i wish....

feeling very irritable today..
so here's my 2nd post of the day...
i have a new batch to key in.. but i am so sick of doing this nonsense...
i just keep falling alseep when i see the same stuff over n over again..
i realli dun like this holiday...
my mum said tt i onli tot of having fun.. keep playing all day...
like since when?
for fwc, i was one of the organisers.. when did i realli have time to slacken, relax n play?
i tried.. but the comm was so small.. n pple were starting to get sick of preparing for the activities... once they feel tt they r done with their prog, they start to bug off.. have to plead them to help.. keep calling n calling.. until we all started to get a lil pissed off..
i am happy tt we did a relatively gd job.. n it ended successfully.. but where is the real fun?
the playing kinda fun? when did i ever get tt?
my entire holiday is about studying, planning, working n nth else..
i occasionally find time to spice up my life with dear.. but they r so lil as compared to wad i have done with the bulk of my time... tt's the onli lil fun i had this holiday n it's not enuff...
i am seriously deprived of the fun factor here...
n i am so afriad tt i have not slacked enuff to prepare to mug all the way next sem..

i wish...
to go on a reali holiday.. overseas... away from home.. away from singapore..
to have time to wake up late n hit the pool or go for a jog everyday...
to nua on my bed for the entire day..
tt i dun have to be responsible for anyone else.. it's impossible to allow myself to be so selfish in real life though.. it's just a dream.. n i am just rattling...
to get out of this job immediately...
to have time to experiment some cooking with dear..
i wish tt i can have a happy and fulfiling holiday...