it's a sad day...

sigh... when do i mind toking about personal stuff here? right now i do.. so... let me tok about it generally... i think i made a choice.. i gotta do the right thing so for the benefit of everyone.. no doubt.. it's the right thing to do.. but can i? i realli dunno.. can i bear to? definitely not.. i m so depressed right now.. like i've lost sth very impt in my life? was it ever tt impt? was it tt deep? i'm not sure too.. sigh..

knowing wad to do n doing the right thing is completely diff case.. y issit so hard? come on shirley... u can do it.. u just gotta get over urself... physco urself! put it to a test! it will give u the answer u wan.. but how long will it take? issit worth it? can i take it? or m i too weak to go thru all tt? next week isnt gd.. i have too much time for myself.. may be i should go rebond my hair on tue.. keep myself busy.. life will be better... it will be... yes it will..