Last nite was so fucked up~!

first, it started with my mum asking for my user id n pin no for ibanking. she wans to check my account or sth so tt she can pass me my posb card finally... i had troubles getting in becoz somehow it doesnt tally with the user id n pin no i got from the letters i've recieved from DBS.. she was so furious and kept pressing me for them.. but i realli didnt noe.. i couldnt rememeber wad i did... y it would be like tt.. n she tried it herself.. failing, she stormed out of the computer room. i den tried to log in again because i was puzzled myself.. after a few tries, i realised that i've changed my user id.. sigh... how forgetful can i be? being relieved, i rushed up to my mum's room to tell her. guess wad she ignored me.. i tot she was sleeping.. and later found out tt she wasnt... she ignored me! u noe y? it's the most stupid misunderstanding i've ever known of. she thinks tt i purposely didnt wan to log in in front of her. she thinks tt i wan to hide them from her. i mean like for wad seah?! n she started making a big fuss about it. i tried to explain but she refuse to calm herself down n listen to me. she complains tt i never tied to tok to her. but look! she doesnt even wan to accept my explaination. if she dun bother to listen to wad i say, would it help if i say anything at all? look at who's the one complaining now?

she started brining up things happened when i was young.. from the time i was three... she evr covered about future... wa... tok for hours seah! no stop... n in the end, i was so frustrated becoz she still wotn listen to me, i almost gave up... later, dad came to tok to me n tried to patch things up.. den she came to tok to me again... n we finally ended up peacefully..

i guess we need to communicate more. i need her to noe wad i wan since she has told me wad she expects of me... we're so different. it's hard to come onto common grounds. but at least she knows. she's rite. she cant force me to do anything i dun wan. i'm a gal with a mind of my own. i noe evry weel things tt i wan in life. i set goals for myself in every stage of my life. i dun set long term goals though.. there're more like for the near future.. like max 4 years? i mean wad's the point thinking about 10 years down the road when u can even predict wad's gonna happen tml? by 10 years later, u would have changed in some ways and the goals u set for urself 10 years ago might not have any significance anymore..

sigh.. hopefully things will turn out better than now between me n my mum.. we're like ba1 zi4 bu4 he4 sometimes.. onli when it comes to shopping, we can be like frens... lolz.. ok enuff of complaints for tonite... may tml be a better day...

o ya.. dear never call me tonite.. sob sob...