in his own dreams...

funny.. chris msg me again last nite.. totally spoilt my nite... but of coz i wont let him or tt affect me.. it doesnt realli matter... but i guess... i still gotta say sth.. sorta just expressed it out in some way... he hasnt realli gotten over everything as he claimed... he still thinks tt i might probably have a chance to like him, to fall for him again? o gosh.. please... after tt wacking incident.. OVER MY DEAD BODY~!!! u can do it once, u can do it twice n again n again... i dun wanna be abused~! tt shows how much respect u have for mi~! so F**K OFF~! oops.. wahaha.. i dun normally use vulgar.. but i guess u understand y i am using it now.. he never fails to piss me off.. i laughed at wad he smsed me..

ha o~! he thinks i am lonely n unhappy becoz he;s not ard with me.. or for me... ahahaha... o god... tt's him.. he thinks he;s so great... no one can take his place.. he thinks he loves me most perhaps.. he thinks i need him.. hahhaa.. i tot i already said i dun? he's prob the last person i wan him to appear in front of mi right now.. anyway... i can never feel better than wad i'm feeling now.. away from him... i'm felt lonely bcoz my frens and powl couldnt be there.. or rather bcoz my fone was dead..i couldnt contact them.. i have super lots of frens n getting along pretty well with them.. not a loner :P the loneliness onli meant sth when i sorta couldnt get used to it at tt moment.. bcoz.. i m normally found in a grp? o gosh.. i cant express myself well.. must be the mugging for fna... all messed up now... lol...

how can i be lonely in ur terms, when i have my family, my frens, powl and all the mugging? oops.. wahaha.. haiz.. i noe i sound pretty mean n evil here... but u cant be nice to someone u dun like.. almost to the extent of hate probably.. so to u, whoever reading this, dun get into shirley's bad books.. i can be a real meanie... well tt's if u're still worth my time.. BLEAH~!

n i do need some isolation now i guess.. to concentrate on mugging.. o so y am i here blogging now? to et away from the books~! haha.. can die mugging for hours.. erm.. not tt i mugged for tt long.. er.. like 2h including breakfast? haha.. oops.. time for lunch now... ciao~!