final's is in less than 2 weeks away..
feeling the stress building up..
falling sick..
i almost used up a box of tissue today..
been sneezing all day while i was studying 21..
yeah.. thank goodness the first 3 topics for 21 will not be covered in finals...
nevertheless, i spent my entire day just studying 2 of the 5 topics..
it;s so scary.. feeling insecure coz i still cant too many of the tutorial questions though it was at least my 3rd time looking thru them..
thank god it;s open book.. i still have tut qns to refer to..
wad concepts are there realli?
just gotta learn how to apply the equations i guess..
having mixed feelings about 21 finals..
a part of me hopes tt the paper will be easy.. so tt i'll be able to do it well.. but then again, so will the rest... n i didnt do well for mid term.. so.. dunno if it'll be good or bad..
if it's difficult, yeah.. perhaps i;ll have a better chance to better my grades..
but.. will i be able to do the paper?
this feeling is bad...
may be it's time to take a look at the past year papers to have a feel..
at least it'll be more encouraging if i can do them...
tt's if i can...

just read can's blog..
pleasantly surprised by this video she made for coach..
oh gosh.. i miss tk softball days...
n yah it almost brought me to tears though most of the scenes are not taken from my batch..
i miss coach. i miss cheryl. i miss playing tough. i miss playing rough.
i miss diving for balls. i miss giving my all to the competitions.
at tough times like these, it;s great to recall these beautiful memories..

happy birthday to manling~!!!

It's manling's birthday today~!!!
she's already 13 years old.. tt's 91 human age..
gosh...
right.. i went to garden's pet shop to buy her some presents..
did u noe tt there are chocolates specially made for gods?!
the one i bought has mint too~!!!
so pampered~!!
ohh n i got her some turkey thingy.. wrapped like those european ham...
took some videos of her.. but i dunno if you tube accepts the special file..
hahaha...

SIN: holiday planning

10 things to do this coming holiday:
1. 03s44 gathering
2. japan trip from 15th to 23rd dec
3. ktv with dear
4. holiday project - diy jewellery box & dear's present?
5. shopping for materials for holiday project
6. accompany dear for camera hunt
7. learn cooking
8. learn web skills
9. chalet???
10. sentosa adventure

Life is...

NOT all about mugging..
I've been slogging in my books for coming to 14 years..
throwing almost everything aside during examination periods..
yesterday afternoon, i saw my dear doggie n suddenly realise one of the things i haven been missing out..
my dearest pet dog, manling has been staying with us for almost 13 years..
yes, tt's 91 doggie years..
can u imagine how old she is already?
she was having some problems with closing her jaws..
it looked like she was shivering...
i stopped and tried to have a good look at her...
and was shocked to see how much she has aged...
still bubbly and almost as active as before, i never realised tt she was so old..
probably becoz of her jaw problems, the fur below her mouth were all wet and stained brown with saliva..
her black round eyes were beginning to coat with this extra layer..
which explains her recent occasional bumpings with the legs of the chairs..
her fur were still white but dull...
it saddens me to see her age so much..
the tot tt she might not be living for long struck me..
and i couldnt help but cry and hug her tightly in my arms..
n the reason y i love her so much is becoz she seems to understands us, humans quite well..
she seemed to understand y i was crying..
she started licking my hand when i was hugging her..
n when i looked at her, i saw these consoling eyes looking back at me..
she was also sniffing around my face and almost licked me there..
haha.. eww...
it just makes me feel worse seeing her response..
i decided to take a few videos of her with my camera..
may be i shud make an album of her this holiday..
cant imagine how life wud be without her bumping in n out of the house and waiting under the table for food during dinner..

i am guilty for neglecting my dog for wad i used to believe tt is more impt at my age..
she is more than a pet, she's like a part of my family..
it makes me wonder wad else i have missing out in my life...
have i not been filial to my granny, not giving her enough attention n all?
have i not been playing the eldest daughter role well by helping my lil bro with his studies and also to lighten the load and worries of my parents?
have i....
have i....
have i....?

LOnG loNg NItE..

have u ever felt like u didn't wan the night to ever end?
well, besides at romantic dates with your love one..
were there any occasions when u didnt wan the night to end?

i experience this just a few days ago...
chem engine is such a high demanding course..
time has never past so fast in my life before..
i was lying on my bed, watching some chinese drama when the tot came..
some where in the corner of my mind, i knew that i have lots to do..
n yet.. the lazy me didnt wan to do any work..
it was 12 midnight...
i didnt want to do any work.
i wasnt really enjoying any shows on the tv..
and the silliest tot came across my mind..
i didnt want to sleep becoz i was afraid tt another day will end n pass by just like tt...
with nth much accomplished..
and i wud lose more time to complete all tt i had to do..
i stoned for almost an hour..
n finally realise the unfortunate fact that time will not stop for me..
time will not stop just becoz i stop all work..
it will just pass by as it always did..
whether u make use of it or not..
it was then, i decided to sleep.. n hopefully wake up early the next day to start my "self-torture" again..

this sem is tough in the way tt the modules make u feel unsure of where u stand, unsure of wad u can do to do well..
the fact tt it is difficult to do well makes it much more discouraging..
i;ve been trying to find all ways to spice up my boring, "slaverish"life as a student..
cooked lunch for lil bro n me yesterday..
may be i can upload the pic i took of my creation~!
so much said... it's time to go back to my books..
sigh... how can i do well?

NOt QUitTinG yEt..

yes... chem engine is making me a stronger person..
nothing is going to bring me down..
i;ve screwed up almost every test tt anyone cud..
but tt's not the end of the world...
let's hope tt i wont do too badly this sem..
though i did have high hopes initially...
now.. just hope for the best..
not expecting much...

i;ve been slacking the entire weekend away...
n i havent done much these few days..
becoz of the public holidays, we've had family gatherings, house painting and all..
spent like 1 entire day on each of the 2 22 tutorial that I tried to read and attempt myself..
it;s weird.. all the solution uses moody diagram..
tot in exam, we're supposed to use chen's equation?
how wud we know how to use it if we havent practiced it in tutorials?
*ding consulation needed...

the exams are just around the corner..
getting worried.. so near yet so far..
it'll be here in about 4 weeks time..
it's a good thing tt all except cm is open book...
but there's a whole lot of stuff to study for cm..
n lsm.. i'm just lost.. havent been listening in lectures..
n we're told tt the none of the questions comes from the text book or notes..
so shud i still study?
22 is screwed.. i just gotta try n pull it up and avoid a C+
21 below avg after studying so hard.. blame me.. i'm the idiot who didnt go thru the COE tutorials for mid term test... gotta aim high for finals..
23... seems to be drowning... i;ve been screwing up recent tests...not doing well... sigh.. wad to do?

work hard work hard..
tt's all i need for this sem..

sth funny to lighten up ur day..

SeEInG A LiL lighT Of HoPE

yeah... i broke the egg..
all thanks to the magnaminous ti..
right.. though it doesnt realli help..
sigh...
today we had our cm test 2..
finally it's over~!
it's been taking up so much of my time..
well partly becoz i dun go for lecture.. so i gotta read..
think it works anyway...
felt tt my hard work paid off..
i didnt do well again for this sem's mid term tests..
but i learnt some lessons which i believe will aid in my future somehow..
firstly, i gotta curb my carelessness somehow..
steven gave me some tips.. n i am trying to practise them..
havent shown results yet.. coz my 21 still suffered becoz of carelessness...
secondly, dun let ur results affect ur effort..
dun let ur peers affect u..
dun bother about how the smarties is gg to shift the curve..
just do ur thing. do ur best. give it all u have..
n everything will fall as they are meant to be..
perhaps i am not as smart as my peers...
but i have worked hard.. i've tried.. n tt's all tt's impt..
realli tired of the mugging..
think i need a break before i start my engines again..
so tired...

meaningless life...

havent been freeling good recently..
coming into chem engine seems like a wrong choice to me...
yes it's a challenge...
which was one of the reasons y i chose chem engine..
but is it too much for me to take, i wonder...
i havent been taking up any events..
been trying to study very hard for my exams..
n yet.. i am not doing well..
22 is totally screwed...
21 was realli disappointing... i might not have done fantastically well.. but it shud have been better..
i wonder wad went wrong...
is it becoz of careless mistakes again?
23 is getting more n more depressing...
aspiring to get close to a full mark for every test..
n i am failing myself yet again.. my marks.. r getting lower n lower..
is 8 the best i can do?
thank god we're onli using 7 out of 10 tests...
but i have already used up 2 of my life cards...
n i have 3 more test to go...
somebody tell me... issit just becoz i am not smart enuff?
wad do i need to do to be able to be up there with the rest?

WhY am i stuDyIng?

this week has been horrible...
after mugging hard for almost the entire study break, i cock up for 22 mid term..
n tt has probably sealed my fate with 22....
hey juniors, dun bother mugging..
coz even if u do, u probably wont do much better anyway...
*roll eyes
it's a tikam test... unless u're damn pro.. like some smarties..

21 was not bad.. just tt i didnt have enuff time to finish...
made some conversion mistake i think.. but i kinda got the right number though i used the wrong units.. hahaha.. talking about luck...

basically.. me n mr frens have been aksing ourseleves y we are in chem engine..
y r we giving ourseleves so much stress..
we dun even wanna be chem engineers in future...
so y did i end up here torturing myself?

my onli ambition was to be a vet..
coz i simply LUUURRVVE animals~!
erm.. not all animals actually..
i onli like dogs, hamsters, fluffy rabbit.. wahaha..
no cats, no birds please... :P
anyway... couldnt go overseas becoz it just costs too much...
cant get away with the guilt leaving my family in singapore cutting all costs they can just to send me overseas...
i needed 50k in my bank to be eligible for application ok.. wth...

so.. we had no choice but to stay in singapore...
n my 1st choice was... medicine..
wasnt sure wad else i wud wanna do besides being a vet...
n medicine was probably one of the closest...
n i had a stupud idea of wanting to try my luck n see if i wud be shortlisted...
n yes i was... but after mum told me about her discussion with her medicine prof fren.. n talking to a self-claimed top medicine student, i decided tt it's not sth tt i wud wanna do...
i cant imagine myself working in a hospital...
n dealing with all the gross n bloody wounds n all..

so i ended up in chem engine.. my 2nd choice..
the closest to wad i studied in jc..
tot sth familiar wud not be too bad..
n now.. i realli dun quite like it..
just trying very hard to do wad i can with wad i have now...
i guess the class of the degree doesnt realli matter much to me now..
as long as it's not 3rd class... tt will do..

may be i'll work in the zoo in future...
may be i'll be a teacher?
may be i'll just be a tai tai in future..

one thing i am certain about...
i will still wan to work around dogs n hamsters in future...
one day.. i'll own my own animal farm....

Engine day... random shoutouts..

it was the last day of 1st half of sem 3 yesterday..
n also ps birthday.. we've been planning to celebrate this special day 2 weeks ago if i am not wrong..
was quite a disappointment honestly..
we were quite indecisive about where to head for the celebration...
decided to go to sakura opp lt7a becoz chess has meeting till 1pm which our star of the day is involved in.. n shanbing has to go back for lecture at 4pm..
was a compromise actually...
well we entertained ourselves in student lounge with air hockey, pool n soccer table while waiting for yimin..
then headed to buy cake for ps..
reached sakura at almost 1pm but they were not done with their meeting yet..
unfortunately, we had our buffet w/o our star's presence...
went back to look for them again to cut the cake.. n guess wad.. they just ended..
well perhaps we shud be understanding.. tt these pple just joined the club and they r at high spirits, have commitments n responsibilities and their supporters to answer to..
though everyone said tt they didnt mind.. i am sure we are all disappointed..
disappointed with the elected leaders.. the way they handled this matter..
are leaders who r more concerned about their personal interest pple we can depend on?
surely sth will be done.. may be chess will be more well known..
but popular or notorious? wud they be able to touch our fellow mates' hearts?
i am doubtful of it.. perhaps it's too early to judge..
i wonder...
if work is more impt than frens on this special day who came to sch, stayed back n plan all these, wud ur fellow mates more impt to u or how great the club is under ur management when u make future decisions for the club?
is this about getting work done, making improvements or is ur key focus on ur fellow course mates?
who's to blame? who's the decision maker? wad is impt? it's so subjective..
i personally felt tt i wasted a day away yesterday...
we see n learn more about one in times like these...
the more i see, the more i learn, the more consoled i am to be out of all these matters..
it is not a comm i want to work in..
n i will be making a lot of noise n creating chaos in the comm if i am one of them now..
haha bless me n the rest... world peace...
my family is more impt..
my frens are more impt..
my studies is more impt..
n i have time for all of them now... i am more convinced tt i'll be happier this way..
cast away the "i cud have done a better job" idea...
becoz i havent done it.. i am not doing it.. i will not be doing it..
it;s easier said than done.. i am sure about tt..
so it isnt fair for me to judge or criticise..
pple involved knows best..

woof~!

took my 2 dogs out for a walk yesterday evening..
think i shud do it more often..
even if i burn like onli 20 calories with the stroll..
hee.. well.. it kinda stops my brain from wondering n thinking about all the work i have on hand..
n the stuff tt my 2 cuties do is realli entertaining..
i just realised how obedient boyboy can be..
when u pull the chain backwards, he will understand tt he's going too fast..
n he'll sit right at the spot, turn his head back n look at u with those innocent eyes..
lol.. so cute.. n he'll wait for u to catch up, before he continues running and repeating the same routine again.. haha..
n manling.. she has always been my fav dog..
smelly her breath may be.. i still like to hug her...
she's 13 years old this year.. tt's 91 doggie years~!!
still bubbly n active as ever...
she understand us human pretty well...
n she can communicate with me..
wahaha.. she gave me the "i wanna pee more but i got no place to do it" look yesterday when i was closing the door... changed the newspaper n she pee-d like how many drops onli...
oops gettign too detailed.. but u noe.. it's so... when she looks at u after she finishes with her business... like she's so satisified.. hahaha..
think things will never be the same again if she leaves us one day...
i think i will cry..
i know tt she;s realli old already.. n i am giving the 2 of them lil treats every now n then..
it's probably the least i could do..
i am sure they enjoy it a lot..
well then again... i think i wont be able to do without a dog if i were to start a family of my own in future... they make me a better person.. :)

empty & tired..

i've probably given too much to the cm test..
now i am kinda burnt out..
dun feel like doing work..
somehow i was attarcted to the challenge..
n i managed to finish webcasting 4h of 2122 lecture.. the one tt we all couldnt understand even if u went for the live one..
i wonder who came out with all those theories..
smart n abstract...
definitely not the norm.. if not we wudnt find it so difficult to understand..
i tried webcasting 2121.. stopped twice coz i am either too tired or too sian..
it's like cn1111 plus phy chem.. n i hate cn1111..
it makes no sense to me..
i watched it at 1.8 speed.. n finally stopped after enduring 1h plus of the webcast..
it's carnot again... wad a turn off..
we've gone thru tt for 2 modules.. physics n phy chem..
now 2121 too? o well it's thermodynamics isnt it?
how can we run away from it?
i think i need sth to motivate myself again.. sth other than books..
boring hence draining..

oh.. yesterday we went to shop...
we walked for the entire day..
but didnt buy anything..
combed bugis village, icon n the edge..
lol.. can u imagine all the walking we did?
poor ks has to carry his heavy bag around with us..
the meals were rather sinful yesterday..
had jap for lunch.. but crystal jade's wanton mee for dinner..
it's my fav~!! so q, so delicious~!
but it's yellow noodle... wonder if i put on another kg back after tt?
guilty~!!
but i havent been at my highest spirits...
food n retail therapy is my way of destressing..
since i got nth to buy... i;ve been allowing myself to eat junks...
m&m, yellow noodles, smoothies..
there goes my slimming programme..
may be tt's y i grow fat when the sem starts...

sigh.. wad shud i do to get my drive back?

drained...

freak... i am so damn tired..
stupid cm test killed me..
i;ve been spending hours n days to study for it..
lost with lectures, havent webcasted for 2122 n 2121..
tutorials to be done n all..
it sucks...
it sucks especially when u make silly careless mistakes..
after all tt studying.. ahhh..
it;s just 1 or 2 marks to ur final result, shirley..
it doesnt matter~!!! get over it~!!

i;ve been so stressed up..
n very impatient with pple ard me..
i;m grateful to have my dearie... hehehe...
i wud have to spend 1h for a bus ride home or 12 bucks for cab ride home after the 5h study in sch yesterday if it wasnt for him..
n my snapping.. ah... i'm sorry...

feels weird when u hear news about sth tt u care..
n... u're not a part of it..
asked n rejected the offer...
guess i have to get used to it..
i dun wan it n i dun care..
all the best...

i saw the cockadoo today again...
too busy to blog about it...
it makes me wonder y i tot so in the past...
weird.. where in the world did the smoke came from?
did i started the fire myself?
simply weird...

hai.. so tired from mugging...
so much to catch up with now..
screwed up..
it makes me think twice sometimes if my effort is justified..
mug so much for a 10% test where u get to sit beside one another, where u can copy n discuss even if u dun realli know ur work..
issit dumb?
i've been trying to console myself..
tellgn myself tt i have studied so much now..
so i wont have to go back for final exams..
think i noe enuff? think it;s close to enuff...
need more practice though..
it better be so...
coz i have worked shit for it..
study smart? any dean;s lister wanna help?

a " DOg bITe dOG" wOrLD...

shhhh... just leave me alone...
i've finished the show... i need no appalause...
just let it die down n be hidden away from pple who dunno..
for the sake of the everyone, for u, for me, for our fren..
let's make life easier for eveyone..

Self confidence is the first requisite to great undertakings – Samuel Jackson
a leader with no self confidence will not go far..
he will not be able to accomplish much.. as a leader..
he may be capable.. but he's onli just a capable worker..
i'm confident.. some say i am full of myself..
i'm a leo.. it's natural.. it becomes inborn after 4 years of leadership experience..
my frens say tt u can feel it even without working with me..
full of myself i may sound.. ya so wad?

Rank does not confer privilege or give power, It imposes responsibility – Peter Drucker
I chose to run for vp at the belief and confidence I have what it takes to deliver at this level and at the same time I am very much intrigued by the challenging role of handling matters at top level while at the same time opening an ear to the needs at ground level of all non-club students.

tt's wad i was prepared to say.. if someone were to shoot me..
service is unconditional, yes it is..
but we;re onli human.. is there realli nth tt u wan in return?
i wanted the experience.. onli as a vp..
not secretary, not anything else...
any other offer seems meaningless to me now..
especially after wad i;ve gone thru throughout this experience..
the opportunity to see more clearly the hearts of some pple..
the inevitable ugly side of such events..

no chance, no responsibility..
every member in a team has a common responsibility..
a common goal tt is.. a general one..
but each one has specific role to play..
just like games like diablo.. u dun send all ur men to attack one enemy..
it is the reason y there are distinction among the names of these members..
every name comes with a different duty..
small or big they may be the same..
different duties but all for efforts to achieve their ultimate common goal..

a commander who leaves his men in critical moments of war is no leader..
he is but onli someone who takes advantage of ur loyalty..
he is but onli someone someone who claims teamwork for his own benefit..
a fren in need is a fren indeed..
my fren?

wad do i have to say?
dun bother asking....

back to initial plan..

it's been some time since my last post..
it's week 3 already and i havent started my engines..
been busy with a lot of things...
thinking hard and planning...
this week is exceptionally hiong..
mon i had my 1st cm lab.. wasnt told my lab venue, wasnt told if there was prelab, didnt noe wad to do except for bringing lab coats n goggles..
tue which was yesterday, i had chess elections...
sad to say tt i failed to convince the exco tt i am a leader and I am the better choice...
given the opporunities to perform in fwc, i am sure i have done my best for my freshmen...
i am proud to say tt i;ve done my part for them...
n if there are any juniors who need my help, i promise i'll still be there...
glad to see tt ps finally has the courage to step up and run for vp..
though he was competing with me n he has won, i'm realli happy for him..
n also chess... he's capable n i am the one who nominated him..
let's hope the present comm will be a better one...
much much better... coz there are so much tt can be done..
so much said of no use...
i;m glad tt i tried and stuck on to my decision despite seeing wad has happened coming before the election itself...
as my fav quotes goes "i can accept failures, but i cannot accept no trying. ~ micheal jordan"
will be gg back to my intial plans..
i'm grateful for all the support i;ve gotten thru these times..
glad tp see my frens who came down to support me n believe tt i was up to it..
n especially dear... who realli helped me a lot with my speech n mental preparation..
yup... thu got tut presetation.. haha.. my grp mates like my answers..
dunno if i am gg to be the one presenting instead of the grp together..
o wadvere.. lol...
n fri lsm lab.. heard it's not too bad..
hai.. happening week...
may all my experience, good n bad.. be transformed to my strength n motivation tt will carry me thru the rest of my life.. or at least this important semester...

a PEak AT RAG & flAg at PS & a lil reflections..

went down to help dear with exhibiton yesterday..
haha.. didnt seem like they realli need more manpower...
but i did help out quite a bit..
well.. i am glad tt i got to see a bit of rag n flag.
didnt regret gg down to help..
got to see a few dances..
n the almost full kr rag presentation...
they made a freakin cool train out of junk n scrap materials...
it has wings tt couldbe extended... n it flaps~!!!
alright.. i sound like a country pumpkin..
but it's realli cool...
may be i'll still go down to take a look next year.. hahaha..
if u havent watched one, u got no idea wad u r missing out...

who says singaporeans have no creativity....
go down to ps n take a look at wad ur future lawyers, doctors, engineers are made of...
we have sexy doctors who can realli shake their booty...
n lawyers who do cheer leading...
ha...

anyway... sch has started.. but i'm still in holiday mood..
guess i havent played enuff... so ya noe..
actually kinda sick of uni life..
i shud be out of pru already... had enuff fun with organising events...
thinking of doing sth else..
gg back to sports soon..
when my back have recovered n all...
n hopefully i can lose the 6kg tt has been adding onto areas tt i've unwillingly been taking up in the pictures tt i have taken for the past 1 year...ha..

i finally understood wad dear meant by the happiness he felt when he saw the result after making effort to improve himself and grow for our relationship.. coz i did it too.. :)
we dun always have to quarrel do we?
jus need a lil more understanding and communication... :)

missing the team bonding and team spirit, team work i used to have in sec sch n jc...
havent been seeing much of tt in uni..
well there are.. just not as strong n bonded as wad i had before..
issit different becoz mine was a sport?
no crying and laffing together..
no bleeding, no falling together..
no pats on shoulder, no massage...
no selflessness..
if there are, lil i wud say..

do pple get more selfish when the grow up?
afraid of ur partner stealing away ur attention?
afraid ur partner stealing away ur credits?
does this chi phrase "yi shan bu neng chang er hu" (direct translation: 1 mountain cant hide 2 tigers) applys all the time?
boy... i;m amazed by wad i am saying.. my england..lol..
anyway.. ya.. wad makes a gd leader? can there be no true partnership?
common vision is impt for leaders n hence the team..
trust is.. n a true understanding of wad team work is..
it;s such a sad thing tt i dun see it prominent in any parts of nus..

another 2 weeks of holiday?

whee.. i felt gd yesterday.. coz i bright my lil bro to wild wild wet..
short stay there.. with lil rides to try...
but my lil bro is quite happy.. so yup.. i'm happy too...

treat my fmaily to korean bbq with cost me 204 bucks~!!
there goes all my ang bao money.. lol..
but it;s sth new... everyone was so overwhlemed by the variety...
mummy didnt stare at dear... hahahha..
i didnt realli noe wad i ate..but i was very full...

den i went to pat-tor with my dear at esplanade...
hehehehe....

happy-sha la la-

HapPy HapPy BIrthDay~!!

yippee~!!
celebrated with luna last night..
birthday celebrations for the august babies - shanbing & i..
we went cine to ktv for 5.5h..
hahaha sang quite a bit... i am glad tt everyone sang...
n hopefully everyone enjoyed themselves..
hmm before seth left, he played the birthday song with his guitar and sang along with the rest..
wad a plesant surprise.. hehehe :)
den we went to mahanttan for dinner..had cake n all..

hmm... this year's birthday is realli good..
enjoyed myself.. n got to share this happiness with my friends n family..
i find tt i realli mature after every year...
in the recent years, i always had memory flashbacks on this special day..
the times i laff, had fun n got to know so many great friends...
the times i cried... the times i learnt tt it is possible for one to be so upset tt she could not tear anymore..
the times i screwed up, at rock bottom of my life..
the times i became stronger, fought back and saw who my true frens are..
the time i met my dearest.. slc aka sdu camp for leaders..
who saw and help me thru my darkest time of my life and saw me fight back..
who became my best fren..
and now someone who has became me pillar of support and my motivation..
hahaha..
so much has happened last year..

i'm thankful to have so many frens ard me...
yimin for waiting for me at computer centre bus stop for 30min and paying taxi fare for me when i onli had $5 in my wallet~!!
ahh i havent pay her back~!!
ok.. i realise there's too many pple i wanna thank.. heee... thanks to all~!!

i'm thankful tt my mum gave birth to me 20 years ago on this day..
giving me a chance to see this beautiful world..
a chance to see the dark side so i learnt to appreciate the brighter side better..

i;m also thankful to have my family members ard me even when everyone else turn against me..

this year is special..
becoz i am trying to share a lil bit more..
gg to treat my family to traditional korean bbq later... ex lo~!!!
my pocket gg to have a huge hole later...
hahaha.. but it's worth it.. to thank everyone for being there for me for the last 21 years..

frens.. next year ok? 21st bdae~!!! hehehehe...

welcoming the new academic year...

it's my last day at work today.. FINALLY~!!
couldnt wait to get my ass out of the office..
hehehe...
held on onli becoz of my mum..
haiz....
bought curry puff for everyone...
but there were so few data entry staff tt most of them were given to the senior staff ard..
sigh...
i wonder if anyone's jealous..
coz i seem to have some kinda priviledge becoz of my mum...
ms moria, the media manager actually initiated to give me a lunch treat..
n she asked everyone else in the office including all the senior staff ard whom i didnt work with along..
hahaha.. like some big shot in office...
feel weird..
i appreciate it.. but dun realli feel good tt pple r treating me differently becoz my mum is " someone" in the department...

right.. i need to up my caps..
actually tot of quitting everything n just concentrate on my school work..
may be go swim or jog whenever i am free..
just go back to sch n sports kinda lifestyle..
hmm.. been approached to join the forces...
dunno if it's worth it...
it;s nice to be able to do sth, improve the system for ur course mates n all..
n organise events, lead the team n all..
i;ve had my share n i noe it's fun n like it...
but.. i guess we still have to balance a bit..
studies is still one of the most impt thing for a student...
especially for chem engineers...
sigh.. i am quite torn apart... shud i?

time to do some research perhaps...
time to plan my year ahead..
time to set targets for the new year..
it's quite a gd way to mark the end of my 1st year in uni..
hahaha 20 here i come...
to grow to a real woman~!

welcoming the new academic year...

it's my last day at work today.. FINALLY~!!
couldnt wait to get my ass out of the office..
hehehe...
held on onli becoz of my mum..
haiz....
bought curry puff for everyone...
but there were so few data entry staff tt most of them were given to the senior staff ard..
sigh...
i wonder if anyone's jealous..
coz i seem to have some kinda priviledge becoz of my mum...
ms moria, the media manager actually initiated to give me a lunch treat..
n she asked everyone else in the office including all the senior staff ard whom i didnt work with along..
hahaha.. like some big shot in office...
feel weird..
i appreciate it.. but dun realli feel good tt pple r treating me differently becoz my mum is " someone" in the department...

right.. i need to up my caps..
actually tot of quitting everything n just concentrate on my school work..
may be go swim or jog whenever i am free..
just go back to sch n sports kinda lifestyle..
hmm.. been approached to join the forces...
dunno if it's worth it...
it;s nice to be able to do sth, improve the system for ur course mates n all..
n organise events, lead the team n all..
i;ve had my share n i noe it's fun n like it...
but.. i guess we still have to balance a bit..
studies is still one of the most impt thing for a student...
especially for chem engineers...
sigh.. i am quite torn apart... shud i?

time to do some research perhaps...
time to plan my year ahead..
time to set targets for the new year..
it's quite a gd way to mark the end of my 1st year in uni..
hahaha 20 here i come...
to grow to a real woman~!