To Be A supErwoMAN

havent come online at such a "early time" for pretty long time... man... i hate mugging... but well, i'm kinda on the rite track now... at least i am improving..can sit and mug for 2 hours now...
sianz.. i'm kinda sick of my blog skin already... but it's still SOOO CUTE!!! hehe :P wen to blogskin.com to look at new skins... but nah... there were a few pretty nice ones.. but not impressive enuff..not "me" enuff... perhpas i shall learn how to make my own after Alevels..

read efei's blog again just now... somehow i still think of him sometimes... it's like.. he still holds a place in my heart.. afterall, he's the first guy whom i have mutual feelings for at the same time... i dun like to run away from my problems... dun like to let time "dissolve" them.. it;s still there isnt it? u noe it... when efei told me tt he prefers to stay as frens and isnt sure of his feelings for me anymore, i forgot to ask him why tt happened so suddenly... WHY? it's kinda unfair isnt it? the qn still bothers me now and then.. whenever i think of him... i guess tt's probably the main reason why i still think of him when i already knew it's close to impossible for us to be together....

got a message from jimmy in frenster too... are we still frens? i dunno... actually i'm afriad of seeing him again... i wan to keep a distance... and i realli mean a distance... he's like realli changed... and i onli noe of the bad part...so ya... look at his frens list.. it's like soft porn... my oh my... but i guess he's becoming more concerned of his studies now... asked me how i deal with my studies and stress from it... ya..i gave him some tips..hope it'll help him.. anyway diff study methods work for diff pple..so i'm not sure if it works for him anyway...

hm.. and keith... didnt hear from him tonite... surprisingly realli sad... i could scream and shout into his ears... punch him like a punching bag if he's here now... but well.. he's sad... tt's wad he claims... i wonder y he's sad? screwed up driving test again? try again den... life is full of failures.. we just have to learn from them, learn from our mistakes and come back stronger to fite back even harder... wad's wrong with failing? and sometimes i wonder, if he knows about my blog, do he read it? i hope my previous blog didnt make him sad... well, tt's if he read it... but it's realli wad i feel sometimes... all tt stress... cant handle it soemtimes... i am strong willed, stubborn by nature... softball made me a more determined gal... but ya... soemtimes i still feel weak... feel like i need someone or sth to pull me up and share some of my problems... ya tt's proabably when i feel like i need love... the need to be protected and pampered... o well, keith... if u do read my blog... i meant wad i've been telling u... and there's more to why i havent said yes.... so many doubts... i'm scared...