meaningless life...

havent been freeling good recently..
coming into chem engine seems like a wrong choice to me...
yes it's a challenge...
which was one of the reasons y i chose chem engine..
but is it too much for me to take, i wonder...
i havent been taking up any events..
been trying to study very hard for my exams..
n yet.. i am not doing well..
22 is totally screwed...
21 was realli disappointing... i might not have done fantastically well.. but it shud have been better..
i wonder wad went wrong...
is it becoz of careless mistakes again?
23 is getting more n more depressing...
aspiring to get close to a full mark for every test..
n i am failing myself yet again.. my marks.. r getting lower n lower..
is 8 the best i can do?
thank god we're onli using 7 out of 10 tests...
but i have already used up 2 of my life cards...
n i have 3 more test to go...
somebody tell me... issit just becoz i am not smart enuff?
wad do i need to do to be able to be up there with the rest?