong.. i shall be a chao mugger apart from my other commitments, FLV, engine o week and CHESS FWC.. not easy.. with all the meetings.. plus i dun think i have tt much self discipline.. hee.. cannot push myself too hard.. i'll burn out easily.. from experience..

hm... day 1 of sch isnt easy already.. gotta reach sch at 10am to do mkting for flv.. 12 lunch.. 2-4 teach seth rock n roll.. 4-6 lectures.. ha.. busy busy day...
i'm like coming to sch on alt days.. wahaha... thu is lecture day.. long long day... n after tt, i have flv meeting.. wa.. gonna be tiring seah.. sat fwc gathering, sun engine o week dry run.. fwah~! how m i gonna make time for the new excited bees in my life? lol...

ok here's announcing.. i need chem engineering principles and programming text book.. who's gonna sell or give them to me? dun dare to get it from him.. he may not be ready.. considering the fact tt he hasnt msged me even when we;re both online... on i have fna n mkting text books for sale.. mkting.. i still have notes.. yea... anyone wan it, let me noe...

today.. been a pretty nice day.. good n bad happened.. aiya.. sensored.. heee.. sicne when do i do tt ya? but.. ya.. my life is just so exciting..

Guardian angel.. ha... whose angel.. i've no one to be there for... yea.. gave too much... i must live for myself.. n pamper myself..

goals for this sem
1. up my cap, 5.0~! wahaha
2. let go of him
3. make flv a success
4. strengthen bondings with my uni frens...

eh... tt's all i can think of now...

realise i have a lot of frens.. i dun wanna be a roamer anymore... shall make more buddies instead of just frens.. haha.. they r so mnay potenial buddies ard me.. i just never made the effort to strengthen our frenship.. i'm so sorry.. i've negleted all of u...

hm.. patrick asked me to take up the role of chief councillor for engine o week.. wondering if it's too much for me... i've got flv, fwc.. i gotta retake ctw somemore... haiz.. hectic sem...

where's my angel?

wondering.. worried...

bored.. waiting for 1pm to come..

The Passion Predictor
Shirley, you're a Guardian Angel!

Chances are you've kicked around the idea of settling down on some shady lane with your honey and maybe even thought about having a kid or a couple of pets. Even if you've never cooked a pot roast or picked out fabric for curtains, we'll bet you've got solid nurturing instincts nestled within. That's why, when it comes to your partner, you're the Mother Teresa of romantic relationships. Doing little things like planning cool vacations and jotting a quick love note, tells your partner daily how much you care. This A+ quality not only makes you a compassionate lover, but also a trusted friend.Here's the rub: You're ready to give and give, but sometimes you might get resentful when your significant other doesn't return the favor. It can be difficult for you to let people fend for themselves, but try to focus on maintaining balance. Be sure to look out for number one, and try to indulge yourself as often as you indulge those you care about.

http://web.tickle.com/passion/result.jsp

Almost 100% true...

It would appear that you are experiencing one problem after another. When one problem is resolved, another seems to immediately take its place. It could well be that you are trying too desperately to evade or to escape from your present situation and it is 'you' that is causing the problems to manifest themselves. You need to slow down a little.

Always anxious to accept the role of the leader, as indeed you often work well with people - but try to stay out of the limelight. You'd like a life of ease with no one to rock the boat and someone who understands you is so important in your life.You feel that you should be appreciated far more than you are but no-one seems to care! You feel that you are receiving less than your share and the main problem is that there is no-one to whom you can turn to for sympathy and understanding. The inner stress that you are experiencing makes you quick to take offence but you realise that at this particular moment in time there is little that you can do to relieve the situation.

As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.

Being afraid that you may be prevented from achieving your hopes and dreams is making you anxious and nervous. As a dreamer your ideas can at times move into the realm of fantasy and you could be following that so called illusive dream.

http://www.paulgoldin.com/colorgenics.htm

Blading.. wheeee~!!!!

yea yea.. i learnt how to stop.. with a turn.. ah wadever u call tt stunt.. hahaha.. all thanks to mark~! didnt realli get to skate along ecp... spent most of my time at the beginner's corner learning tt stunt n falling of coz.. haha..

hm... my orange cake was a lil watery this morning.. added gelatine.. now it's alright already.. yum yum..

the person i made my first cake for... not my dad... to be honest..

haiz..

My 2nd trial - Orange cheesecake

hehehe.. i just made my 2nd cheesecake.. hope it tastes good.. pretty cool.. squeezed fresh orange juice... graded some orange skin.. added some real fresh orange... yipeee~!

fresh orange cheesecake~! any fresher, u will have to peel it urself~!!!

from http://web.tickle.com/tests/superiq/result.jsp

The Super IQ Test
How Smart Are You Really?

Shirley, your Super IQ score is 120

Your overall intelligence quotient is the result of a scientifically-tested formula based on how many questions you answered correctly. But it's only part of what we learned about you from your answers on the test. We also determined the way you process information.The way you think about things makes you a Creative Theorist. This means you are a highly intelligent, complex person. You are able to process information of nearly every kind with ease, using both creativity and analysis to make sense of the world. Compared to others you also have a very rich imagination.
How did we determine that your thinking style is that of a Creative Theorist? When we examined your test results further, we analyzed how you scored on 8 dimensions of intelligence: spatial, organizational, abstract reasoning, logical, mechanical, verbal, visual and numerical. The 3 dimensions you scored highest on combine to make you a Creative Theorist. Only 6 out of 1,000 people have this rare combination of abilities.


The Emotional IQ Test
How People-Smart Are You?

Shirley, your Emotional IQ is 126.
So, where are you most emotionally smart? Your test results show that your strongest suit is empathy — your ability to see things from someone else's point of view.

Shirley, your Casanova is the Rebel

Hey there, party girl! Always on the lookout for the bad boy in the crowd, you like your Casanova complete with imagination, heart, humor, and lots of attitude. Cool and confident, you're attracted to people who aren't afraid to speak their minds and stir up a little trouble here and there. It keeps things interesting — that's for sure.Pay attention to rules? Not a hot tamale like you! You're way too busy trying new things, meeting people, and having a good time to follow in someone else's footsteps. Good thing your sexy rebel can blaze his own path, too!

> haha.. i did these when i was kinda bored... hmm not bad eh? quite fun... but the casanova thingy.. not so sure about tt..

HaPpY NeW YeAr~!!!

O yea.. i'm back from cruise~! yipee~! had lots of fun.. hahaha... hm... let me recall..

1st night - 30th dec 2006

by the time we were onboard, it was dinner time..granny was so kanchiong, she rushed to the restaurant and booked the table for us, even before we could chek out our rooms.. it wasnt our first time, so we're all not very excited i guess.. the last few times when we were here, there wasnt much for us to do...

after dinner, the usual.. arcade... sigh.. star cruise should realli do sth about their arcade.. all the games r like so old.. even my bros didnt noe wad to play after a game or two.. ohh~! n i spot one yandao.. hehehe... one onli~! so sad.. there was another... but.. think he's younger than me... anyway.. nth much to say about them anyway.. er...

after arcade, granny jio us to watch the performance at lido... it was pretty spectacular... but one thing i realli needa comment on.. it's kinda weird to see shaolin wushu performance with techno music.. haha.. n the supposedly shaolin monks fighting with european acrobats and south american dancers... wth~!!! but there're good.. i mean their separate performances.. not when they fight together.. so comical to put them all together.. i cant see how they are linked..

i actually turned in earlier than when i am at home.. after supper, tt;s it.. end of day 1..

day 2 - 31st December 2005
last day of 2005 was pretty happening for me... it was the day tt made this whole cruise experience different... i found out from granny tt ktv there was free if u dare sing in the pub.. as in not in ur own private room u noe.. all u have to do, is to order a drink.. it's pretty cheap if u r gonna spend a few hours there.. n yea.. i realli sang a lot~!!! i spent most of my day there actually.. when i have nth to do.. i'll just go sing withmy lil bro.. hee...
o... after lunch, i went to the casino to look for my granny.. i guess she was losing quite a lot.. she looked at me like i was some angel from heaven when she spot me.. all the aunties n uncles ard me shared the same expression.. i wonder y.. becoz i am too young? becoz i am a newbie? they were like all excited to see me play when my granny passed me her chips to play with.. i placed a bet of 30 bucks.. 10 on 3 different no for roulette.. n guess wad~! i won again.. just like my first time to casino last year.. one shot... 360 bucks~! wahaha... minus the 30.. 330 bucks of winnings... hehehe.. so i decided to stop playing n walk away with my winnings.. hehehe... well, granny was realli losing quite a bit.. so she asked me to play for her.. i think i won a total of 600+ but it wasnt enuff to cover her loses.. her bets were 3 times more than mine... sigh... so... i had to part with most of my winnings... she looked so sad...couldnt help it...

i think i have a few casino fans after my second time there.. haha... so lucky eh?

hmm... after dinner, my family participated in the karaoke competition.. my parents n my bro stanley.. ha.. not bad.. i dun have the courage.. not gd enuff yet... didnt expect all of them to be so onz... went to play mahjong as we wait for 11.30pm to come..

there's a countdown party at the galaxy of stars.. i was expecting sth better.. realli.. it started alright.. with music played from the cd.. when the band played, i started getting bored.. the music is ok.. just not for dancing i guess.. not for youngsters.. lol.. my granny.. so happening.. more happening than my mum.. she was having a fun time dancing ard with the crews and other passengers.. i drank quite a lil so called sparkling wine... fwah... so red n hot in no time... shud train up soon.. get ready for pru bash.. lol... these are some of our pics.. taken with my camera fone..

i convinced my bros to sneak to celebrity disco with me at 13th floor..hehehe.. it was quite fun.. our kind of music was blasting.. disco inferno, my milkshake.. etc... but unfortunately, this waitress came to check our access card n found out tt my lil bro is 18 yet.. haiz.. so we had to leave tog.. went for supper then...

was quite disappointed.. tot my 1st so called clubbing experience gonna turn out like last year's again.. was sharing it with my granny.. n she suggested to accompany me.. ha~~! my granny~! can u believe it?! lol... n so we did~! danced non stop for like an hour.. wa damn tiring.. may be tt's y pple who dance n club often all have gd bods.. shagged off all the excess fat.. hahahaha.... o guess wad.. the cute guy was there too.. so guai.. sitting on the couch with his grp of frens.. prob just chilling out.. or may be there were too many indians on the dance floor.. weijie will never go in if he was there.. hahaha...

hmm... returned just this afternoon... not tired.. since i slept so much.. hehe..

tot thru a lot when i was on board.... since it is a new year, wadever happened last year stays in the year.. let bygones by bygones i told myself.. i no longer hate u.. or anyone.. haiz.. well.. let's be brave n accept the fact tt i still love u very much... i still care for u.. n i do realli wanna stay as frens with u.. i dunno if i am ready yet.... but right now, i am sorry, u r definitely not just a fren to me.. for obvious reasons, the present n the past... since u have let go everything, it;s my turn to do so too.. if not, i'll just be digging my own grave.. for no reason.. perhaps i was too compromising.. too understanding.. gave u too much space when u needed them.. may be seth is right.. we didnt have enuff time to understand each other better.. i mistaken wad u meant by independent n being too sticky.. may be...may be it was my fault in thr first place to allow myself to give u all tt.. time will heal my wounds.. time will fade it all.. hopefully, we can be frens again.. just frens.. photos gone.. smses gone... everything empty... starting new afresh... let time fill up these empty spaces with sweet happy memories...

oops.. i have a stupid qn to ask suddenly.. so... r u still gonna pass me ur books? wahahaha :P

need a hug... need a smooch.. who's gonna give it to me? ok i am crazy.. nvm me...