Destroyed Once Again..

happening strat of the week.. so much happened.. to much for me to take.. i feel so weak.. i lost another gd fren... i lost my support... i gave it up.. i hope it's best for u.. n may be us... i dun wan to be a burden to u.. a r/s shud never be tiring... y come so close to me if u onli like me? is there realli no love? tt's how shocking.. how disappointing.. yes u r right.. u r selfish, irresponsible and heartless... but i cant help it.. i love u... i still love u so much.. n it is y i decided to let u go... i told u before.. i'll do anything for the man i love.. as long as he is happy...i figured out tt u have too many commitments.. perhaps u cant handle them well yet.. it's time for u to learn.. n honestly, before u master tt, u r not ready for me.. not ready for any other gal.. not ready for any commitment to such r/s.. u broke yiyou's heart... now u broke mine.. dun break another... no i dun think i hate u... i love u more than wad i am blaming u for all the pain u brought to me.. it's short.. it's realli short.. but i never cried so much before.. perhaps in my life.. 2d1n in aranda... i prob cried half my time there... so AA... everyone prob saw me.. damn... i cant help it.. i tried to stop.. but it wouldnt.. perhaps it did... when my tears were all dried up... i teared.. invisible ones... i cried in my heart.. i am sure it bled... yes there's a wound.. i wonder who can heal it... no there's no gap.. becoz there isnt anyone who can replace u yet.. yes tt's how much i love u... i hate u for the way u mistreated me... but i still love u for u...i'm a stupid gal... blinded by love... no one to blame perhaps.. i brought this upon myself... i knew u well enuff to predict this.. i asked.. n believed tt u were ready... then again, i was wrong.. u were wrong... once is enough... i am sorry... we cant be frens... u can never be just a fren to me.. at least not now... i very much wan to stay close to u... but.. i dunno if i can... can i still hug u tight? i so wanted to do so when i saw u yesterday... even though i was so angry at u... for avoiding me, leaving me alone.. i knew tt it was coming.. when u didnt hold my hands... when u didnt kiss me... how can we be frens when i still love u so much?