SCRAP IT!!!

i am very pissed off lately by someone..
it's so irritating when u keep getting leached by someone who doesnt put in any effort into his own business..
it's even more frustrating when he's so selfish tt he onli thinks for himself, for his own convenience, for his own comfort..
u feel this reserve to treat him as a true sincere fren..
u feel the reserve to share with him..
y help a person who doesnt wan to help himself?

the turn outs of the luna gatherings lately are getting from bad to worse..
it's quite sad tt we're no longer as close as before..
pple start to drift away... to their own cliques..
i happen to stay loyal to this disrupting grp..
i;ve reminding pple of bdaes n organizing bdae celebrations...
pple dun seem to understand tt it isnt as simple as they are..
it's a time for us to bond and gather again despite the diff schedule and commitments we have..
surely, we're just frens.. there's no commitment, no responsibilities like we have for our family and partners to discuss here..
but shud i stop?
prob no one has ever tot of how the organizers feel when the turn out is so low, not if they have done it before..
the usual participants get tired of the low turn out rates.. they feel tt it's meaningless to spare some time from their busy schedule to meet these "frens".. they are discouraged..
so the situation worsened..
everyone find it meaningless..
y am i still doing it..
i ask myself.. even though we're not super bonded, will luna still be able to maintain wad we are right now, if i stopped when i first got discouraged?
cant imagine how things wud be if tt happened..
is it my own wishful thinking tt luna will stay united?
it sure seems so...

when so many pple dun seem to care, shud i stop bothering about such silly things?
shud i let the same mistake happen again?
w/o me, we missed 2 bdae celebrations..
shud i?