To Be A supErwoMAN

hi ya! i feel sooo guilty after two days of slacking! oh my... havent mug for two days! which means i'll be completing two lesser papers.... tml gotta start bucking up again....

ok.... well, let's start reflecting about yesterday... yesterday, 15th oct... it was our farewell day... had lots of funny and entertaining performances for the first one hour plus in school... it was great.. sort of healed my wound for a while... i was so upset becoz of the way keith's been neglecting me... den.. we went for our special CT session... guess wad... Ms Rajan actually wrote us each a card and bought the gals each a pendant from Perlinin Silver! it must have cost her a bomb! den we started tecaking lots of pictures.. o ya... i've uploaded them... just in case, some of u wants a copy of them or wanna see them, i've added the link in my blog.. check out the "Pics" section... o ya.. candice... our pic in open house is on the last 4 slides of the VJC softball album...
Hm... O! and i never expected the juniors to be so nice... must be the gals' idea.. muahaha... tehy bought lots of snacks and goodies for us to munch on.. o man.. thinking of it.. makes me feel so guilty.. should be on a diet... i ended up drink packets of soft drinks and ate a chocolate cone icecream! muahaha! yum yum... :P~

k.. den this morning... went to our school's open house... i was surprised to see the big crowd... much more crowded than last year.. and ya.. bong reminded me that VJ have started our integrated programme.. no wonder there were kiddies with their parents... time realli flew when i was stoning with my juniors..... haha... played a little softball today.. yeah...so happy.. i miss softball so much... threw a bit with bong.. my oh my.. i lost touch... when i start using a bit mroe strength, the ball went everywhere... sorry bong... made u catch lots of once bounce perhaps... and made ms lady bird jump a lot too.. hehe :P u noe wad.. i realli think i've gained much self- confidence over the years... talk to this guy in the softball booth today.. i like just talk to him like tt.... like out of no where.. haha... dun think i'll be able to do if it was a few years back... o and smiling realli helps... when i was just about to leave, accidentally stepped on this yandao's foot.. muahaha... so paiseh... didnt even dare to turn back.. just apologised... but i bet his younger than me.. so who cares.. muahaha... no his fren is more of my type... :P

den met up with xinglong in Taka.. and yes... i ate a lot again.. Seoul Garden! wad do u think?! and it's freaking expensive! for some reason, i'm realli very comfortable around my this buddy... and he smiled a lot today.... i caught him smiling quite a lot of times today... weird... tot he onli know how to niao me all the time.. gotta admit that he has a cute smile.... haha... it's constagious... hm.. it's probably his super highly skilled "niaoing" skills which made us bond so well... and also y i never feel bored with him around.... it's interesting.. becoz i always have to think of some ways to fight back.. but i always lose out in our verbal battle of coz... ya tt's wad keeps us going...

and yes, lastly, Keith... this jack ass... i realli dunno wad to say... just love and hate him so much... i realli felt like giving up hope on this relationship... it's like i have someone by name.. but he's never there for me... he always tells me that he'll call me back.. but he never fulfills his promises... NEVER.... he's so bo chup... how can u not call someone u love and therfore will miss for 5 bloody days?! he says he's tired... he's always tired.. every sat he'll get "sick" dne at noon or nite, he'll be healthy enough to go out with his frens for some reasons... ahh.. i dunno wad to say... perhaps he's realli tired when i'm looking for him... tt's wad i've been telling myself... to make myself feel better.... i'm a leo u see.... when i lose trust, i withdraw my feelings from the relationship.... i dun jump into something i'm not sure of.... it's sad... when u have to retreat like this... hopefully, after this week, when he's not as busy as last week, he'll start to realise tt he have neglected me a lot... and willing to take intiative to spend some quality time with me... i told myself not to give in so much anymore... told myself to be less dependent on him.. told myself that it's alright to be alone.... and if he doesnt look for u, den fine... dun have to look for him... if he doesnt care, he doesnt miss u... why should u?