things seem to be getting better this way....

hi blog.. havent write for a few days... hm... i'm pretty stressed by all the mugging lately... holiday is gonna end soon.. it's the last week... actually, we shouldnt call it holiday.. it's not... it's more like a study break... but hm.. i think i did enjoyed my holiday so far... coz i did go out quite often... but at the same time, that's y i feel guilty too... i didnt study hard... didnt study enough.. tt's y i'm rushing now... and i'm not sure if i still can remember the topics that i studied in the beginning of the holiday..muahaha... i don't expect to do very well for this common test.. but hopefully, not too bad?
hm... i've survived thru more than two days without hearing or recieveing any sms from him... haha.... wad an achievement.. i'm quite surprised that these two days weren't as bad as i thought.... may be becoz i'm too caught up with my work.. didnt have much time to think so much about us... hm... i've told a few frens about my problem.. they all ask me to talk to him.. tell him how i feel.. but then again, if he never wanted or expected this to develop into something deep and serious, wouldnt it be weird for me to tell him all that? to tell him about my doubts, how crazy and sad i got? or may be a better solution would be to play softball or mug when i start to think about him, or the problem.... concentrating into my studies or playing softball seems to work... i wont be thinking about anything else except wad i'm supposed to be doing then.... hm... haiz... i dunno.. we'll see... he should be coming back today... or probabaly tonite... we'll see if he continues to be like tt... (hopefully not....)