%@ i love u chris @%

man... reached home at about 1.30am this morning. den chiong back in a taxi to chris house early in the morning. the last few hours before we sent him off to tekong were so precious.. now i realise how much i love him.. he means so much to me.. i cant stop thinkign about him... promised him not to cry when i send him off. so i kept it. but as soon as the bus left. i just burst into tears. have been crying on n off since morning... my eyes n nose are so swollen n red..wad's worse? i'm all alone in my big house. bro went out. parents in bintan. dunno who to call. crap.. can it get any worse?