Merry christmas!

Merry Christmas!

hm.. feels weird... today didnt realli feel like christmas... i guess as we grow older, we have so much more to do and worry about, we tend to forget or neglect certain things in life... time have been flying past so fast.. i never felt christmas.. and ya.. it has christmas day has just ended like 8 min ago..

so accurately, i should say yesterday was not bad... tot i wouldnt have a christmas party again this year since chrissy had to work.. went to uncle's place.. played badminton with my little cousins.. they are so short that sometimes hitting high is equals to hitting "body shots" to me.. after tt, had a 2hr pool session with my cousins... i played against the pros.. phew... luckily didnt lose too badly since they "fang shui"... lolz... alvin's like how pro.. and serene... o ya.. she slimmed down so much.. mut be stress from NUS... muahaha.. dinner was great.. had beehoon, sambal sotong, chciken wings and sushi!!! yummy yummy!!! o.. and i made chcolate strawberries... think they were nice... i didnt even get a chance to try it myself.. by the time, i was looking for them, they were all gone... :P

granny and 2nd aunt came to play mahong with dad and nainai... i was hoping to play some mahjong.. sad sad... their bets were too high for me.. was bored... so brought the 3 chocolates i made to chrissy... he bought cherries for me!! so sweet! ya both him and the cherries.. hehe *^_^* wont forget counting down to xmas day on 24th with him after work... was so romantic.. played with candles and all... :P

alright.. tata!!!

sob sob...

fuck.. it's a fucking bad day... sorry for swearing so much.. but it sure sucks... just felt that my efforts arent appreciated... and kana bullied just becoz i'm new... sigh... i guess tt's how ur first job experience is like... pple blaming you for wad they themselves or others did wrong... pple blaming you for wad u've done wrong ( which i accept since it's my fault).. having to work 3 pple's work load when you're onli paid a humble $5 per hour... employed to be a waitress but have to cover the cashier's job.... trying to attend to your customers as fast as possible..but u're boss ask u to take ur time and "let the customers wait"... i mean come on.... if u wan to succeed in the food industry, not only ur food must be good.. service is also very important... i mena i can put myself in the customers shoes... if i'm a customer and i gotta wait for like so long just to take my order, i might as well get out of tt fucking place and go to the other restaurants along the street rite? why would i bother to wait... and the food isnt tt nice somemore... stuipd yuen yang onli open for like a month.. i believe for most of the customers, it's thier first visit.. i just feel tt first impression is very impt.. how can you not care about ur customers and make them wait... there's so much mroe to say!! it's a bloody job

come to yuen yang steam boat cum seafood restaurant!

hm.. i'm surprised that pple r interested in the restaurant i'm working in after reading my blog.. lolz... wa... busy man... especially on weekends! almost went crazy yesterday... business was so good that i guess we neglected some of our customers a little.. sorry but we're short handed... too busy!! :P

anyway, thanx "hello"... well, let me give you the details... it's along teck chye road. near upper serangoon shopping centre and kovan centre. hm.. nearest MRT is serangoon MRT station.. just 5 to 10 min walk to Yuen Yang. Or you can take bus no. 153, 80,81,82, 136 to the stop beside paya lebar post office. If you're coming from the other direction, all buses mentioned above except 136 will stop after upper serangoon shopping centre. for 136, you should alight the stop after the shopping centre and the cross roads. ( you will see a stretch of shophouses along teck chye road, before you alight) We have steamboat buffet, adult at $15.80, children at $8.00... we do not charge for children below 6 years old. There are a lot of varieties for you to choose from... crabs, fish, prawns etc... rice is included in the buffet... if you dun like steamboat, we also have alacart (how ever u spell it :P)... not to worry, it is definitely affordable... the dish at lowest price would be our soup of the day at only $2, highest is sashimi at $12... There's no GST or service charge. hehe... ok enough of advertising... so.. hope to see you soon... my frens, drop me a sms when u're coming, i'll book a table for you...

erm.. "hello"... perhaps, you may want to ask for me, xueli or shirley when you come down... :) so... hope to see you soon...

first day at work

wo tired seah...
yesterday was my first day waitressing in yuen yang... in the beginning, i was like so blur.. didnt noe wad to do, didnt noe where to get all the stuff... business wasnt tt good from 6pm tp 7pm... after tt, business picked up... it was pretty fun and satisfying when i managed to persuade some customers in to try our dishes... i treated it like i'm doing charity fun fair in VJC... and well, not a bad day of coz.. just tt i had to stand for straight 5 hours... feet started to hurt after a while.. the two boss lady were very nice pple... carey- boss's daugther too... they knew tt it was my first time waitressing so they tried to teach me and encouraged me to take my time to learn.. o ya.. i have to wear this ugly grey t shirt... yuck yuck... grey shirt with red printings... *puke

gonna go for training in esplanade provision shop later... better try to find out the name of it.. haha i dun even noe wad it is called..

softball chalet with my dear juniors

hey... had lots of fun on mon... softball chalet was cool.. for like the first time, i didnt have to prepare anything or cook in a chalet bbq... wo.. tt's realli relaxing man... even though i couldnt realli bite since i just got my braces, i did enjoy eating... o.. the chicken fillet was surprsingly soft and tender!! it's like rendang chicken burger's fillet... i love tt man.. and crab stick.. haha... coz it's so soft... jan's blood vessel in her mouth burst... so she had problems eating too... think we both felt as bad... but it was nice... with all our juniors except ber and jiuyu... hm... the chalet was pretty ulu coz it's in sentosa... there's practically no one at nite... the walk to 7 eleven was kinda far... having to walk past those deserted old houses made it seem further.. haha.. cheryl was screaming and scaring herself and the rest... hm... i think i would wanna go back to sentosa for some fun one of these days again... beach volley ball and captain ball was fun and tiring... even though we were picking ball most of the time when we played volleyball, it was pretty cool.. i would wanan realli learn how to play it one of these days... overall, the softball chalet was a success... not like the one i TRIED organising for the seniors last year... it was a total failure with single digits seniors coming... terrible seah...

tue went to celebrate chrissy's bdae... lolz.. brought him to Senses.. crap... he cant appreciate the food.. but ambience was nice... classy place... but of coz the price of the food was "classy" too... den went strolling by singapore river... went to see ther merlion.. was cool... took some photos..

ok... i'm still stuck with the job - waitressing at yuen yang steamboat and seafood restaurant... $5 per hour onli... and not working everyday... wad a sucky job... so unstable... but wad can i say... i still cant find anything better... sigh... anyone wanna come try the food? pretty cheap... let me noe.. i'll book u a table or sth... lolz...

o.. dao and me thinking of going to Orchid Country Club to swim.. anyone wanna join us? there's pool , steambath, sauna and a bowling alley too...

Sentosa.. here i come!!!!

yippee... time seems to fly nowadays even though A levels is over... hm... still cant find a gd job... many are not confirmed.... onli tt yuen yang steam boat restaurant thingy... but i gotta serve in chinese... alamak.. speaking is ok.. but reading and writing... i dun think i can do it well.. especially when the menu is in "fan ti zi"...

o and stupid me played with the fone... messing with the acces codes and stuff... now my sim card is rejected by my phone... got a new one already... but i can onli use it on mon... crap... so pple, if u wanna get me... better call my house... can onli contact me thru my hp from mon onwards... o btw, i'm looking forward to my softball chalet.... cant wait to see my dear juniors and seniors again.. heard tt daph and sz wha will be coming down.. mahjong anyone? get ready to lose money to me.. muahaha....

o i'm worried about sth... i cant bite with my braces on.. just got them yesterday.. it hurts like shit!!! Ouch! touching it feels like getting them bang on some rock or kana punch at my teeth... hurts like hell! er... do sentosa sell porridge? tt's wad i've been eating since yesterday... except for tonite's dinner... had rice softened with soup... tried to eat spring chicken... gotta shred them all to little pieces before i can swallow them... terrible... sometimes i regret getting braces... but i guess it may be good... teher's a high possibility tt i may slim down in a month's time... lolz...

hey yo...

hm... today's 8th dec.. my dad's bdae! hm... i was so busy the entire morning... woke my brother up at around 8am.. took breakfast... den we head straight for the wet market in serangoon central.. hehe... first stop was the vegetable stall.. man... i just realised i've been eating so much and i got no idea wad u call those veg... haha... had to ask the uncle to help us get those stuff according to my shopping list... den we went to buy chicken.. drumstick and wings... stupid aunty cheat my money... sold me the chicken parts at such a high price... anyway, it's pretty fun.. good experience.. i mena i've been to the market.. but with my mum buying the food... not me calling the shots..lolz..

hm.. started cooking at 10am.. haha guess how long i took.. 3 bloody hours!! cooked rendang chicken, xiao bai chai with shitake mushrooms and made these yellow unique dumplings.. hehe... fun fun.. but a lot of hard work.. the preparing part of the rendang chicken and dumpling was pretty tedious... hehe dad liked it.. so i'm happy too... :)

o o! i almost forgot.. i got a job near my place!! yeah!! working as a waitress in a steamboat cum seafood restaurant... interview was pretty easy... hm... but it's more of a part time work.. so anyone got better jobs for me?

I did the most silly thing of my year today... went to the library with my card which i ahve already borrowed 4 books with... spent like an hour there searching for SAT books and cook books.. and guess wad... I COULDNT BORROW THEM!!! argh... wad the hell.. over loan quota?!!! damn u!!! stupid!! stupid!! now i have to go like may be tml to get it again!! hopefully, i'll remember to bring someone else's card...

o ya frens frens... i havent connected to the rite part of the world ever since i left for korea and cruise... i read some of my pals' blog just now... wondering wad u pple have been doing? i dun realli noe wad to do... onli planned to go for NUS's faculty talks and start mugging for SAT...

o ya... i'm still looking for jobs.. lobang lobang, anyone got lobang?! haiz... keith got a job in a pet farm.. just herad tt he quit! MY GOD... why would anyone do tt!? being able to work around the dogs and get paid?!! he must be crazy! sigh... havent seen him for a long long time... onli sms like once in a blue moon... mostly for my "job queries"... chrissy got a job too! wth! i dun mind doing data entry for a month now... since i'll be wearing braces from the 10th onwrads... need time to get used to it first.... just read chong's blog too... not fair!! she got a job too!! i also wan!

o crap... still cant get into msn... wad's the deal man? hm... i just came back from cruise actually... finally, have time to blog... hm... let's start reflecting back about my trip to korea...

well, spent the first nite on the plane... tt was 28th dec... i wonder... should i call the travel agency a cheat or wad? the nite one the plane is counted as one of the 5 days of my trip.. crap... now it makes the holiday a bit too expensive... hm... i had a hard time trying to sleep on the plane... we travelled for like 6 hours? sit till my butt ache... it wasnt SIA.. tt's y... SIA is the best seah... e korean airplane i took has nth! no video games to play, no choice of movies to watch.. yuck yuck! but the air stewardess were surprisingly pretty... 2nd to SIA's... i wouldnt want to mention the rest tt i've been onto...

let's see... made little notes about my trip... hm... alright... We reached Ichoen Airport at around 7 plus if i didnt recall wrongly.. After clearing customs, I ran out of the airport to have a feel of how cold it is with only a thin long sleeves top on... It didnt feel as cold as I thought it would. We were welcomed by a local tour guide and a part-time photographer. I have to say the tour guide was good... He's the boss himself... business was so good that he had to stand in himself... Later in the trip, I actually learnt that the young photographer was a baseballer.. too bad we weren't able to communicate well since he couldnt speak English and i couldn't speak the Korean language.

Alright.. our first trip was to Everland. It's a gigantic park owned by LG. didnt't realise that LG is that rich. It has theme parks, a safari zoo, boat rides, big beauitful gardens, etc. Our first stop was the safari zoo. in there, animals were allowed to move around in the park specially made to look like their natural habitats... it was ironical because the animals were taught to do little tricks like shaking hands and all.. it's not all that "natural" after all..

den, we took the sky scraper... it's kinda scary if there weren't nets just right below us. it's like this metal seats long enough for 4 pple to sit on, which are hooked on these thick cables... there weren't any other forms of protection except this movable metal bar in front of u, preventing u from falling forward. the sky scraper took us to another part of the park... it's where we took this so called boat ride. our "boat" was circular, made up of 5 parts of a pie, joined up in the middle. i knew we were going to get wet when we saw pple coming back with their heads and clothes all wet. lucky me.. i onli got my legs wet... O, i took the Suspended roller coaster with my brother, stanley... tot it's the most trilling ride in the park. but we were wrong... it onli turned like 90 degrees, mostly left and right... i give it 2 out of 5 stars.. i've taken better ones...

Hm.. den comes lunch... yummy yum yum... We were served with the best pork I've ever eaten in my life... so delicious... barbecued pork... not oily... and kinda healthy considering that we were taught to wrap the piece of pork in a piece of lettuce and applying this special red sauce before sending them into our mouth...

After lunch, we went to Carribean Bay. The outdoor park was closed since it was early winter. The indoor one was fun. Singapore should have sth like this.. there were lsides and blackholes like those we used to have in Sentosa's Fantasy Island... There was this jetty jump thingy.. way too cool... o and wave pool... o ya.. and i tried swimming out in the cold. think the temperature out there was around ice point.. haha i have to admit tt it was pretty cold.. but as long as you dun come out from the pool, it's ok.. after all tt tiring running and fooling around, we head to the spa and sauna section. I was amused by the no. of spas they have. I tried the Apple, Lemon and Jade one... nice... water was realli hot... the hottest one was the Jade one... at 40 plus degrees celsius. i was red like bbq pork when i came out.. lol.. it was probably too relaxing coz by the time, i was out, my legs were pretty wobbly.. eye lids felt heavy... felt sleepy.. haha...

Then the highlight of my entire trip sort of alerted me.. it happened in the toilet.. i was walking into the bathing section when i saw a woman and her daughter standing in front of two long mirrors naked! the woman was drying and combing her daughter's hair as if no one was looking. i was so astonished.. probabaly have blushed when i walked past them, trying to keep my eyes straight in front.. later, i found out that it's a norm in korea. but of coz, i didnt follow... i was too shy to expose myself... had a hard time changing in my own cubicle... since all the koreans do that, the cubicles onli have metal shelves big enought for u to put ur shampoo bottles.

The next day, we went for snow skiing.. it's great! think it;s pretty easy to learn the basics... skiing downhill was easy... the higher i went, the faster i came down... u could feel the cold air pushing u back when u're skiing down the slope.. the sucky thing is that u have to climb all the way up. tt's the tiring part... after skiing for a few hours, i was too tired and reluctant to move myself up tt slope again...

the later part of the trip was more of sightseeing and shopping... if u wanna go for a shopping spree, i suggest u go to other countires like HK and Thailand.. korea is not the place. things there are so much more expensive... o ya... the tour guide told us that onli the rich could afford having beef during winter. pork cost 4000 won. beef cost 100 times mroe if i'm not wrong. hence, we had nth els but pork for the rest of our trip. so now.. ya.. i'm sick of pork.. miss all the fish and chicken... the onli time i had chicken was our feast in the gingseng chicken soup restaurant. wo.. tt was nice... had this gingseng chicken stew... one whole chicken just for me.. yummy..

I came back on 2nd dec. it was pretty late.. 11pm or later... had to sleep early since i hd debtak appointment on the next morning.. so ya... extracted my other 2 teeth.. so now i have 4 holes! trying not to show my teeth like usual when i smile... realli tough for me... but i think i look ok.. not as bad as i tot... haha so means i can still go out... lol.. cruise wasnt as bad as i tot too... went to the casino for the first time... won $350 the first time i placed my bet... yippee... so cool..

now tt i'm back in sinagpore, it's time to study for SAT and look for job... anyone got lobang? i realli realli wanna work ina pet shop!!!! keith gotten a job there! i'm so jealous!!!

frens? any party? come jio me?

aloha! hehe... As is finally over.. i'm so happy... hm... actually it was over on fri... yup... hm... let's recall...

fri... went to watch shutter with chrissy... den went to chomp chomp and had a yummy yum yum dinner! muahaha... yeah.. it was a lovely day... nth else could be better... felt like all that stress is lifted from my sore shoulders... yuppy! onli reached home like at ten? haha and mummy want angry at all.. tt's good.. guess she understood... yup... o i miss chrissy...

hm... and yesterday... i extracted 2 teeth in NDC... Ouch! It was god damn painful! i had four injections. 2 up 2 down. canu believe it?! the dentist used some plier-look-alike equipment to pull out my teeth.. alamak... i could have fainted if he didnt do them fast enuff... the pressure exerted on my teeth was so damn strong... so scary tt i almost made myself believe tt it was painful when i was already had 4 injections... my eyes grew so big when i saw my poor teeth kana plucked out! think the whole thing onli lasted for like 5 min. thank god!

hm... and for today.. spent most of my time cleaning up my study table and cupboards... threw lots of notes and tutorials away... packed up the past year papers and tys which my dear juniors might wan... now my table looks so clean and neat... i feel nth else but a sense of satisfaction! cant believe i did so much today! ha! o ya my dear juniors... let me noe if u wan them... have past year papers... redspot tys for maths and phy... o ya can wans the maths stuff.. so hehe..


o ya.. i'll be off to korea tml nite... lol... looking forward to snow skiing and roller coaster rides! yeah!!! o ya the sad things is tt i have difficulties eating rite now since i'm bo-gey... cant enjoy the food there as much as i probably could have. hm... wont be back till 2nd dec! will be updating u in 5 days time... hehe...

yo ho! i changed my blog skin!!! nice nice? oo la la.. so cool...!!! lol...

yipee! last impt paper done! yeah yeah... tml last paper.. hurray!!! hopefully my pimples will all be gone after my holiday in korea... lol... wad a relief... but to be honest, i tot physics of fluid was tough... the rest was kinda ok... at least wad i studied came out.. so.. hehe... o ya.. thanx yanying..for tt sms... if it's not tt sms, i wouldnt know that phy paper 3 is today! alamak... sotong me... i tot it's on thu and fri! haha... ya... wasnt very prepared for tha paper.. but it was alright i guess....
o ya.. good news.. little bro, stessen got his PSLE results... hm... considering tt he doesnt study at all, he has done pretty well... but weird eh? 3 As and a C but onli 202? haha.. but it's gd enuff... my parents are quite happy... they just went out to celebrate... well as for me, i hope i can also get my 3As and a pass in GP for my A levels.. despite all the shopping, pool and k box sessions i've had this week.. lol...
o ya... i've been practising smiling without showing my teeth! it's freaking tough!!! argh... gotta prepare for the bo-gey times... 2 bloody weeks!! argh... hella... fri have to extract 2 of them already... sob sob... 2 weeks of ugly me! o man.. how am i gonna find a job like tt? thank god i'll be in korea for 5 days and cruise for another 3 days... haha disappear from the streets of singapore for a while... u cant see me with my bo gey smile!!! :x
or may be i should just be proud of them... take lots of pic if my bo-gey smile.. lol... i realli dunno... comments anyone?

bore bored... *yawnz... o man.... studying sux... i'm so sick of physics... feel like slacking.. atcually have been slacking a lot... very guilty about it now actually.. haha... but o well... i'm so out of my exam mode... cant wait to go snow skiing in korea! yippee!!!
hm... after As, i'll change my blog skin... this is beautiful..but it seems a bit too small to read huh? :P

dead dead.... phy paper 2 was freaking dead.... ahh... couldnt do the entire data analysis qn!! sigh... i'm no more confident about getting my 3 As.. hopefully my batch dun do so well... haha... den may be i can get my A.. hehe.. evil tot... well... no choice...
hm... just had chem1... not very gd either... it was like half the time, i'm unsure of my answers... sigh... well, so far so gd.. at least i onli found out tt i got one wrong.. hehe... but.. seriously... i hope i do ok... I WAN MY A! hm... let's work our butts for phy3... realli gotta do well for tt if i wan my A...
hm... was walking around in parkway for awhile today... so tempted to get tt new product Tummi Trim.. i wonder if it works... need to get rid of the fats at the sides of my waist if i ever wan to wear a bikini to the beach... o sigh.. but my thighs... yuck yuck... all thanks to softball.. now they're so muscular... and u noe.. muscles are harder to get rid of than fats! ARGH....
i dunno wad else to say... feel very insecure about my As... not as ez as i tot... sigh sigh..

bloggie bloggie... havent blogged for some time? er... or may be not... i'm so sick of studying.. but at the same time, i'm so worried about my physics... it's neither here nor there... tys qn arent tt easy... i'm so worried... argh... let's do more tys... do as much as possible...
i cant get into msn messenger for soem reason... sux... havent tok to my frens onlien for some time... so boring.. my life is so routine now... nth else but study.... i get so jealous when i read my junior's blog.. all having fun... playing softball and going to chalets... ahhhh!!!!!!!!!

Broken hearts
Broken dreams
There just somethings that love brings
When you learn that its all been a lie
You cry
You find that

Nothing
Nothing
Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you'll never learn
Till you get burned
Till your burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love

So you gave all you had
How the story turned so sad
Nothing left but the tears in you eyes
You die inside cus

Nothing
Nothing
Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you will never learn
Till you get burned
Till your burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love


So dry your eyes
Its just your turn to learn
The time to find that nothing
Nothing

(Instrumental)

Nothing
Nothing
Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you will never learn
Till you get burned
Till your burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love

o crap... got dc just now.. typed so much rubbish and it's all gone now... argh.. may be it's telling me tt i shouldnt be posting all tt up... ya.. cursed too much... any way.. pals... yes... my blog is very personal... i'm more like talking to myself when i write my blog... so pls dun be offended by wad i post k... they are probably tots that just cross my mind.. sometimes when i'm so overwhelmed.. i'll just write wadever tt comes to my mind.. i may not mean wad i have said... anyway.. wanna thank all my frens who goe to noe all that have happened, be it from this blog or thru pple... thanks for consoling me.. i'm glad that i have gd frens like u.... :)

ya.. so how bad can my life be huh? when i have frens like tt.... ya well, as expected... i'm still not back to myself yet... still get sad and all. but i'm trying hard to keep myself busy... revise my work... go out with frens... just never idle alone.. becoz i'll start to think of him.. tears will start to roll.... i'll soon flood the place.... sigh...

guess wad.. i went to watch Sky Captain after yesterday's chem paper... it's one of the worst movies i have ever watched... it's realli stupid... typical superhero movie... gosh... better not catch it pals! anyway, the surprising event was that i got 4 missed calls from him... wo.. realli... i never expected it... so i returned his call and guess wad... he started asking me about my whereabouts... who i was with and bla bla... i'm like WTF... we're not related anymore! why didnt u show more concern and love when we were together? now tt u have lost me, u're regreting? it's too late my pal... i'm so god damn pissed and hurt when ur words cut into my heart tt nite... " there's no point in commiting.." bla bla... shouldnt u let me noe about this earlier so that i wont have to go thru tt shit?! argh.. or r u too free? nth better to do so u call me for fun la? rite? as usual, when u're bored u'll ask for my company... when u're busy, u'll just throw me to a corner rite?! wad a bastard... i'm not gonna give u another chance to treat me like dirt... no no no way....

argh.. enuff of complaining.. sorry i cursed too much.... i just think tt i'm treated so unfairly... wad is this man...

fuck... i broke up again! had enuff of those crap from tt bastard... i dunno if i should be complaining in this blog... but it;s late and... there isnt realli anyone i can complain to.. well, except my dear didi la.. irvin.. proud to have a didi like him man... hm... and wei xian... :)

hm.. tell me.... if u cant commit urself into the relationship, y do u wanna keep me by ur side? isnt it fucking selfish?! fuck man.... i did so much for tt bastard.. and get nth out of it.. ya true.. tt's wad love is about... ah.... wadever la.... i dun care.... gonna mug.., put all my energy into revision.... funny.. i dun feel like complaing anymore... just repeating all those sad words from him.... all those words that tore my heart apart... i so need a shoulder to cry on now...

hi ya! i feel sooo guilty after two days of slacking! oh my... havent mug for two days! which means i'll be completing two lesser papers.... tml gotta start bucking up again....

ok.... well, let's start reflecting about yesterday... yesterday, 15th oct... it was our farewell day... had lots of funny and entertaining performances for the first one hour plus in school... it was great.. sort of healed my wound for a while... i was so upset becoz of the way keith's been neglecting me... den.. we went for our special CT session... guess wad... Ms Rajan actually wrote us each a card and bought the gals each a pendant from Perlinin Silver! it must have cost her a bomb! den we started tecaking lots of pictures.. o ya... i've uploaded them... just in case, some of u wants a copy of them or wanna see them, i've added the link in my blog.. check out the "Pics" section... o ya.. candice... our pic in open house is on the last 4 slides of the VJC softball album...
Hm... O! and i never expected the juniors to be so nice... must be the gals' idea.. muahaha... tehy bought lots of snacks and goodies for us to munch on.. o man.. thinking of it.. makes me feel so guilty.. should be on a diet... i ended up drink packets of soft drinks and ate a chocolate cone icecream! muahaha! yum yum... :P~

k.. den this morning... went to our school's open house... i was surprised to see the big crowd... much more crowded than last year.. and ya.. bong reminded me that VJ have started our integrated programme.. no wonder there were kiddies with their parents... time realli flew when i was stoning with my juniors..... haha... played a little softball today.. yeah...so happy.. i miss softball so much... threw a bit with bong.. my oh my.. i lost touch... when i start using a bit mroe strength, the ball went everywhere... sorry bong... made u catch lots of once bounce perhaps... and made ms lady bird jump a lot too.. hehe :P u noe wad.. i realli think i've gained much self- confidence over the years... talk to this guy in the softball booth today.. i like just talk to him like tt.... like out of no where.. haha... dun think i'll be able to do if it was a few years back... o and smiling realli helps... when i was just about to leave, accidentally stepped on this yandao's foot.. muahaha... so paiseh... didnt even dare to turn back.. just apologised... but i bet his younger than me.. so who cares.. muahaha... no his fren is more of my type... :P

den met up with xinglong in Taka.. and yes... i ate a lot again.. Seoul Garden! wad do u think?! and it's freaking expensive! for some reason, i'm realli very comfortable around my this buddy... and he smiled a lot today.... i caught him smiling quite a lot of times today... weird... tot he onli know how to niao me all the time.. gotta admit that he has a cute smile.... haha... it's constagious... hm.. it's probably his super highly skilled "niaoing" skills which made us bond so well... and also y i never feel bored with him around.... it's interesting.. becoz i always have to think of some ways to fight back.. but i always lose out in our verbal battle of coz... ya tt's wad keeps us going...

and yes, lastly, Keith... this jack ass... i realli dunno wad to say... just love and hate him so much... i realli felt like giving up hope on this relationship... it's like i have someone by name.. but he's never there for me... he always tells me that he'll call me back.. but he never fulfills his promises... NEVER.... he's so bo chup... how can u not call someone u love and therfore will miss for 5 bloody days?! he says he's tired... he's always tired.. every sat he'll get "sick" dne at noon or nite, he'll be healthy enough to go out with his frens for some reasons... ahh.. i dunno wad to say... perhaps he's realli tired when i'm looking for him... tt's wad i've been telling myself... to make myself feel better.... i'm a leo u see.... when i lose trust, i withdraw my feelings from the relationship.... i dun jump into something i'm not sure of.... it's sad... when u have to retreat like this... hopefully, after this week, when he's not as busy as last week, he'll start to realise tt he have neglected me a lot... and willing to take intiative to spend some quality time with me... i told myself not to give in so much anymore... told myself to be less dependent on him.. told myself that it's alright to be alone.... and if he doesnt look for u, den fine... dun have to look for him... if he doesnt care, he doesnt miss u... why should u?

my oh my... havent blog for so long... sigh... 2 more weeks to alevels... getting pretty scared... and ya.. stress... pimples INFESTING on my poor cheeks... ARGH... i'm freaking ugly now.... if onli i can change my skin like a snake or sth.... just wanna get rid of those read scars... yuck yuck!
just had GP remedial with ms rajan.. hm.. i hope it's good.. better improve my gp a bit more... dun wanna fail in As.... i gotta do two intros.. it better help... well, at least she's willing to spend that few minutes with us...
sigh i'm so bored.... wanna ctahc a movie with keith... but he's so busy... didnt call me for the past 2 days again... but it seems like he's been reaching home very late for the past 2 days... so i guess he has his excuses.. i'm just worried.. wondering y he has to stay out so late.... why are they so mean to my poor Keith...? and me... all becoz of the stupid camp.. whoever who's in charge... i havent been able to see him often.... it sux missing and waiting for someone like tt... but i guess i'm getting used to it.. so it's not that bad.. and i have revision for As to occupy me... in fact, it's chocking me!
i'm realli bored and down these days.. mugging all the time.... but of coz, i always find time to slack whenever i can.... let me see....

ways of destressing which i have tried:
1. one free hair styling for my dog by none other than me!
2. my own hair cut in Fingerworks
3. swimming.. too bad that i was alone.. :(
4. locking myself up and dancing along with the hot music 98.7fm is playing in my bed room
5. doing sit ups oli when i feel like it
6. going online, checking mails and frenster

any better ideas? i dunno wad to do...

hm... i'm slacking again.. feel guilty.. but haiz.. not in the mood... and... hm.. i bought 15 bucks worth of prelims papers just now! crap.. so freaking broke! it better help me get my 3As...

it's hard not to be able to meet him often... but i guess it aint tt bad.. considering tt he still makes an effort to call me evey nite.. even thoguh somtimes it's just for a few minutes... haiz... o well, i've got my As too... so it wont be tt bad... i'm so overwhlemed by all those work already...

alamak.. we dun have a nice photo together... well, we id take some on my birthday.. just realised that i look so ugly in all of them... for him... well, he's cute no matter wad... :P after as, i wanna tke lots of pics with him... flood my imagestation albums with them.. muhaha...

o guess wad... i dun think i'll ba having much fun even after As... i'll be finishing it on 25th nov... but i'll have to go extract 2 teeth on the next morning.. crap! bo guey for one week! no... actualy it's two.. coz i'll have to extract another 2 on the consecutive week... den the following well will be bonding... not sure wad it is yet... but i heard it's like getting my braces on or sth... yucks! it's just pain and mroe pain... wont be having much fun this way... and hopefully i'll feel alright by 13th dec... got softball chalet in sentosa!! yippee!!! tt reminds me... i better have had slimmed down by then.. i'm stagnant!! how?! not losing weight... seems like i'm gaining weight... and my waist.. and thighs are still as fat!! argh!! gross!!! am i fated to look this way forever? well, i feel ok with my present look.. bu i guess everyone is vain huh... i'm sure i'll feel more confident and stuff if i succeed... anyone got good tips? and pls... money saving ones too... hehe :P

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alright... time to blog.... got back all my papers... well, it's pretty sad... didnt reach my target... onli got BBC... and guess wad.... my weakest subject, chem is my best this time. WTH! think i just screwed up the other two.... i noe i could have done a whole lot better... anyway... i think tan was rite... dun think i can handle 4 subjects well... it's like scarificing a bit more time for chem = deproving for maths and physics. i was proud of myself for getting gd results for chem. believe me, i tot i screwed that up too... well, i did here and there.. but it's still a lot better than wad i have expected... better chiong maths and physics too.. especially maths man... how the hell can it be my worst subject?! i screwed up the entire paper.. REALLI... if u're me, u'll understand y.. when u see my paper, u'll faint like how how i felt when i saw those silly careless mistakes i've made... hopefully, A's will be like wad everyone have been saying.. easy enough for u to have time to check thru them... in this way, hopefully i'll onli lose marks becoz i dunno the answers, not becoz of some stupid careless mistakes! it realli sux... especially when u already knew that u have reached a particular standard.. may be not the highest, may be not ur best... but this time round, i've definitely done a lot worse than i could have... TIME TO MUG!!! but screw it... still not in the mood man... i still wanna have fun.. slacked thru today.. it's bad... i need to do something...

hm... next.... settled things between the two of us finally... haiz... just minutes before he called to meet, i tot it was all over.... now i understand.... found out sth new about him... never ever tok to him about anything serious when he's half alseep... he realli ahve no idea wad he said just now... hehe... and he's probabaly very touched to recieve tt book.. muahaha... he said he was speechless... hehe.... i'm glad everything is alright now... just hopes that he can open himself up more... communicate more.... so i can understand him better.... so that things will go smoother from now on....

hm... went out just now... i think i'm beginning to become some kind of a "uncle killer" haha.. realli... those uncles.... they keep looking at me... i dun understand why.... i tot my hair was in a mess.. or may be there's sth wrong with my clothes.. but NO.... everything seems normal when i look into the mirror... weird.... but i dun like the feeling... after all, they are UNCLES... probabaly giving me dirty looks.... yucks!!! walked past a coffee shop just now... u got no idea how much unwanted attention i got! they were looking at me from the time i walk past them till i reached the park opp. even keith noticed it.... den when we went to the coffee shop later for some drinks, those uncles were staring at me again.... WTH! not as if i was wearing anything revealing... not even a spag.. just a hang ten tee and a denim skirt? and it's not short ok! like knee length onli.. if they were my age, i probably wont feel that uncomfortable... better still, if they were good looking.. bleah :P

taht reminds me... i'm happy to be growing up... seems like pple are giving more good comments about me... especially on looks... i used to feel like some ugly duckling... if u noe me since pri sch u would no... those "exploded" curly frizzy hair... dull eyes circled with nerdy spectacles.... totally uncool, quiet and shy type.... almost felt like an outcast.... ya... cant imagine huh? i've changed so much... now to a party animal.... someone who will voice my opinions on almost everything... so straightforward that i'm trying to hold back a little so that i wont be disliked for saying nasty stuff... i've never been son confident about myself... i'm not some pretty gal with an angels's face and a guy-to-die-for body... but i'm certain that i've found somthing unique in me.. my own identity... something that people can see, can feel and like me for... and that makes me unique...

cant wait to club... cant wait to get rid of those fats so i can get a hot bikini and show off in sentosa... muahaha! cant wait to go for my softball chalet in sentosa! cant wait to meet my pri sch frens again... cant wait to get a job... experience and learn new stuff.... cant wait to go overseas.... have fun and have a change of environment... and most of all, cant wait to escape from exams... i like school... except for the examinations...

hiaz... got back bloody maths paper 1 today... sux man... onli got a B a freaking low B! alamak.. i could have gotten more than 10 more marks. and they are not becoz of some freaking careless mistake. it's just that i did 2 bloody questions in a wrong way even though i know how to do the way the teachers wanted them. ARGH!!! WTF! could have gotten A* for it!!! Won't let this happen for A'levels. Man.. this shouldnt happen!!!

hm... looked thru dao's and cc's chem paper3 today.. seems like they realli gotta work a lot harder.. not getting some of the facts right yet... same for me...especially for Group 2 and 7... i sux at that 2 topics. goota do more maths and physics.. think i'm not realli that good in them after all! cant take any risks! I WAN MY 3 As!

O and this reminds me... had a talk on scholarships today... sux man... so unfair. how would i noe that my chances of getting a scholarship is this low when i have onli 3 A levels sub! ARGH.. not as if i havent been doing well in school.... cant be a vet... seems to tough to achieve this goal.... how bout being one of the Charlie's angels? ya u guessed it rite.. policewoman... cool seah! or a teacher... following my mum's footsteps will be cool too.... i like going to her "office". all the sophisicated chemical equipment... well, these are the few careers which i have in mind temporarily... dunno wad to do actually... i dunno wad courses to take in uni too... sigh... guess i should just mug hard now and see wad happens....

hey wad's up with blogger... this is weird.... i couldnt make any new posts at home with my brother's lap top.... after complaining so much to blogger, it seems t be working now.. but i'm in sch comp lab... issit sth wrong with blogger itself or issit just my brother's lap top? weird!
anyway, days without my blog realli sux... so much happened... so much tots.. and i couldnt write all of them down.... ARGH....

anyway, a lot happened... cleared up the mess with dao.. and i'm glad that we're talking in the canteen just now... he looks sad... wonder if i'm over sensitive... but i'm sure he's down.. his eyes... they look teary.... and chunchen... seems like she didnt do well... not tt i did very well, but i guess mine was still ok.... hm.. felt like i should try to do sth to help them... especially since they're my close frens... wonder how i can do tt... becoz in the first place, i'm not very good in chem yet... havent got an A before... i'm not confident enuf to like tutor them.. but i realli wanna help... so wad should i do?

hm.... and tt idiot... o sigh.... i duno... hopefully we'll meet soon.. and clear up all tt mess... he said, "there's no problem".. ya to me... but he dunno how upset i was....have this evil tot.. may be i should let him have a taste of his own medicine huh.... then he'll understand... so frustrating... i'm like how soft hearted! hearing his voice over the phone soften my heart.. wanted to scream into the fone and give him a gd scolding... but... sigh.... almost wanted to end everything... but i couldnt do it...

first day of sch wasnt so bad so far.... met familar faces.. patched up some stuff... and chem is quite ok till now... hopefully my other 2 papers will be better than wad i have gotten back... chua said maths was terrible... sigh... i hope i did ok... i dun wan to be in the "terrible" group... well, maths has always been my stronger subject... so... hm.... if can onli get one A for this prelims, maths should be the onli one....

dad and mom are thinking of going to seattle in late nov to visit aunty.... dad asked me if i wanna go.. think i should go? i wanna travel... but the idea of having them out of town and leaving me home alone seems cool! (evil laughters) ;p u noe wad i'm thinking dun u? if u have read my blog in june, u would understand wad i mean... those two days were proabably oen of the most fun days of my year so far. chiong like siao! muahaha... but if tt's gonna happen in nov, it'll eb after As. i'll be even more carefree by then... will probably try clubbing.. see if i like it... or just chilling out with frens late and nite.. looking forward to feel the nite breeze brushing past my face... if i can spend it with my special someone, tt'll be realli cool!

yippeee!!! main papers are finally over... wad a relief... hm... actually no... it was a nightmare... screwed up every single paper... my oh my.... there goes all my As... if i can get one... think tt's realli good already..... it's like WTH... why set such tough papers?! it's prelims! why? wanna show off to other schools that VJC have very high standard huh? Wad crap... and tt ms tay? cant trust her judgement? u call tt easy?! (roll eyes) easy for u i guess! i'm dead... tt's it...

i dun care... just gonna slack the whole of today and onli start my reviosn for my last 4 papers tml... it doesnt seem to make much a diff anyway! i'm so frustrated...so pissed! hm... so to destress and cheer myself up a little...went to post centre just now.. right after the stupid physics paper... wen to reshape my eye brows... muahah.. the lady called me hairy gal... haha... my eye brows too a bit..erm... i dunno.. too used to my bushy eye brows.. lolz... anyway... then i went 2 storeys doen to singapore's biggest This Fashion!!! woohoo! my eyes must have glowed when i saw those pretty skirts! feel like buying all of them back! ya.. spent at least 1h plus in there... tried at least 8 pieces of skirts and tops! wa all so nice! but i'm so broke! too bad. spent all i had in the end... just bought two skirts... one bubbly greenie and one white, the sweet kind... yeah.... getting more girly nowadays.. i actually like to at dresses too.... quite a few pretty ones... but...eh... i find myself a little mismatch with dresses... haha... not satisfied though.... where's my money?! need more money. need to strike lottery... muahaha.. when i dun even buy any... wan change my wardrobe! byebye old clothes!!!

hey blog.. taking a break from mugging for tml's chem paper3... hm.. freaking out... veryu worried about my chem paper... today's maths... well...ok ba... i would say not as tough as i tot it would be... couldnt do a few qn... but as long as i dun make too mnay careless mistakes, it should be alright.... anyway i still have paper 2 to score with! hehe... hopefully.. :P
hm.. i'm going crazy... he lost his fone and seems to be out of house the whole afternoon. i'm just worried,,, so called him like every few min the whole afternoon... and i dunno wad the hell happen.. my call was diverted? tt was wad was showing on my hp... wad the hell does that mean? anyway, i couldnt reach him the whole afternoon.. tot he say he would call back... i shouldnt take wad he said so seriously huh? i tot he would be very sad and feel lost since he lost his fone. wanted to console him and accompany him.. but.. hm... he seems to be having fun outside... god noes wad he's doing.. never even bother to call me... too overwhelmed by all the fun he's getting probably... wth! i'm freaking out here!!!

"Two rules for stress management: "Rule one: Don't sweat the small stuff. Rule two: It's all small stuff"~ Robert Elliot

"Do not anticipate trouble or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight." ~ Ben Franklin

"Half our life is spent trying to find something to do with the time we have rushed through life trying to save." ~Will Rogers, Autobiography, 1949

"One of the symptoms of an approaching nervous breakdown is the belief that one's work is terribly important." ~Bertrand Russell

"Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency." ~Natalie Goldberg, Wild Mind


"Slow down and everything you are chasing will come around and catch you." ~John De Paola

"Tension is who you think you should be. Relaxation is who you are." ~Chinese Proverb

it seems like i havent blogged for ages... gosh... spend hous doing the maths paper today... sad sad.. onli got a B.. actually i just have too mnay careless mistakes... i'm surprised by the no of questions i cant do too... sigh.. this is not good... i must get a A for maths!!! coz it seems like my best sub so far.... hm... mug more later....

time flies... just a few more days to prelims... panicky!! oops... how do u spell it? muahaha... i'm kinda dead.... feels like i'm not confident enuff to go for prelims yet... dead... i hope i improve like an expotential curve for the next few days... hehe... realli hope so.. o sigh ... i think i'm realli stressed... i've noticed signs of it... emotionally unstable... i can cry whenever i think of sad stuff.. as in realli whenever i wan.. o no.. actually i cant realli control my tears now... and my face? my gosh... i'm so UGLY! all the pimples and scar! this is bad!! anyone have good advice or ideas on how to get rid of them and smoothen my skin? i dun wanna look like an orange! o ya..one more thing... i've been doing sit ups and crunches every nite or morning... start running once a week... but my tummy is still the same... onli the upper adominum seems pretty toned up... anyone? HELP?! went to watsons tt day... there's this slimming product tt cost a bomb.. like $150+... the salesgal says that i can slim off 2 inches in 2 weeks! sounds attractive but... wonder if it's true...and it cost a bit too much for me to try the product...

hm... havent seen him for quite some time... wonder when we'll meet again... i miss u...

hihi blog... sianz.. this is bad.. i'm always staying up this early..lolz... hm.. today's chem prac realli sux... sigh.. i lost a lot of marks... judt did wad i could... and ya forgot to write wad i could have written down too... sigh sigh... better mug hard for the main papers...

hm... a few days ago..some guy call dennis popped out from no where.... he just sms me and said he got my no from the net a few mths ago.. wad crap... so weird.. now den sms me... i've completely forgotten about it... but then again, he must have sth special or said sth tt was close to my heart...i wouldnt have given my no to a stranger for no reasons... o well, we'll see how things go....

hm... tml keith says he's free in the morning... may be meeting for break fast or sth.. after all, we stay so near.. haha can go jalan kayu to have delicious roti prata! hehe... we'll see how tml... who noes.. may be he'll give me some kinda bad news again.... always like tt.. getting used to it.. but still feel very irratted every time.. the feelings of kana pang seh is realli not nice...

anyway, i'm gonna meet cc in compasspoint tml for mugging.. hehe.... sounds cool..cant wait... never realli mugged with her outside before... i hope tml will be a productive day... gotta finihs 4 chem topics in order to catch up! JIA YOU!

hihi bloggie...computer is crazy again.. now gotta use my bro's lap top again... o well..it sux... hm.. spents hours toking to jasper on the fone... searching for help... didnt mug much today again.. just two siple topics..thermo and AC... feel quite guilty....
but actually it was kidna a nice day... sweet in a way... met keith in the morning... ever since then...he seems to be very attached to me... i feel needed...and tt's realli cool...... muahaha... tt's me la..cant help it... he whines like a gal... complains about y i never reply his sms like wad i always do.... haha.... and he's so excited when he sees me... like a whiny little puppy.... :P not sure how things will turn out between us in future.. but rite now..it's cool... :)
back to my studies... realli gotta do a lot of mugging tml...if not i'm realli dead.... haha.... supposed to be a "chao mugger" now..

hi blog.. i'm sad... damn it... why r guys like tt? they give u so much hope for a min.. and the nest min, they drop it all down like from a tall building.. all shattered by the time it reaches the floor... this sux man... i'm "reaching the floor".. have enuff stress.. cant handle this.. i need to run away... all sickening guys BUG OFF! why make things so complex? why play hard to get? ARGHHhhh... saty away if u wanna play such silly games.. i can take up the challenge but i dun have enuff strength and time to do tt now... so BUG OFF! ysys.. the same song is playing in my head....

I've been waiting all day here for you babe
so won't you come sit and talk to me
and tell me how we're gonna be together always
i hope you know that when it's late at night
I hold on to my pillow tight
and think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone) could make me feel this way
(now that you're here boy all I want) is just a chance to say
get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me
it's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
cause I know, about her (move)
and I wonder (why)
how I bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

A human being is only interesting if he's in contact with himself. I learned you have to trust yourself, be what you are, and do what you ought to do the way you should do it. You have got to discover you, what you do, and trust it.
Barbra Streisand (1942 - )

Repetition does not transform a lie into a truth.
Franklin D. Roosevelt (1882 - 1945), radio address, October 26, 1939

A mind troubled by doubt cannot focus on the course to victory.
Arthur Golden, Memoirs of a Geisha

Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.
Alan Watts

All love that has not friendship for its base, is like a mansion built upon sand.
Ella Wheeler Wilcox, O Magazine, February 2004

Sometimes when you look back on a situation, you realize it wasn't all you thought it was. A beautiful girl walked into your life. You fell in love. Or did you? Maybe it was only a childish infatuation, or maybe just a brief moment of vanity.
Henry Bromel, Northern Exposure, The Big Kiss, 1991

havent come online at such a "early time" for pretty long time... man... i hate mugging... but well, i'm kinda on the rite track now... at least i am improving..can sit and mug for 2 hours now...
sianz.. i'm kinda sick of my blog skin already... but it's still SOOO CUTE!!! hehe :P wen to blogskin.com to look at new skins... but nah... there were a few pretty nice ones.. but not impressive enuff..not "me" enuff... perhpas i shall learn how to make my own after Alevels..

read efei's blog again just now... somehow i still think of him sometimes... it's like.. he still holds a place in my heart.. afterall, he's the first guy whom i have mutual feelings for at the same time... i dun like to run away from my problems... dun like to let time "dissolve" them.. it;s still there isnt it? u noe it... when efei told me tt he prefers to stay as frens and isnt sure of his feelings for me anymore, i forgot to ask him why tt happened so suddenly... WHY? it's kinda unfair isnt it? the qn still bothers me now and then.. whenever i think of him... i guess tt's probably the main reason why i still think of him when i already knew it's close to impossible for us to be together....

got a message from jimmy in frenster too... are we still frens? i dunno... actually i'm afriad of seeing him again... i wan to keep a distance... and i realli mean a distance... he's like realli changed... and i onli noe of the bad part...so ya... look at his frens list.. it's like soft porn... my oh my... but i guess he's becoming more concerned of his studies now... asked me how i deal with my studies and stress from it... ya..i gave him some tips..hope it'll help him.. anyway diff study methods work for diff pple..so i'm not sure if it works for him anyway...

hm.. and keith... didnt hear from him tonite... surprisingly realli sad... i could scream and shout into his ears... punch him like a punching bag if he's here now... but well.. he's sad... tt's wad he claims... i wonder y he's sad? screwed up driving test again? try again den... life is full of failures.. we just have to learn from them, learn from our mistakes and come back stronger to fite back even harder... wad's wrong with failing? and sometimes i wonder, if he knows about my blog, do he read it? i hope my previous blog didnt make him sad... well, tt's if he read it... but it's realli wad i feel sometimes... all tt stress... cant handle it soemtimes... i am strong willed, stubborn by nature... softball made me a more determined gal... but ya... soemtimes i still feel weak... feel like i need someone or sth to pull me up and share some of my problems... ya tt's proabably when i feel like i need love... the need to be protected and pampered... o well, keith... if u do read my blog... i meant wad i've been telling u... and there's more to why i havent said yes.... so many doubts... i'm scared...

Oh my.. i just looked at my own blog... jus realised how long i havent blogged! haha.. taking a break from mugging chem now... i'm trying to get up my "mugging mountain"... moutain..coz it's gonna be a high peak , higher than Mt Everest when i take my Alevels... haha... hope so...

hm... cleared my GP Prelims yesterday... i wa so scared.. coz i havent been doing well ever since i step into VJC.. i'm not a language person u see... such stuff doesnt come naturally to me... i spent my whole sunday trying to read about sci & tech... well, i guess it's worth it... i may not score well for laguage.. but i'm pretty sure i have lots of examples to support my arguments.. well, provided the arguments are rite of coz... :P It was a tough paper1 like wad ms rajan said..but i guessed it was "difficult" in a good way.. coz i have onli 1 question that i'm very sure i could write on.. haha...didnt spend much time trying to figure out which to write on... coz i dunno how to write for the other 11... not a single bit on them... muahaha... and the compre? oh my... i'm so dead... i didnt even realli understand some of the questions.. cham cham!!

o... just read yufee's blog too.. my god... he's in his 3rd phase for revision?!!! i just started!! *faint
stress man... i just wish to clear prelims with at least a B for 2 of them and a A for probably maths or physics... must mug hard for physics and chem after prelims... they're still not as stable as maths... especially my chem... alamak... like quadratic curve... up and down.. have max and min.... hm.. probably becoz i just started studying, i still feel like i'm lost... not sure if i can finish everything before prelims itself starts...

ya.. den comes stuff tt shouldnt be bothering me now... tt's love... cant help it.. i'm a drama queen, an attention seeker.... cant live without all the attention i need.. and ya.. love... sigh... things get more complex when u grow older... now i understand why my mum wanted me to go to a gal sch and hopefully be free from all the love prob i may get... and may be tt's y... i cant handle this prob now... i've never experienced such a thing before... all my ex or pple who had feelings for me, are not from my sch... they're my outside sch frens.... it's like u dun get to see the person day in day out... some things are simpler that way... and now... i feel like i've lost a good fren... we cant talk like before... he's so cold to me when we chat in msn... or at least i tried... it feels weird when we go out like for lunch in a group... we tok to everyone else in the group except each other... WHY? this sux man... it sux to lose a fren... i hate tt... i should have kept a distance in the first place... to avoid such stuff from happening if i knew it would turn out this way... i would rather keep a life long fren den to lose one this way...

CC told me yesterday about their little chat... Have he ever popped the question? NOT tt i noe of... How do a guy jio a gal? i'm sorry to say this.. but it's a very normal thing for me to go for a movie with a guy fren alone... it can be "no strings attached"... cant' it? Is it realli fair to blame me for not giving u a chance? Is it fair to blame Keith for swaying my heart towards him? How much do u noe about me? about keith? about wad and how much keith has done for me and to win my heart? It's probably becoz it's ur first time... probably becoz u havent gone out with a ger fren alone.... probably becoz u dun understand enough wad a gal needs from her guy and hence how to win her heart... i dun bame u.. but dun blame me for wadever stuff u r disapointed or angry with.. neither should u be blaming Keith... he noes bout u too.. but all he's doing or more like trying to do is to have faith in himself, to do his stuff, do his best to win my heart.. and ya.. i admire tt... and u? sigh... becoz of the way this is going, i'm glad that sch has ended... study break has started... at least we wont see each other so often.. can avoid those weird embarassing moments...

and keith... ya.. he's doing his thing.. getting sweeter day by day... besides all his sweet talking, he's trying to prove himself with actions too... making little scarifices... bla bla... hm.. i like tt... but then again... not onli towards him... ever since i broke up with jimmy... ever since efei wanted to be frens onli after giving me so much hope... i've lost trust in love... plus the upcoming prelims and Alevels, i'm afraid of giving up my heart again, with the risk tt it may be crushed some day... if tt happens, i'll be a goner... i'll lose faith in love again.. lose my self esteem tt took lots of effort and years to build up... lose my confidence... lose my trust for guys out there.. and to worst is to do badly for my A levels... nono.. i wont let tt happen.... sigh... may be i'm better off alone... but... argh...

I've been waiting all day here for you babe
so won't you come sit and talk to me
and tell me how we're gonna be together always
i hope you know that when it's late at night
I hold on to my pillow tight
and think of how you promised me forever
(I never thought that anyone) could make me feel this way
(now that you're here boy all I want) is just a chance to say

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me
it's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone
cause I know, about her (move)
and I wonder (why)
how I bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

tell me why you're looking so confused
when I'm the one who didn't know the truth
how could you ever be so cold?
to go behind my back and call my friend
boy you must've gone and bumped your head
because you left her number on your phone
(so now after all is said and done)
maybe I'm the one to blame but
(to think that you could be the one)
well it didn't work out that way

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me
it's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone (you to be gone)
cause I know, about her (move)
and I wonder (why)
how I bought all the lies (all the lies)
you said that you would treat me right (you said that you)
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time) I

wanted you right here with me
but I have no choice, you've gotta leave
because my heart is breaking with every word I'm saying,
boy I gave up everything I had
on something that just wouldn't last
but I refuse to cry no tears will fall from these eyes (ohh, ohh)
get out!

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me (you and me)
it's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone (you to be gone)
cause I know, about her (move)
and I wonder (why)
how I bought all the lies (how did buy all your lies?)
you said that you would treat me right (you said that you)
but you was just a waste of time (waste of time)

get out (leave) right now
it's the end of you and me (hey yeah)
it's too late (now) and I can't wait for you to be gone (you to be gone)
cause I know, about her (move)
and I wonder (why)
how I bought all the lies
you said that you would treat me right (treat me right)
but you was just a waste of time (ooh)

get out (leave)
(you and me) it's too late (now)(too late) (you)
about her (move)(why)
you said that you would treat me right
but you was just a waste of time(waste of time) (ohh)
Leave!

yeah.. my comp has finally recovered.. all thanx to my mummy... so smart! hm... i think i better not d/l any more stuff from the net.. if not my comp will kana virus again... hm... it's week 8! 4 more weeks to the main papers of prelim..and i havent realli started studying yet... i'm so dead! i hope everything turn out well...
hm... so.. havent blogged for soem time again... o well.... let's reflect back..
o ya..on my bdae... hm.. it wasn't exactly a good day... firstly, i had a bloody physics test early in the mroning which i couldnt finish! i guessed even if i could, it wouldnt make much a difference, considering tt i didnt know how to do so much stuff...
hm... hm met Keith... and ya.. as usual late again! but it wasnt so bad since i was in shopping mood... but too bad didnt get to buy anything... hm... o and he treated me to Kenny Rogers... i was kinda blur coz it was my first time eating at Kenny Rogers.. too paiseh... didnt wanted to admit or show my "sua-kuness" so i asked him to help me make my orders.. and Xinglong called just in time to wish me happy bdae.. haha... he saved my day.... hm... i was so shocked when i saw tt tiny small piece of black pepper chicken on my plate! the side orders like coleslaw and mashed potatoes filled more than half of the 3/5 of the plate! 0_o i tot it was kinda pathetic.. but well, i still cant finish all tt food... i was like half filled when i finsihed half the coleslaw..
hm.. den we watched collateral.... hm...not bad..bout not a "wow"... o ya.. we managed to sneak up tto the couch seats which cost twice of tt of a normal seat... hehe.. was realli comfy....
after tt, we went to sky garden.. took some photos there... haha... funny photos and of the beautiful scenery there... O! den we to the singapore Pools branch near my house to buy 4-D! hehe... wa so sad..i almost strike 4-D ... the winning no is mine jumbled up! anyway, it was a good start... hehe.. means i'm kinda lucky heh? shall buy more :P
hm... den at nite.. went to chomp chomp to have my fav prawn mee!!!! :p~ haha.. o ya... and as usual the sugar cane drink uncle gave us free drinks... :P
and on sat..well, couldnt meet xinglogn as planned coz my mum wanted to bring us to queensway to buy shoes... ya.. i'm wearing them now... a lto cheapr than other places.. good buy... haha..sorry xinglong..... but at least i know tt u remembered.. it's the tot tt counts... :)
o and i met his frens in queensway instead.. ian and josh.. so surprised... yup yup...
eh...ok.. time to do maths tutorial..byeeeee!!!

yea yea.... it's wednesday... actually it's gonna be quite a stressful week... have two bloody lecture assesment this week! AH! i'm gonna faint! i still have four topics... 2 to complete on each of the next two days... alamak.... HOW? HOW? i'm still struggling.. but i guess i shant be too bothered if i can finish them..after all, prelims and alevels are all tt realli matters.... i'm studying for them not just tt two bloody test!
hm... just had quite a long chat with Ms Rajan about my testimonial... it was pretty cool... havent tok to a teacher for tt long before.... hm... i belive wad i wrote should be pretty useful to her.. despite all my crappings which made it three pages long! haha.... i like to tell pple about myself! :P
o ya.. yesterday xinglong sms me... haha wad a surprise.. and he wants to bring me out for dinner! hehe... realli looking forward to fri coz it's my birthday! i'm glad that my frens remember... fri celebrate with keith in the afternoon, nite with family... and sat with xinglong! haha...sounds like a great weekend... anymore presents that i should be expecting from anyone?! :P bleah.. i'm excited huh? :P i'm happy! not becoz i'm gonna get treated.. it's becoz i know that i have true frens... good frens who still remember me after not contacting frequently for so long...
ciao blog! miss u... and will visit u more often when my STUPID comp has recovered!

O fuck! i'm stuck at home.. wanted to go play pool this afternoon... damn it.. my mum didnt allow me and my bro to go out... and she was god damn angry!? angry for wad seah! i cant believe it..
i cant stya at home and mug all the time! ok.. ya... perhaps i didnt exactly study a lot...but i did! and it's a holiday!!!! argh..... and she probabaly think that i didnt study for god noes how many days becoz she didnt see me study! argh!!!!! so irritating!!!!
and becoz she was so angry... i dun dare to ask her if i can go to the pasar malam.... there's this skirt i wanted to buy last nite... but i gave myself a day to consider again... so tt i wont regret buying it after tt.... and guess wad! i'm stuck at home!!!! argh!!! sux to the power of sux.. and ya.. my parents and grannies are having so much fun! playing mahjong! crap! den why keep me at home when i've got nth to do! i'm so going nuts... i need a punching bag!!!!
fuck fuck fuck! i hate staying at home! i hope she's not going to take leave on tue... it's realli going to be the worst 4 days this year! it's a torture! it's hell!

dao says my blog is very sad and moody... issit realli tt bad? i guess it's sth that gives me space to reflect on my day... complain about stuff...and bla bla... and most of the time, wad i write here are wad i felt at that moment... it may not be so at other times... i dun realli bother whther pple read my blog.. i'm sure there are a few regulars.... but well, y should i hide anyhthing?
hm... anyway, i went swimming yesterday.. for the first tiem in my life alone in the pool! it wasnt tt bad... it was so damn bloody crowded... i had to walk along the sides of the pool so that i could find some space away from the crowd... and ya.. now i understand why soem guys like to go swimming... not onli for exercise... the bonus is that u get to see babes in bikinis... well, there were onli 2... with not so wow figures... but hehe... i bet the guys were nose bleeding.. :P and ya.. there were so many guys sun tanning.... the healthy tanned sporty type tt i like.. my kind... :)~ ok..just kidding... perhaps i shall go sun tanning like those guys one of these days... and i think my face is a little more tanned after tt swim... 10 laps!! never realli swam so much before... becoz ost of the time, i hit the pool with either my frens or fmaily.. never alone.... and ya.. we ende up chatting and playing around... hm.. i hope it helps... i still think tt i'm growing a little fatter... :P my face is rounder... and my waist? ah..tt's the worst part.... i hate it... like a big bucket!
the last time i went to watsons, this salesgal introduce me to some kind of slimming gel... she showed me some newspaper reports of how effective the product is... i wonder if it's reliable... it's 90 bucks! so ex.. wonder if i should get it...

hohoho... i havent blogged for like so long... too bad comp crashed...so shitty.... ya so i'm using the school's one now.... anyway, went to hcjc fun fair on saturday.... it was ok... except that the food was...erm... not very edible... ahnd the nacho cheese..alamak... the cheese was like water.... almost tasteless! luckily i had meisiang with me.... ya.. realli appreciated her company... and i sae jieli and his crush... hehe.... :P actually they make quite a gd pair... but too bad.. i herad his date was pretty short.... o ya... but of coz... i saw quite a few of our rival team.... especiallt the guys... so act seh... must wear jersey somemore.... but haha... ya la.. like me la.. proud of their achievements, their school and themselves... even though they didnt win the title.. :P .... o ya.. i was hoping to find out and see who's they guy who wanted my no.. but too bad huh.. i didnt even noe wad's his name... well, i have no intentions to apprach him or wadever... just wan to noe how the 2nd guys who ever asked for my contacts in my life, looks like.. :P
o crap... i havent even catch brotherhood... and it's already august... shitty.... gotta start to mug!

hi bloggie... i'm pissed... i dun realli noe y... yesterday nite had a long chat with K.... was trying to help him find his virus scan programme... seems like he's realli a computer idiot... anyway, our cht didnt end well.. i hung up after he said some stuff which was offending in a way.... now tt i've sort of cooled down... he's actually rite about some stuff.. just tt pple of my age..or should i say pple around me so far has not been so open and vocal about such stuff that they can tok about such things so openly... i was so angry... so angry tt he saw me like the so called bitches he have met... or perhaps not..beoz tt's wad i assumed... i'm quite confused.... it's weird... why do guys treat gals like gems for a moment and dirt the other moment? if u realli like someone, would u treat someone like tt? i'm such an attention seeker.... even though i may not like him the same way as he claims he does for me, i enjoy all tt attention so much.... getting obsessed with it... and getting affected when i lost the attention.. ya like now... he hasnt replied my sms...i've sent 4! wth... i wont beg.... dun even dream of it.. but then again, is he also offended by my replies? hm.. i wonder... may be i'm in the wrong....

hi bloggie... havent posted anything for so many days... hm.. my comp crashed AGAIN! WTH! it's stupid... lousy comp tt get infected by god noes wad so easily...  i'm never ever gonna d/l anything the next time i use that comp...
just read efei's blog... ya... agree with him... agree with jieli... wonder why am i so curious about other pple's life... wad about mine? how often do i reflect on my own? actually i like reading other's blog... i like to read my own and laff at the silly things i wrote in the past few mths... hm... i wonder how many pple read my blog..bugt i'm sure there are a few regulars.... i guess i read my fren's blog becoz i care... because i wan to noe how they are doing.. becoz i miss some of them... becoz i dun wan to ask them personally how they're doing... may be becoz i just wan to support them, to be there for them without them knowing... things seem to be much simpler this way...
 
just read the forwarded email efei posted... ya it struck me too... my love life is realli in a mess now... somehow it's just so weird.. things which u long for them to happen dun happen they way u wan it to be... things which u least expect and not wan them to happen just happens so... ok..yes this is confusing... well... my love life is so too... i didnt want to get close to any other guys...as in, just to prevent myself from falling in love or the guy from developing feelings for me... i have my As... i need to concentrate...i noe tt very well and i have constantly reminded myself... den the wrong stuff start to happen... first i met a guy, E who was so perfect..."was"... yes was... unbelievably, i fell in love with him onli after meeting him for the second time... and yes.. it was mutual... the first time such miracle happen on me... but this dream was so short... too bad...i realli like him a lot... but it was just a crush to him... and yes... just as his frens have commented... not sure if he also feels so for other gals..but ya... his feelings for me died just after tt few weeks... crap.. it was so disappointing.... the story from the forwarded email reminded me.... tt perhaps i still have feelings him.. it's like on and off... just realised it was never gone... should i tell him tt i still have feelings for him? or should i just keep quiet... hide in the dark adn be there for him if he ever calls for my help? it's unfair...his heart is still with her... no one can take her place... j j j forever... i'm so jealous... but it no longer matter tt much... becoz i wan him to be happy.... it's ok tt i am jealous.. it's ok tt i'm sad.... jus as long as he's happy...

ok..well, den comes another one, L... whom i had no intention to get close to... it's so stupid? i dunno how to describe it... jus unwanted attention.... just didnt wan anyone to like me..to woo me... just felt tt i rather be alone...ya..i rejected him... he's definitely not the guy i'm looking for...so ya... incidentally there's another D whose birthday falls on the same day as the previous... ya...he likes me too..for some reason.. i dunno y... it realli makes me wonder... am i tt pretty? am i tt attractive? am i tt good? why? why are these guys falling for me? are they realli serious when they say they like me? or issit a crush like the first? wad a pity... i'm not perfect... i'm nice..but i'm not tt nice... have u all seen the ugly side of me? would u still like me if u have seen tt side of me?

hm well... I didnt reject D..neither did i accept him.. well, he didnt ask...so... hm... tt's gd in a way.. becoz i have no answers... i dunno y... it's so complicated... he's a good fren... and becoz of how we're related, i guess i would rather to keep things the way they are... like in the past... may be becoz we see each other so often... i'm afraid of facing things if we ever have any problems if we do get together.. things may turn out to be very ugly... well, at least for me.. i noe myself pretty well... i'll turn things reali sour...so ya... better not.. at least not now... and yes, i feel guilty... somehow sth tells me tt i should let D noe about ther other guys in my life... like a sense or responsibility... but another advises me not to... coz it';ll make him sad.. and i hate to do tt...i've made guys sad...too many... i had enuff....

hm... den... comes K.... somehow for some reasons, he's also "fond" of me... i quote from wad he said... i'm realli puzzled.... y me? wad's so good about me? i dunno K well...so i always avoid him from poping the question... so ya.... and yes... he pissed me off a few times... my patience and EQ are developing well.. haha...

ai ya.. crap... wad is this... all these happens in such a short period! why? why? why? am i too nice to guys? do i open myself too much? but i'm like tt... i'm straight forward.. tt's the way i am... i say wad i feel... i care for my frens... and yes... i show it... cant realli put it to words.. but i show it with my actions... hm.. may be i should not be so nice to guys huh? den perhaps such stuff wont happen.. at least not so many!

Listening to : Leave (Get out) by jojo
Mood: Fucking confused...lost...
Why this colour? suits my mood...

o u noe wad?  there was these lesbian couple on the bus just now... my god..i think the kissed in front of me.. i wanna puke! so disgusting! but the passive side one is quite chio..and her hair so seh... but too bad she's a les..ok...gd.. this proves tt i'm not a bi... muahaha... i once suspected so...
o... and den when i was walking home from the bus stop, i walked past the stadium... there were two idiots exercising in the stdium under the hot sun! as in realli hot!!! i think i'll be barbecued if i were them... think they're trying to sun tan their body or sth..and they wore real short shorts... haha.. their butts are gonna be so white!!! but they got gd body u noe? so well built.. got well toned and well built muscles but not too big.... SEXY!! :P

sorry zhicheng and chongyee... i didnt mean to delete ur comments... well, i just felt that wad i wrote yesterday isnt all true... as in.. i dun think i realli feel so... so well ya... i'm quite fickle minded now ... or should i say confused? hm... anyway, it's gd tt i'm taking As this year...coz i can concentrate on it.. ut my head into the books..and i'll be free from all the worries i have....
hm... i miss sushi! SAKAE, WHERE ARE U?!!!!

o crap! i'm sick again! wth... i think i was sick like a mth ago too... weak weak! must be the lack of exercise! i better start to do more! tml hopefulyl i wont be too sick..den may be cab go for a light jog since i'm having flu... bought runing pants today.. so cheap.. haha.. but my legs look so fat.. nono.. not "look".. they are.... but nvm..it'll be my motivation to continue jogging and doing sit ups so tt can get a nice stomach and legs and will be able to flaunt them after As in sentosa beach :P i'm so envious of all those beach babes.... crap... all got good figure... argh.... can someone help me get rid of my fats?!!! lolz... o well.... let's just try to cure my irritating flu for now....
hm... i just talked to meisiang just now... she asked me to buy coupons from her... for hcjc's funfair... hehe... yeah... can go ka jiao her again... and yes.. jieli asked me to be his spare tyre.. just in case, his "dream gal"cant make it... :P see i'm such a gd fren heh? but i dun wan to be a lite bulb...so asking cheryl to go... i hope the funfair is good... coz hcjc are kinda known for nerds huh? as in there r gals and guys who r not bad looking.. but there are also a lot of nerds.. muahaha... i hope to see some softballers... smile at those whom i like and diao those tt irritate me to the core until my eyes almost pop out! :P muahahaha... may be tt coach will be there..i hope... den i can stare at him and give him the "cao bin" all i wan! irriating arrogant b****** ..... :P sigh tml got tuition again.. hm... i shall break the good news to suan jin... actually got a B without mugging as hard as i could have...
anyway.. it sux knowing tt i've lost my drive to study... reading the notes or just merely seeing alpahbets on paper make me feel dizzy, feel tired... feel like sleeping... o crap.. wad's happening? better find it back now... i need to start studying soon...

a day of slacking again...
 
I feel so guilty... havent gone to school for like almost 2 days... haha... and dunno wad's going on in school... and when i'm  at home, i'm online most of the time.. writing to u, my dear blog... looking for new and interesting websites to visit.. o man... i got no mood to study at all... i cant keep my eyes on the notes or books without my eyes getting tired and closing slowly eventually after a while... tutorials? too lazy to do... o no.. this is bad... my life lacks of sth... sth to make me happy and cheerful all the time... so that i'll be in the mood for almost everything.. including mugging! haha... perhaps i need sth new in life.. like a new hobby or a new goal? hm.. becoming like a lot of my frens around me... minor depression? or i dunno wad.. just lost tt "push" to study harder.... ok... time for dinner! steam boat! yummy! buai.... 

haiz sianz...i was all prepared for my teeth extraction.. the dentists and doctor are all so blur... just came back from the dental visit... the doctor say my anchor teeth has some problem.. need to go for dunno wad treatment.. alamak... and the appointment for the treatment is like almost amth later.. 3 days before my bdae.. wad crap... den i got to wait for like 3 to 6 mths before my teeth can be extracted and start having my braces on... and u noe wad? the extraction is not done at one go... he says he's gonna extract 2 on the right and put on braces for the back teeth first den do the same for the left... omg!!! i'm getting "immune" to the fear of dental visits... i can stare at the dentist when he's opearing on my teeth now.. haha... i hope all these trouble is worth it..
and the other thing... i'm feel realli guilty for spending so much of my parents' money... gotta realli thank my mum... even though we are very different in certain perspective of life, proabbaly due to generation gap, i could feel her love for me from all that she has done for me... thanx ma... and yes, i will take care of u when u r old... hehe...
o ya.. we had a little chat during lunch... she said she told my dad i could be a gd policewoman in future... muahaha.. tt's very suprising... i've never tot of that before... me? a policewoman? well, i agree with her tt i'm probably suitable for the job because i can be very fierce and a naturally active person... haha... actually it's pretty cool eh? my ambition was to be a vet... but it seems a bit too difficult to achieve it now.. coz singapore has no such courses and going overseas will mean tt i have to spend a lot of my parents'money again... may be it'll be a gd idea like wad my mum say... study hard and get a scholarship... from police? haha... let's visualise me in the navy blue uniform... wa... sounds cool leh... haha... but i wont wan to be some patrol police... wondering around int the car, only to settle minor household problems.. so sianz... how bout CID? haha.. cool seah.. but working hours will be so "off"! i am a family person.. wan to be a gd mum, be very close to my kids and hubby and take gd care of them in future... but tt doesnt mean i wan to be a housewife! NO WAY!

The LEO  July 23 - Aug. 22

Generous, Warmhearted, Creative, Enthusiastic, Broad-Minded, Expansive, Faithful and Loving

Pompous, Patronizing, Bossy, Interfering, Dogmatic and Intolerant

Leo's charisma and innate ability to lead guarantee they will almost always be at center stage--a place where they love to be. Leos are so full of warmth and optimism it is impossible to not find their company pleasurable. Fearless, powerful and dignified by nature, Leos make great leaders. The force of their will guarantees any task they tackle will be completed. While they may seem domineering, even despotic at times, their goal is always to ensure the well being of all those in their kingdom. Ever-confident Leos are also creative, idealistic and have an indefatigable lust for life. When leadership is required, a Leo is what is needed. They will get the job done right and on time. Leos also have a talent for bringing the very best out in those around them. Warm-hearted Leos love to have fun, and will go out of their way to make sure those around them are having fun too! Leos love games of all kinds. They are risk takers and will plunge into new ventures on impulse, confident their talents will ensure success. Strong and honorable, optimistic and fun, few will find the Leo's charms easy to resist.

The Leo In Love:When in love, Leo's love of fun is only outdone by the romantic in them. They are faithful lovers with a passion that may seem too hot to handle! Leos may not always be willing to try new things which did not spring from their own fantasies, but a clever lover may slowly introduce new methods of expressing love to their relationship. Once the Leo realizes they are fun they will be won over.Leos sometimes cling to bad relationships because their egos will not allow them to admit they may have made a mistake. Also, being forever optimistic, it is impossible for a Leo to see any problem as insurmountable.Overall, the Leo will prove to be a wonderful mate. Their love of children makes them a natural parent. They are generous, warm and truly want the best for everyone. Their loyalty and sense of honor makes it unlikely they will be indiscrete.

Famous Leos Include:Mae West, Napoleon Bonaparte, Andy Warhol, Simon Bolivar, George Bernard Shaw, Maxfield Parish, Omar Khayyam, Peggy Fleming, Carl G. Jung, Stanley Kubrick, Mick Jagger, Jackie Onaissis, Charles Schwab, and Arnold Schwarzenegger

Ideal Jobs Include:Leos are well-suited to be managers, architects, inventors, teachers, athletes and presidents.

Lucky Numbers:5, 14, 13, 32, 41, 50

Planet: The Sun

Star Stone: Ruby

Element: Fire

Most Compatible With: Sagittarius or Aries

Leo by Heather07/16/2004
Release self-defeating beliefs about your ability to accomplish goals and nurture your heart’s true desires. You must choose this positive outlook and share it with others. If you feel fatigued, understand that there is a tremendous force operating in the unseen in your life that’s pushing things to the surface for you so that you can shed what is no longer needed and move into the future lighter and more free. You have to feel and accept these changes from within, however, before they can come into form.

Leo by Heather07/15/2004
As you get in touch with your feelings around how your proceeding with your new work goals, refuse to buy into any fear or doubt related to your progress. You’re doing a wonderful job and your energy will be better spent affirming that than looking things over with a critical and fearful eye. Nurture yourself and seek to dismantle the internal voices that keep you operating in fear. There’s no place for that where you’re headed.

why must things get so complicated? i'm a simple gal... just wan to live in a simple world... fairy god mother, pls helps me find my answers before giving me anymore suprises... i rather stay in the dark before i find the lite which will stay bright forever and allow me to see the path in front clearly so that i can choose the rite one.... this is taxing... i hate to hurt another person... the phobia, the wound in my heart has not healed. i dun wan to pass this to anyone else.... show me to my answers before u create any mroe challenges for me...

o crap..sucky day.... one of my filing from my teeth drop out.... it feels disgusting...i was eating pokky u noe? is pokky tt hard? alamak..i faint... made an appointment with the dentist tml..must go dental centre again...get it done, especially before i extract my 4 precious teeth to prepare for braces... ya which remind me, counting down to 2 more days before they will be taken away... ahh!!! so sad.... hm... means tml and fri dun need to go to sch liao... haha shiok... i hope i dun miss too much stuff.. no...or may be i should go for first two lessons as long as it's not GP...haha...

Ahh.... wad am i gonna do?! he jus confronted to me before dinner! I'm lost... i knew it was coming.. have been suspecting that sth different is happening... o no... actually i should count myself lucky huh? but... i dunno.. just unsure of my feelings... and it's sort of like the first time such a thing fall on me u noe... dunno how to handle it... gosh... o man... wth.... now i'm kinda like confused.... perhaps i should give myself mreo time to think about this... like wad the cleo magazine said.... if i noe myself better, things would be much easier...

hihi blog.. managed to find a little time for u today... gosh i've been sleeping realli late these few days... wonder y... pimples are starting to grow... as in realli a lot...sux..spoil my face.. wanted to take pic before i extract my 4 teeth on fri... bo gey!!!! ahhh!!! i dun feel like going to sch next week man... wth..so ugly!!!
i just read efei's blog... he dreamt about j... somehow i felt a tiny bit of jealousy... crap.. why do i feel so? tot i got over it...
read Cleo today... pris's... i always believed in horoscopes.. it said sth like i shouldnt jump into any relationships now until 10th of aug.... becoz i'm a little obsessed with such stuff now.. obsessed? wad do u means obsessed? but somehow it's true..as in..i dun feel tt i'm ready for a new one now... i'm not suer of my feelings..not sure of eveything in my life now...so much stress from so many thing.. sch.... future education..bla bla...

hihi blog..wanted to write yesterday but didnt have the time.. i was so sleepy... *yawnz... well.. anyway, got back all my papers... chem is gd..kao..better than my physics..wad is this... haha..but it's gd.. means suanjin's tuition session is proven to be effective! hehe.... but still jealous of tt eugene la...piangz..study a week of two get 2As and 1 B..smart ass.... i also want to be one!!!
hm..o ya.. i remembered wad i wanted to write yesterday... i saw Kenny on Sat, the charity busking day in Plaza Sing... felt awkward coz we used to be realli close... and he was with this senior... erm..quite a well-known ex SC...no idea wad's her name... hm.. he have great dress sense..liked his shirt... but erm...somehow..i dunno... just felt weird on the whole.... not as in becoz i havent got over everything..it was so so long ago... haha.. never expected to see him there i guess...
anyway.... recently, fairy god mother have brighten up my life again... not sure if wad's happening yet..coz all seems too abrupt... like jus with a twirl of her magic wand... may be becoz it was so sudden.. i still dunno how to handle the situation... i dunno wad to do... haha..we'll see wad happens next....

o man... today was a super tiring day... haha..went to support VJ's first charity busking! watched quite a few performances... quite sad..coz it was drizzling... so i guess we weren't able to raise as much money as we could have... i like rouge's dance.. haha... so cool..i wished tt i could dance as well too.. like honey... u noe? the main character in the movie HONEY? she's like so pro! she's HOT!!! haha... she can come up with dance moves so easily..from watching pple playing bball and kids skipping.. wa pro! haha...so envious...
ok anyway, poor dao had to accompany window shopping... he said he has never walked so much continuously before..muahaha..eh..gd excercise leh.... tt's y gals have nice butts... :P yup... o ya...n i think i u put dao in orchard, he'll get lost... thank god..i can still make out my way... muahaha... relaised tt i'm much more familiar with orchard now... so sad...i didnt get to buy anything..no clothes..no bags.. no money!! tt's y... clothes r ex.... things which i like r at least $30.. haha..expensive taste... not as bad as Bernard... after hearing wad cheryl said...

o crap... i was looking thru university of washington's reply to my query on overseas study... it's super ex..my god... and wad must have gre... got interview... and they onli take in 100?! my god... wad's gre? sat? yuck yuck... den must write some stupid essay.... may be i should just stay in sg n just get a prof degree... den i can still see my frens and family..feel safe and secure in sg... the most stay in the hostel..still can come back like every weekend...meet my family, have a nice dinner...bla bla...

hi yo... man got back physics today... wow mcq was gd... only got 2 wrong out of 20! but then... i totally screwed up sect C which is the essyas... i failed!!! my gosh! how can i fail essay.. and those qn on forces?! i cant do a single bit at all! so screwed! i ebtter mug more on tt.... tyco..still can get a half B.. half becoz if i round up it'll be a B... hehe... quite sad leh..used to get a A..or a high B...kao... and tt eugene...so smart! wth... say never study den get 2 As already... i'm so jealous...
o ya... tml there's charity busking... i shall go meet dao n may be some otehr frens.. go support ms rajan... take lots of pics..before next fri... when 4 of my teeth will be extracted.. AGAIN!!!! n i'll be bo gey for like a week! ah..so ugly!! tt's the price i ahve to pay to have nice teeth and look prettier...:P
wa.. my english is quite poor..as compared to soem of my frens... so terrible for a jc gal... look at my blog..do u see chim words at all? i just read my junior's.. especially candice... realli nice.. coz she expressed her feelings very well.. ya..with all tt chim words... bleah...so sianz... how to do well for my GP?
anyway, tt day i just looked thru some websites of uni which offers vetinary courses...dunno if u call them tt... anyway...it's not very helpful..i noe nuts about studying in US... i dunno anything about the schools to... which is good? which one can i get in with my grades? if not ai ya.. just stay in sg n mug like a typical local uni student... anyone noes? help me leh....