WhY am i stuDyIng?

this week has been horrible...
after mugging hard for almost the entire study break, i cock up for 22 mid term..
n tt has probably sealed my fate with 22....
hey juniors, dun bother mugging..
coz even if u do, u probably wont do much better anyway...
*roll eyes
it's a tikam test... unless u're damn pro.. like some smarties..

21 was not bad.. just tt i didnt have enuff time to finish...
made some conversion mistake i think.. but i kinda got the right number though i used the wrong units.. hahaha.. talking about luck...

basically.. me n mr frens have been aksing ourseleves y we are in chem engine..
y r we giving ourseleves so much stress..
we dun even wanna be chem engineers in future...
so y did i end up here torturing myself?

my onli ambition was to be a vet..
coz i simply LUUURRVVE animals~!
erm.. not all animals actually..
i onli like dogs, hamsters, fluffy rabbit.. wahaha..
no cats, no birds please... :P
anyway... couldnt go overseas becoz it just costs too much...
cant get away with the guilt leaving my family in singapore cutting all costs they can just to send me overseas...
i needed 50k in my bank to be eligible for application ok.. wth...

so.. we had no choice but to stay in singapore...
n my 1st choice was... medicine..
wasnt sure wad else i wud wanna do besides being a vet...
n medicine was probably one of the closest...
n i had a stupud idea of wanting to try my luck n see if i wud be shortlisted...
n yes i was... but after mum told me about her discussion with her medicine prof fren.. n talking to a self-claimed top medicine student, i decided tt it's not sth tt i wud wanna do...
i cant imagine myself working in a hospital...
n dealing with all the gross n bloody wounds n all..

so i ended up in chem engine.. my 2nd choice..
the closest to wad i studied in jc..
tot sth familiar wud not be too bad..
n now.. i realli dun quite like it..
just trying very hard to do wad i can with wad i have now...
i guess the class of the degree doesnt realli matter much to me now..
as long as it's not 3rd class... tt will do..

may be i'll work in the zoo in future...
may be i'll be a teacher?
may be i'll just be a tai tai in future..

one thing i am certain about...
i will still wan to work around dogs n hamsters in future...
one day.. i'll own my own animal farm....