some tots about r/s discussed with weijin today..

ha... didnt bring notes to phy lecture today.. ended up reading my fna txt bk n talked about r/s with weijin.. he's so serious when we're on tt topic..

hmm... i guessed i gave it a lil more tot when weijin commented tt it was pretty fast for me to be able to get over chris in a mth plus time.. well.. perhaps so.. it sounds fast.. but i personally feel tt the reason y u broke up is an important factor here..

say if u broke up peacefully becoz u both feel tt u r not as compatible as u tot u were n decided to be frens onli.. the first few weeks or mths after breaking up, u may feel tt u have gained a bit more freedom, but nth much has changed.. u will most likely not have any problem staying as frens.. if u had, u would be patching up again..

but if u broke up becoz u were upset n disappointed with the other becoz of certain reasons, then, things wouldnt be so simple.. u may not be able to reamin as frens.. if u hated the other then, may be not forever.. but for tt period, u will not wan to keep in contact at all.. n perhaps it;s gd.. to give each other time to cool off.. to get over all of these.. n may be after several years.. i dunno.. u may be able to become frens again..

the latter applies to me.. shall not go into the details.. y so n so.. since it has all passed.. but well, i initiated the break up.. i didnt like and agree with quite ano of things about him n wad he did.. several complications were involved which resulted the hate for him building up in me.. n ya.. hence i feel tt it was much easier for me to get over tt r/s... it's like sth off ur shoulder... i'm free again.. i can finally be who i am inside..

i felt tt it was wrong.. the r/s wasnt right becoz i couldnt be who i am.. i couldnt find the comfort in him when i was down.. even when he was physically there for me.. he just wasnt the one.. diff frequency perhaps.. some may argue tt well, at leats he's there for u.. y complain? y not cherish? i appreaciate a lot as i've told him before.. but.. he isnt a soul mate to me.. n tt's wad i need.. it's no more about the lovey dovey things u do for each other.. u may be sweet.. but so wad?

i've gone past the stage where u're all concerned about the sweet little nths u say to each other.. the lovey dovey sweet stuff u do for one another.. things u read in romance comics... it is important of coz.. but perhaps i'm looking for more of the connection.. spiritual love? hmmm.. dunno how to explain it.. just feel tt i have matured a lil more.. understood a lil more about life.. seen a lil bit more.. n expecting a lil more.. amy be not more.. just sth diff... sth tt has never came into my mind.. or wasnt tt significant..

i tried to search for tt missing thing in him.. but i couldnt.. n he disappointed me much more in some other areas.. i wouldnt say tt it's all his fault.. it's mine too.. becoz i changed.. i admit tt.. i moved forward.. perhaps a lil too fast.. hmm.. i wouldnt say tt coming into uni have influenced my decision.. perhaps it did.. but it wasnt significant.. becoz.. i didnt fall for anyone i met in sch so often then.. even if i did, it wouldnt made such a big diff.. becoz we already had problems way before i came to uni.. way before fwc... perhaps even before i got my posting results.. dun quite remember when it all started...

weijin's right.. i would agree tt a lot will change when a couple who dated since sch time, go into the work force.. be it one of them or both.. u're introduced to a new environment, new pple.. n pple tend to get a lil stressed up if they have a hard time adapting to this new environment.. it's so overwhelming.. but if a couple wants to stick on together thru thick n thin, some changes will have to be made.. or rather compromisation.. nth will remain the same forever... it's up to us, it's up to the couple, the individual to change him/herself n adapt to this new environment if he/she cannot change the situation..

i never believed in finding a partner in ur class.. haha.. so my dear classmates, i'm so sorry.. lol.. it's like u see each other everyday.. as weijin has mentioned, it wouldnt matter much becoz u got used to one another.. ur other becomes ur company.. but if u were ever to be separated from each other for a period of time.. or if u cant meet one another as often as before becoz of certain things, then.. problems will arise.. haha sorry cheryl... but u r one gd example.. oops :P

hmm... sch mates r ok.. but the least.. diff class.. every individual needs their own space.. n time for ur own family n frens.. etc.. i'm sticky.. yes i am.. but i dun believe in meeting up everday.. sticking together every min, every sec if possible.. u can meet everyday.. for may be an hour? walk each other home, meet up for meals.. to study... i dunno.. but sticking together all the time is just too much...

haha think evereything may be no link after all, i typed wad my mind's saying.. tt's the way my tots flow.. :P are u lost, my dear reader? hee...