lost... again.. n again....

yesh.. i happen to read stuff about e-fei again... i dunno y..i'm just so curious about him.. always read his journal.. may be i should stop doing tt.. it's like interferring his privacy or sth... o man.... e-fei.... i feel so bad.. so guilty.... never meant to say all the silly things to u.. i'm a stupid gal.... a silly gal... it just feels like first love... this is like some story in some comic book..some fairy tale.. u noe.. i never believed in love at first sight... not even falling for soemone i've met for like the 2nd time... but it just happened to me! i got no ideal how to deal with this.. all the mixed feelings.. overwhelming me.... i'm going crazy.... i love n hate missing u.... i'm just lost.. so lost without u.... this is carzy.. why am i saying such things.... i shouldnt be... shouldnt be in love....