Life is...

NOT all about mugging..
I've been slogging in my books for coming to 14 years..
throwing almost everything aside during examination periods..
yesterday afternoon, i saw my dear doggie n suddenly realise one of the things i haven been missing out..
my dearest pet dog, manling has been staying with us for almost 13 years..
yes, tt's 91 doggie years..
can u imagine how old she is already?
she was having some problems with closing her jaws..
it looked like she was shivering...
i stopped and tried to have a good look at her...
and was shocked to see how much she has aged...
still bubbly and almost as active as before, i never realised tt she was so old..
probably becoz of her jaw problems, the fur below her mouth were all wet and stained brown with saliva..
her black round eyes were beginning to coat with this extra layer..
which explains her recent occasional bumpings with the legs of the chairs..
her fur were still white but dull...
it saddens me to see her age so much..
the tot tt she might not be living for long struck me..
and i couldnt help but cry and hug her tightly in my arms..
n the reason y i love her so much is becoz she seems to understands us, humans quite well..
she seemed to understand y i was crying..
she started licking my hand when i was hugging her..
n when i looked at her, i saw these consoling eyes looking back at me..
she was also sniffing around my face and almost licked me there..
haha.. eww...
it just makes me feel worse seeing her response..
i decided to take a few videos of her with my camera..
may be i shud make an album of her this holiday..
cant imagine how life wud be without her bumping in n out of the house and waiting under the table for food during dinner..

i am guilty for neglecting my dog for wad i used to believe tt is more impt at my age..
she is more than a pet, she's like a part of my family..
it makes me wonder wad else i have missing out in my life...
have i not been filial to my granny, not giving her enough attention n all?
have i not been playing the eldest daughter role well by helping my lil bro with his studies and also to lighten the load and worries of my parents?
have i....
have i....
have i....?