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sigh... i miss my dear dear so much... spent like 5 h with him today.. didnt do much.. just slacked... it's just gd enuff that we have each other in our arms... i dun like sun.. he booked in again... gotta wait another 5 or 6 days before i can see him again... haiz.. he was stoning, sitting down at the bus stop when i board the bus.. he was surprisingly quiet.. i could feel sth wrong going on.. later when i was on the bus, i just smsed him.. n he told me he was trying to adjust his feelings coz he hate it when i have to leave.. or rather when we have to part.. knowing the fact tt we wont be able to see each other for the next 5 or 6 days made both of us sad.. i tried not to think about it.. but when i read tt msg, my tears just filled my eyes.. i knew he wanted to cry.. but as a man, he always wanted to appear strong in front of me.. (o crap.. recalling all these is enuff to bring me to tears...) i jus hope tt these 2 years will fly past fast... real fast~!

he just called me just now.. for like less than a min.. becoz he had to pack up for tml's road march and it was already time for lights out.. o man... i wonder who scheduled tt... they just had road march on fri before they booked out. den the very next day after they book in, they gotta get it again?! it's hell u noe? hurts my dear dear's shoulders so much... he always says, "actually it's ok la".. but i noe tt isnt the truth.. crap crap.. i wanna box the idiotic sergeants~! well, then again, it's part of a singaporean man's life... he or rather we have to get thru it by hook or by crook... poor dear dear...

hm... tml will be my slacking day.. gonna wake up late.. start reading up mumm's excel notes.. gonna realli learn it by this month.. by myself u noe? i wonder if i can... haha.. well, tt will keep me busy... hm.. den may be i'll learn to cook some dishes from granny while she prepare for dinner.. so next time i can cook for dear dear too.. hee... :P

o in the mean time, peeps who read my blog if there r any, got lobang for part time jobs, pls let me know.. i cant do full time coz i'm going back to tk to help coach coach the sec1s.. lotsa shouting and screaming to do.. o.. i've started exercising again.. actually i planned to do jogging on alt days n swimming on the other alt days.. but i've failed twice already... haha... went for a swim on fri.. n sat n sun i was so occupied with dear dear, tt i just tot little of it.. just hope tt i dun grow any fatter~!